by Brenda Joyce
She had the feeling they had descended deeper than any human being had a right to, and it was eerie. It was like being funneled into a pit, or into the guts of the earth, with no way out. Lucy glanced up at the high, sheer rock walls looming over the valley, dominating it completely, so high and so overpowering that she couldn't see their tops or the sky. Of course, that was only because they were riding so close to the cliffs, she told herself hastily. She wasn't reassured.
She wondered at the valley's awful, ominous name. Death Valley. It wasn't so different from parts of Texas, was it? Just hotter. Stunted, gnarled brush, brittle sage, and hot, hot white sand dominated it—and those damn towering walls. But maybe that was it. Maybe it was the walls, locking you in, forever, trapping those who entered, killing them . .. She dared to glance at Shoz.
He heard her exhalation and twisted in the saddle to look back at her. He must have sensed her unease, or read it in her eyes, because he pulled up to wait for her to come abreast. "I get a funny feeling every time I return here," he said.
"You do?" She was nearly panting. ' 'Like this is my damn grave.'' He glanced at the towering walls.
That wasn't what she wanted to hear. "That's silly."
"You're right. I think there's a feeling everyone gets when they come down here, and it has something to do with the valley's elevation. We're below sea level."
Her eyes widened. So they were in the very pits of the earth, in its very depths. So it was a place no human being had a right to be . ..
"Don't look so frightened; it's not like we've died and gone to hell." His lips twisted at a private, and bitter, joke.
"But it's unnatural," Lucy said, looking around uneasily. No wonder the valley was so still, so lifeless. There weren't even any trees. No wonder it was called Death Valley. How could anything live here? Or anyone?
He didn't respond. They rode on in silence. Lucy was relieved when they left the proximity of those threatening walls and she found that she could, indeed, see the sky.
Relieved, she let her thoughts turn again, as they had done so often, to her captor. He was riding ahead of her, easily, as if the kind of journey they had made had been merely an outing in the park. His resilience and power amazed her. She herself was a weary, aching wreck.
Last night, their second after leaving Casitas, he had wanted to make love to her. He hadn't said so, and he hadn't suggested it. But Lucy had sensed it from the moment they had dismounted to make their camp. She had felt his eyes on her, repeatedly. And when she had caught his gaze, his had been keen and interested.
Lucy had not been interested. Not very much, anyway, and not because of the hurt she had felt after they had made love outside of Casitas. Time, the eternal healer, had made those feelings start to fade. And she had learned her lesson, yet that wasn't it, either. Of course, one sensual look like the one he had given her made her insides flutter. Yet nothing, at that moment, could compete with her aching body and its need for rest. She only wanted to collapse on the ground and nurse her sore feet and her bruised body. When she stretched out her legs, the scabs broke, again, and she groaned.
He'd fixed their meal in silence while she dozed, not really sleeping. She could feel his eyes, hot, boring into her; she could feel his need, his desire. It was tangible, taut, like a wire stretched between them. He was compelling, his sexual magnetism so strong, it reached out to her across the space of their camp while she lay aching and half-asleep.
He had the decency not to approach her, except to hand her the plate of food he'd prepared. Yet after she'd eaten, she dreamed that he held her while she slept, touching her arm, her waist, stroking her hip, her breast, and it was erotic. It was also very real.
This morning, remembering, Lucy had been grateful for his consideration. Yet refreshed after a good night's sleep, she just might have been the tiniest bit disappointed. She was certainly surprised. Knowing Shoz, she would have expected him to have no consideration at all and at least to try and seduce her, mocking her in the process. But he hadn't. Maybe she didn't know him as well as she thought she did. Or maybe he hadn't wanted her as much as she thought he had. Both thoughts were disturbing.
Lucy was diverted from her reflections when she thought she distinguished man-made shapes ahead. She blinked. Was she seeing things, or were there Mexican-style adobe buildings ahead? Was there a village there? As they came closer, she saw with relief and joy that there was a group of buildings. She could make out numerous corrals, and slightly set apart, one larger house that most definitely ressembled a ranch house.
They rode past a wide, flat river. A few groups of stubby trees graced its path intermittently. The sight of the creek, the few trees, and the grassy banks was uplifting. Lucy actually smiled.
A group of sturdy young women was doing laundry. Youngsters were racing around, playing and teasing one another, while toddlers sat near their mothers, making pies in the sand. The women paused, shading their eyes to watch them pass, expressionlessly. They were all Mexican, dark-skinned and dark-haired, wearing loose, soft white blouses and plainly colored skirts. All their chatter had ceased. Even the children had stopped their games to halt and stare silently. Lucy stared back curiously. She called to Shoz, riding ahead of her. "Is this a village?"
"You might say that."
His answer annoyed her. She also sensed, for the first time in days, that she was no longer the focus of his attention. That was annoying, too, and perversely, she said, "Is this a ranch?"
This time he did glance at her, and laughed. "No."
She hadn't thought so. This was either a village, long since lost and forgotten deep in the Sierra Madres, where Shoz holed up, or it was a hideout. But if it was a hideout, why were there so many women and children there?
The big house was placed near the wide, flat river, and was graced with several taller, nearly lush trees and the welcome shade they provided. It was like stumbling unexpectedly upon an oasis in the middle of an African desert. The house was immensely inviting, although there was nothing outstanding about it—except its location in this godforsaken place. It was one level of rectangular yellowish adobe, the roof wood. A corral was not too far from it, a few fine-looking horses within. On the other side of the corral were a dozen other smaller houses, sheds and shacks.
Just as Shoz halted in front of the house and dismounted there was a screech and a woman in vibrant colors rushed out, flew across the few paces separating them, and launched herself right into Shoz's arms.
Lucy was shocked.
He let her cling and jabber breathlessly. She spoke a heavily accented English. "Where have you been, querido! It has been so long! We feared you were—oh! I dare not say! Caro mio, what happened? Are you all right?" She was actually clutching his face.
Lucy was shocked. All the time that he had been chasing her, he had a woman, this woman, here, waiting for him! She was frozen in the most rigid and furious disbelief that had ever gripped her in her entire life.
The woman was shorter than she was. She had a thick mass of tight black curls that came to her shoulder blades. Lucy thought it looked like a bird's nest. She couldn't see her face. The woman was clad in a shocking orange blouse, short-sleeved, which she wore off both shoulders. The material was thin and filmy and hung to full breasts. She wore a black and silver woven belt to accentuate a very tiny waist. She wore an even more shocking pink skirt, over what had to be another skirt, this one turquiose. On one arm was a dozen silver bangles, and when she turned slightly, Lucy saw one large hoop earring.
She looked like a whore, Lucy cried inwardly. And then she saw her face.
Something inside her seemed to die. She was the most exotic creature Lucy had ever seen. Her face was a perfect heart shape, her skin dark gold, her eyes big and black, long lashed and very seductive. Her cheekbones were high, her nose straight and proud. Her mouth was perfectly shaped and enhanced with red rouge. The woman stared back at her, just as stunned.
"Who is this!" she screamed. And a string of S
panish followed.
Even though the woman looked like a veritable gypsy, was undoubtedly a whore—his whore—and had no breeding, even though Lucy could not possibly stoop to compare herself to this woman, she had no doubt that she looked atrocious while this woman was so unbearably beautiful. Lucy was suddenly so tired, overwhelmingly so. She slid off the horse.
"Shut up, Carmen."
Carmen stopped her frenetic flow of verbiage.
Shoz took her chin in his hand. "She is my hostage."
Carmen stood angrily, eyeing Shoz and eyeing Lucy, her bountiful bosom heaving. "Damn you!"
"Has it been too long?" Shoz asked very softly. "Have you forgotten your English? She is my hostage."
Carmen beat a hasty retreat, but a moment later, she was back in his arms, crooning, pressing against him. "Caro mio, what can I do? What do you need? Want? Tell me, darling." She stroked his face.
The woman was most definitely a whore. She was practically rubbing her breasts all over him.
"Food, hot, good food," he said, glancing at Lucy. "A hot bath. And some whiskey."
"That's all?" she asked, sliding her hands under his worn shirt.
He didn't smile. "That, too, later." He pushed her away. Just as he did so, there was a child's shriek and the pounding of running footsteps. Lucy saw, with more shock, a young, black-haired boy leap right into Shoz's arms. The child was screaming. "Papa! Papa!"
And Shoz was beaming as he whirled the youngster around. Never had she seen such a smile on his face. It came from his eyes, from his heart, from his soul. The child clung to him. He was about six years old, small and dark— dark like his father. Like his father and his mother.
She could not watch. Suddenly she felt sick. He and the child were chatting happily, but she did not listen to what they were saying. Shoz's joy—his love—was evident. She stumbled to the corral. She could not cry, not now, not with that woman watching her. That woman. Was she his wife?
Lucy leaned against the fence. The answer was obvious enough.
Chapter 25
"I have something for you, niño" Shoz said. His tone was gentle. They were still outside, in front of the house.
"What?" the child asked excitedly. "For me?! A present?"
Shoz smiled and went to the bay, removing an object from the saddlebags. Lucy watched. She knew what it was. He'd been whittling at nights, whittling a rearing horse. Now he knelt again to hand it to his son.
His son.
The pain was vast.
Carmen shot her a malicious look.
"I know it's not store-bought," Shoz said, "but next time I'll get you some new toy soldiers, I promise."
"A horse!" His son began jumping around. Shoz laughed and ruffled the boy's short, black hair. "Have you taken good care of your mother while I was gone, Roberto?"
“Si, Papa.'' He had stopped dancing and was very solemn. "Just as you said."
"Bueno." It was soft. He turned to Lucy. "Come on."
The look she directed at him was mutinous, incredulous, and despairing all at once. She found, for the first time in their relationship, that she was completely at a loss, unable to respond to him, too tired to fight. She came, and he went into the house. Lucy followed, as she was apparently supposed to do.
"What are you doing?" Carmen ran after them.
Shoz ignored her, walking through a living area with a couch, two chairs, skin rugs, and a very cozy adobe fireplace. A short corridor led off the room. There were two doors facing each other, and a third at the end of the hall, between them. This he opened, directing her in.
Lucy saw a single bed, a scarred table and lamp, a very small bureau with washing utensils. There was one large window, shuttered. The room was dark and dusty. Were the shutters nailed closed? Now she understood. This was to be her prison.
She is my hostage, he had said. He had only spoken the truth.
"This is your room. Carmen will bring you clothes and soap, and I'll have a tub brought in." His gaze swept over her.
"You mean my prison," she mocked. "No, I mean your room." "Am I confined here?"
"Do as you please." He turned and left. Stunned and just for a moment distracted, Lucy stared after him. From within her room, she could see down the corridor into the living room. Carmen was staring, waiting, with her hands on her round hips. Lucy stared back. She expected to see Shoz walk into her arms. He didn't. He opened the adjacent door and disappeared inside.
When she heard him moving around, heard his boots hitting the floor as he took them off, Lucy leapt up and slammed her own door shut. Then she sank on the bed, uncertain. She was trembling. She just sat there, waiting for her own reaction to the worst crisis in her life to set in.
No tears came. She was either too exhausted, physically and emotionally, or she was becoming too hardened. She took a few breaths. How could he! All the time that she had known him, there had been Carmen, here, waiting for him. Carmen and his son. She was so hurt—and so mad. At least now she knew where she stood. Not that it mattered. He was a bastard and a thief and a felon. And married. Oh God. She shouldn't care, not at all, but faced with Carmen, she did! He had made love to her, twice. He had used her. And it had been obvious from the way he had treated her afterward, but she hadn't wanted to see it. Oh, why had she been so foolish—why was she still so foolish?
She breathed deeply to calm herself. Was she a prisoner?
He had said she could do as she pleased. Lucy didn't believe him. Abruptly she got up to see if the wood shutters were nailed shut. They weren't. When she opened them, sunlight streamed into the room. She had a wonderful view of the broad, sluggish river, but it was ruined by the immense yellow walls of the valley towering over it on the far side. She shuddered, thinking about how they were lower than the sea, about how those walls, from this angle, looked like the giant jaws of a trap. She quickly turned away.
At least now she knew what she wanted to do—what she would do. She would bathe and wash her hair as soon as they brought her bath, and don fresh clothes. And burn these rags as soon as she could.
Lucy sat on the bed in the sunlight pouring through the window. She would dearly love to jump out of all her filthy clothes, but she didn't dare. She tried not to think while waiting for the clothes Carmen was supposed to bring, and for her bath.
But the minutes stretched into what surely must be an hour, and no one came.
Lucy went to the door and leaned against it, listening for sounds in the house. She didn't hear a thing. She unbolted her door and opened it a crack. The door to the room adjacent to hers, where he had gone, was closed, no sound coming from within. Lucy walked into the living room, for the first time looking around. It was dusty, even dirty in the corners, and quite untidy. A violet scarf had been left on one chair, an empty tin full of crumbs on the couch. Dirty, unwashed cups with encrusted coffee sat on the low wooden table. A pair of high-heeled shoes was on the rug, a comb on another table, a pot of rouge on top of a pile of old Sears catalogs. On the other side of the room was a heavy wooden table with two long benches on either side—and one chair at its head. It was covered with dirty dishes and glasses. Lucy heard women's voices and turned to see the entrance to the kitchen.
She went and stood in the open doorway.
A big, heavy older woman and Carmen were obviously hurrying to prepare a meal. Vegetables, both fresh and tinned, flour, meat, and pots and pans lay out upon the counterspace and the big, rough worktable that dominated the room. Both women stopped what they were doing to turn and stare at her.
Lucy let them get their fill even though their inspection would have made her uncomfortable in the best of circumstances. She feigned haughty indifference, which wasn't exactly easy when she could imagine how awful she looked—when she could even smell her own sweat. The older woman smiled and went back to work. Lucy watched the highly visible progression of Carmen's rage. It started with malice and became full-blown fury. She was holding a cleaver, and she whacked it as hard as she could on the table
. Lucy jumped.
The thought flitted through her mind—this woman is capable of hurting her enemies, and you are her enemy. Be careful. But she said, "Shoz said you would give me clothes. And where is my bath?"
Carmen smiled nastily. "The men are emptying the tub now. Not too soon. You stink!" She wrinkled her nose. "And that ugly red hair!" she added in Spanish.
"At least my hair isn't a nest for rodents," Lucy said calmly—in fluent Spanish. She had learned the language as a child during the summers she had spent in Paradise.
Carmen's eyes widened, then she stomped over, pushed Lucy rudely aside, and marched through the house.
Lucy followed. When Carmen flung open the door adjacent to hers, to the room that was apparently Shoz's, she felt her heart sink yet again. So they shared a room. Somehow, she had stupidly hoped they slept separately, with Carmen in the room across from his.
Lucy stood in the doorway to their room, her face impassive. Her heart was pounding ferociously. Shoz was lying on the bed, shirtless and freshly washed, his hair still damp. He sat up. Furiously Carmen flung open an armoire. Lucy refused to look at him, but she knew he was looking at her.
Carmen was muttering angrily as she shoved through her clothes, once, twice, three times. She whirled, her skirts twirling to show all of her calves. She opened her mouth to speak, but no sound came out as she saw Shoz regarding Lucy.
She grabbed his arm. "Why do I have to give her my clothes?"
"Because I said so."
Carmen turned sullenly and yanked out a brilliant orange blouse, one Lucy knew would look awful with her red hair. She threw an ugly brown wool skirt on top, one much too hot for this climate. She smiled in triumph. "Take it."
Shoz got up, moved her aside, and went through her clothes. Carmen screamed and ranted; he ignored her. He finally removed a green blouse that Lucy knew would do wonders for her coloring. A red petticoat followed, and then a rainbow-hued print skirt. He went to a bureau and opened a drawer. This time Carmen was trying not to jump up and down. "You cannot give her my beautiful silk drawers from Paris!"
