by Jesse Jordan
Rick puts an arm around my shoulder, and I lean into him, sighing at the comforting touch. “You know, I’ve never asked… you told me about the guy in university but… it’s not really all that important really, I know it’s silly….”
“Two,” I say shyly. “Um… including you.”
“Two?” Rick asks, surprised. He blinks, shaking his head. “You mean you agreed to our relationship and you’ve only… but why?”
“Because you had something in your eyes that told me I could trust you,” I reply honestly. “And yes, a good amount of self interest. You rescued me from a dead end life. And you’ve given me more than I’ve ever dreamed of.”
“Have I given you all you’ve ever wanted?” Rick asks, looking into my eyes.
“I’d like to say yes,” I whisper, reaching up and cupping his face, “but… not quite yet. I know I haven’t given you everything.”
Rick smiles, and leans in closer. “No… but I’m sure we’ll get there.”
Rick
I wake up to a feeling that makes me wonder if I’m still dreaming for a few moments. A warm, soft presence is nestled against my side and something tickling me underneath my nose. I say a quick wish and open my eyes, glancing downward to find Su Lin cuddled against me, a wisp of her hair having fallen across my lips.
My left arm tingles slightly, her shoulder’s pressed right up against my armpit and cutting off the circulation. Still, it feels amazing, and looking down at her sleeping form, I feel warmth spread through me.
Am I getting feelings for her?
The question runs around in my mind, and I look down at Su Lin, watching her in the early morning light.
Of course I am. I knew I was even all the way back when we had sex in New York and I wanted her to join me in bed.
It doesn’t really matter, I guess. Even now, lying in a wonderful bed, I can feel the stiffness in my back, hips, and knees. My disease is progressing, and while I hope that Doc Gordon’s right, that I’ve still got months until it’s too late… in some ways it already is.
It’s not fair. I’ve gone my entire life without finding someone… and now I do in the last year before I die.
But what about Su Lin? It might not be fair to me, but what about to her?
There isn’t much you can do about her. If you give her a child, you can secure her life. And then maybe she’ll have a chance at future happiness.
In the meantime, I’ll do what I can to make things good for her.
What do you mean?
I mean that research is becoming a minor priority for the rest of the time. I can turn the data on the most recent ideas over to someone I think can finish the work. In the meantime, I’ll spend the time I’ve got left being good to Su Lin, and making sure K-S is protected from Harvey’s insanity.
You sure? You’ve spent your entire life inventing.
I also spent a lot of time sleeping around. I’ve stopped that, and that hasn’t been a problem.
Okay.
I lean back, brushing Su Lin’s hair off my face and look up at the ceiling. I close my eyes, hoping that maybe a little silent meditation can help me loosen up before Su Lin wakes up… or at least make the pain tolerable.
I don’t know how long I’m meditating, but the next thing I’m aware of is a soft hand rubbing my stomach, slowly making it’s way downward. “Mmmm… you woke up in a good mood.”
Su Lin giggles lightly, and I open my eyes as I feel her kiss my cheek. “Considering how I woke up? How can I not?”
I feel her soft hand wrap around my cock and start pumping slowly, making me moan lightly. “You know… damn that feels good.”
Su Lin chuckles, and kisses my lips again. “Would you like to start the morning with a long, wet, sloppy blowjob?”
I reach down, shaking my head. “While I might, right now what I’d like more is something else.”
“Oh… what’s that?” Su Lin asks, sliding up and kissing my lips. “What would make you feel good?”
Twenty more years of this, I think, but instead I reach down, cupping her breast and tugging on her nipple gently. “I think it’d be awesome to feel you on top of me. However you want.”
Su Lin bites her lip, whimpering lightly as I continue to stroke and tweak her nipple, and I feel her hips begin to grind lightly against my leg. “Is your back that stiff?”
“You’v got something in your hand stiffer,” I tease, kissing her ear. “Now… how would you like to get on top? My tongue? My cock?”
“Your big toe?” Su Lin teases, her laughter dissolving into another gasp as I nip and tug at her earlobe. “Mmmm, you know what makes me feel good. And I want to look in your eyes as I come.”
She swings her leg over, and the pain in my hips flares but I hide it as she sinks down quickly onto my cock, my grunt of pain masked as a gasp of pleasure. Still, the pain fades as she squeezes herself around me, biting her lip. “How do you do it?”
“Do what?” I ask, reaching up and cupping her other breast.
“I liked sex before, I had… well, plenty of self experience,” she says as she starts riding me slowly. “Only the one human lover, but plenty of toys and I’m very good at masturbating. But you… I can’t get enough of you, Rick. Even when we’re not trying to make a baby I want to feel you.”
“I think that can become reality. And I would love to watch you masturbate for me sometime,” I tease, encouraging her. Watching Su Lin ride my cock, bouncing up and down before rolling her hips and grinding down on top of me is so beautiful that my body’s pain is forgotten, and I meet her with my own upward thrusts, small but adding to the pleasure. Su Lin bends down, pressing her body against mine as she kisses and nips at the skin on my neck, licking as I run my hands up and down her back. I cup her ass, squeezing and massaging it, Su Lin’s hips rolling faster and slapping against me as I do. “Mmmmm… does someone like that?”
“Yesssss...” Su Lin moans as my fingers drift closer to the cleft of her ass. All these times, and I’m still learning something new. Amazing. “Ohhh, please...”
I hum, bringing my right hand up to her mouth and letting her lick my fingers until they’re dripping wet and shining. The whole time her hips never stop rolling, grinding her clit against me, her pussy squeezing my cock and making me throb deep inside her.
“Mmmm… have you wanted my cock in your ass?” I purr, bringing my hand down to her ass again and stroking her cleft. My fingers brush over her puckered hole and she whimpers, pushing against me even as her pussy squeezes my cock tighter. I stroke her hole with feather light strokes in time with my hips, making Su Lin’s eyes roll up in her skull it feels so good to her. “Have you always wanted it?”
“I didn’t… didn’t know if I could trust you….” Su Lin whimpers. She plants a hand in my chest over my heart and tries to sit up, letting her feel my cock and my fingers at the same time. “And… about the baby….”
“Seems we have plenty of time each month to explore back there if you want,” I promise as I slip the tip of my index finger inside Su Lin’s ass. She cries out in pleasure as I rub and time my thrusting finger with her rolling hips. Her pussy tightens around me more and I plant my feet, thrusting up into her harder, making her pitch forward. Our lips meet as I take over, my cock stroking upwards faster and harder into her pussy as our tongues swirl and our bodies move together. Her nipples drag over my skin, tracing lines of heat on my chest that pushes us higher and higher.
“Oh… Rick… please!” Su Lin cries out, clutching at my shoulders. I slip my finger deeper into her ass, driving my cock hard into her tight body. I gasp, thrusting faster as I let myself go, hurling myself over the edge into orgasm. I feel my cock erupt, filling her body as we kiss more deeply and her moans as she climaxes around my cock, her heart hammering against my chest. It’s amazing, and I feel something move deep inside me.
I hold Su Lin, staying inside her not because of the chance to impregnate her… but just because I want to stay close to her.
/> “A hell of a way to start the morning,” I murmur, making Su Lin laugh as she rests her head on my chest.
“Give me a few minutes to relish this… then I’ll make breakfast. What are we going to do today?”
“We’ll figure something out.”
The afternoon light sparkles off the lake as Su Lin swings her rod, the line of her body as she casts looking like a piece of art. The hook and weight at the end fly through the air to plonk peacefully into the water thirty yards off in the lake. “Nice cast!”
“Finally!” Su Lin says with a laugh. “How many times have you untangled my line from the bushes?”
“Not that many,” I reply, tossing my own line out into the water. “I can’t believe you wanted to come fishing though.”
“It’s something I’ve never done,” Su Lin says, her eyes fixed out on the bobber that’s now resting on the surface. “Even if this is the wrong time of day.”
I shrug, setting my pole into its holder. “Doesn’t matter. I’m enjoying the relaxation.”
“Me too.” Su Lin sits down, propping her knees under her chin as she watches. “It’s been a great day.”
“It’s not over yet,” I remind her. Just then, her bobber drops beneath the surface and the tip of her rod bends in a giant arc. “Damn!”
Su Lin goes for her rod, but before she can reach it it goes shooting towards the water. I’m off my log, sprinting as hard as I can, but whatever’s got her rod is strong. I make a grab and miss, stumbling over a rock but staying on my feet. Just as the rod goes into the water I jump, making a huge splash but snagging the rod with the crook of my elbow. Sputtering, lake water streaming down my face and blurring my eyes, I clumsily pull the rod back, handing it off to Su Lin. “Go, go! Reel it in nice and slowly!”
“I don’t know if I can!” Su Lin says, grabbing the rod in a death grip.
“You can!” I reply as I wipe my eyes clear with my hands. “Don’t worry, it’ll be okay.”
I scoot out of the lake while Su Lin reels, snagging the net as she gets it in closer. Whatever it is, it’s big, and more than once I’m sure she going to snap the line. Still, the bobber keeps drawing closer even as it runs left and right in ever tightening loops. When it’s about five feet out I wade back into the water with the net, scooping up a huge trout that is easily fourteen inches long. I hold up the heavy net as the fish flops and thrashes before depositing it in the cooler that we’re using as a fish well.
“I did it!” Su Lin says, jumping up and down and clapping. The smile on her face is enormous, and I feel another one of those stirrings in my chest that I know I can’t do anything about, but will enjoy nevertheless.
“You did. And, it’s big enough that we can make dinner with it if you want.”
Su Lin considers, then shakes her head. “We have enough food in the cabin, there’s no need to kill the fish. Can we let it go?”
I nod, smiling. “It’s your catch, Su Lin. Your choice.”
Su Lin goes over to the cooler and opens it. It’s half full of water, so the trout is still alive, and she closes the top before lugging it to the edge of the water. She drags it into thigh deep water before opening the lid again and tipping it over. She watches the water for a few seconds before backing out of the water, smiling. “Thank you.”
“Thank you,” I return. “That was very generous of you. Not too many people are willing to throw back a trout that big, it’s a record for a lot of folks.”
Su Lin blushes slightly, and it looks cute as hell as she wipes her hands clean. “Why did you go after the rod like that?”
I look down at my clothes, covered in mud and soaked to the bone. I start laughing, I do look pretty ridiculous, and I run my hands through my hair. It feels good, and I give Su Lin a smile. “Everybody deserves to have a chance on their first big fish. Come on, let’s clean up a little, and then I was thinking… have you ever had s’mores made over an open campfire?”
“S’mores? What are those?”
I laugh, thinking of what I have to show Su Lin still. “Just the world’s most delicious food ever invented. Whoever came up with it is a genius on a level that makes me look like an idiot. I promise you’ll love them.”
Su Lin
We’ve been back at the estate for two weeks, and as I hold the little plastic test in my hand I can’t deny the rising tide of excitement in my belly. I was supposed to start my period four days ago, and with each passing day my excitement has grown.
I re-read the instructions again, worried that I’ll do something to mess it up. It’s why I bought three of them. No matter what I’m going to take the test at least twice, making sure of my results.
Still, as I hold the cup underneath me while I try and urinate, I can’t help but worry. I fill the plastic cup and set it aside it carefully before finishing my toileting, placing it on the counter and cleaning myself up. I uncap the first test and dip it in the cup before recapping it and taking the second test and repeating the process. I’m holding the third, a different brand, in reserve just in case I get different responses on these two tests.
Closing my eyes, I count to one hundred before looking down at the two tests. Both of them are blue… they’re positive. I scoop them up, grinning for a moment, eager to show Rick before a tremor of fear ripples through me. For the past few weeks, ever since promising to take me on vacation, Rick’s been so nice. Sleeping with him is about more than just the sex, as amazing as it’s been.
I’ve spent three weeks waking up in his arms, feeling better than I have the whole time I’ve been in America. I’ve enjoyed getting to know Rick, even to the point that sometimes he’s let me in on his research. I never thought I’d enjoy sitting around a lab as Rick does his work, but I’ve enjoyed a lot of it.
But what happens now? Rick was honest when he said he wanted to spend more time with me, and to let us relax. He wanted to help me get pregnant. He thought that by us having less stress on us, that we’d both be able to ‘perform,’ I guess you could say.
And he was apparently right. The two tests in my hand say that I’m pregnant. But what happens now? While I’m sure that Rick will take care of me physically, I’ll probably be the most well looked after expectant mother on the planet, what happens to us?
I look in the mirror, worried. I’ve come to like being here. I’ve come to like being with Rick. I don’t want to say it, but I like him. And I want to keep doing things with him, to be by his side. The past few days I’ve helped with his morning stiffness by giving him long massages with warm oil. Sure, it started off as a playful way to get in the mood for sex in the morning, but even on the days when we haven’t had sex I’ve rubbed him down. Rick swears it helps, but it might just be a placebo.
Rick’s returned the favor too. Whether it’s silly things like jumping in the water after a cheap fishing rod, or cooking dinner at the cabin, or last night enjoying key lime pie together as we watched a movie, he’s made me feel a part of his life.
What happens now? Am I going to be shunted off to the way I was the first few weeks I was in America, seen once or twice a day and ignored the rest of the time? I know that Rick has other pressing matters. I understand his issues with Harvey Stone now, and I know he wants to get as much of the work done on this solar energy project as he can. Now that I’m pregnant, am I to become a project to be put in maintenance mode?
“I can’t hide this from him,” I whisper to the scared woman looking back at me from the mirror. “If anything, he’s got to be wondering why I haven’t told him about my period. If I don’t say anything, he’s going to ask about it himself sooner or later.”
I nod to myself and put the tests in the pocket of the sweatshirt I’m wearing. It seems strange, I’ve only been in America three months… but the weather’s changed so much. When I got here, it was the hottest days of summer, and children were still on summer vacation. Now, there’s a sharp chill in the air most mornings and at night, and soon those children will be celebrating Halloween.
Rick even mentioned getting some costumes and going to a local school carnival to participate and to pass out candy.
I’d still like to do that. I walk through the house, looking for Rick in his lab but not finding him. He’s been spending less time there, usually just an hour or two a day recently, as we’ve spent more time together. Still, it’s about that time of day where he gets ideas, so it was worth a trip. I move on, but before I find him I find Freida, who’s looking flustered. “Hello Freida.”
“Su Lin, have you seen Rick?” she asks, stopping when I shake my head. “What’s wrong?”
“I was going to ask you the same thing. You first.”
Freida shrugs, holding up her tablet computer. “Just some documents that corporate headquarters wants signed and back twenty minutes ago. Of course they only sent it a half hour ago. What about you?”
Instead of saying anything I pull out the two pregnancy tests, showing them to Freida, who grins and gives me a hug. “I knew you had it in you. But… you don’t look all that happy.”
“I’m just worried,” I admit. “I… I like the amount of time I’ve spent with Rick. I don’t want to lose that.”
Freida gives me a small smile, and another hug. “I don’t think that’ll happen. Call it woman’s intuition, call it wishful thinking, but I think you’ll be surprised.”
I hug Freida back, letting go when I hear familiar footsteps in the hallway and I turn to see Rick approaching, his tank top soaked through with sweat. “Hello ladies.”
“Well, I guess we know where you’ve been,” Freida quips as she holds out her tablet. “Here. Nothing important, I already sent in your reply on the questions, but they wanted your signature at the bottom.”
Rick reads the text quickly and scribbles his signature at the bottom with a stylus before handing it back. “Thanks. How’re you doing, Su Lin?”
“I’m… I’m pregnant,” I stammer, holding out the tests. Rick doesn’t even look at them, but looks in my eyes, a broad grin spreading on his face. He steps closer and picks me up, hugging me tightly and kissing me passionately. I’m laughing, giggling as his kisses go from my lips to ticklish points along my neck and he spins me around.
