How long d'you think?
No idea.
It was like standing in a white cave, with snow falling around us and no way to see out.
If those folks get the idea we're lost, they'll be scared.
They mustn't know.
I was thinking back. We had not come far with the heavy pull for the horses and frequent stops. It had been desperately hard to keep to the trail, but I figured we were somewhere on the divide between Strawberry and Rock Creek. We might cross Strawberry without knowing it, but the chances were slight. Rock Creek was another proposition. Most of its banks were steep and if we didn't see them in time we might have a bit of trouble.
We figured to be heading north, but were we? The wind was, or had been, from the north. Now it was blowing against the right eye and ear. Had we altered course, or had the wind changed?
We walked out in front and kicked away the snow. Grass. Stiff, brown, frozen grass. We kicked around in a circle, but all we found was grass.
Which way to turn? We daren't stop hunting the trail because we might not find our way back. Nor could we risk another night in the open with these people. At least two of them were in bad shape.
Let's go, I said.
You chancin' it?
If I recall, the country west of the trail slopes off a bit, so if the teams did any drifting it would likely be downhill. Not that there's much difference.
So we started again, knowing we might be making the wrong move. We'd traversed several dips and hollows some time before and might have crossed a creek without being aware of it.
We took it slow. Bud spelled me on the lines, and he was a fair hand. Twice we stopped and scraped down to grass ... the snow was almost a foot deep now.
Are we lost, Bendigo?
I reckon.
Ma will be worried.
When we stopped for a breather there was no sound but the occasional rattle of trace chains. Suddenly I made the decision that had been nagging at me for some time. You handle the team, Bud. I'm going out front.
Walking up to Webb, I said, Hold up for a while. I'm going to scout around.
You'll get lost.
I'll walk left two hundred paces. My tracks won't fill before I get back. Then I'll do the same thing on the other side.
The wind was stirring again, and the snow was falling heavily. A man could see thirty or forty feet ahead of his team, but no more. I walked slowly, feeling the ground with my feet at each step. Swirling flakes were all about me, and my tracks filled faster than I had thought they would. By the time I got back the ones I'd made first were half-filled with blown or falling snow. There was no luck to the other side, either.
We drove on for half an hour, the horses making hard work of it in the deepening snow and with their increasing load, as more and -more of the walkers played out and had to be taken aboard. Yet I felt sure the horses were climbing as well as pulling, and if they were climbing there was a good chance we were going right.
At our next halt both Webb and I walked out, one to either side. We feared now that we might drive right on by our turnoff and never see it. There was nothing west of us for more than a hundred miles.
If we had to stop for camp there was no fuel here and we'd have to burn the wagons for warmth.
It's rocky, Webb said, I think we're going right.
I think so, too, but so much of this country is rocky and rough.
The wind was rising. One of the horses slipped to its knees. We got the horse up and started on, but I slipped and fell. I fell hard, and cold as I was it was no fun. When I got up and brushed myself off I called to Webb. There was ice beneath that snow.
He and Croft came back. We kicked the snow away. It was ice, all right. Thick ice and the tracks of wagons.
We're all right, I said, we've found the water trail.
The what?
Where water spilled, hauling from the falls.
Beneath the snow the roadbed was built up from many spillings and sloppings until it stood six to eight inches above ground level. Once we got the horses up on the road it was easy to know when one of them stepped off into the deeper snow.
We could see nothing. The wind was blowing a gale by now, whipping the wagon covers and blowing snow into our faces. Suddenly Bud yelled, There's a light!
The horses, sensing the barn was close, buckled down to pulling. I cracked the whip like a pistol shot above their heads and yelled.
Slowly the cabins took shape through the blowing snow, and nothing ever looked so good as to swing up to Cain's cabin and see them all come rushing out into the snow. It wasn't until we got into the cabin that Webb showed me his watch. We had been eleven hours coming back.
Cain, Sampson, Foss, and Stuart unharnessed the horses, rubbed them down, and fed them warmed up water and hay. They had put in a long, hard day in cold and snow.
Those tired, exhausted Mormons were brought inside and fed, then bedded down. We hadn't much, but we would share what we did have. The Widow Macken did most of it.
She had clothing and blankets to sell in the spring, and she outfitted several of those who were worse off and provided blankets for sleeping.
One of them, a lean, long boy of about my own age thrust out a hand to me. Thank you, sir. You've been our saving.
You thank Webb, Bud, and Croft, I told him. They did as much as me.
I was beat. I was surely tired. When I'd eaten a bit of hot soup I crawled into the loft and stretched out flat, falling asleep without even pulling off my boots. Later, Lorna did it for me.
When I fell asleep it was to the murmur of the voices down below, those people we'd saved, and I was glad, glad all through me that we'd done it. Yet there was an awful sinking in me, too, for they would eat, those folks, and we had nothing to spare. The winter months stretched long and frightening before us.
Ethan and I, we'd have to go out and hunt. We'd have to go far afield and risk trouble with Indians to find game.
If there was any.
Of the Mormons, who stayed with us five days, I came to know only one, the lean, tall young man whose name was Truman Trask. On the fifth day the wagons came from Salt Lake, six big wagons with blankets, food, whatever was needed. Ethan saw them coming and rode out to meet them, who were fearful they would find only the frozen, starved bodies of their people.
They left us sugar, flour, and tea, although not nearly as much as we'd used in helping, and we saw them away on the morning of the seventh day, all of us standing out in the weather to watch them go. Within the hour, with the storm blown out, Ethan and I were on our snowshoes hunting game.
We went into the mountains, hoping to find some sheltered park where the game had holed up, but until night was almost on us we saw nary a track, and both of us were scared. We had hungry folks back home, folks wanting meat and trusting us to get it for them. We found a sheltered place, built a lean-to and a reflector, chewed on some jerky, and ate some cold flour mixed with warm water. There we sat, talking of many things until the night was late for lonely hunters.
It was warmer next day and we found our way into a wide, deep canyon. The stream was frozen over, but there was melting on the south side of some pines. The air was bright and clear, and we began to see deer tracks, and of a sudden, the tracks of a bear.
Bears hibernate in winter, but unless they fatten up real good they're apt to come out when the weather warms up and try to find something to eat, then they'll go back and hole up again.
We found where he'd dug into the snow after roots and such. Given a chance bears will stick to a diet of bugs, grass, roots, and berries. They kill small animals occasionally, but with the exception of the grizzly they rarely kill for meat, even more rarely will they bother a man. This one was a grizzly. We knew that from the extra long claws on the forefeet.
We followed him up Twin Creek until he turned up a canyon along Deep Creek. Let's look for something else, Ethan suggested, this one's poorly. If he was fat he wouldn't be out. And then he added, I neve
r much liked to killl bears, anyhow.
Our way led along an easy slope into some trees beyond, then into a valley where there was a frozen marsh with trees trailing down to its edge. And there were four elk.
How far do you make it? I asked.
Two hundred yards ... maybe more. Over white snow, distance can be a tricky thing.
Do we chance it?
We were in the open. At any moment they might see us. The wind was blowing across, and their heads were down, scratching at something at the edge of the marsh.
So we walked toward them. Five yards ... ten. We had our rifles poised for a quick shot if their heads came up. We advanced another ten yards before the big bull brought his head up with a jerk, looking at us.
With the first stirring of muscle we had frozen in place, and now we held perfectly still. The others looked up, and one skittish youngster walked off a few feet. That seemed to start them. If they began to walk, they would soon be running.
My shot was high. The bull dropped in his tracks, but I knew my shot was too high. Ethan fired and the second elk jumped, bounded three times then fell all of a piece. We went in fast and were within twenty yards when my bull came off the ground with a lunge, one antler hanging.
He came up running and I fired my rifle like a pistol from one hand. The bullet hit him behind the left shoulder and he ran on for thirty yards before he dropped. I levered a fresh cartridge into the chamber and went on to where he lay.
My first bullet had hit the base of the antler, stunning the bull. My second was a heart shot and pure luck. I'd tried for the heart, of course, but with him running like that it was a chancy thing.
Cold as it was, we couldn't waste time but took our skinning knives and went to work. From time to time I looked over to where Ethan was skinning out his elk. We'd been uncommonly lucky and should be back to town by nightfall with fresh meat.
We were just finishing skinning when I happened to look up, and out of the corner of my eye I caught a flicker of movement to the canyon beyond where Ethan was working.
My meat was skinned out, and I'd been sacking it up in the fresh hide when I caught that move. My rifle was at hand, and I wiped my hands clean in the snow, watching that spot without looking directly at it. Of a sudden, a bird flew up.
My hand dropped to my rifle, and as I turned I saw a man rise up with a rifle aimed right at Ethan. I was down on one knee and there was no time for aiming. I fired from where my rifle was, the stock under my arm.
Tlie man with the rifle reared up on his toes and fell full length from the brush.
Ethan looked up at the shot and looked right toward me, and in a flash I knew that somebody was probably sneaking up on me, too. So as I spun around, I fired.
I was fifty feet higher than Ethan, a good hundred yards from him, and an easy two hundred yards from the man who had appeared behind me. My bullet hit the dirt about six feet short of him, but he ducked back out of sight.
The sound of the shots faded, and all was still. Ethan had disappeared. Suddenly there was another shot and my bundle of meat jerked. Evidently somebody had mistaken the meat for me. Lying still, my eyes searched for a target, but I could see nothing. Their attempt at surprise having failed, they had to make another try at it, but we were in a bad situation. Ethan was worse off than I was, for he was in the bottom near the marsh. There was good hiding down there but no way he could escape without crossing a hundred yards of white snow where he'd be as easy to see as a red shirt at a Quaker meeting.
My position wasn't bad. I was right at the tapering off point of the pines that came down off the ridge toward the swamp. There was some scattered brush, snow-covered rocks, and a few deadfalls. Our trouble was we had no idea how many we were facing. The man I'd shot seemed to be dead. He lay sprawled on the slope back of Ethan. His hat had rolled down the slope a little, and he was lying all sprawled out. It gave me a turn to see him there because I wanted no dead men on my back trail.
It was cold. We hadn't waited more than a few minutes before I realized this could get sort of tiresome. My fingers on that rifle began to get stiff with cold, and I dearly wished to move.
We'd killed one, and there might only have been two. We might be close by their camp without knowing it, and if so we'd be surrounded in no time. It was time to move.
Picking a spot in the thicker stand of trees, I dug in my toes and took off with a lunge.
Nothing happened.
No shot, no movement that I could see. From my safer position I scanned the country around, watching trees, birds playing in the brush, and the like. After a minute I glanced over at the dead man.
His rifle was still gripped in his right hand, and I could see a lump on the back of his coat near the side that might be a pistol butt.
The others, if there had been others, were gone. Walking out, I took the rifle from his hand and stripped off his pistol belt and gun. The rifle was a new Henry .44, and they were a scarce thing. Cain and I, we had two of the first ones. Cain had worked in a plant in New Haven where they were made, only returning to Illinois when he started westward.
The pistol was an old cap-and-ball, much worn. His belt held thirty rounds of cartridges for the rifle.
Ethan came up to meet me, carrying his meat. I loaded up, and we led off into the trees, backtracking the man who shot at me. We found his horse tied to a tree with a blanket roll behind the saddle, two well-packed saddlebags, and a heavy coat. There were a couple of letters in the pocket addressed to Win Pollard, Fort Bridger, Dakota Territory.
He was among them who attacked us at the town, Ethan said. I recognize that horse. Had one like him, one time.
We loaded our meat on the horse and started back to our town. We stripped the saddle from the horse and hung it on a peg in the shed back of Cain's place. The folks were glad to see the fresh meat.
Webb went out next day and killed a deer. He rode by our kill, and there were fresh bear tracks, so the old bear had evidently found enough to keep him through until spring.
Webb told us about it when he got back. Seen that body, he commented. Didn't you say you found some letters?
I showed them to him, and he glanced at the signature. Well, you got you some trouble, boy.
What's that mean?
Win Pollard. You killed him. I figured I knew that face. Win's got him a family. He's got some brothers and a mighty mean lot they are. When word gets to them, they'll come a-hunting.
He bought trouble, Ethan said. We were just cutting up meat when they came on us.
It'll make them no mind, Webb said. Those Pollards are vengeful boys.
For two weeks then we had a quiet time, with much hunting and some evenings of reading and talking. Taking the oxen so's to rest the horses, I went out and snaked a couple of big deadfalls out of the woods, then took a wagon up to the edge of the trees and loaded it with firewood.
Neely Stuart was out and killed an antelope. He said he saw some horse tracks over on Pine Creek, west of us. Four riders, he said.
When I came back to Cain's house for supper that day, Mae Stuart was there, helping Lorna get food on the table. She had her hair up and looked mighty pretty, swishing her skirts at me as she went by.
We're going to have a dance, Ben! We're going to have a dance up at Mrs. Macken's!
It's true! Lorna said. Ruth Macken was down today talking to Cain and Helen about it. She said nobody had done anything but work since we arrived, and it was time we had a dance or a party.
When?
Next week. Friday night. We're all going to make cake and cookies and whatever.
It would be like Ruth Macken to think of that, and it was true that it was time we had some fun. We had hunted, built cabins, improved them, cut wood, and we had our difficulties. Yet I felt guilty.
That dance was less important to me than getting another book from Ruth Macken. So much time seemed to be getting away from me, and in the east men of my years had gone to school eight to ten years and read besides.
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Cain got out his accordion, and it turned out Ethan played a fiddle. Tom Croft did also, and Tom had his with him. Everybody was talking about the party except Webb and me. I was thinking of books when Webb came up to me.
One of those men got away, he said. We've got to do something about them, Ben.
What can we do?
Go after them. If they can ambush, so can we.
I never laid out to shoot any man, I said. If they come for us, I'll fight.
We've been lucky, mighty lucky. Suppose they come on us unexpected? Or when most of us are away?
What do you have it in mind to do?
There's been no snow since. We could backtrack them, make it so hot theyll pull out and leave.
It made no sense. There were too few of us to risk, and they'd already come against us twice and had come off hurting. They might have learned a lesson. We had trouble enough without borrowing it. Yet I had to admit we'd been lucky. If I hadn't caught that move out of the corner of my eye, Ethan and I would be dead, and if Webb hadn't been quick on the shoot that first day we might have lost that fight.
We can talk to Ethan, I said, and Cain.
No, Cain said, when I mentioned it to him at supper. We'll not borrow trouble. We'll just have to keep watch as best we can.
That night I walked up the hill to Ruth Macken's cabin. It was clear, and the stars were bright in the dark sky. I stood for a long time, just dreaming, wondering what the years would bring and filled with a nameless longing that I could not find a place for.
It was pleasant inside. Mrs. Macken had curtains at her windows and in front of her bunks, and she had a real candlestick. Two of them, in fact. I had heard Loma and Helen talking of Mrs. Macken's things, and longing was in their voices. I had learned long since that women set store by such fixings.
They were just up from supper, so while she did dishes I stood by, talking to her and Bud about the country, the way animals lived, and the plants. She dried her hands and went to the trunk again and took out another book. It was Walden, by Thoreau.
He was a friend of Ralph Waldo Emerson, Mrs. Macken said, and a thinking man. I believe you will enjoy the book, Mr. Shafter, and you will enjoy meeting Mr. Thoreau.
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