My face flushed, making the sunburn flare up. I reminded myself that Ling didn’t know.
“Why don’t you like them?” I said, nodding over at the crib.
“They don’t belong here.”
“Well, they’re stranded, Ling. It’s not like they have a choice. Besides, we’re better off now, aren’t we?”
She waved her hand again, dismissive. Ling was old, and probably didn’t care much about brain band, jump gates, or graviton tech. I thought she would have at least cared about the defense shield the haan were building for us, but maybe she didn’t care much about that either. It was a big-ticket item for me. When the first pieces started going up in six months, I’d feel a lot better.
Ling watched Tanchi paw at the air, the scalefly buzzing in a circle above him, and sighed. “We shouldn’t let them breed.”
“They have to have some or they’ll die out.”
“Let them die out. Governor Hwong should put a stop to it. He would never agree to this.”
“He did, though.”
She frowned again. She wouldn’t criticize Governor Hwong—her loyalty to him was too ingrained—but a look of betrayal flashed in her eyes. No one was sure exactly why the haan wanted the human-haan surrogate program, or exactly why Hwong agreed to it. Some thought the haan were controlling him. Others thought the haan had made the flow of tech and the promise of the defense screen dependent on it. There were a million theories as to why the haan would put their fragile young in our brutish hands, but if nothing else it was a good show of how little a threat they really were. They were immune to all disease and most toxins, but their bodies broke all too easily. Wherever they came from, it was a gentler world than ours.
“They know how hard they make it, Ling,” I said. “They hate how hard they make it. They’d leave if they could.”
“Your father should put a stop to it,” Ling said. I almost corrected her again, but didn’t bother. “How is he anyway?”
“Okay, I guess. He’s on patrol in Menggu Province and I haven’t heard from him in a while. He’s been kind of blowing me off.”
“Maybe he found a girl there,” Ling joked.
“He wouldn’t—” I started, meaning to say that Dragan wouldn’t hook up with a Pan-Slav when of course, he was Pan-Slav himself, or used to be. “He doesn’t have a girl,” I snipped instead, and Ling smiled. “They’ve probably got him off dodging bullets, or—
I stopped myself before I went down that road again. I didn’t like to think about him over there. The foreign buildup to the south and offshore was bad, but the Pan-Slav border territories, especially the Menggu and Hasakesitan provinces, were the worst. The Pan-Slav Emirates were falling apart, and they were looking across the border at us like we were the last floating straw to grab on to. All kinds of weapons, even nukes and biological stuff, had been split up by new borders, and the pieces were getting grabbed up by desperate, starving lunatics with Dragan right there in the thick of it.
“Your father is brave,” Ling said. “He is there to keep us safe, to keep you safe.”
“Once it’s up we should just wipe them out,” I muttered. “We could do it then. Six months to start, another year to build, and then we should just . . . wipe them all out.”
“It’s not so simple.”
“Well, not easy like Menggu or Hasakesitan, but once the shield’s active, what’s to stop us?”
“Those territories were spent,” she said. “Without the tech to make the space valuable, it was barren and their people were dying. They had to let us take it. This is different.”
“I know,” I said. “I’m sorry, Ling. I’ll just be glad when he’s back in Hangfei. He should be in tomorrow night.”
“Good.”
“Look, thanks for covering, really. I know you don’t get it, but I need this gig.”
I fished a short stack of coin along with a crumpled paper bill from my pocket, and put the coins in her hand, curling her knobby fingers around them.
“You’re a good girl,” she said.
“Thanks.” I smoothed out the red bill and held it out so she could see. “Got any shine back in your place?”
She grinned, pinching the cigarette in her lips, and reached into the pocket of her knit shawl. She drew out a glass pint bottle filled with crystal clear liquid and handed it to me. As I took it, she plucked the bill from between my fingers.
“Thanks again,” I said. “He’ll settle down once I feed him. You have a good night, Ling.”
She patted my cheek, and her smile faded a little.
“They are a mistake,” she said, nodding toward the crib.
She hobbled past me, then out the front door and back down the hall toward her apartment. When the door closed, Tanchi keened again, and I saw him fidget behind the crib’s bars.
“Hey, sweetie.”
I scratched my head and remembered the smoke tucked behind my ear. I found my lighter in the bottom of one pocket and sparked it up, dragging until the crackling fibers formed a cherry. I sucked in a lungful and felt the nicotine-tetraz blend begin to calm the gnawing in my belly, at least a little. I blew the smoke out through my nose and felt the kid relax a little. Not because of the chems—they didn’t have any effect on him—but because the mite connection worked both ways and so when my brain chilled, his did a little, too.
It meant he sensed when something was wrong, too, though, and I could feel anxiety pricking in his mind as I approached the crib. His big, flat, ember orange eyes glowed in the shadows, looking up at me as I leaned over and planted a kiss on the cool, glassy surface of his forehead.
“It’s okay,” I told him. I wasn’t sure he believed me, but then, I wasn’t sure I believed me, either. One bombing had shocked me. Two had worried me. After that . . . I wondered if this was going to pass for normal now, if it would just keep getting worse. Were the days leading up to that first attack the last normal ones any of us would have and we just didn’t know it? Was this really just the beginning?
Tanchi’s eyes stared up at me, more anxiety bubbling up over our connection.
“Sorry.”
I reached down and carefully picked him up out of the crib still in his swaddle of blankets, then cradled him in my arms and let him reach up to paw my face.
“Don’t listen to Ling,” I told him. “You’re very cute.”
Tanchi farted sour air out of his feeding vent and I laughed to myself. I carried him across the room and took the second-to-last surrogate ration from the satchel hanging next to the fridge where the display said there was one human ration left—scalefly, of course. The fact that the haan pests were edible was supposed to be the one consolation for getting stuck with them, but considering how they tasted, it wasn’t much of a consolation to me.
Taste aside, my stomach felt hollow. But I didn’t want Dragan to come back to nothing at all. They’d send him home with a fresh ration punch sheet, but they always backdated them and the punches wouldn’t be redeemable until the next day. I took another puff off the cigarillo and then went back to plop down on the couch in front of the television. My reflection looked bony in the windowed wall behind it, a pale ghost in front of the city lights beyond where streams of air traffic painted lines in the night sky.
The canister’s black haan certificate overlapped the human one, both stickers askew above the Shiliuyuán logo. The round authorization stamp, basically a haan signature, was orange this time around instead of red like it had been since my first surrogate at thirteen. The symbol was different too, I’d noticed. Under that were my surrogate ID number and the name SAM Shao. Tanchi began reaching for the canister as I found the remote.
SAM. Dragan tagged me with the nickname after a detail with an American expat—it stood for Surface to Air Missile, and was also a Western name. He said it fit me because I left everywher
e I went looking like a bomb went off. Now practically every A.I. in Hangfei used it.
Guardian. I thought about how quick I’d been to correct Ling. True, Dragan wasn’t my real father, but I still felt guilty for saying it. It wasn’t like I was any great prize. There was a reason meat farmers grabbed people like me—when they chopped us into scrapcake and sold us on the black market, no one cared. When Dragan broke me and the others out of there, I wasn’t anything to take home—a used-up twelve-year-old train wreck who kept a knife under her pillow and had panic attacks—but that’s what he did. He took me home. He never judged me, or pitied me. Why couldn’t I call him my father?
Tanchi pawed my face, the ghost image of his bottle appearing and then fading as a throb of hunger seeped in through the mites. It ached, making my own stomach feel even hollower, but beneath it was that constant warm thread that bonded us, and I smiled. Ling thought she was helping with her prodding about a family, but I’d lost that option a long time ago. Haan were the only children that would ever truly be mine, and I was okay with that.
“Sorry,” I told him. “Long day.”
I cracked the seal on the top of the bottle, and felt it warm in my hand as I pulled out the rubber tube. At the sound, two little hands with their five delicate fingers reached out of the cocoon of blankets and began to grope at the air in front of his face, which was the color and texture of smoked crystal. The wrinkled gray mass of brains that lurked behind his bulbous forehead shifted eagerly, the second, smaller one drawing up beneath it and shuddering in the dark fluid there. Behind his honeycomb lattice of ribs, his tiny heart beat a steady samba at the thought of gorging. With my free hand, I used my phone to enter the feeding time into the online worksheet.
Once I got the confirmation, I pointed the business end of the bottle toward his wide, contoured face, making a spaceship noise in the back of my throat as he chattered happily.
“Coming in,” I said, moving the bottle closer. “Beginning docking sequence . . .”
When the tube touched his glassy lips, his mouth and chin dissolved into cool smoke. As the tube was sucked down into the tiny cloud to coil inside his belly, his hands grabbed hold of the bottle and I heard a greedy sigh.
“Easy there,” I said.
My stomach growled as I watched the haan child eat, and I took another drag on the smoke to compensate. Swaddled in his blankets, he clutched the silver canister to his little chest in a death grip, consuming calories at a rate that still amazed me every time I saw it. The cylinder, a variant on haan inversion tech, contained liters even though it fit neatly in my palm. Calorie-wise, that one bottle alone could easily feed me and Dragan for a week if it weren’t for the fact that, despite being processed from feedlot stores, haan formula would rupture a human’s intestines inside of a minute.
The scalefly landed on the canister’s bottom, and I waved it away as I put one foot up on the coffee table next to a cluster of shot glasses packed with chewed, lipstick-kissed butts and flipped on the television.
The channels were full of bomb news. I’d thought I wanted to know, like it would help somehow, but the barrage of video footage, blood, bones, and black smoke turned me off. I couldn’t watch it, not right now.
“. . . explosives were smuggled in via a one-man skiff and then carried across the tidal flats to avoid detection at the Hangfei gates,” a reporter rapped out as I flicked past. On the next channel, the headline CYBER ATTACK hovered over another talking head. A crawl at the bottom of the screen showed the current food index for the different feedlots. Most stayed steady while one, feedlot five, had gone up another tick. That was eighty-three point one percent in total now being sent directly to the haan.
“. . . suspect that the mysterious signal, first noticed a month ago buried in the time server feed, may be part of an ongoing cyber-terrorism attack whose purpose is not yet known. All attempts to block the signal have so far failed, as have all attempts to decipher”
I flipped again.
“The bombing took the lives of sixty-three people, and completely destroyed the largest ration distribution center in the borough—”
Flip.
“. . . how long before a conventional bombing turns to something far worse such as nuclear, or even biological? We need to strike first or . . .”
The camera zoomed in on the ocean’s horizon where the ever-present fleet of foreign ships sat like a city skyline, the sky above it streaked with jet contrails.
I punched in the code for my friend Vamp’s site and jumped away to Channel X, replacing the stream of reality with a welcome splash of electric glitz.
He’d changed his site backdrop to a new fan pic, a tall, whip-thin black girl in a two-piece that didn’t leave much to the imagination. She had a big Afro and lip gloss and made the signature X sign with her index fingers. At the bottom of the screen, the countdown to the Fangwenzhe Festival ticked off the remaining thirty or so hours second by second.
I glanced down as Tanchi’s little body shuddered with pleasure, and smiled. After a minute the last of the gelatin disappeared and he squeezed the canister one last time before stretching, shivering, and then going limp in a fit of post-gorging bliss. He groped with one little hand and when I reached down he gripped my index finger. The tube slithered back into the bottle, and his face turned solid again, lit by the mellow orange glow from his big, lidless eyes. When the twin trios of pinprick pupils found me, I felt a low rush of exhausted happiness. Then his digestion kicked into overdrive and he passed out.
As he snoozed, I cruised to Channel X’s main page where a map of the city displayed the blue specks of active users like scattered stars. Under that he’d posted a countdown to the haan’s Phase Five tech, which was due to be released to us in six months, along with a copy of the catalogue. We’d get the Escher Field, second-generation rations, limited freestanding gate portals, and of course, the defense shield.
One of the little pink hearts throbbed in the corner of the 3i window where a tap from Vamp let me know he’d posted the music cracks I’d been after. I pulled the files down to my phone and rang him up.
“Hey, Sam,” he said. “You get my post?”
“Yeah, thanks. Nice backdrop.”
“I thought you’d like it.”
“That your new girlfriend?”
“She wishes. She’s the lucky winner.”
I rolled my eyes. “Tell me you’re not still doing that.”
“Jealous?”
“Hey, I just feel bad for her,” I said.
“It’s for a good cause.”
“What, the ‘you getting laid foundation’?”
“In my heart, Sam. That’s where that hurts.”
“Upkeep for your pirate site and spying on security doesn’t count as a good cause,” I said, a smile creeping over my face. “You just like to date your fan mail.”
“Fame is a blessing, but also a curse, I’m sorry to say. Besides, how else would you have met me and then subsequently gotten both of us banned from the Joy Coffee Bar for life?”
“That was your fault.”
Normally he would have kept ribbing me. Our infamous contest date, which also got us kicked out of the skate park, was usually ripe territory, so when he didn’t respond my smile began to fade. I knew what he was going to ask next.
“You see the bombing from where you were?”
“No,” I said, “but I heard it.”
“Did you see the blast site on the—”
“I don’t want to talk about it right now, okay?”
“Sure. Okay.” He got quiet for a minute. “You getting psyched for the festival?”
“Totally. I need it this year.” I paused. “Can we do something fun tomorrow?”
“Like what?”
“I don’t know. Something fun. Here, though. I’ve got the kid
. Is that okay?”
He didn’t let on, but I knew haan babies creeped Vamp out a little. He hesitated a little, so I pushed.
“I just want to forget all this, you know? Just for a while.”
“No, I know,” he said. “You got it.”
“You don’t have plans?”
“Nope, I’m all yours.”
My smile came back.
“Dragan’s back tomorrow, right?”
“Yeah, but not until late.”
“You must be relieved.”
“Yeah.”
“How’s he holding up over there?”
“I don’t know. . . . He’s been kind of blowing me off.”
“He probably scored some primo Pan-Slav tail.”
“He did not,” I said. My hackles went up, but just then the floor vibrated, and outside a soft rumble began to swell. Through the plate-glass window, I saw a distant light flash above the clouds and I looked off toward the skyline for the source. At first I thought it was another bomb, but it wasn’t. Past the colorful sprawl of neon lights, flashing ads, and coursing air and street traffic, off where the electric pulse trickled and faded to black at the rim, one of the dark towers there had begun a slow-motion fall. I could see it silhouetted against the faint blue light of the dome behind it as crews chipped away at the urban ruins that still surrounded the Impact site.
Right, the demolition. The ad box had tried to remind me. They were doing more demo tonight, and right in our backyard this time. Any drug cookers and meat farmers they shook out would come running right into our little warren of Tùzi-wo, with security right behind them.
“Perfect,” I muttered, hoisting myself off the couch and carrying Tanchi over to the window.
The rumble swelled above the shaking of the air conditioner as hundreds of stories’ worth of concrete and glass collapsed into a growing black cloud that billowed out in front of the blue force field and the towering hulk of the haan ship behind it.
Over thirty years they’d been here now. A stray graviton eddy on the platform of what used to be Shiliuyuán Station was about all the warning anyone got that they were coming, or so the story went. Then a quarter million people were gone in the blink of an eye, the haan’s force field dome growing around the hulk of their ship while the rubble still smoldered. They hid then, safe behind that field, until they could convince us that what happened was an accident and not an attack. I understood the haan better than most, I thought, but even so I had to wonder when I looked at that field what promise they could possibly have made that kept us from retaliating when people still screamed for it even now.
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