A fierce pang of joy stabbed through Joscelyn. But she would not let Mrs. Conrad suspect it.
“Isn’t he going to sell Treewoofe?”
“Sell Treewoofe! Sometimes I’m afraid he will—and go God knows where—my dearest son.”
Something gave way in Mrs. Conrad. Joscelyn’s apparent immobility maddened her. She let loose all the suppressed hatred of years. She shouted—she cried—she raved—she leaned across the gate and tried to shake Joscelyn. In short she made such a show of herself that all the rest of her life she went meekly and humbly before Joscelyn, remembering it. Uncle Pippin, ambling along the side road from a neighborly call, heard her and paused in dismay. Two women fighting—two women of the clan—they must be of the clan, for nobody but Darks and Penhallows lived just around there. It must be Mrs. Sim Dark and Mrs. Junius Penhallow. They were always bickering, though he could not recollect that they had ever made such a violent scene as this in public before. What if Stanton Grundy should hear of it? It must be put a stop to. Little Uncle Pippin valiantly trotted up to the gate and attempted to put a stop to it.
“Now, now,” he said. “This is most unseemly!”
Just then he discovered that it was Joscelyn Dark and her mother-in-law. Uncle Pippin felt that he had rushed in where both angels and fools might fear to tread.
“I—I beg your pardon,” he said feebly, “I just thought it was someone fighting over Aunt Becky’s jug again.”
It was quite unthinkable that Joscelyn and Mrs. Conrad could be rowing over the jug. Since it couldn’t be the jug it must be Hugh, and Uncle Pippin, who was not lacking in sense of a kind—as he put it himself, he knew how many beans made five—understood that this was no place for a nice man.
“Pippin,” said Mrs. Conrad, rather breathlessly but still very tragically, “go home and thank the good Lord He made you a fool. Only fools are happy in this world.”
Uncle Pippin went. And if he did not thank the Lord for being a fool he did at least thank Him devoutly that he still had the use of his legs. He paused when he got to the main road to wipe the perspiration from his brow.
“A reckless woman that—a very reckless woman,” said Uncle Pippin sadly.
3
Nan was in the room before Gay had heard any sound. She had never been to Maywood since the night at the Silver Slipper—Gay had never met her alone since then. Occasionally they met at clan affairs, where Nan had always greeted Gay affectionately and mockingly and Gay had been cool and aloof. The clan thought Gay handled the situation very well. They were proud of her.
Gay looked up in amazement and anger from her seat by the window. What was Nan doing here? How dared she walk into one’s room like that, unannounced, uninvited? Nan, smiling and insolent, in a yellow frock with a string of amber beads on her neck and long dangling amber earrings, with her blood-red mouth and her perfumed hair and her sly green eyes. What business had Nan here?
“Has she come,” thought Gay, “to ask me to be her bridesmaid? She would be quite capable of it.”
“You don’t look overjoyed to see me, honey,” said Nan, coolly depositing herself on Gay’s bed and proceeding to light a cigarette. Gay reflected rather absently that Nan was wearing that ring she was so fond of—a ring that Gay always hated—with a pale-pink stone cabochon, looking exactly as if a lump of flesh were sticking through the ring. The next moment Gay felt an odd sensation tingling over her. Where was Noel’s diamond? And what was Nan saying?
“And yet I’ve come to tell you something you’ll be glad to hear. I’ve broken my engagement with Noel. Sent him packing, in short. You can have him after all, Gay.”
Long after she had spoken, the words seemed to Gay to be vibrating in the atmosphere. It seemed to Gay a long, long time before she heard herself saying coolly,
“Do you think I want him now?”
“Yes, I think you do,” said Nan insolently. She could make any tone—any movement—insolent. “Yes, in spite of that big diamond of Roger’s”—ah, Gay knew very well Nan had been jealous of that diamond—“and in spite of the new bungalow going up at Bay Silver, I think you want Noel as badly as you ever did. Well, you’re quite welcome to him, dear. I just wanted to show you I could get him. Do you remember telling me I couldn’t?”
Yes, Gay remembered. She sat very still because she was afraid if she moved an eyelash she would cry. Cry, before Nan! This girl who had flung Noel Gibson aside like a worn-out toy.
“Of course it will give the clan the tummy-ache,” said Nan. “Their ideas about engagements date back to the Neolithic. Even Mother! Although in her heart she’s glad, too. She wants me to marry Fred Margoldsby at home, you know. I daresay I will. The Margoldsby dollars will last longer than love. I really was a little bit in love with Noel. But he’s getting fat, Gay—he really is. He’s got the beginnings of a corporation. Fancy him at forty. And he had got into such a habit of telling me his troubles.”
Gay suddenly realized that this was true. It struck her that Noel had always had a good many troubles to tell. And she remembered as suddenly that he had never seemed much interested in her troubles. But she wished Nan would stop talking and go away. She wanted to be alone.
Nan was talking airily on.
“So I’m going to Halifax for a visit. Mother, of course, won’t leave till she knows who is to get that potty old jug. Do you ever think, Gay, that if Aunt Becky—God rest her soul—hadn’t left that jug as she did, you’d probably have been married to Noel by now?”
Gay had thought of it often—thought of it bitterly, rebelliously, passionately. She was thinking it again now, but with a curious feeling of detachment, as if the Gay who might have been married to Noel were some other person altogether. If only Nan would go!
Nan was going. She got up and flung another gratuitous piece of advice insolently to Gay.
“So, Gay dear, just tell your middle-aged beau that you don’t want a consolation prize after all and warm up the cold soup with Noel.”
Really, Nan could be very odious when she liked. Yet somehow she didn’t hate her as before. She felt very indifferent to her. She found herself looking at her with cool, appraising eyes, seeing her as she had never seen her before. An empty, selfish little creature, who had always to be amused like a child. A girl who said “hell” because she thought it would shock her poor old decent clan. A girl who thought she was doing something very clever when she publicly powdered her nose with the unconcern of a cat washing its face in the gaze of thousands. A girl who passed as a sophisticate before her country cousins but who was really more provincial than they were, knowing nothing of real life or real love or real emotion of any kind. Gay wondered, as she looked, how she could ever have hated this girl—ever been jealous of her. She was not worth hating. Gay spoke at last. She stood up and looked levelly at Nan. There was contempt in her quiet voice.
“I suppose you came here to hurt me, Nan. You haven’t—you can never hurt me again. You’ve lost the power. I think I even feel a little sorry for you. You’ve always been a taker, Nan. All through your life you’ve taken whatever you wanted. But you’ve never been a giver—you couldn’t be because you’ve nothing to give. Neither love nor truth nor understanding nor kindness nor loyalty. Just taking all the time and giving nothing—oh, it has made you very poor. So poor that nobody need envy you.”
Nan shrugged her shoulders.
“Please omit flowers,” she said. But her subtle air of triumph had left her. She went out with an uneasy feeling that Gay had had the best of it.
Left alone, Gay sat down by her window again. Everything seemed different—changed. She wished this hadn’t happened. It had unsettled her. She had been so contented before Nan came—even happy. Thinking of the new bungalow Roger was building for their home.
“I want to build a house for you,” he had said, his eyes looking deep into hers with a look that was like a kiss. “A house
that will be a home to come to when I’m tired—on a little hill so that we’ll have a view, but not a hill like Treewoofe—too high above all the rest of the world. A house with you in it, Gay, to welcome me.”
They had planned it together. The clan overwhelmed them with floods of advice but they took none of it. It was to have one window that faced the sea and another that looked on the dreamy, over-harbor hills. And a quaint little eyebrow window in the roof.
They would be able to look through their open dining-room door into the heart of a blooming apple tree in its season—a hill of white blossom against the blue sky—to eat supper there and see the moonrise behind it. There was a clump of cool, white birches at one corner. A spruce bush behind it where dear little brown owls lived. Gay had been so interested in everything. Her bathroom was to be mauve and pale yellow. She would have window-boxes of nasturtiums and petunias and Kenilworth ivy. She was thinking about nice linen—nice little teacups. The wedding was to be in late October. The clan had really behaved beautifully—although Gay knew what they were saying behind her back.
And now everything was tangled up again. Gay walked late that night, in the old Maywood garden that lay fragrant and velvety under the enchantment of a waning moon. The ghost of a lost happiness came and mocked her. Noel was free again. And Gay knew that what Nan had said was true. She did want him—with all her heart she wanted him still—and she had to marry Roger in October.
4
Peter Penhallow was finding out the fun of really trying to get something. After a year in Amazonian jungles, where, when his temper had cooled, he spent most of his time longing to hear Donna’s exquisite laugh again, he had come home to make it up with her. Never doubting that he would find her as ready and eager to “make up” as he was. Peter knew very little about women and still less about a woman who was the daughter of Drowned John. He arrived Saturday night, much to the surprise of his family, who had supposed him still in South America, and had promptly telephoned Donna—or tried to. Old Jonas answered the phone and said all the folks were away—he didn’t know where.
Peter chewed his nails in frenzy until next morning, when he saw Donna across the church. His darling—unchanged—with the mournful shadows under her eyes and her dark, cloud-like hair. What a pair of fools they had been to quarrel over nothing! How they would be laughing over it presently!
Donna got the shock of her life when she saw Peter looking at her across the church. Outwardly she took it so coolly that Virginia, who was watching her anxiously, threw her eyes up at the ceiling in relief.
Donna had hated Peter furiously for over a year and it seemed now that she hated him more than ever. After the first startled glance she would not look at him again. When church came out he strode across the green to meet her—exultantly, triumphantly, masterfully. That was where he made a fatal mistake! If he had been a little timid—a little less cocksure—if he had shown himself a repentant, ashamed Peter, creeping back humbly for pardon, Donna, in spite of her hate, might have flung herself on his neck before everybody. But to come like this—as if they had parted yesterday—as if he had not behaved outrageously to her when they had parted—as if he had not ignored her existence for a year, sending never a word or message—expressing no contrition—coming smiling towards her as if he expected her to be grateful to him for forgiving her—which was exactly what Peter did expect—no, it was really too much. Donna, after one level, contemptuous glance, turned her back on Peter and walked away.
Peter looked rather foolish. Some boys standing near giggled. Virginia swept after Donna to help her through this ordeal. And, “Don’t be so—emotional,” was all the thanks she got.
Drowned John wanted to swear but couldn’t, realizing thankfully that in little over a month more the affair of the jug would be settled and free speech once more be possible. Finally Peter turned away and went home, lost in wonder at himself for putting up with all this just to get a woman.
Peter’s next attempt was to stalk down to Drowned John’s, walk into the house without knocking, and demand Donna. Drowned John raved, stamped and played the heavy parent to perfection—yet still—will it be believed?—did not swear. Peter would have cared little for Drowned John if he could have seen Donna but not a glimpse could he get of her. He went home, defeated, asking himself for the hundredth time why he endured this sort of thing. It was really an obsession. Donna wasn’t worth it—no feminine creature in the world was worth it. But he meant to have her for all that. He was not going to endure another such year as he had endured among the upper reaches of the Amazon. Sooner would he knock Donna over the head and carry her off bodily. It never occurred to Peter that all he had to do was to ask forgiveness for that night at the west gate. Nor, had it occurred to him, would he have done it. It had been all Donna’s fault. He was forgiving her—most magnanimously, without a word of reproach. And yet she seemed to expect him to crawl on all fours for her.
Eventually, finding it impossible to obtain speech with Donna, Peter wrote her a letter—probably the worst letter that was ever written in the world for such a purpose. Donna got it herself at the post office and, although she had never seen Peter’s large, black, untidy handwriting before, knew at once that it had come from him. She carried it home and sat down before it in her room. She thought she ought to return it to him unopened. Virginia would advise that, she was sure. But if she did, she knew she would spend the rest of her life wondering what had been in it.
Eventually she opened it. It was a blunt epistle. There was no word of repentance—or even of love in it. Peter told her he was leaving in a week’s time for South Africa, where he meant to spend four years photographing lions in their native haunts. Would she come with him or would she not?
This take-or-leave-it epistle infuriated Donna, when one “darling” or even an X for a kiss might have melted her into a forgiveness that hadn’t been asked for. Before her rage could cool she had torn the letter four times across, put it in an envelope and directed it to Peter.
“I’ll never forgive him,” she said through set teeth. It was a comfort to articulate the words. It made her feel more sure of herself. In her heart she was afraid she might forgive him. She dared not leave the letter lying on her table all night, lest her resolution fail her, so she went down and gave it to old Jonas to mail on his way to town. Then, the thing being irrevocable she went to her father and told him she was going away to train as a nurse, whether he was willing or not. Drowned John, who was thoroughly fed up with having a sulky thunderstorm at table and hearth for a year, told her she could go and be dinged to her. Whatever theological difference there may be between “damn” and “ding,” there was none whatever in Drowned John’s meaning or intonation.
As for Peter, when he got back his torn letter, he gave himself up to hate for a time and hated everything and everybody, living or dead. So matters stood until the night Dandy Dark’s house burned down.
5
The old Moon Man went singing softly through the quiet September night, under a silvery harvest moon. He went along by the dim ghostly shore of the Indian Spring river, past friendly old fields where the wind purred like a big cat, through woods where the trees were talking about him, along lanes where there was a stippling of moonlight on the narrow grassy path and over hills where he paused to listen to eternity. He was very happy and he pitied the poor folks asleep in the houses as he went by. They did not know what they were missing.
It was he who first saw that Dandy Dark’s, house, perched on the shoulder of a small wooded hill where the road turned down to Bay Silver, was on fire. The flames were already bursting out of the roof of the ell when the Moon Man thundered on the door and a drowsy hired boy shuffled down from the kitchen chamber to demand what was up. The Moon Man told him and then strode calmly off. Their life was no longer any concern of his. He was not going to lose another minute of this beautiful night for it. Behind him he left alarm and confusion. Dand
y Dark was away—nobody knew where. Dandy had taken to staying out late at nights, though as yet nobody knew of it except his wife. But the clan at large knew that something had come over Dandy in the past few weeks. He was changed. Unsociable, uneasy, irritable, absent-minded. Some put it down to the fact that the date for the jug decision was drawing near and argued that the decision must be in Dandy’s hands, since he was so manifestly uncomfortable about it. Either that, or something had happened to the jug. Nobody dared ask Dandy about it; he positively snapped now if any one referred to the jug. But everybody more or less was beginning to feel uneasy, too. And now Dandy’s house was burning. The hired boy had yelled down the hall for Mrs. Dandy, had roused a neighbor on the phone and had dashed to the barn for ladders. In an incredibly short time a crowd had gathered, but from the first it was manifest that the house was doomed. They had got out most of the furniture and were grimly watching the spectacle when Dandy arrived home.
“Good Gosh,” cried Dandy, “where is the jug?”
Incredible as it may seem, nobody had thought about the jug. Everybody stared at each other. There was no one to ask. Mrs. Dandy, when the hired boy roused her, had promptly run out of the front door in her night-dress and fainted in a corner of the garden. Foolish Mrs. Dandy was noted for doing things like that. She had been carried over to Penny Dark’s house on the next farm and was being attended to there.
“Doesn’t anyone know anything about the jug?” howled Dandy, losing his head completely and running wildly about, clawing over the stuff that had been saved from his blazing roof-tree.
“Where was it kept?” shouted somebody.
“In the spare-room closet,” moaned Dandy.
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