Love with Every Beat

by K. L. Shandwick

  Aware she was shifting, slipping them off and then she scrunched them in her hand and brought them back to my face. Inhaling deeply the scent of Lily’s sex was torturous to me because I needed to be inside her. Leaving the bed she picked up my jeans and tucked them back in my jeans pocket and took out the condom she knew would be waiting there.

  Creeping back over my body, she ripped the condom packet with her teeth, setting it down near her. She straddled my lap and rubbed and rocked herself on me, the velvety wet feel of her pussy over my straining dick was making me feel like a desperate man, and Lily was so fucking horny I know we would have died if what she was doing went on for much longer.

  Don’t get me wrong, the anticipation made it that more exciting, but jeez, I was ready to blow. Lily was shuffling down my body and scooped her hair into a makeshift ponytail. Her mouth closed over my dick and she sucked me gently, watching me and my reaction to what she was doing to me.

  Pressure on my dick, when Lily sat upright and straddled me. Her weight bearing down again on my length, as she began rocking and rubbing herself against me. “What do you want, Alfie…tell me?”

  Hissing my reply, “Inside.”

  Lily pretended not to hear me. “What did you say?”

  Growling, l arched up with hips so frustrated that I thought my dick would break if it didn’t penetrate her soon. “Inside. Fuck. Please, Lily.”

  Smiling, she reached for the condom from the now open foil packet. Taking my dick her hands, she rolled the latex down my shaft, pinching the top, and positioned herself with my dick at her entrance. “You’re sure now?”

  “Certain. Never been fucking more so.” My voice was thick with lust and staring up at her, just looking at her, I felt this would be the ride of my life. One I would never forget in the midst of all the times we’d had sex in the past.

  Painstakingly slow, she slid down my dick and it felt so fucking good, I couldn’t even begin to describe it in words. Eager for more I thrust my hips up at the same time, spreading her until we were skin on skin with her ass on my pubic bone.

  A long moan tore from both of our mouths simultaneously. “Ahh, Oh, God.” Lily gasped and stilled, then dipped her head to kiss me. Moaning into her, I was lost in the feeling of her squeezing me tightly from the inside.

  When she did that I growled, bringing my head off of the bed to look at her. “Do that again and I’ll come,” I admonished before she pushed me back and began to undulate her hips. As soon as she did, I lost control.

  Fucking her hard from beneath, I spread my knees to get greater movement from my hips. Lily was leaning forward, and I dug my heels in and plunged in and out of her rapidly, the fact I couldn’t hold her ass and my hands were tied made it even more exciting.

  “Soo, fucking amazing,” I growled.

  Needless to say, neither of us lasted long, with all the pent up tension that had been hanging in the air between us during the past few days, never mind what had taken place in the room that night.

  “Ohh, Alfie,” Lily cried and clung to me, her teeth biting into my shoulder as her body jerked in spasms and her pussy squeezed me so fucking hard I thought I was going to pass out.

  Three hard thrusts after that, I felt myself climb, the orgasm building inside my head and it made me feel so high,

  “Oh, Lily. Fuck, I’m coming, babe.” Pulsating inside her, my dick was surrounded with my jizz hot and sticky inside the condom.

  Panting loudly and way too excited, my heartbeat was in my mouth. “Fuck. I’m sorry. You turned me turned on too much.” Kind of embarrassed I’d come so quickly. Lily was the usual beautiful, panting mess after sex, but she leaned forward and kissed my nose.

  “Alfie you can never be too turned on.” Untying my wrists, she rubbed them, and when I brought them down my armpits were in agony.

  Wrapping them around Lily, I pulled her into my chest and held her so tightly. She surprised me by reaching down and taking the condom off, tying it and discarding it on the floor before cuddling me again.

  Lying holding her I just kept thanking God for bringing her back to me.

  “I love you, so fucking much, Lily, and what you just did there…I like it better when you wear the panties, you can keep them. My panties never tasted anything like they did when you wore them.”

  She started giggling which made me laugh, and I gave her a squeeze. Slow lazy kisses between us and long loving gazes completed us. We were both knocked out with all the holding back and emotional turmoil and passed out a little while later.

  Waking up, I heard Jack and Lennon talking loudly in the hallway. Lily was awake and staring at me when I opened one eye. “Hey,” I mumbled softly. A smile slowly spreading on my lips at the sight of her.

  Lily snuggled down the bed, her face an inch from mine, but I’d let her control me last night, now I needed to claim back Alfie Black the alpha male. Moving swiftly, I pinned her to the mattress with my hips and was smiling down at her

  “I think it’s my turn to be in charge today.” I grinned and brushed some strands of hair from her face, then dropped my forehead to hers. Staring at each other silently, it felt as if one of us looked away, the other would disappear.

  Adjusting my head I pressed my lips to hers. It was a perfect moment. Just Lily and me. No one and nothing to interfere with what was happening between us.

  Licking her lips, they parted slowly and my hot probing tongue began to explore her mouth. Tongue to tongue feeling the need building inside the both of us. Lily swallowed hard and squirmed beneath me as the effects of my tongue teased other parts of her body.

  I took her again that morning, our hands joined and raised above her head. Gripping tightly, both of us feeling the rhythm of the music we were making from our lovemaking and tapping out a beat of our own by squeezing one another’s hands.

  The intensity of our session together was definitely one where we worshiped each other’s bodies from the moment I slid inside her. Watching Lily being pleasured was a pleasure in itself.

  I’d never experienced anything that intense and emotional before. We thought we had a couple of times, but nothing compared to that one.

  Every stroke, every thrust, kiss, and every touch was done with our foreheads touching and our eyes fixed, entranced by each other. No point in trying to explain it, I wouldn’t know where to start.

  After Christmas things got a bit hectic for me and the band, we had to fly to Los Angeles for a gig on New Year’s Eve, and Lily couldn’t come because she had commitments of her own to meet. She was doing a tour with XrAid that had been set up before our arrangement had been agreed to.

  The day I was going, I could see Lily’s face full of concern and insecurity, and the last thing I wanted was her running on me again. It definitely wasn’t the best timing.

  Kissing her tenderly, I tucked her hair behind her ears and stared at her intensely. “I’m just going for a few days honey I’ll be back before you know it. I’m not saying goodbye, I’m saying I can’t wait to see you again, okay?”

  Lily nodded, choked with emotion, and she buried her face in my chest. Taking a deep breath, she twisted my shirt in her hand. “I can’t wait to see you too. You will come and find me, won’t you?”

  Smirking and thinking about the backstage pass she had given me. “South Carolina on the third, right? I have this cool, hot, rock chick who has given me a backstage pass to see her band. You have no idea how relieved I was to get them, because I didn’t fancy giving the security guy a blow job to get backstage. Wonder if I’ll get lucky when I see her.” She laughed, and I was glad I could bring a smile to her face.

  Glad turned to sad, when Lily’s tears started falling down her face. My heart was aching—I didn’t want to go either. At one point I even thought about faking sickness, but I knew if I started doing that I was admitting that Lily was right, we couldn’t have music and us.

  Holly came in and interrupted, and I was able to leave while Lily was distracted by the general conversati
on. I knew that she was in good hands with Holly.

  Chapter 54 – New Year

  As gigs went it was a good one, and the meet and greet was full of awesome fans that were fun to be around. We hung out with them and brought the New Year in then went to phone Lily. I saw a text from her.

  Pink Lady: Happy New Year x

  Pressing the call back button without thinking, as she answered I remembered the time difference between the West and East coast. Lily sounded pissed at first then realized I wasn’t that late in calling her. Besides I was working.

  Neither of us spoke again until I caught up with her and her band in South Carolina a few days later. They were touring by bus, but I had booked a hotel room for us. No way was I making love first day back to my girl with four sweaty hard up guys listening in.

  Arriving at the gig was funny. The guy at the security barrier was a real fan of Crakt Soundzz and the poor guy almost freaked out. He got his cell out and took a picture of himself with me then called his mum for her to say “hi,” as well.

  Texting Keiron, he arrived at the doorway just as I was getting out of the car. “Jeez, Alfie you’re cutting it fine, they only have half an hour before they go on.” Striding quickly down the maze of tunneled corridors we arrived at XrAid’s dressing room, and I couldn’t help but swallow hard because my life was at the other side of the door.

  Keiron knocked on the door then poked his head in. I swear the guy just lives for drama.

  “Someone to see you, Lily.”

  It was hard for me not to pass out this time, stalking toward her with my palms up having withdrawn them from my pockets. She was sitting at the dressing table, and I crouched down to her height. She smelt fresh and of roses and vanilla and lily. Perfect.

  “Hey,” I said softly kissing her lips chastely, then scooped her out of the chair, sat down, and placing her back on my lap and she exhaled deeply, I did as well, trying to control my breathing because Lily always left me breathless.

  “Miss me?” I whispered

  Stroking my hand up her neck and into her hair. “C’mere,” I coaxed as I wetted my lips. “I need to kiss you.” Placing my forehead on hers and staring into her eyes, I said, “Fuck, I missed you so much.”

  Lily started to talk before I finished what I was doing. “So, Alfie, tell me, which was it, the backstage pass or the blowjob?”

  Cody snickered looking at me, but I could see he had no clue what Lily was talking about and his face made me laugh, raising my eyebrow at Lily.

  “Hmm…did I tell you there are females on the security detail out there?”

  She slapped my upper arm. “There is?”

  Wrapping my arms around her and smiling down,

  “Who do you think frisks all the female fans?” I chuckled. “Trust me, seeing them and looking at you…backstage pass, no competition.” I winked.

  Interrupted by the runner, we all headed for the stage. Lily looked nervous as she stood waiting to go out into the darkness, and Cody took Lily’s hand and began speaking softly to her. In that moment I wasn’t even there. Just her and Cody.

  Watching his face intensely, Lily nodded as she listened to his voice. Cody was speaking in a low and nurturing tone to her, as he coaxed her to relax. Seeing how much he cared about Lily was a wake- up call.

  More shocking was how receptive she was to his voice and how that made me feel. I was standing next to them but completely excluded.

  Feeling so fucking helpless and jealous that Cody was what she needed and that he got to do that for her every day on tour, was a body blow to me. Angry at myself for not taking all of this into account with Lily, I growled out loud.

  Suddenly the emcee gave his greeting to the crowd and announced XrAid to them. The crowd roared and whistled their appreciation and then a hush fell over the auditorium as the lights dimmed and the stage went black. Lily stared over at me, I could barely see her face, but mouthed, “You’ll be fabulous.”

  Cody laced his fingers in hers. “Come on, babe, show’em what you’ve got,” he said pulling her by her hand out to the front of the stage.

  Standing watching Lily and her band play, I thought about the last time I had done that. It had been a few months ago, but the memory of it was like yesterday.

  My heart ached when I had watched her then, for the loss and the thought that I’d never get to be with her. And because despite everything we’d been through we were now together and I was still not able to be everything she needed.

  Accepting that Lily needed more than I was able to give her was something I never contemplated. Stupidly thinking my fame gave me the right to manage everyone else, to make her happy. What a selfish bastard I’d been. After all this time of loving her, and the times I’ve been reassuring her that it would be fine, I’d been looking at our relationship in simple terms.

  Friends of Lily’s weren’t just friends, they were family. Observing her with Cody, and how trusting she was of his words showed me love isn’t enough to get by on in life. Love is fabulous and everyone needs it, but mutual respect understanding and consideration of the needs of who you love will sustain the relationship when the passion boils down to a simmer.

  Standing there, I watched Lily be everything I want—beautiful, cool, intelligent, talented, and confident—and I realized that she’d got there in spite of me. Swallowing hard, no wonder Lily spurned me so many times.

  She was protecting her heart and those of her friends by being honest and staying true to herself. Lily loved me, but she was able to see the bigger picture of the future and the wider implications of being with me, because when she did give herself it would be forever.

  Maybe so much loss in such a short time affected my ability to feel and think in a certain way. I don’t know, but Lily was able to open my heart and connect it back to my thoughts and feelings in a way I had never before. Allowing Lily breathing space with her band would give her the emotional wealth to pour into us as a couple.

  Settling my mind that I could give Lily the space she needed, if that was what it took to keep her then I’d just have to get used to it. Staring at her out on stage, grinning and clearly in love with her music, there was no way I’d ever ask her to choose my world over hers. This was about being creative and making room for all of it in a new world that suited the both of us.

  Running off stage straight into my arms, I lifted her up and hugged her tightly. “Fuck me. You were fucking awesome, baby,” growling and burying my face in her neck. Lily shivered and squirmed chuckling. Slipping her back down my body and placing her on her feet, Lennon was waiting to speak. Lily turned and hugged him tightly.

  “Good job, you were amazing, Lennon.” Lily loved those guys I could see it in her smile as he bent to kiss her forehead.

  “Ditto,” he smirked.

  Cody came up and lifted her off the ground and twirled her around, growling, “Damn, sexy girl. You were on fire out there.” He chuckled, and I wasn’t keen on the fact he was demonstrating that level of affection and familiarity with her around me. If he was comfortable with doing that with me there, what was he like when I wasn’t around?

  Cody was still hugging her when Digs placed his hand on his shoulder. “Dude, do you mind. You’re encroaching on my hugging time.” Cody smirked and let her go as Digs swooped in for a hug. “Excellent gig baby girl.” He patted her hair down and away from her face. I had no worries about Digs and Lily. He was a cool dude.

  Concerns about Lily and her fans were never far from my mind. I knew how they could get with me and was even more concerned because of how she looked and the fan base she was gathering. College boys and guys in their thirties—both were worrisome for different reasons. The college guys did things to excess and muscular twenty something’s who were more honed in their skills with women.

  Hanging back and watching from a distance, I didn’t want to steal any thunder from the guys. Not that I was better than them, just that I was more well- known and some people might want to talk to me instead
.

  Getting a sense that something was wrong, Lennon seemed to interject with Lily and a fan and ushered her away, but Lily was still smiles and I couldn’t understand that, when I caught up with her she relayed what had been going on.

  Lily was very adept at handling the fans, polite and courteous without being overfriendly and giving them the wrong idea. She seemed relaxed, and I was actually in awe that my sweet woman was able to pull the whole rock star thing off. I still saw her as sweet and innocent for some reason.

  Apparently two guys passed her a copy of XrAid’s CDs to sign. Both had written notes with their telephone numbers and placed them in the plastic cases. When she opened one of them to sign the paper inside, he had put a naked picture of him there and winked at her when she looked up at him.

  Unnerved, Lily politely signed the CD paper and drew pants on the photo before handing it back. When he saw her do this and hand it back he said in a low voice, “You don’t know what you’re missing, baby.”

  Lily had nodded at him to take it back smiling and said, “Yeah, I do, I’ve seen you now remember? And from what I saw, I’m not missing much. Sorry but I prefer a bit of mystery in my men. Maybe you shouldn’t have been so…out there with the picture.” After cussing about the guy and wanting to break his balls I saw the funny side.

  “Jeez, remind me why I agreed to this again?” I was traveling on the bus with XrAid to Virginia but had booked us into a hotel. It was an overnighter and by the time we got there I was exhausted. Lily didn’t mind sleeping on the bus, but I had other ideas.

  “It’s bad enough when I have to do this. Plus, I haven’t seen you in a week. I’m not getting laid in a bunk bed our first night together again. I’d definitely pull a muscle, and it’s fucking impossible to change position in those things. What if I wanted to stand?” I smirked.

  Staring back at me with a serious face. “Who said anything about getting laid? Is that why you made the effort?”

  Chuckling at her, I said, “I knew I should have taken that blow job from that butch looking security chick.”