‘It is said that a certain power is always at hand to facilitate the wishes that the individual forms for his own injury; and so it should seem in the present instance, – for she had scarce uttered these words, when the shadow of Melmoth was seen darkening the garden walk, – and the next moment he was beneath the casement. As she saw him approach, she uttered a cry of mingled joy and fear, which he hushed by making a signal of silence with his hand, and then whispered, ‘I know it all!’
‘Isidora was silent. She had nothing but her recent distress to communicate, – and of that, it appeared, he was already apprized. She waited, therefore, in mute anxiety for some words of counsel or of comfort. ‘I know all!’ continued Melmoth; ‘your father has landed in Spain – he brings with him your destined husband. The fixed purpose of your whole family, as obstinate as they are weak, it will be bootless in you to resist; and this day fortnight will see you the bride of Montilla.’ – ‘I will first be the bride of the grave,’ said Isidora, with perfect and fearful calmness.
‘At these words, Melmoth advanced and gazed on her more closely. Any thing of intense and terrible resolution, – of feeling or action in extremity, – made harmony with the powerful but disordered chords of his soul. He required her to repeat the words – she did so, with quivering lip, but unfaultering voice. He advanced still nearer to gaze on her as she spoke. It was a beautiful and fearful sight to see her as she stood; – her marble face – her moveless features – her eyes in which burned the fixed and livid light of despair, like a lamp in a sepulchral vault – the lips that half opened, and remaining unclosed, appeared as if the speaker was unconscious of the words that had escaped them, or rather, as if they had burst forth by involuntary and incontroulable impulse; – so she stood, like a statue, at her casement, the moonlight giving her white drapery the appearance of stone, and her wrought-up and determined mind lending the same rigidity to her expression. Melmoth himself felt confounded – appalled he could not feel. He retreated, and then returning, demanded, ‘Is this your resolution, Isidora? – and have you indeed resolution to’ – ‘To die!’ answered Isidora, with the same unaltered accent, – the same calm expression, – and seeming, as she spake, capable of all she expressed; and this union, in the same slight and tender form, of those eternal competitors, energy and fragility, beauty and death, made every human pulse in Melmoth’s frame beat with a throbbing unknown before. ‘Can you, then,’ he said, with averted head, and in a tone that seemed ashamed of its own softness – ‘Can you, then, die for him you will not live for?’ – ‘I have said I will die sooner than be the bride of Montilla,’ answered Isidora. ‘Of death I know nothing, nor do I know much of life – but I would rather perish, than be the perjured wife of the man I cannot love.’ – ‘And why can you not love him?’ said Melmoth, toying with the heart he held in his hand, like a mischievous boy with a bird, around whose leg he has fastened a string13 – ‘Because I can love but one. You were the first human being I ever saw who could teach me language, and who taught me feeling. Your image is for ever before me, present or absent, sleeping or waking. I have seen fairer forms, – I have listened to softer voices, – I might have met gentler hearts, – but the first, the indelible image, is written on mine, and its characters will never be effaced till that heart is a clod of the valley. I loved you not for comeliness, – I loved you not for gay deportment, or fond language, or all that is said to be lovely in the eye of woman, – I loved you because you were my first, – the sole connecting link between the human world and my heart, – the being who brought me acquainted with that wondrous instrument that lay unknown and untouched within me, whose chords, as long as they vibrate, will disdain to obey any touch but that of their first mover – because your image is mixed in my imagination with all the glories of nature – because your voice, when I heard it first, was something in accordance with the murmur of the ocean, and the music of the stars. And still its tones recall the unimaginable blessedness of those scenes where first I heard it, – and still I listen to it like an exile who hears the music of his native country in a land that is very far off, – because nature and passion, memory and hope, alike cling round your image; and amid the light of my former existence, and the gloom of my present, there is but one form that retains its reality and its power through light and shade. I am like one who has traversed many climates, and looks but to one sun as the light of all, whether bright or obscure. I have loved once – and for ever!’ Then, trembling at the words she uttered, she added, with that sweet mixture of maiden pride and purity that redeems while it pledges the hostage of the heart, ‘The feelings I have entrusted you with may be abused, but never alienated.’ – ‘And these are your real feelings?’ said Melmoth, pausing long, and moving his frame like one agitated by deep and uneasy thoughts. ‘Real!’ repeated Isidora, with some transient glow on her cheek – ‘real!’ Can I utter any thing but what is real? Can I so soon forget my existence?’ Melmoth looked up once more as she spoke – ‘If such is your resolution, – if such be your feelings indeed,’ – ‘And they are! – they are!’ exclaimed Isidora, her tears bursting through the slender fingers, which, after extending towards him, she clasped over her burning eyes. ‘Then look to the alternative that awaits you!’ said Melmoth slowly, bringing out the words with difficulty, and, as it appeared, with some feeling for his victim; ‘a union with the man who cannot love, – or the perpetual hostility, the wearying, wasting, almost annihilating persecution of your family! Think of days that’ – ‘Oh let me not think!’ cried Isidora, wringing her white and slender hands; ‘tell me – tell me what may be done to escape them!’ – ‘Now, in good troth,’ answered Melmoth, knitting his brows with a most cogitative wrinkle, while it was impossible to discover whether his predominant expression was that of irony or profound and sincere feeling – ‘I know not what resource you have unless you wed me.’ – ‘Wed you!’ cried Isidora, retreating from the window – ‘Wed you!’ and she clasped her hands over her pale forehead; – and at this moment, when the hope of her heart, the thread on which her existence was suspended, was within her reach, she trembled to touch it. ‘Wed you!– but how is that possible?’ – ‘All things are possible to those who love,’ said Melmoth, with his sardonic smile, which was hid by the shades of the night. ‘And you will wed me, then, by the rites of the church of which I am a member?’ – ‘Aye! or of any other!’ – ‘Oh speak not so wildly! – say not aye in that horrible voice! Will you wed me as a Christian maiden should be wed? – Will you love me as a Christian wife should be loved? My former existence was like a dream, – but now I am awake. If I unite my destiny to yours, – if I abandon my family, my country, my’ – ‘If you do, how will you be the loser? – your family harasses and confines you – your country would shout to see you at the stake, for you have some heretical feelings about you, Isidora. And for the rest’ – ‘God!’ said the poor victim, clasping her hands, and looking upwards, ‘God, aid me in this extremity!’ – ‘If I am to wait here only as a witness to your devotions,’ said Melmoth with sullen asperity, ‘my stay will not be long.’ – ‘You cannot leave me, then, to struggle with fear and perplexity alone! How is it possible for me to escape, even if – ‘By whatever means I possess of entering this place and retiring unobserved, – by the same you may effect your escape. If you have resolution, the effort will cost you little, – if love, – nothing. Speak, shall I be here at this hour to-morrow night, to conduct you to liberty and’ – Safety he would have added, but his voice faultered. ‘To-morrow night,’ said Isidora, after a long pause, and in accents almost inarticulate. She closed the casement as she spoke, and Melmoth slowly departed.’
CHAPTER XXIII
If he to thee no answer give,
I’ll give to thee a sign;
A secret known to nought that live,
Save but to me and mine.1
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Gone to be married –
SHAKESPEARE2
‘The whole of the next day was occupied by Don
na Clara, to whom letter-writing was a rare, troublesome, and momentous task, in reading over and correcting her answer to her husband’s letter; in which examination she found so much to correct, interline, alter, modify, expunge and new-model, that finally Donna Clara’s epistle very much resembled the work she was now employed in, namely that of overcasting3 a piece of tapestry wrought by her grandmother, representing the meeting of king Solomon and the queen of Sheba. The new work, instead of repairing, made fearful havock among the old; but Donna Clara went on, like her countryman at Mr Peter’s puppet-show,4 playing away (with her needle) in a perfect shower of back-strokes, forestrokes, side-thrusts, and counter-thrusts, till not a figure in the tapestry could know himself again. The faded face of Solomon was garnished with a florid beard of scarlet silk (which Fra Jose at first told her she must rip out, as it made Solomon very little better than Judas) that made him resemble a boiled scallop. The fardingale of the queen of Sheba was expanded to an enormous hoop, of whose shrunk and pallid wearer it might be truly said, ‘Minima est pars sui.’5 The dog that, in the original tapestry, stood by the spurred and booted heel of the oriental monarch, (who was clad in Spanish costume), by dint of a few tufts of black and yellow satin, was converted into a tiger, – a transformation which his grinning fangs rendered as authentic as heart could wish. And the parrot perched on the queen’s shoulder, with the help of a train of green and gold, which the ignorant mistook for her majesty’s mantle, proved a very passable peacock.
‘As little trace of her original epistle did Donna Clara’s present one bear, as did her elaborate overcasting to the original and painful labours of her grandmother. In both, however, Donna Clara (who scorned to flinch) went over the same ground with dim eye, and patient touch, and inextinguishable and remorseless assiduity. The letter, such as it was, was still sufficiently characteristic of the writer. Some passages of it the reader shall be indulged with, – and we reckon on his gratitude for not insisting on his perusal of the whole. The authentic copy, from which we are favoured with the extracts, runs thus.
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‘Your daughter takes to her religion like mother’s milk; and well may she do so, considering that the trunk of our family was planted in the genuine soil of the Catholic church, and that every branch of it must flourish there or perish. For a Neophyte,6 (as Fra Jose wills me to word it), she is as promising a sprout as one should wish to see flourishing within the pale of the holy church; – and for a heathen, she is so amenable, submissive, and of such maidenly suavity, that for the comportment of her person, and the discreet and virtuous ordering of her mind, I have no Christian mother to envy. Nay, I sometimes take pity on them, when I see the lightness, the exceeding vain carriage, and the unadvised eagerness to be wedded, of the best trained maidens of our country. This our daughter hath nothing of, either in her outward demeanour, or inward mind. She talks little, therefore she cannot think much; and she dreams not of the light devices of love, and is therefore well qualified for the marriage proposed unto her.
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‘One thing, dear spouse of my soul, I would have thee to take notice of, and guard like the apple of thine eye, – our daughter is deranged, but never, on thy discretion, mention this to Don Montilla, even though he were the descendant in the right line of the Campeador, or of Gonsalvo di Cordova.7 Her derangement will in no wise impede or contravene her marriage, – for be it known to thee, it breaks out but at times, and at such times, that the most jealous eye of man could not spy it, unless he had a foretaught intimation of it. She hath strange fantasies swimming in her brain, such as, that heretics and heathens shall not be everlastingly damned – (God and the saints protect us!) – which must clearly proceed from madness, – but which her Catholic husband, if ever he comes to the knowledge of them, shall know how to expel, by aid of the church, and conjugal authority. That thou may’st better know the truth of what I hereby painfully certify, the saints and Fra Jose (who will not let me tell a lie, because he in a manner holds my pen) can witness, that about four days before we left Madrid, as we went to church, and I was about, while ascending the steps, to dole alms to a mendicant woman wrapt in a mantle, who held up a naked child for the receiving of charity, your daughter twitched my sleeve, while she whispered, ‘Madam, she cannot be mother to that child, for she is covered, and her child is naked. If she were its mother, she would cover her child, and not be comfortably wrapt herself.’ True it was, I found afterwards the wretched woman had hired the child from its more wretched mother, and my alms had paid the price of its hire for the day; but still that not a whit disproved our daughter insane, inasmuch as it showed her ignorant of the fashion and usages of the beggars of the country, and did in some degree shew a doubt of the merit of alms-deeds, which thou know’st none but heretics or madmen could deny. Other and grievous proofs of her insanity doth she give daily; but not willing to incumber you with ink, (which Fra Jose willeth me to call atramentum),8 I will add but a few particulars to arouse your dormant faculties, which may be wrapt in lethargic obliviousness by the anodyne of my somniferous epistolation.’
‘Reverend Father,’ said Donna Clara, looking up to Fra Jose, who had dictated the last line, ‘Don Francisco will know the last line not to be mine – he heard it in one of your sermons. Let me add the extraordinary proof of my daughter’s insanity at the ball.’ – ‘Add or diminish, compose or confound, what you will, in God’s name!’ said Fra Jose, vexed at the frequent erasures and lituras9 which disfigured the lines of his dictation; ‘for though in style I may somewhat boast of my superiority, in scratches no hen on the best dunghill in Spain can contend with you! On, then, in the name of all the saints! – and when it pleases heaven to send an interpreter to your husband, we may hope to hear from him by the next post-angel, for surely such a letter was never written on earth.’
‘With this encouragement and applause, Donna Clara proceeded to relate sundry other errors and wanderings of her daughter, which, to a mind so swathed, crippled and dwarfed, by the ligatures which the hand of custom had twined round it since its first hour of consciousness, might well have appeared like the aberrations of insanity. Among other proofs, she mentioned that Isidora’s first introduction to a Christian and Catholic church, was on that night of penitence in passion-week, when, the lights being extinguished, the miserere is chaunted in profound darkness, the penitents macerate10 themselves, and groans are heard on every side instead of prayers, as if the worship of Moloch11 was renewed without its fires; – struck with horror at the sounds she heard, and the darkness which surrounded her, Isidora demanded what they were doing. – ‘Worshipping God,’ was the answer.
‘At the expiration of Lent, she was introduced to a brilliant assembly, where the gay fandango was succeeded by the soft notes of the seguedilla,12 – and the crackling of the castanets, and the tinkling of the guitars, marked alternate time to the light and ecstatic step of youth, and the silvery and love-tuned voice of beauty. Touched with delight at all she saw and heard, – the smiles that dimpled and sparkled over her beautiful features reflecting every shade of pleasure they encountered, like the ripplings of a brook kissed by moon-beams, – she eagerly asked, ‘And are not these worshipping God?’ – ‘Out on it, daughter!’ interposed Donna Clara, who happened to overhear the question; ‘This is a vain and sinful pastime, – the invention of the devil to delude the children of folly – hateful in the eyes of heaven and its saints, – and abhorred and renounced by the faithful.’ – ‘Then there are two Gods,’ said Isidora sighing, ‘The God of smiles and happiness, and the God of groans and blood. Would I could serve the former!’ – ‘I will take order you shall serve the latter, heathenish and profane that you are!’ answered Donna Clara, as she hurried her from the assembly, shocked at the scandal which her words might have given. These and many similar anecdotes were painfully indited in Donna Clara’s long epistle, which, after being folded and sealed by Fra Jose, (who swore by the habit he wore, he had rather study twenty pages of the Polyglot13 fasting, than read
it over once more), was duly forwarded to Don Francisco.
‘The habits and movements of Don Francisco were, like those of his nation, so deliberate and dilatory, and his aversion to writing letters, except on mercantile subjects, so well known, that Donna Clara was actually alarmed at receiving, in the evening of the day in which her epistle was dispatched, another letter from her husband.
‘Its contents must be guessed to be sufficiently singular, when the result was, that Donna Clara and Fra Jose sat up over them nearly the whole of the night, in consultation, anxiety and fear. So intense was their conference, that it is recorded it was never interrupted even by the lady telling her beads, or the monk thinking of his supper. All the artificial habits, the customary indulgences, the factitious existence of both, were merged in the real genuine fear which pervaded their minds, and which asserted its power over both in painful and exacting proportion to their long and hardy rejection of its influence. Their minds succumbed together, and sought and gave in vain, feeble counsel, and fruitless consolation. They read over and over again this extraordinary letter, and at every reading their minds grew darker, – and their counsels more perplexed, – and their looks more dismal. Ever and anon they turned their eyes on it, as it lay open before them on Donna Clara’s ebony writing-desk, and then starting, asked each other by looks, and sometimes in words, ‘Did either hear some strange noise in the house?’ The letter, among other matter not important to the reader, contained the singular passage following.
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‘In my travel from the place where I landed, to that whence I now write, I fortuned to be in company with strangers, from whom I heard things touching me (not as they meant, but as my fear interpreted them) in a point the most exquisite that can prick and wound the soul of a Christian father. These I shall discuss unto thee at thy more leisure. They are full of fearful matter, and such as may perchance require the aid of some churchman rightly to understand, and fully to fathom. Nevertheless this I can commend to thy discretion, that after I had parted from this strange conference, the reports of which I cannot by letter communicate to thee, I retired to my chamber full of sad and heavy thoughts, and being seated in my chair, pored over a tome containing legends of departed spirits, in nowise contradictive to the doctrine of the holy Catholic church, otherwise I would have crushed it with the sole of my foot into the fire that burned before me on the hearth, and spit on its cinders with the spittle of my mouth. Now, whether it was the company I fortuned to be into, (whose conversation must never be known but to thee only), or the book I had been reading, which contained certain extracts from Pliny, Artemidore,14 and others, full-filled with tales which I may not now recount, but which did relate altogether to the revivification of the departed, appearing in due accordance with our Catholic conceptions of Christian ghosts in purgatory, with their suitable accoutrements of chains and flames, – as thus Pliny writeth, ‘Apparebat eidolon senex, made et senie confectus,’15 – or finally, the weariness of my lonely journey, or other things I know not, – but feeling my mind ill-disposed for deeper converse with books at my own thoughts, and though oppressed by sleep, unwilling to retire to rest, – a mood which I and others have often experienced, – I took out thy letters from the desk in which I duly reposit them, and read over the description which thou didst send me of our daughter, upon the first intelligence of her being discovered in that accursed isle of heathenism, – and I do assure thee, the description of our daughter hath been written in such characters on the bosom to which she hath never been clasped, that it would defy the art of all the limners in Spain to paint it more effectually. So, thinking on those dark-blue eyes, – and those natural ringlets which will not obey their new mistress, art, – and that slender undulating shape, – and thinking it would soon be folded in my arms, and ask the blessing of a Christian father in Christian tones, I dozed as I sat in my chair; and my dreams taking part with my waking thoughts, I was a-dreamt that such a creature, so fair, so fond, so cherubic, sat beside me, and asked me blessing. As I bowed to give it, I nodded in my chair and awoke. Awoke I say, for what followed was as palpable to human sight as the furniture of my apartment, or any other tangible object. There was a female seated opposite me, clad in a Spanish dress, but her veil flowed down to her feet. She sat, and seemed to expect that I should bespeak her first. ‘Damsel,’ I said, ‘what seekest thou? – or why art thou here?’ The figure never raised its veil, nor motioned with hand or lip. Mine head was full of what I had heard and read of; and after making the sign of the cross, and uttering certain prayers, I approached that figure, and said, ‘Damsel, what wantest thou?’ – ‘A father,’ said the form, raising its veil, and disclosing the identical features of my daughter Isidora, as described in thy numerous letters. Thou mayest well guess my consternation, which I might almost term fear, at the sight and words of this beautiful but strange and solemn figure. Nor was my perplexity and trouble diminished but increased, when the figure, rising and pointing to the door, through which she forthwith passed with a mysterious grace and incredible alacrity, uttered, in transitu,16 words like these: – ‘Save me! – save me! – lose not a moment, or I am lost!’ And I swear to thee, wife, that while that figure sat or departed, I heard not the rustling of her garments, or the tread of her foot, or the sound of her respiration – only as she went out, there was a rushing sound as of a wind passing through the chamber, – and a mist seemed to hang on every object around me, which dispersed, – and I was conscious of heaving a deep sigh, as if a load had been removed from my breast. I sat thereafter for an hour pondering on what I had seen, and not knowing whether to term it a waking dream, or a dream-like waking. I am a mortal man, sensible of fear, and liable to error, – but I am also a Catholic Christian, and have ever been a hearty contemner of your tales of spectres and visions, excepting always when sanctioned by the authority of the holy church, and recorded in the lives of her saints and martyrs. Finding no end or fruit of these my heavy cogitations, I withdrew myself to bed, where I long lay tossing and sleepless, till at the approach of morning, just as I was falling into a deep sleep, I was awoke by a noise like that of a breeze waving my curtains. I started up, and drawing them, looked around me. There was a glimpse of day-light appearing through the window-shutters, but not sufficient to enable me to distinguish the objects in the room, were it not for the lamp that burned on the hearth, and whose light, though somewhat dim, was perfectly distinct. By it I discovered, near the door, a figure which my sight, rendered more acute by my terror, verified as the identical figure I had before beheld, who, waving its arm with a melancholy gesture, and uttering in a piteous voice these words, ‘It is too late,’ disappeared. As, I will own to thee, overcome with horror at this second visitation, I fell back on my pillow almost bereft of the use of my faculties, I remember the clock struck three.’
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