He looked me in the eye as he talked, and I could tell he believed what he was saying. Truth is a funny thing though. I had a guy who came through a few years back who swore he was Mick Jagger, and I bet he would have passed a polygraph.
“Von Braun was my idol. He was everything I wanted to be; brilliant, visionary, driven. I modeled my life on him. He could do no wrong. So when he picked me for his secret project, I was in heaven. Not really in heaven, I guess, I’m not a believer.”
“But you were in chapel.”
“You start to doubt yourself when you’re dying,” he said. He coughed again, his frail body shaking with the violent spasms. “Anyway it’s peaceful, and I wanted to hear you talk.”
I glanced at my watch. Another hour and a half until the city council arrived. “I hope I didn’t disappoint you.”
“No, you exceeded my expectations.”
I tried to remember what I said at the meeting, but it escaped me. I usually read a few verses and say what comes into my head. Half the men are asleep or mumbling to themselves anyway.
“It confirmed what I suspected, and what I’d heard on the street. You’re man of faith who is unsure of what he believes. I’m the same as you. Except I’m a man of science who thinks that science causes as many problems as it solves. Let me show you something.”
He placed the battered silver tube on my desk and untwisted the cap. He pulled a roll of aging yellow papers from the tube and carefully untied the twine that bound them. He rolled the pages flat. Equations crowded every inch of the first few pages, but my eyes were drawn to the third page; engineering drawings with comments written in black ink.
“What is it?” I asked.
“Our destiny,” he said. “It’s Von Braun’s secret project. An interstellar drive. With this we can reach the stars.”
I stared at the drawings, trying to make some sense of them. There was a sketch of cylinders fed by various pipes or hoses, with scribbled notes about “flow rates” and “tolerances.” At the bottom of the drawing in black ink was the letter B in a fine, precise hand. I couldn’t even think of a question to ask.
“Anti-matter.” John Truro said. “It’s the only thing in the universe capable of generating enough force over a long enough period.”
“Like Star Trek?”
He laughed. “Not exactly. Nothing will let us go faster than the speed of light. But this could let us travel to the nearest stars within the lifespan of a man.”
“Is it real? Does it work?” A feeling of absolute awe ran through me, tempered only by the voice in the back of my head that assured me John Truro was nuts and possibly so delusional as to be dangerous.
“In theory,” he said. “We never tested it.”
There was a knock on the door, and we both jumped.
“Scott, the city council’s here.” It was Jason, my number two and one of my success stories.
John was on the plans in an instant and had rolled them and put them in the tube before I could make it to the door. I looked at my watch. They were an hour early.
“Jason, walk them to the dining room and get them some lemonade or something. I’ll be right there.” I looked at the emaciated homeless man clutching his tube.
“John, I’m sorry. It’s about money. They have it and I need it. I’ll be back as soon as I can.”
He nodded, but he had a furtive look about him that made me worry that he would be gone when I returned. I wanted to talk to him more, wanted to know his story. And I wanted to know more about those drawings.
When I made it to the dining hall, I discovered only half of the council had showed. Apparently the rest had a better offer. I can’t blame them; I’m sure there are plenty of things more enjoyable to do on a Saturday morning than count vomit stains on the floors of a homeless shelter.
I took them on the standard tour, showing them the facilities, and introducing them to some of the more presentable clients. I’ve learned over the years that people like their bums well-groomed and smiling. If they see the ones that really need help, their wallets clamp shut.
By the time the tour was over a minibus of teenagers from St. Joseph’s Episcopal had come to volunteer. It was their first time, so they needed instruction. Most of them didn’t know which end of the knife to hold. I had a feeling they didn’t do much cooking at home. It wasn’t until I went to get the serving dishes from the pantry that I thought of John. He was sitting on the cans of jalapenos, clutching his battered tube.
“John,” I said, reaching over his head. “Sorry I had to leave. This place . . .”
“Can I help?”
“Sure, if you feel like it. Can you take these trays to the dining room?”
He took a handful of the trays with him. When he came into the kitchen, all the kids stopped what they were doing. He was the first client they had seen up close.
He worked beside me in silence while we loaded the dishes with creamed corn and two-day-old rolls and canned green beans and chicken broth. I gave the kids their final instructions and unlocked the door. Most of the pick-ups had gone back to the streets, but we still had a larger than normal crowd due to the cold. I guided John toward a side table.
“This is my favorite part,” I said. “See that girl serving the green beans. I don’t know anything about her except that she lives in a nice neighborhood and her clothes cost more than I earn in a month. Watch her face as the crowd gets there. See, she’s smiling—and it’s not some forced beauty-pageant smile. Now, look at the boy on the end, the one with the saggy jeans and the gray hoodie. He looks like he’s going to throw up if one of the men touches him. These kids go to the same church, same schools, probably have the same hair stylist. But their reactions are so different. You know why?”
John Truro laid his aluminum tube on the table. “Because she understands that the world is about more than her . . . that she owes something back. Right?”
I actually was going to say something far less profound. I liked his idea better.
“So tell me more about this . . . thing,” I said, pointing at the tube. Then, dropping my voice to a whisper, I asked, “Why do you have it, and not NASA?”
“When Von Braun hired me, he set me up in a special office with a vague title and a high security clearance. I worked through the physics and he worked through the mechanics. I never reported to anyone but him. I liked it that way, I’ve always been . . . uncomfortable . . . around people. The last time I went to his office he told me he was resigning.
“I was floored.” Jon Truro said.
“What about the stars?” I asked him.
He looked at me with those piercing blue eyes and ran his fingers through his beard. He asked me if I had ever seen the movie they made about him: I Aim at the Stars. “Have you seen it, Scott?”
I admitted I hadn’t.
“It was a horrible movie, but he was my idol and I had watched it three times anyway. There was a comedian who used to make a joke that Von Braun aims at the stars but sometimes hits London. Von Braun looked at me and repeated that line, with his voice cracking when he said London. Scott, you should have seen the man at that moment. He had worked his whole life to put a man on the moon, had ignored the fact that he was designing rockets for Hitler, that his rockets now carried nuclear weapons that could hit anywhere in the world, that he had brought mankind to the brink of self-destruction. He did it for a great cause, and I think most times he didn’t regret it. He was a proud man, he was proud of his rockets, he was proud of the moon. But on that day he couldn’t look me in the eye.”
John was rolling the cylinder in his hands as he talked. He closed his eyes as if struggling to remember every word in detail.
“Von Braun told me that we only went to the moon to beat the Russians. Now that it was done, nobody cared about the stars. He said that the power of our drive, the power of anti-matter, was enough not only to reach the stars, but was also enough to level cities in the blink of an eye. It could make a weapon more horrible than any n
uclear bomb ever tested.”
“But the stars?” I asked. “What did he say about the stars?”
“He told me the plans were too valuable to lose,” John Truro said. “He told me to keep them secret until the time was right, until I could trust that we would use it for the stars and not against ourselves. I promised him. I swore I would do exactly as he said.”
Truro paused, looking down at the floor. “That was the last time I saw Wernher Von Braun. He died of cancer three years later. His estate forwarded me a letter he had written and kept in his drawer. Just a few words. Aim for the stars, he wrote.”
His voice broke when he spoke of the letter. I put my arm around him while sobs wracked his body.
“I’ve never said a word about any of this. I quit NASA after a few years. We were aiming at low-earth orbit, not the stars. I followed the news, when the Cold War ended I thought that would be my chance, but there was always war, always greed, always people using each other. I had never noticed it before, that humanity doesn’t deserve the stars. I lost hope. I quit job after job. How can you work if you’ve already created the greatest thing imaginable? How can you top it?”
“And you’ve told no one?” I asked.
“Just you.”
“Why me?” I was afraid I knew the answer to that already.
“I’m dying,” he said, “and I can’t let the stars die with me. You’re a good man, Scott. I want you to take this after me. Keep it safe. I need you to honor my promise.”
“I don’t know anything about physics. I’m not the right man.”
“You know about people. The physics explains itself.”
I wanted to argue with him, to tell him that I didn’t know about people, except that they’re all scum who will cheat, lie, and steal to prove their dominance of their fellow human beings. That the only people that I trusted were the ones that had been brought so low by the trials of life that their pride had been ground to a pulp. But I think he knew that already. I think that’s why he had chosen me.
“So you’ll do it?”
“I’ll think about it.”
That night I let John Truro sleep in my office. I set up a cot that we used for overflow nights and gave him an extra set of blankets. He tucked the tube beside him. As I locked the office door, I heard the rasping sound of his breathing.
The next morning John Truro was dead. His cold, bony hands were still clutching the battered aluminum tube.
I said a prayer over him, and then took the tube from his hands and put it in my file cabinet. When the coroner came and asked for his personal effects I lied and said that he only had what he was wearing.
They cremated him and buried the ashes in a pauper’s grave. The tube sat in my cabinet for a month before I looked at it again. Finally, one night when the weather was warm and the halls were quiet, I opened it and spread the sheets on the desk, trying to make sense of them. Was it the pathetic scribbling of a delusional bum, or the greatest, and most horrible, technology ever devised? What was I supposed to do? Nobody would believe me, even if I believed it myself.
I began to roll the drawings up when I noticed something stuck in the lip of the tube. A small plain white envelope. I opened it and pulled out a note in precise, small handwriting. “Aim for the stars,” it said, and it was signed Wernher Von Braun.
I watch the news every night now, hoping that today will be different than the last. It never is. Some days I want to give up, to destroy those drawings and be content with the lot we have been given.
But then I remember that girl’s smile, and I hear John Truro’s whispered words, “Aim for the stars,” and I pray that one day we will become worthy of his dream.
About the editors:
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Orson Scott Card is the multi-award winning author of the novels Ender’s Game, Ender’s Shadow, and Speaker for the Dead, which are widely read by adults and younger readers, and are increasingly used in schools. Besides these and other science fiction novels, Card writes contemporary fantasy (Magic Street, Enchantment, Lost Boys), biblical novels (Stone Tables, Rachel and Leah), the American frontier fantasy series The Tales of Alvin Maker (beginning with Seventh Son), poetry (An Open Book), and many plays and scripts.
You can learn more at his website: www.Hatrack.com
Edmund R. Schubert is the author of over thirty-five short stories (about half of which are collected in The Trouble With Eating Clouds) and one novel, Dreaming Creek. He’s held a variety of editorial positions, currently serving as editor of Orson Scott Card’s InterGalactic Medicine Show. Another anthology collecting IGMS stories (also co-edited with Card), was published by Tor. Schubert also edited and contributed to How to Write Magical Words: A Writer’s Companion, a collection of essays about the craft and business of writing by the gang at MagicalWords.net.
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Table of Contents
Introduction
1st Place, Cover Art:
1st Place, B&W Interior Art:
2nd Place, B&W Interior Art:
3rd Place, B&W Interior Art:
1st Place: Trinity County, CA
2nd Place: Sister Jasmine Brings the Pain
3rd Place (tie): The Ghost of a Girl Who Never Lived
3rd Place (tie): The American
Silent as Dust
Horus Ascending
The End-of-the-World Pool
A Heretic by Degrees
The Never Never Wizard of Apalachicola
Beautiful Winter
Blood & Water
Mean-Spirited
The Robot Sorcerer
Aim for the Stars
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