Auctioned

by Mia Ford

  We didn’t open the kitchen on Sunday because the fry cook, an elderly black man named Willis Jones who had worked there as long as my dad, insisted on taking the Lord’s day off, but we did a healthy business in beer and shots among the heathens who came in every Sunday like clockwork.

  Our clientele was loyal, I had to give them that; mostly older neighborhood guys and a few skanky older women not above blowing you for a couple of beers. They were the hard drinkers, the career drunks, the ones who had kept the place going all these years.

  Tommy’s was a dive bar, a shit hole, not one of those fancy uptown joints where drinks are mixed from recipes and secret formulas and cost twenty bucks a pop. We didn’t mix fancy drinks here. If you wanted something other than beer and liquor shots, you were shit out of luck. And asking for something fruity would get you tossed out on your ear.

  I had been behind the bar pulling taps for several hours when my father finally came downstairs. He appeared in the kitchen doorway, standing with his hands in his pockets and his shoulders slumped, as if the weight of the world was bearing down on him. I glanced at the neon clock above the bar. It was almost seven. I figured he had been upstairs drinking all afternoon, but when he joined me behind the bar his eyes were clear and he wasn’t stumbling over his tongue.

  “I’ve got this,” he said quietly. “Why don’t you take a break.”

  I didn’t say a word. I just held up my hands and scooted past him to get out from behind the bar. I picked up a round tray and started walking around the bar collecting empties from the tables and booths. Several people said hi and I said hi back, but my mind was a million miles away. I wished that my body could join it.

  “Hey, Kitty Kat, what’s shaking?”

  I turned around to see my best friend Bethany coming toward me with her arms out and a big smile on her face. She waved at my dad, who gave her a nod, then gave me a hug and slid into the booth I was clearing.

  “I’ll have a Coke, waitress,” she said playfully. “And pour one for yourself. On me.”

  God bless her. Bethany was always so happy and upbeat, even though her home life was no better than mine and she worked as a topless waitress as a strip club downtown where men pawed and poked her like a grocery store cantaloupe.

  She’d told me horrible stories of nearly being raped in club’s restroom and having to fend men off with a drink tray. Then again, she bragged about the money she made on her back and on her knees working there.

  She was also a “favorite fuck” of one of the owners, she said, who showered her with gifts and hundred dollar bills. I couldn’t do what Bethany did, but she had her own place and her own car and her own money and wasn’t dependent on anyone other than herself, so maybe the trade-offs weren’t so bad.

  Bethany’s perpetual giddiness was infectious and I was so happy to see her I almost cried. She always had a smile on her face and a twinkle in her eye. She said life is what you make of it. It can be great or it can be shit. It’s all up to you. I would have loved to buy into that bullshit, today especially, but my life was nothing like I wanted it to be. Maybe because it wasn’t really my life. At least not yet.

  I took the tray of empties to the bar and came back with two glasses of ice filled with watered-down Coke. I set the Cokes on the table and slid into the booth across from her. She picked up a straw from the table, ripped off the paper, and stuck it into her glass, then guided the straw to her lips, which were painted a deep red.

  I took a sip of my Coke and looked her over. She worked the afternoon shift at Gino’s on Sunday and had obviously just come from work. She was wearing a pair of jeans so tight they looked painted on and a gypsy shirt that fell off one shoulder with no bra underneath. Her thick nipples poked through the material, though she didn’t seem to notice as much as everyone else did.

  When Bethany came into the bar every head turned and every mouth dropped open. The old men lusted after her and the skanky old ladies hated her guts. Bethany loved the attention, bad and good.

  There was glitter across the top of her chest and her lipstick was smeared, as if her mouth had recently been busy doing something other than sucking on a Coke straw. I could smell the smoke and sex beneath her heavy perfume.

  “Did you just get off work?” I asked, working up the best smile I could for her.

  “I did,” she said with a nod. She swizzled the straw around the glass and gave me a heavy sigh. “It was a slow afternoon, so the tips were shit, but Tony was there, so it was fun.”

  I rolled my eyes at the mention of his name. Tony was one of the club’s owners that Bethany slept with on occasion, and by “slept with” I meant that she screwed him in the back of his car or in the back of the club or anywhere else they happened to be when his cock got hard. She also gave him blowjobs under the table right there inside the club while it was full of people.

  She told me about all kinds of things they did that I would never have the guts to do. Granted, some of it made my panties damp and made my clit tingle, but on the sex scale Bethany and I were miles apart. I was still sitting at ground zero and she kept pushing the scale further and further out on the other end.

  I had never met Tony, but he sounded like a total rich jerk who treated her like total shit. She said he had a huge cock and loved rough sex. She called him “The Hammer” because of the way he “hammered his monster cock into her”. Her words, not mine. There were times she’d come in walking bowlegged, like she’d been hit in the twat with a bat, but she would just laugh it off and say Tony went up the back a little too hard, whatever that meant.

  The real allure for Bethany was that Tony had deep pockets and didn’t mind sharing the wealth. Bethany often came home with her pockets full of hundred dollar bills and new clothes and jewelry he’d bought her. In my mind, she was prostituting herself and I’d told her as much. She just smiled and said a girl had to do what a girl had to do to pay the bills. After the day I’d had, I wondered if I would soon be of the same frame of mind.

  “What’s bothering you, Kitty Kat?” she asked, frowning at me with the straw between her lips. She had been calling me Kitty Kat since the fifth grade. She was the only one allowed to do so.

  I blinked at her. “What? Nothing’s wrong. Tell me about your day.”

  “Oh, fuck my day,” she said, setting the drink aside and wiping her lips on a napkin, staining it blood red. She reached across the table to put her hands on my arm. “Okay, cut the shit, home girl. This is me. I can read you like a book. What’s wrong?”

  I glanced toward the bar. My father wasn’t looking our way. He was lining up shots and pouring drafts for the regulars at the bar. His expression was blank, emotionless. Like me, he was just going through the motions. I saw him glance toward the door several times. I wondered if the people he owed the money to would actually come into the bar to collect. They might come in to intimidate him, but I doubted they’d do anything to him in front of a roomful of people. Rats and cockroaches avoided the light. When they came to collect, it would be in a back alley where there were no witnesses.

  Call me selfish, but I couldn’t help but wonder if that would be the end of it. Once he was dead, would they expect me to cover his debt? People like that don’t just write off seventy-five-grand like a business loss. They would get their money one way or another. And I was a twenty-one-year-old girl. Maybe I’d seen too many Liam Neeson movies, but I knew that I had assets that were worth money to people like that. The thought made me shiver.

  “Kat, what the fuck is wrong?” she asked, shaking my arm, pulling my eyes back to hers. “You look like you’ve seen a fucking ghost, babe. What’s going on?”

  “They’re gonna kill him, Bethany,” I said quietly as my eyes drifted back to my father, who was staring back at me even though I knew he couldn’t hear me speaking.

  Bethany squeezed my arm. “Who is gonna kill who? Katrina, who is gonna kill who? What the fuck are you talking about?”

  “They’re gonna kill my father,” I whi
spered. “And there’s not a damn thing I can do to stop them.”

  * * *

  Bethany clutched my hand as she followed me through the kitchen and up the stairs to the apartment. We sat at the kitchen table where my world had collapsed just hours before and I told her the whole story. She held my hand and listened quietly.

  “Jesus, Kat, he blew your college money?” Bethany held up her hands with her fingers crooked as if she was choking my father. “That old fuck! That old piece of fucking shit. What the fuck are you going to do?”

  “I don’t know what to do,” I said as I wiped the tears from my eyes with my knuckles. “I’m not concerned about the money right now, I mean, I’m pissed, but what if they make good on their threats? What if they kill my father?”

  Bethany huffed at me. “You’re worried about that prick? He got himself into this mess, Kat. It’s not your responsibility to get him out. You just need to get the fuck out of here and let him deal with his shit. Pack a bag, you can come stay with me.”

  “He’s still my father,” I said pensively, as if I was coming to the realization at that moment that no matter what he’d done over the course of my life, he was still my father and I still loved him in my own warped way.

  Bethany sat back with her arms folded over her chest. “Okay, fine, whatever. Do you know who he owes the money to?”

  I shook my head. “No, he wouldn’t say. He said it didn’t matter.”

  “And how much does he owe again?”

  “Seventy-five thousand dollars,” I said. “It might as well be a million dollars because we don’t have it and there is no way to get it. This place is mortgaged to the hilt. He’s blown through my savings. We don’t have anything to sell or anyone we can borrow it from. We’re screwed, Bethany. I don’t know how to get us out of this.”

  “There might be a way,” Bethany said quietly. I glanced up at her. She had a cautious look on her face, as if she knew the path to take, but also knew it would be fraught with danger.

  “How?” I asked.

  She leaned her elbows on the table and held out her hands. I set my hands in hers and her fingers closed around them. “I’m going to ask you a question that you might think is totally irrelevant, but when you hear why I’m asking it, you’ll understand.”

  I blinked at her. “Okay…”

  She looked at me and arched her eyebrows. “Katrina, are you still a virgin?”

  Nicky

  “Dude? Hey, Nick. What the fuck’s wrong with you, man?”

  I glanced over at Tony and was immediately sorry that I did. He was leaning back with his arms splayed over the back of the booth with a goofy smile on his face. I looked down. The dancer with the gap between her front teeth was under the table sucking his cock. Christ, it looked like she was sucking on a thick Italian sausage. Jimmy Fist was sitting sideways in the booth, his broad form shielding from view what looked like a pretty decent blowjob from the rest of the club.

  “Jesus, man, do you have to do that here?” I asked, wincing and turning away. “Take that shit into a back room. What if your dad walked in?”

  He just grinned at me. “He would give me two thumbs up and find some bitch to suck his cock,” he said. He punched me in the arm. “I’ve been talking to you for ten minutes and you haven’t heard a word I said. What’s on your mind.”

  I gestured at the girl’s head bobbing up and down on his cock. “Seriously, we’re gonna have a conversation while you’re getting your cock sucked.”

  “Fuck, man, hold on…” He put his hands on the top of the girl’s head and pushed her mouth down onto his cock until she gagged. “Okay… that’s it… right there… yes… yes… fuck…”

  I looked away as he moaned and shot his load into her mouth. I could hear him groaning and her smacking her lips. I heard her ask if I wanted one. I held up my hand without looking at them and Tony told her to get lost.

  “You should have had one, bro,” he said with a satisfied smile. “Bitch ain’t much to look at, but damned if she can’t suck a cock like nobody’s business. I give her five for looks, and ten for performance.”

  He picked up his drink and sighed into it. He had changed over to whiskey sours a couple of hours ago. I had lost count of how much he’d had to drink, but he still seemed pretty much in control. I looked at my watch. It was just after seven. I knew he’d be hitting Jimmy’s cocaine cross soon. That’s when I’d be checking out. Tony could be a real cunt once he started doing blow. Besides, tomorrow was Monday and I had to be at the office by nine. Tony would stay up partying all night because there was no place that he had to be at any particular time. He’d say that he was Tony D’Angelo for fuck’s sake. He wore a twenty-thousand-dollar Rolex just to show it off, not to tell him the motherfucking time.

  “There’s nothing wrong with me other than I turn around and your schlong is hanging out with a girl’s mouth attached to the end,” I said, picking up my beer. “Other than that, I’m good.”

  I could feel him eyeing me. “Come on, man, it’s me. Tell me what’s bugging you.” He held up his hand with three fingers extended like a Boy Scout taking an oath. “I promise, I won’t give you any shit.”

  I took a deep breath and pushed it out slowly. I held out my hand to gesture at the room, which was now packed to the gills and buzzing like a beehive with naked women and drunk, horny men. “Why am here?”

  He frowned at me like I was speaking French. “What?”

  “Why am I here?” I asked, my hands cutting the air. “I mean, what’s the point?”

  He turned sideways in the booth to face me, putting his back to Jimmy, who was still watching the crowd like a pit bull looking for something to kill. Tony said, “The point is free pussy and booze, cuz. The point is to enjoy being young and rich and have a great fucking time doing anything fucking thing you wanna do. I don’t understand, you used to love this shit.”

  I shrugged. He was right. I did enjoy it at one time, and I wasn’t sure why I wasn’t enjoying it now. I blew all the air out of my lungs and shook my head. “I don’t know, Tony. Maybe I’m growing up.”

  He leaned in toward me and growled like a wolf toying with its prey. “Why the fuck would you do that?”

  “Maybe it’s time.”

  I watched the crowd while he watched me. He tapped his glass on the table for a minute, then poked me with his finger. “So, what you’re telling me is that you want something more than this. Because this doesn’t do it for you anymore.”

  “Something like that,” I said.

  “I know what you need,” he said, slamming the glass on the table so hard it made Jimmy glance over his shoulder at us. Tony scooted up next to me and put his arm around my shoulders. He pulled me close and whispered in my ear.

  “I know what you need, cuz,” he said, his breath hot on my cheek.

  I leaned away to look at him out of the corner of my eye.

  “Yeah? What’s that?”

  “You need some virgin pussy, my friend,” he said, giving my shoulders a shake. “Some fresh meat to give you a fresh perspective. And I know just how to get you some.”

  Katrina

  Because it was Sunday night, I helped close the bar around ten and was in bed by eleven. My father and I didn’t say another word to each other, probably because there was nothing left to say. He came upstairs and did his thing and I did mine. When he plopped down on the couch with a six-pack of Coors and the TV remote in his hand, I went into my room and locked the bedroom door, something I’d never felt the need to do before.

  I didn’t think anyone was going to break in and harm me, at least not yet, but I felt better knowing that the lock might at least slow someone down until I could call 911. I set my cellphone on the nightstand and plugged in the charger without turning off the phone. I usually turned it off at night to recharge, but not anymore. You can call me paranoid. I call it being prepared.

  I took off all my clothes and put on my pajamas and slid under the covers. I was exhausted, as
if I’d spent the day pushing boulders up hills rather than pushing drinks at patrons. Stress can do that to you, I supposed, suck the life right out of you like cancer sucked the life from my mom. I could just picture her looking down from Heaven, furious at my dad for what he’d done to me; for what he’d done to himself. She always loved him regardless of his flaws. I wondered if she was still alive if she would support him now. Probably so. She was always much more tolerant and forgiving of him than her daughter would ever be.

  I cried for a while, feeling sorrow for myself, and loathing and fear for my dad. Once I had no more tears to give, I tossed and turned for a couple of hours, unable to shut off my brain so I could fall asleep. When I did start to drift off, the conversation I’d had with Bethany started replaying in my mind.

  Her question took me aback at first. Was I still a virgin? Really, at a time like this, you’re going to give me shit because I don’t fuck every guy who looks at me like you do?

  That’s what I wanted to say to her, but didn’t because I didn’t want to get into it with her again over my virginity. She knew I was still a virgin. We’d had this conversation dozens of times before. It was always the same.

  “Would you please fuck somebody already,” she’d say. Then the rant would begin. “You’ll be amazed at how much better you feel once your cherry is popped! Maybe it’ll loosen your tight ass up a little bit. I promise you, Kitty Kat, it’ll feel so fucking good you’ll wanna do it over and over again! And I can teach you how to suck a dick so good that it’ll literally make any guy your slave. Men think with their cocks. You make a man cum until he thinks his head is gonna explode and he’ll follow you around like a puppy. Get that cherry popped, bitch! Spread those legs and put out the ‘open for business’ sign!”