by James, Ella
“She would be sixteen this week.” More tears make his solemn face shimmer. I dash them off. “I’m sorry.” I dab the napkin to my eyes again and take a few deep breaths. “I didn’t really plan to talk about it. Definitely not here.”
I laugh a little, even though it isn’t funny. Then our waitress is setting our drinks on the table. I look toward the wall, because I know how blotchy my face gets when I cry—and I’m embarrassed that I lost it out in public.
Kellan’s hand is stroking my shoulder, and that makes me feel more embarrassed. That I took our business-sex relationship and made it awkward and heavy with this talk of Olive.
Even saying her name silently makes me need to take a few more deep breaths. Kellan just keeps rubbing my arm. Like he’s my boyfriend.
Not your boyfriend, idiot!
I straighten up a little, offering him a chance to move his arm out from around me—in case he feels as awkward as I do. But he doesn’t. When I get the nerve to look at him again, his eyes are gentle on my face.
“She was deaf just like my other sister. I guess I told you. That’s the whole tattoo thing.”
His hand, over my shoulder, clasps lightly. “So kind of like... be positive or something?”
“Or something. You know, like don’t let negativity in, I guess. Olive was the most innocent person I’ve ever known, and not just because she died when she was five. She was just... so sweet and funny.” I shake my head and draw another deep breath. “We should talk about something else.”
“Only if you want to.”
“Thank you.” I shrink my shoulders in a little.
He pulls me closer to him, and I can feel his cheek against my hair. I feel his mouth move. “You embarrassed, Whatley?”
“Are you laughing at me?”
“Not laughing,” he says. “Smiling. Wes Anderson-style.”
I laugh. “You think my embarrassment is a racist, rich person movie about daddy issues?”
His eyes widen comically. “Touché, Cleo. Not an Anderson fan? That surprises me.”
I roll my eyes. “I am a Wes Anderson fan. I’m offended that you felt so sure about it, but I am. I think his critics can go fuck a porcupine.”
Kellan smirk-smiles.
“That’s your thing,” I say. “The patented Kellan Walsh smirk-smile. What’s up with that?”
He traces a finger over my cheek. “What’s up with this?”
“With what?” I feign surprise.
“You’ve got these little red splotches—”
“Shut the fuck up.” I shove at him, but his arm tightens around me.
“It’s cute.”
“You think I’m cute?”
He rubs his face against my hair, but doesn’t answer. And I wonder why. Does he think I’m ugly? I’m not ugly. No one thinks so. I’m not a model, but I’m cute at least.
I lean my head down, away from the warm cheek pressed against my hair, and turn to him so I can stick my tongue out. “I am cute. Everybody thinks so.”
He pulls me back against the booth and presses his lips against my hair once more. “You are cute,” he murmurs. “And your hair smells like flowers.”
“I’m a fan of this gardenia-scented hair stuff.”
And that’s how dinner goes. Kellan leaves his arm around me until our pizza arrives. We both chow down on chicken pizza while we talk about a bunch of random things, like what was Sting thinking with the rhyming on the song “Walking on the Moon,” and why killers whales have their name, and whether the animals at Sea World should be taking antidepressants anyway. And when I think we’re leaving, Kellan orders cinnamon rolls.
While we wait for them, he slides his hand into my jeans, spreads a menu out in front of me, and rubs me off in the back booth of Mama McCalister’s.
Chapter Nine
Cleo
After I prove my inability to walk straight on my way out of the restaurant, Kellan scoops me up and carries me to his Escalade. He buckles me in, surprises me by leaning down to plant a quick kiss my nose, and shuts my door without a word. I’m still feeling all tingly and warm when he gets behind the wheel and gives me a long look.
“What?” I smile self-consciously—somewhat deliriously. This pizza outing has been kind of awesome.
He leans across the console between our seats, pressing his ribs against my arm rest to get close to me, and kisses my mouth so fast and hard it almost hurts. His hand wraps around my head, holding me upright as he devours my mouth.
His lips are soft but forceful, his tongue gliding against mine like hot velvet. I feel the firm warmth of his face on mine as we taste each other. I feel the puff of his breath on my cheeks and smell his cinnamon breath. Then he’s got his arms around me; he’s clutching my shoulders. He kisses my throat like a man starving. His hand runs down my ribs and lifts my shirt.
We’re both panting when he pulls his mouth off mine.
All that warmth, and all that weight—gone in one heartbeat. And, shit, I’m lonely for him. I want more.
“Fuck,” he pants. He throws the car in reverse, pulls out of the lot, and doesn’t look at me again until we’re out of the city, getting closer to his house.
“That was nice,” he says. “The dinner.” His voice is low, a little gruff.
I laugh, because honestly, I can’t seem to stop the random laughing when I’m near him. “Yeah, it was.”
“You like pecans?” he asks. The question is accompanied by an intense look that makes me laugh again.
“I love them.” I tell him about how I used to pick them up with this handy dandy pecan-picker-upper and sell them for three dollars a gallon when I was younger and we needed money. He has a hearty laugh at the picture I paint, and then he quickly sobers. “I’m sorry that you... had to do that.”
“Pssh. Don’t be sorry. You can bet your ass I value them a lot more now.”
“I want to make you something when we get home.”
Mr. Perfect surprises me again when we get to his kitchen—by tugging my pants down, lifting me onto the granite island, and eating my pussy while I lie on my back, my fingers twined tightly in his.
After that, he binds my wrists with the ties of a black Dr. Who apron, lays me on my belly on the living room rug, and slides inside me from behind. He fucks me long and slow, wrapping a strand of my wavy hair around one of his hands and tugging gently as he pushes in and out.
Unlike other times, where there’s usually a little dirty talk, he says almost nothing, except, once: “You’re beautiful...”
When we’re finished, he unties me and goes into the kitchen for a warm, damp towel. He helps me back into my pants—I remember he wanted to do this in the library that time—and then takes my hand and leads me to the bar stool where I had my breakfast.
He pours me a glass of water, plucks an uncut lemon from the refrigerator, and slices it into half-moon-shaped pieces, one of which he perches on the rim of my glass.
“Drink this,” he tells me. “I’m going to make you cinnamon pecans.”
Prickling warmth spreads through my chest, like I’ve swallowed sunshine, and I try to shake it off because it makes me feel uneasy. Why is Kellan Drake (Walsh), moody asshole and criminal SGA president, being nicer to me than most of my past boyfriends?
Is he starting to like me?
Should I even allow myself to entertain the thought?
I manage to loosen up enough to tease him about being a Southern boy at heart—what with the cooking and the hospitality, the button-up Polos and the sweet tea addiction—and he gives me a small smile that almost looks a self-conscious.
He leans against the granite countertop while I sit on my bar stool, and somehow he starts asking me questions about myself. At first, I don’t realize there’s intent behind it. It’s easy to tell him about my pseudo-photograhic memory, about how well I do on standardized tests, about how I was good at math when I was little but fell miserably behind the year that Olive died; I never did recover. I blab about Mom a
nd Grans’ reaction when I got accepted to this little private college on a full academic scholarship.
Kellan is a perfect listener, crunching on raw pecans and sipping on his iced tea with one elbow propped on the counter. He looks relaxed and interested, as if my history is somehow meaningful to him.
He draws stories out of me like silk from a spider, soliciting details about my high-school parties, prom, graduation (I was salutatorian), the mundane tasks I had to do while getting ‘rushed’ (AKA hazed) for Tri Gam...
I tell him crazy things I never tell anyone, like how I’ve always wanted to ride a horse at the beach because of that movie Wild Hearts Can’t Be Broken, and how, if my sister gets a partial scholarship to CC, I’ll probably stick around in town for a few more years at least.
We discuss the merits of beets and the horror of goat milk in coffee, the necessity of quality in movies (we agree on a lot of the classics, like “The Godfather” and “Pulp Fiction”). I confess my desire for a slap-band watch and tell him about meeting Mark-Paul Gosselaar at the mall in Atlanta when I was shopping for my prom dress.
I’m nearly sick from what seems like dozens of baked cinnamon pecans when I start to ramble on about how many kids I want.
“Two, at least, so they can be best friends. Four if they turn out to be easier than I think, but definitely two.”
I can tell I’m losing him as I ramble about the virtues of young children, but when I ask how many siblings he has, I realize something else is going on.
He bites his cheek between his teeth, inhales so hard his nostrils flare, and says, “My parents had three kids.”
And that is all.
It’s plain to see this is a sore subject for my mysterious Mr. Drake.
I feel a pang of sympathy as he turns around and starts scrubbing the pan he used to bake the pecans.
I try to remember if I read anything about his parents or siblings in the brief news article about Kellan being suspended from the Trojans, but I don’t think anything was mentioned.
I’m irrationally irritated at myself for saying something that has led to a rough spot in our smooth and easy night—a night in which I almost felt like we were on a fun first date.
A few minutes later, he turns back around, wipes his damp hands on his pants, and with an unreadable look aimed not quite at my face, says, “I’m going for a run.”
I bite my lip, because it’s what I do when I’m not sure what to do.
“You want to go?” he asks.
My eyebrows jut up. I can’t help it. Sometimes they get away from me.
Kellan notices and smirk-smiles. “Not a runner?”
“No—I am a runner. Sometimes runner. I’m just... surprised you asked.” And embarrassed for admitting my surprise. Way to be obvious, Cleo. “Do you run downstairs?”
He shakes his head.
“Outside?” I smile, because he looks a little spaced out. (Too many pecans?)
He nods a beat too late, then gestures toward the front hall. “Down the road.”
Before I can give him an answer on whether I’d like to go, he looks in my direction—but not at me—nods a little, and says, looking at his cell phone, “I’ll be down in ten or fifteen. Gotta go get dressed.”
I wait a minute or two so I’m not climbing the stairs right on his heels. Then I go up to my windowed room, dig out a pair of hot pink running shorts, my white Under Armor running shirt, and my new-ish sneaks. I grab a rubber band and braid my hair in the bathroom.
I get down stairs after him, so I see him walk out a door beside the pantry pulling a gray t-shirt over his head. I smell a whiff of fabric softener, and then he walks around the island, and the sight of Kellan in his running gear takes my breath away.
My eyes cling to his incredible bare legs as he looks me up and down. “I like the hair.”
I touch my hand to my French braid and try not to gawk at the muscles of his thighs in those navy running shorts. I think they’re actually basketball shorts, because they’re longer. Geez... that shirt, the way it outlines his pecs. He’s just—Shit, have I said anything back to him? Stupid Cleo. I feel the heat in my cheeks. “Thanks.”
He lifts his brows. “You ready?”
I nod. Truman shows up, flouncing happily beside us as we walk toward the front door. I follow Kellan onto the porch, where we stretch.
“Do you do this every night?” It’s not lost on me that while I told him my whole life story, he told me exactly nothing.
“Almost. Especially if I don’t do cardio downstairs.”
“And how long do you say you do it for? The whole work out?”
“An hour and a half, two hours.”
“Damn. Are you training for a marathon? Like, really?”
He smiles, just one corner of his mouth tugging up a little. “Something like that.”
“Trying to keep your body lady-ready,” I tease.
He laughs, which sounds like choking. “What?”
“You know—trying to be .gif-worthy Kellan baby.”
I wiggle my brows, and he gives a low laugh. “You fucking know it.” He rolls his shoulders. Jogs in place a little. “Ready?”
“As I’ll be. You’ll probably leave me in the dust.”
And as it turns out, that’s exactly what he does. I can see him trying to go slow for me, but we’re unmatched. Kellan is a Spartan, and I’m a couch potato. He’s also almost a foot taller than me, so his Spartan legs, in addition to being incredibly well-muscled, are a good bit longer.
I admire him from behind the entire time he runs. He even has good running form. He holds his shoulders square and straight without being too tense. Where I look like a Muppet let loose on the road, Kellan looks like the athlete he is.
I think, as we turn around by a row of mailboxes and point ourselves back toward his house, that today has been different than I thought it would be. What changed between yesterday and today? He took me out to eat. He put his arm around me. He roasted me pecans. He asked so many questions. And then he invited me to run with him. Am I crazy, or was the Kellan from yesterday mostly just an ass?
By the time we jog up onto his porch, I’ve got so many endorphins partying in my brain, I really don’t care. I’m just slap-happy—and exhausted. So I’m taken off guard when we get into the foyer and Kellan yanks my running pants down.
“Kneel on the stairs and push your ass into the air,” he orders.
I do, and he crouches behind me. I can feel his smooth pecs brush my backside as he parts my lips and starts to finger me.
He inhales deeply. “Fuck—you smell incredible.”
Then he spanks me—hard.
“Ack! What the hell’s that for?”
“One,” he says, spanking me again, “for every—” spank—“word—” spank—“you—” spank—“just—” spank—“said.”
Then he leans down, pushes his head between my legs, and eats my pussy from the back.
I’m so sweaty, so dirty, that at first I think I’m not going to enjoy it, but I’m surprised to find I come almost immediately. I come even harder the second time he pleasures me. Then he carries me up the front stairwell to the windowed room and lays me on my back atop the massive oak bed. He spreads my sore legs, pulls his pants off, and climbs atop me, revealing his long, stiff cock, and the nice, full balls hanging below.
He eases his head in, then pushes in so deep and hard, I gasp.
“I need to fuck this sweaty pussy.”
He pushes my arms above my head, and I rebel and wrap my hands around his forearms. We fuck with him clutching my shoulders, and me clutching his arms.
Something about the angle is delicious. My clit throbs with every thrust. Inside, I feel so sensitive and full.
I peek my eyes open at Kellan and find his eyes closed in peaceful concentration. His brows draw together, his lips part a little every time he thrusts. His eyes peek open as he pulls out.
“So... damn good, that pussy.”
My eyes drift shut
as his thrusts grow harder. He moves one arm to the mattress to support the frenzied pace, while his other hand captures both my wrists. I relax and let him push my arms over my head and press them to the mattress.
I can feel his cock swell in me. His breathing has grown harder, faster. When he presses his face into the crook of my neck, I feel his cock pulse in me, and I come so hard my abs clench and I grunt.
“OH GOD!”
I watch his sweat-glossed back pump with his deep breaths as he hides his face in my neck. His hand around my wrist loosens just enough so I can free one arm and curl my hand around his warm, damp head.
“Kellan—that was so good,” I whisper.
He lifts his head and gives me a dazed smile. “This will be better.”
He looks exhausted, loose-limbed and satiated, but he moves quickly between my legs and drags his tongue between my swollen lips.
“Oh fuck!”
He blows his breath against my fevered skin. He traces the tip of his tongue around my clit, and I come off the bed.
“Kellan!” I grab his head. He licks me gently, so tenderly I’m almost sure I feel his tongue tremble. And then, when I’m thrusting against him, his tongue starts thrashing me. It’s so intense it’s almost painful. He shoves two fingers into me and I scream. “Ohhhh... ohh!” I suck back a huge breath as my orgasm steamrolls me.
I sag back to the mattress, and he draws his fingers out.
When I have the strength to open my eyes again, I find him standing by the bed, holding my robe.
“Come down.”
He holds an arm out, and I use it for balance as I slide off the big bed.
He takes my hand and leads me into the bathroom. He runs some water into the sunken tub and when it’s almost filled, he helps me in. I sink up to my neck in bubbles. The heat seeps into my bones, and I moan. Kellan climbs in after me.
He seats me between his legs, and with his huge erection pressed against my backside, he washes my hair.
“I like your wavy hair,” he murmurs.
I stroke his thigh, tucked around mine. “Thanks.”
