“It’s like you told Ethan.” Rachel smiled at the nurse as she poked a straw between Rachel’s teeth and ordered her to sip some water. “You didn’t do this to me. I did.”
“I shouldn’t have let you leave the parking lot. I knew you were upset.”
“Stop.” Her head fell back against the pillow, weariness evident in the slump of her shoulders. “Go see Ethan. I figured if I got you here, I’d get the two-for-one special and he’d show, too.” Her eyes slid closed. “I want you to know my secret. No more hiding.”
“But who will stay with you?” Ally thought about how she’d had her mom and dad by her side and her uncle in the waiting room with Nina Spencer.
No matter how bad her life sucked, at least she had people who cared. Now, just maybe, that list might include Ethan.
“As your elder, I order you to go home. You can visit tomorrow, okay?”
“Go on, honey,” the nurse chimed in. “We’ve got to move her upstairs to a bed and let her get some rest anyhow. We’ll take good care of her. You can leave your phone number with me if it makes you feel better.”
She jotted her number down on a scrap of paper and passed it to the nurse. Still, walking away with Rachel still in that bed with a cut lip and an IV made Ally feel two inches tall.
“All right.” On impulse, she edged around the nurse and planted a kiss on Rachel’s head, on the side opposite the bandage. “You’re going to be okay. We’re going to unveil that maze together next weekend, so get better fast.”
The nurse gave her a warm smile, but Rachel had already drifted back to drug-induced sleep. A week ago, it would have seemed mega weird to be in the hospital with her former enemy classmate, wishing her well and slobbering on her hair. But Ally was convinced there was a whole lot of hurt beneath Rachel’s designer clothes and perpetually perfect shade of blond hair.
Stepping outside of the recovery area and into the main reception room, Ally found Ethan waiting for her. He was stepping aside for an older woman pushing an IV, actually, which was exactly an Ethan sort of thing to do. He might hate farming and math, but he seemed really at home in small-town Tennessee in a way she hadn’t appreciated before. Everybody liked Ethan. What right did she have to drag him away from Heartache because she was unhappy here?
He wasn’t just her crush anymore. He was a real guy with secrets, hurts and feelings, and she needed to get over herself and start treating him that way—as a person and a friend, not some object of crazy teenage adoration. She wouldn’t talk him into leaving just because she wanted to escape.
“Do you want to go—” Ethan looked around the entry area past the gift shop and toward the cafeteria “—grab a soda?”
“Actually, would it be weird to sit in your truck?” She needed a ride home anyhow, since Uncle Mack had dropped her off. She hugged her arms around herself. “I’ve had more than my share of hospitals for today.”
“Right. You must be exhausted.” He pulled his keys from his pocket. “I actually got a great spot out front.”
A few minutes later, she slid into the front seat of an old GMC truck. It had the pieced-together look of a scrapyard find, with the truck bed a different color than the cab. But the front was clean and Ethan had sprung for the leather seat overhaul himself—a factoid he’d told her on their visit to the hay maze. It seemed like eons ago, considering all that had happened this week.
The interior of his truck smelled like new leather and pine air freshener, but when she breathed deeply, she caught a hint of Ethan’s aftershave, too. Ethan had parked in front of the main entrance, and she watched as employees flooded into the hospital for their morning shifts.
“So, you know why Rachel refused to contact her mom?” It burned her up to think of Rachel undergoing emergency surgery alone. She’d already been out in recovery by the time Ally had arrived.
“Yeah. We had a talk that night behind Lucky’s. I’m not sure why she decided to trust me, but she seemed sad. Like she could use a friend, you know?”
“I’m glad you were there,” she said honestly. “I wish I’d been a better friend.”
“She moved to this school because her mother insisted. She fell in love with a girl from her old high school. Her mother found out and flipped. I guess she’s super homophobic or something.” Ethan shrugged as if it was an unheard of condition and Ally fell for him—the real him—a little more. “Her mom forced her to come here, hoping a new school would change Rachel and give them a chance to hide the past from people. She bought Rachel a new wardrobe—like there are non-gay clothes or something.”
“That’s so horrible.” Ally’s heart broke for the poor girl in the hospital. To have no allies. No friends who knew her and having to pretend to be someone she wasn’t...Ally couldn’t imagine it.
“Right? Rachel said she’s under major pressure because her mom is in charge of her inheritance since her dad died. It’s convoluted. But she was trying to put on a game face until graduation.” Ethan turned in the seat, draping his arm along the bench right behind where Ally sat. “And her mom kept bugging her about dating. Er, guys, I mean. So I told her she should fake having a date with me. Spread it around town a little bit. But it was just talk. I didn’t really think about how weird it might be if it got back to you.”
Weak morning sun shone through the windshield as so many pieces slid into place in her head. Rachel’s comment about her clothes and how her mother would just buy her more. The noisy announcement at the hair salon about dating Ethan. The mild flirting with lots of guys even though she hadn’t really dated any of them.
“I’ve been so stupid. And blind as a freaking bat.” She, of all people, should know that not everyone’s life was as perfect as it appeared on the outside. She hadn’t even been aware that Rachel’s dad had died, although that had probably happened before they moved here.
“Blind? You saw what she wanted people to see. I’m just sorry I talked myself into a corner. Because once I blurted out the date thing, I realized it wouldn’t be cool after I’d just started—you know—talking to you more.” He lifted a strand of her hair where it lay on her shoulder and toyed with the end. “Plus, how could I tell you what happened without giving away Rachel’s secret? That wasn’t right, either.”
Ally wanted to go back into the hospital and hug Rachel for what she’d been through. But Rachel had said, “Go be in love somewhere.” Maybe Rachel was rooting for Ally and Ethan to get together, since she hadn’t gotten to be with the person she cared about.
Or maybe it was Ethan playing with her hair that had her thinking about staying right in this spot with him.
“My problems feel small compared to hers,” she admitted. “Maybe I’ll ask her if she wants to leave town with us.” She tossed it out there, just for his reaction. To see if there was any hope he still wanted to go with her even though she was in therapy for the scratching and she might face more obstacles down the road, like her grandmother.
“How can we leave now?” Ethan jerked a thumb toward the hospital. “It’s not so bad here, Ally. And Rachel’s going to need friends at school. I have a feeling the accident is only going to fuel the rumors about her.”
“I haven’t heard any rumors.” Although guilt pinched. Hadn’t she just wished she could be a better friend?
“That’s because you hang out with nice girls.” He tugged gently on her hair and then released it.
She wished he wouldn’t stop touching her. She remembered how good it had felt to hug him, even when she’d been scared and upset earlier.
“I’m sorry about crying all over you when I hugged you before,” she said suddenly, embarrassed to remember it. “I was really stressed with the responsibility of sitting with Rachel when there was no adult around.”
“And you didn’t scratch then.” He pointed to her wrists. “Good job.”
Surprised he’d t
hought of that, Ally looked down at her skin. The pink marks were still there, now marks of healing. And there weren’t any fresh scratches.
“You’re right.” And despite the crappiness of the night—her parents probably heading for divorce and Rachel getting in an accident—Ally experienced a moment of pure happiness. “Wow.”
“See?” Ethan smiled. “You just have to hug me when you’re stressed.”
Ally remembered what he’d said the day before—back in the fairgrounds parking lot—about wanting to kiss her. It was the only thing that gave her the courage to speak up now.
“Too bad I’m not stressed anymore.” Her cheeks warmed. Was that the lamest thing ever to say?
But Ethan lifted a hand to her cheek and held it there, his eyes warming her insides. “The one doesn’t have to depend on the other.”
Was he inviting her to hug him now? The way his eyes were checking her out, she wanted to wait and see what he might do. Because the moment spun out and felt really, really promising.
When his eyes slid closed, her heartbeat went crazy. She closed her eyes, too, praying she didn’t mess this up. His mouth found hers and suddenly she was having the kiss she’d always dreamed about. She’d been waiting for this forever. Hadn’t dated anyone else because, for her, it had always been Ethan Brady.
Happiness spread through her, sweeping away worries and fears and the anxiety that dogged her from the moment she got out of bed most days. With Ethan, she could just be. So she absorbed his kiss for the longest time, learning the feel of his mouth. After long moments, she remembered she was supposed to open her mouth.
“Am I doing this all wrong?” She opened her eyes again and studied his face to see if he gave away any sign that she was an awful kisser.
But his eyes stayed closed for a second. When he opened them, a slow smile curled his lips. His breath smelled like peppermint gum.
“You’re perfect, Ally. Just so freaking perfect.” He said it like he meant it.
Which, of course, was crazy. But that didn’t stop her from liking it.
“I’ve been holding out to kiss you.” She was done keeping secrets, right? He might as well know that she’d been crushing on him. “So, er, I’ve got no experience to help me out.”
“That’s...” He looked like she’d hit him with a two-by-four. And what was up with that? “That’s definitely the nicest thing I’ve heard in a long time.”
She realized now he actually didn’t appear dumbstruck, exactly. He seemed...touched. Happy. It amazed her to see how the feeling could go back and forth like that, the happiness multiplying all over the place. That was a kind of math she could definitely appreciate.
“Meaning...I kiss okay?” It wasn’t easy to let go of the whole A-student mentality. As with anything else in her life, she wanted to get this right.
Ethan leaned in and her heart went nutzoid again.
“Refresh my memory for a little while.” He brushed his mouth over hers and her nerve endings did a happy dance. “And I’ll get back to you.”
Sliding her arms around his neck, she edged closer, committing herself to the kiss and to Ethan. She’d waited long enough for this moment. She wanted to lose herself in his arms before she had to face the reality of all the things she had to worry about. Her parents splitting. Rachel’s battle for the right to be herself.
Ally’s next trip to a counselor to make sure she didn’t spiral out of control like Gram did sometimes.
Squeezing Ethan tighter, she hoped he’d never let go—even if she still wanted to make her big break after the dance.
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
“I’M NOT LEAVING.” Mack sat at his mother’s kitchen table across from his brother late that morning.
After visiting Vince’s grave, he’d gone back to the field manager’s quarters to sleep for a few hours after he got home, then knocked on his mother’s door shortly before noon, resolved to make his peace with his mother. Instead, he’d found Scott brooding over a plate of pancakes while Mom sat beside him with a big pile of pill bottles and a weeklong dispenser case.
She counted out pills quietly while Mack and Scott argued.
“Mack, you came down here to take some things off my plate and help me save my marriage.” He shoved the pancakes around an antique plate with stabs of his fork. “I’m admitting defeat and telling you—go home. Let me take over the festival. I need something to do now anyway so I don’t lose my effing mind.”
Their mother glared at him. No words needed.
“I said effing,” Scott clarified.
“Thanks so much for repeating it at my table.” She adjusted her glasses higher on her nose and went back to counting out red capsules into the compartments of the case.
“You tell me, then,” Mack demanded, trying his best not to get in his brother’s face. “What exactly did you do to save your marriage? How have you made an effort with Bethany since I’ve been here?”
The scent of sweet maple syrup and the smell of lavender that permeated the old house was giving him a headache. Or maybe it was the lack of sleep. Or perhaps it was his fury at his stubborn brother who couldn’t see how stupid he was being to let Bethany walk away without a fight.
“I asked her to leave town with me when you told me to, back when you first got here.” Scott pushed his plate aside, the fork rattling against the china as it scraped along the tile tabletop.
“Did you book a hotel? Flash airline tickets? Pack a bag?” Mack ground his teeth, wondering what in the hell was wrong with his brother.
“Why would I do that without finding out if she wanted to go first? She didn’t seem interested. Then all the sudden she wanted us to leave last night on a moment’s notice. As if I could duck out on all my responsibilities here.” Scott leaned forward, elbows on the table. “Our daughter is in a bad way. We can’t just leave her.”
“Do you even know where Ally is right now?” Mack’s mother asked him.
The steady click, click of pills halted.
He hesitated. “Sleeping upstairs.” Then, straightening, he looked up the staircase where the guest bedroom door was visible and obviously wide open. “Or else she went to sleep at home.”
Mack said nothing.
“Where is my daughter?” Scott’s fingers curled into a napkin and squeezed the ever-loving hell out of it.
“She’s at the hospital, sitting with a girl who needed a friend,” Mom explained gently. “Mack came on the scene of an accident last night. The girl was a teenage driver who was scared and asked for Ally to be with her. Mack came to pick her up after you went to bed. Ally has texted a few times since then and she should be home in about—” Mom checked the homemade clock on the wall “—fifteen minutes.”
“Nice of you all to let me know. I’ve gotten used to her not speaking to me.”
Mom’s eyebrows shot up, but she went back to pill counting.
Mack was only too glad for his turn at his brother. “Dude, if she doesn’t speak to you, and you’re not working to change that, then I don’t think she can be your excuse for not working things out with Bethany. But pick a relationship—any relationship—and start working on it, or you’re going to find yourself alone.”
“Do you really think you’re the one to pass out advice on being a husband and father since you’re neither?” Scott said with biting accuracy.
Mack bit back the urge to snap at Scott. Kicking his brother when he was already lower than down would accomplish nothing. “I’m sorry. Just offering my observations and input, for what it’s worth.”
Ever since the spring, Scott had been spending more and more time with their mother, and Mack had assumed it was because of Mom’s failing health. Or to help their mother through her grief for their dad. But now, he’d seen for himself who was making pancakes and doling out advice, versus who c
ouldn’t get out of his own way across the table from him.
And even as he thought as much, another possibility hit him like an oncoming bus.
What if Scott suffered some of the same issues their mom did? That Ally had already shown signs of? He filed that away to mention to...he didn’t know who. But he was pretty sure this wasn’t the right time or place for that particular observation.
Mack decided to ease off the tough talk, rethinking what kind of help Scott might need. His brother had been there for him through a lot, after all. The least he could do was offer the same.
“Look.” He stood, hearing a car in the driveway. “That must be Ally now. She had a rough night but she was really a stand-up friend.”
In fact, he had to admit that despite her personal problems and the emotional issues that had made a scary appearance last weekend, Ally had impressed him with her composure on their ride to the hospital. She hadn’t hesitated when he’d said Rachel needed Ally, even though, apparently, the girl hadn’t lived in town for long. Clearly, Ally’s priorities were solid.
Which had him wondering...who would have shown up at the hospital for Rachel if Scott had made the same decision about not having kids as Mack?
A sharp pang of shame heated the back of his neck even though, damn it, he could love his niece without wanting to put a kid through the battles she faced.
Still, when the screen door opened and Ally stepped through, Mack couldn’t shake an absurd sense of guilt. There were shadows under her eyes, but she smiled. He noticed the bandages on her wrists were gone, as were all the friendship bracelets she’d worn before the scratching incident.
“Morning.” He clapped her on the shoulder as he headed for the door himself. “How’s your friend doing?”
“Pretty good. Her doctor said the surgery went well. She should be able to go home Saturday. She has to be able to go through the straw maze, right?”
“Definitely. We’ll make sure they keep it up after the festival, just in case.” Mack waited for Scott to jump in. Ask a question.
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