by neetha Napew
'This is no time to approach me for favours, when Borlien's standing within the Holy Empire is threatened.' He was the Eagle as he spoke.
They both stood, watching Yuli root in the bushes by the palace. The creature pissed after the retromingent fashion of his species.
The king began to walk with measured pace in the direction of the sea.
I'm no better than a damned slave, said CaraBansity to himself. He followed.
With the runt skipping beside him, the king speeded his step, speaking rapidly as he went, so that the portly deuteroscopist was forced to catch up. He never mentioned the subject of his timepiece again.
'Akhanaba had favoured me and set many fruits in my life's way. And always to those fruits an additional flavour was given when I saw that more were promised - tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, and the day after that. Whatever I wished, I might have more of.
'It's true I suffered setbacks and defeats, but that within a general atmosphere of promise. I did not allow them to disturb me for long. My personal defeat in the Cosgatt -well, I learnt from it and put it behind me, and eventually won a great victory there.'
They passed a line of gwing-gwing trees. The king snatched down a gwing-gwing, biting into it to the stone as he spoke, letting the juice run down his chin. He gestured, clutching the despoiled fruit.
'Today, I see my life in a new light. Perhaps all that was promised me I have already received... I am, after all, more than twenty-five years.' He spoke with difficulty. 'Perhaps this is my summer, and in future when I shake the bush no fruit will fall... Can I any longer rely on plenty? Doesn't our religion warn us that we must expect times of famine? Fah! - Akhanaba is like a Sibornalese, always obsessed with the winter to come.'
They walked along the low cliffs separating land from beach, where the queen was accustomed to swim.
'Tell me,' said JandolAnganol carelessly, 'if you as an atheist do not have a religious construction to put to the case - how do you see my difficulties?'
CaraBansity was silent, setting his beefy red face towards the ground as if guarding it against the king's abrasive look. Work up your courage, he told himself.
'Well? Come, say what you will. I have no spirit! I have been flogged by my whey-visaged vicar...'
When CaraBansity stopped walking, the king followed suit.
'Sire, I recently to oblige a friend took into my establishment a certain young lady. My wife and I entertain many people, some alive, some dead; also animals for dissection, and phagors, either for dissection or for bodyguards. None caused as much trouble as that certain young lady.
'I love my wife, and ever continue to do so. But I lusted after that certain young lady. I had a contempt for her, yet I lusted after her. I despised myself, and yet I lusted after her.'
'But did you have her?'
CaraBansity laughed, and for the first time in the king's presence, his face lightened. 'Sire, I had her much as you have that gwing-gwing, the fruit par excellence of dimday. The juice, sire, ran down... But it was khmir and not love, and once the khmir was quenched - though that was certainly a process... that was summer process, sire -once it was quenched, I loathed myself and wanted nothing more of her. I established her apart and told her never to see me again. Since when, I learn that she has taken to her mother's profession, and caused the death of at least one man.'
'What's all this to me?' asked the king with a haughty look.
'Sire, I believe the activating principle of your life to be lust rather than love.
'You tell me in religious terms that Akhanaba has favoured you and put many fruits in your path. In my terms, you have taken what you would, done what you would, and so you wish to continue. You favour ancipitals as instruments of your lust, not caring that phagors are in reality never submissive. Nothing really can stand in your way - except the queen of queens. She can stand in your way because she alone in the world commands your love, and perhaps some respect. That is why you hate her, because you love her.
'She stands between you and your khmir. She alone can contain your - duality. In you as in me, and perhaps as in all men, the two principles are divided - but the division in you is as great as your state is great.
'If you prefer to believe in Akhanaba, believe now that he has by these supposed setbacks given you warning that your life is about to go wrong. Make it right while the chance is offered.'
They stopped on the cliff, ignoring the dull thunders of the sea, and stood face to face, both of them tense. The king heard his chancellor out with never a movement, while Yuli rolled in coarse grass nearby.
'How would you suggest that I make my life right?' A less self-assured man than CaraBansity would have taken fright from his tone.
This is my advice, Your Majesty. Do not go to Oldorando. Simoda Tal is dead. You no longer have reason to visit an unfriendly capital. As a deuteroscopist, I warn you against it.' Under his grizzled eyebrows, CaraBansity kept careful note of the effect of his words on JandolAnganol.
'Your place is in your own kingdom, never more so than now, while your enemies have not forgotten the Massacre of the Myrdolators. Return to Matrassyl.
'Your rightful queen is here. Fall before her and ask forgiveness. Tear up Esomberr's bill before her eyes. Take back what you love most. Your sanity lies in her. Reject the cozzening of Pannoval.'
The Eagle glared out to sea, eyes rapidly blinking.
'Live a saner life, Majesty. Win back your son. Kick out Pannoval, kick out the phagor guard, live a sane life with your queen. Reject the false Akhanaba, who has led you - '
But he had gone too far.
Matchless fury seized the king. A rage filled him until he was rage personified. He hurled himself bodily upon CaraBansity. Before this anger beyond reason, CaraBansity quailed and fell an instant before the king was on him.
Kneeling on his prostrate body, the king drew his sword. CaraBansity screamed.
'Spare me, Your Majesty! Last night I saved your queen from vile rape.'
JandolAnganol paused, then stood, sword point directed at the quaking body huddled by his feet. 'Who would dare touch the queen when I was near? Answer?'
'Your Majesty...' The voice trembled slightly, the lips uttering it were pressed almost to the ground; yet what it said was clear. 'You were drunk. And Envoy Esomberr went into her room to ravish her.'
The king breathed deep. He sheathed his sword. He stood without movement.
'You base commoner! How could you understand the life of a king? I do not go back along the path I have once trod. You may possess life, which is mine to take, but I have a destiny and shall follow on where the All-Powerful leads.
'Crawl back to where you belong. You cannot advise me. Keep out of my way!'
Yet he still stood over the grovelling anatomist. When Yuli came snuffling up, the king turned suddenly away and strode back to the wooden palace.
The guard roused at his shout. They were to be away from Gravabagalinien within the hour. They would march for Oldorando, as planned. His voice, his cold fury, stirred up the palace as if it were a nest of rickybacks disturbed by the lifting of a log. Esomberr's vicars could be heard within, calling to each other in high voices.
This commotion reached the queen in her chambers. She stood in the middle of her ivory room, listening. Her bodyguard was at the door. Mai TolramKetinet sat with two maids in the anteroom, clutching Tatro. Thick curtains were drawn across the windows. MyrdemInggala wore a long flimsy dress. Her face was as pale as the shadow of a cowbird's wing on snow. She stood breathing the warm air into her lungs and out again, listening to the sound of men and hoxneys, of curses and commands below. Once she went to the curtains; then, as if disdaining her own weakness, withdrew the hand she had raised and returned to where she waited before. The heat brought out beads of perspiration which clung to her forehead like pearls. She heard the king's voice once distinctly, then not again.
As for CaraBansity, he climbed to his feet when the king had gone. He walked down
to the bay where he could not be seen, to recover his colour. After a while, he began to sing. He had his liberty back, if not his timepiece.
In his pain, the king went to a small room in one of the rickety towers and bolted the door behind him. Dust drifting down gave phantom substance to slices of gold shining in through a lattice. The place smelt of feathers, fungus, and old straw. On the bare boards of the floor were pigeon droppings, but the king, ignoring them, lay down and cast himself by an effort of will into pauk.
His soul, detached from his body, became tranquil. Like a moth wing falling, it sank into the velvety darkness. The darkness remained when all else had gone.
This was the paradox of the limbo in which the soul now drifted rudderless: that it extended everywhere and was an endless domain, while at the same time being as familiar to him as the dark space under the bedclothes to a child.
The soul had no mortal eyes. It saw with a different vision. It saw beneath it, through the obsidian, a host of dim lights, stationary but seeming to move in relation to each other because of the soul's descent. Each light had once been a living spirit. Each was now drawn to the great mother-principle which would exist even when the world was dead, the original beholder, the principle even greater than - or at least apart from - such gods as Akhanaba.
And the soul moved in particular to one light that attracted it, the gossie of its father.
The spark that had once been no less a personage than VarpalAnganol, King of Borlien, resembled only a tentative sketch of sunshine on an old wall, with its ribs, its pelvis, scarcely drawn. All that remained of the head which had worn the crown was the suggestion of a stone, with ambers faintly connotating eye sockets. Beneath this little cockleshell - visible through it - were fessups like trails of dust.
'Father, I come before you, your unworthy son, to beg your forgiveness for my crimes to you.' So spoke the soul of JandolAnganol, hanging where no air was.
'My dear son, you are welcome here, welcome whenever you can find time to visit your father, now among the ranks of the dead. I have no reproach for you. You were always my dear son.'
'Father, I shall not mind your reproaches. Rather, I welcome your most bitter rebukes, for I know how great is my sin against you.'
The silences between their speeches were immeasurable because no breath was exhaled.
'Hush, my son, nobody needs to talk of sin among this company. You were my loving son, and that suffices. No more need be said. Grieve not.'
When it seemed time to speak, a dusty fire, the mere death of a candle flame, issued from where a mouth had been. Its smoke could be seen ascending between the cage of the ribs and up the stack of the throat.
The soul spoke again. 'Father, I beg you to pour your wrath upon me for all that I did against you in your life, and for causing your death. Lessen my guilt. It is too much to bear.'
'You are innocent, my son, as innocent as the wave that splashes on the shore. Feel no guilt for the happiness you brought into my life. Now in the residue of that life, I have no wrath to bring against you.'
'Father, I kept you imprisoned ten years in a dungeon of the castle. In what way can I earn forgiveness for that act?'
The flame moved upwards, issuing as sparks.
That time is forgotten, son. I scarcely remember a time of imprisonment, for you were always there to speak with me. Those occasions were cherished, for you asked advice of me - which I freely gave, as far as it was in my capacity.'
'It was a melancholy place.'
'It gave me time to think over the failings of my own life, to prepare myself for what was to come.'
'Father, how your forgiveness wounds me!'
'Come closer, my boy, and let me comfort you.'
But for the living to touch the dead was forbidden in the realm of the original beholder. If that ultimate duality was breached, then both were consumed. The soul floated lightly away from the thing that hung before it in the abyss.
'Comfort me with more advice, Father.'
'Speak.'
'First of all, let me know whether that tormented son of mine has fallen among you. I fear the instability of his life.'
'I shall welcome the boy when he arrives, never worry - but as yet he still journeys in the world of light.'
After a moment, the soul communicated again.
'Father, you perceive my position among the living. Advise me where Tarn to go. Am I to return to Matrassyl? Should I remain in Gravabagalinien? Or shall I continue to Oldorando? Where does my most fruitful future lie?'
'In each place there are those who await you. But there is one who awaits you in Oldorando whom you know not. That one holds your destiny. Go to Oldorando.'
'Your advice will guide my actions.'
From among the sparkling battalions of the dead, the soul rose, slowly at first, and then with a great urgency. Somewhere, a drum was sounding. The sparks dissolved below, sinking back into the original beholder.
The inanimate anatomy on the floor in the belfry began slowly to move. Its limbs twitched. It sat up. Its eyes opened in a blank face.
The only living thing to meet its gaze was Yuli, who crawled nearer and said, 'My poor king in tether.'
Without answering, JandolAnganol ruffled the runt's fur and let it snuggle against him.
'Oh, Yuli, what a thing is life.'
After a minute, he patted the ancipital across the shoulders. 'You're a good boy. No harm in you.'
As the creature snuggled against him, the king felt an object against his side, and drew from his pocket the watch with three faces which he had taken from CaraBansity. Whenever he looked at it, his thoughts became troubled, yet he could not find it in himself to throw it away.
Once, the timepiece had belonged to Billy, the creature who claimed to come from a world not ruled by Akhanaba. It was necessary to banish Billy from consciousness (as one banished the thought of those damned Myrdolators), for Billy was a challenge to the whole elaborate structure of belief by which the Holy Pannovalan Empire stood. Sometimes, the fear came to the king that he might become bereft of his religious faith, as he had become bereft of so much else. Only his faith and this humble inhuman pet were left to him.
He groaned. With a great effort, he got to this feet again.
Within the hour, King JandolAnganol was at the head of his force, riding Lapwing with Envoy Alam Esomberr beside him. Behind came the king's captains, then Esomberr's party, and after them the body of the First Royal Phagorian Guard, ears atwitch, scarlet eyes fixed ahead, marching as their kind had done many centuries before towards the city of Oldorando.
The king's departure from the wooden palace, with all its underlying sense of anxiety, made a due impression on the watchers on the Avernus. They were glad to divert their attention from the sight of the king in pauk. Even the devoted female admirers of his majesty felt uncomfortable at the sight of him lying prone with his spirit away from his body.
Throughout the human population of Helliconia, pauk, or paterplacation, came as naturally as spitting. It had no particular religious significance, although it often existed alongside religion. Just as women became pregnant with future lives, so people were pregnant with the lives of those who had gone before them.
On the Avernus, the mysterious Helliconian practice of pauk was regarded as a religious function roughly equivalent to prayer. As such, it embarrassed the six families. The families suffered no inhibitions concerning sex: constant monitoring had ensured that long since; for them love and the higher emotions were no more than side effects of daily functions, to be ignored where possible; but religion was particularly difficult to deal with.
The families regarded religion as a primitive obsession, an illness, an opiate for those who could not think straight. They hoped perpetually that SartoriIrvrash and his kind would become more militant in their atheism and bring about the death of Akhanaba, thus contributing to a happier state of affairs. They neither liked nor understood pauk. They wished it did not happen.
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sp; On Earth, other opinions prevailed. Life and death could be perceived as an inseparable whole; death was never feared where life was properly lived. The terrestrials regarded with the liveliest interest the Helliconia activity of pauk. During the first years of contact with Helliconia, they had regarded the trance state as a kind of astral-projection of the Helliconian soul, rather similar to a state of meditation. Later, a more sophisticated viewpoint had developed; understanding grew that the people of Helliconia possessed an ability peculiar to them, to shift beyond and return from the boundary set between life and death. This continuity had been given them in compensation for the remarkable discontinuities of their Great Year. Pauk had evolutionary value, and was a point of union between the humans and their changeable planet.
For this reason, the terrestrials were particularly interested in pauk. They had at this period discovered their own unity with their own planet, and related that unity to increasing empathy with Helliconia.
In the days that followed, lassitude took the queen of queens and laid her low.
She had lost the things of value which gave existence its previous fragrance. After the storm, the flowers would never lift their heads so high again. With her deep sense of guilt that she had somehow failed her king went bitter anger against him. If she had failed, it was not for want of trying, and the years of loving bestowed on him as freely as breath were more than wasted. Yet love remained beneath her anger. That was the cruellest thing. She understood JandolAnganol's self-doubt as no one else did. She was unable to break from the bond they had once forged.
Every day, after prayer, she went into pauk, to communicate with her mother's gossie. After her prostrations, recalling how SartoriIrvrash in particular had condemned all pater-placation as superstition, MyrdemInggala, in a fury of doubt, questioned whether she had visited her mother at all, whether the phantom was not in her head, whether there could be survival for anyone after death, except in the memories of those who had still to pass beyond that forbidding shore.
