Table of Contents
Title Page
Copyright Page
Dedication
Foreword
CHAPTER ONE - My Moment of Truth
CHAPTER TWO - Standing Up for Myself
CHAPTER THREE - Just Another Sport
CHAPTER FOUR - Planet Hollywood
CHAPTER FIVE - Not Exactly “World Peace”
CHAPTER SIX - Was It Something I Said?
CHAPTER SEVEN - A Wing and a Prayer
CHAPTER EIGHT - Calling Donald Trump
CHAPTER NINE - Fired by Radio
CHAPTER TEN - Gagging Free Speech
CHAPTER ELEVEN - Stand Up for Yourself
Acknowledgements
Copyright © 2009 by Carrie Prejean
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Prejean, Carrie, 1987-
Still standing / Carrie Prejean.
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I dedicate this book to my Lord and Savior.
To my family, Mom, Dad, Billy, and Chrissy,
I love you.
FOREWORD BY
Sean Hannity
There’s a reason why the very first amendment to our Constitution protects freedom of speech and religion—it’s because our founding fathers held as their highest value that the people had the right to speak their minds on political issues, and that the federal government had no right to interfere in their freedom of religious practice. Because of their principles and foresight, America is home to a thriving free press that takes pride in upholding the first amendment rights of Americans to speak out on what they believe.
Unless a conservative is the one talking—especially a conservative woman.
Mainstream media contempt for conservative women transcends traditional lines of race, profession, religion, and background. Hillary Clinton and Nancy Pelosi are lauded as pioneering female politicians while Michele Bachmann and Sarah Palin are called stupid and mocked for not cooking meals for their families. Katie Couric and Diane Sawyer are breaking the glass ceiling, while Ann Coulter and Michelle Malkin just need to shut up.
In this oppressive climate, Carrie Prejean has rapidly risen to national prominence because she wouldn’t just shut up. When asked for her opinion, she gave it. She put her values, principles, and faith ahead of her ambition. Then, after she refused to say what our politically correct culture demanded she say, she lost the crown she had worked so hard to win. But she didn’t apologize or back down. She kept her head high and kept speaking her beliefs, to me, to other hosts who interviewed her, to the people who fired her unfairly, and to the American people.
In the process, she discovered she wasn’t alone. When she gave her controversial answer at the Miss USA pageant that night, she was speaking for millions of Americans who define marriage as it has always been defined: as between a man and a woman. She also spoke, as Miss California, for her state that had just voted to reject gay marriage.
Still Standing is the remarkable story of a great role model for young women to follow. Starting with her unlikely tomboy beginnings—the child of a broken home who grounded herself in her faith and competitive athletics, which carried over into a late-blooming interest to compete in beauty pageants—she takes readers through the journey that ended with all eyes on her, with time standing still, as a nation waited to hear her answer to an inappropriate, loaded, and politicized question.
Never wanting to become a political figure, she is one now—and while her beliefs are conservative beliefs, very similar to my own, what really distinguishes her in the public eye and in this book is her courage, her fortitude, and her stubborn conviction in affirming that in America we shouldn’t have to be apologetic for speaking our beliefs, we shouldn’t allow ourselves to be bullied by politically correct factions that want to silence all dissent and label it as “bigotry” (consigning the majority of Americans to the category of bigots). Carrie Prejean likes to talk about how her grandfather fought for our freedoms at the Battle of the Bulge. Carrie is fighting for them now on the home front. Her grandfather would be proud.
Carrie Prejean’s Still Standing proves our country can still produce citizens with character, citizens who live up to the standards our founders embedded in the Constitution. Read this account of an unlikely patriot in a pageant gown—and take hope.
CHAPTER ONE
My Moment of Truth
“Next, let’s have California, Carrie Prejean.” I looked directly at Billy Bush, Access Hollywood star and host of the Miss USA 2009 pageant. I strode over to the center of the stage, trying to display ease and confidence.
Beneath the smile, however, my stomach churned with anxiety. When you’re on stage like that, though the bright lights blur out the crowd, you’re in a proverbial fish bowl: all eyes are on you. The lights make you want to squint, but you try to smile and walk across the stage naturally, even though you’ve practiced this same walk ten thousand times before.
This was my last test. We were down to five semi-finalists. One of us would be crowned Miss USA. Answering any question before a world audience of seven million people is going to be hard; mine would be a lot harder than I could have imagined.
I stepped forward and reached into a glass bowl and removed the folded card that would reveal the identity of my questioner. It was Judge Number Eight—Perez Hilton, self-styled celebrity blogger and professional gossip.
“Are we worried?” asked the co-host, actress Nadine Velazquez.
“You should be,” a deep voice said into a microphone.
I turned to face Perez Hilton, a jowly, boyish-looking man with blond highlights in his hair. It was his deep voice that had given me this warning—no doubt half in jest, but half menacingly too.
He asked his question: “Vermont recently became the fourth state to legalize same-sex marriage. Do you think every state should follow suit? Why or why not?”
It was as though I could feel time slowing down; as i
f silence was screaming in my ears, like tinnitus; I had to break that silence with my answer—and I had to do it now, before the silence grew and grew and crippled me, making me look hesitant or confused. I have never felt more exposed, alone, and vulnerable in my life. But I smiled my broadest smile and prepared to answer.
I was being dared—in front of the entire world—to give a candid answer to a serious question. I knew if I told the truth, I would lose all that I was competing for: the crown, the luxury apartment in New York City, the large salary—everything that went with the Miss USA title. I also knew, or suspected, that I was the front-runner, and if I gritted my teeth and gave the politically correct answer, I could be Miss USA.
For the contestants, the Miss USA event you see on television comes at the end of three very strange weeks. We had all been living together, fifty-one beautiful women from across the country packed into the Planet Hollywood Resort and Casino in Las Vegas, with a tight schedule of press interviews, charity events, and photo shoots. It was a time of intense competition, mental exhaustion, and, at the end of each day as we lay our heads down on our pillows, sweet dreams of golden futures. Everything was on the line for us—or so it seemed at the time. As those three weeks wound down, the number of contestants narrowed to fifteen.
I was one of those fifteen.
On the evening of the competition, on live national television, the final fifteen came down to ten.
I made the final ten.
And then, with my sister, my proud parents, my aunts and uncles and friends watching, they came down to the final five. I was one of them. I had survived the interview, the swimsuit competition, and the evening gown competition. There was just one more event to go. To me, this last event was the easiest. After all my preparation, I knew I could do this. I just had to be myself.
Suddenly, it hit me that the long months of planning, dieting, exercising, and practicing were on the verge of paying off. If I won, I would become Miss USA, headed for the 58th Miss Universe Pageant in Nassau, Bahamas. I would be America’s girl at the most popular and most-watched beauty pageant in the world.
Even if I only won Miss USA, it would be a platform for national exposure. It would help me land my dream job as an on-air sports journalist on a national network. But even if I looked confident as I walked toward my goal across that stage, inside I was thinking: What if I trip over my heels (as several contestants had done in other pageants) or give a painfully inarticulate answer (as had also happened and been immortalized on YouTube). This evening in Las Vegas was my chance to fall flat on my fanny in front of the whole world. I squared my shoulders. Miss Universe, Carrie, I told myself. You got this. I knew if I saw it, felt it, the dream could become reality.
Then came “the Question.”
Many commentators have called me stupid for not having the political judgment to look down from that stage at Perez Hilton and give him the answer he so desperately wanted to hear.
Instead, I said:Well, I think it’s great that Americans are able to choose one or the other. We live in a land that you can choose same-sex marriage or opposite marriage. And you know what, in my country, in my family, I think that I believe that marriage should be between a man and a woman, no offense to anybody out there. But that’s how I was raised, and that’s how I believe that it should be—between a man and a woman.
I could see Perez and the other judges slump back in their chairs, mouths gaping with disbelief. Perez’s round school-boy face sagged—he looked absolutely devastated. Perez turned away from me, refusing to make eye contact.
It was as if I had just set off an atomic bomb. After a moment of stunned silence, everyone in the audience started talking. I heard cheers and boos; then the roar of hundreds of conversations drowned out everything else.
As I later told Matt Lauer on the Today Show, I knew immediately that I would lose the competition because of my answer, because I had spoken from my heart, from my beliefs, and for my God. I also spoke for the majority of the people of California, but not, I was sure, for the majority of the judges on the panel. They as a group represented the values of Hollywood; those aren’t my values, and though I didn’t want to offend anyone, it was more important to me to be biblically correct than politically correct.
It’s a sad fact of life, but I knew political correctness was powerful enough to deny me the opportunity to be Miss USA. As painful as losing is, especially for a competitor like me, I could live with that—because the crown was not worth winning if it meant compromising my beliefs. What I didn’t know was that merely for expressing a point of view identical to that of a majority of California voters, the President, and most Americans, I would be publicly labeled a bigot and a bitch, a Nazi, and a “c**t.” I would be the victim of a succession of well-planned dirty tricks in which the same people who put me on an airplane to New York would then hold a press conference to bemoan the fact that I was not in Los Angeles, doing my job. I would have my personal medical information and emails publicly released without my knowledge or consent. I would have personal information from my past aired publicly, as if I were running for president. I would receive a televised death threat from a prominent British politician—and no one I worked with in the Miss California or Miss USA pageants would even bother to stand up to say a word in my defense. Within weeks I would be fired as Miss California in the worst possible way, getting the news from my interviewer, Billy Bush, while I was on his radio show.
The strange part is that I would learn that I—a 22-year-old beauty queen from San Diego—had dared to speak out and say what some of the most influential people in the country will only tell me in a whisper, that marriage should only be between a man and a woman.
What I went through told me something about America. There is something broken in our culture when a majority of Americans are afraid to speak out on a prominent issue. There is something sick about a political correctness smear machine that can be turned on instantly and can throw so much hatred at a young woman who dared to speak her mind.
What I went through also told me something about myself. An angry detractor told one of my defenders that I was “going to die broke, drunk, and lonely. We are going to destroy her. She doesn’t know what she is up against.” Would I do it again? As I told Matt Lauer, I gave my answer, and I wouldn’t change it for the world. Ask me a specific question, and you will get a specific answer. I’ve never been one to turn down a dare, and I’m not about to back down from what I believe.
I went out on that stage knowing who I was. They threw everything they had at me—and it’s still coming: the lies, the hate, and the personal attacks. But I don’t think they knew who they were messing with. There are a lot of bullies in our culture—bullies who like to think that conservative women, Christians, and people who believe in traditional values are fair game; that we can be mocked and pilloried at will because they’re cool and we’re not; because they’re worldly and we’re prudes; because they command the cultural heights and look on normal, church-going Americans as dangerously bigoted and ignorant people who need to be reformed. As I’ve learned, the guardians of political correctness, the ones most likely to claim to worship tolerance, are the ones most utterly intolerant of disagreement.
But I have news for them: I came up the hard way, and I know how to deal with bullies; I’m still standing, and they’re not going to take me down.
CHAPTER TWO
Standing Up for Myself
You might think of me as the kind of girl who lives for the sash and crown, a human Barbie doll who started as a child contestant, like the little girls you see on TLC’s Toddlers and Tiaras, complete with the pushy mother, the fake eyelashes, and loads of make-up. In my few years in the pageant world, I did know some girls who were like that. I was never one of them.
I have always been fiercely independent and competitive. To tell the truth, I have always been, heart and soul, an athlete—a female “jock.”
One other thing about me doesn’t fit the beauty q
ueen mold: I don’t like people telling me what I can or cannot say. It all goes back to a day when I was eight years old, and my court-appointed lawyer sat me down and said, “You can’t have your own voice.”
I didn’t like being told that at age eight, and I don’t like it now.
I was brought up in Vista, a suburb north of San Diego. I might have been born and raised on “the Left Coast,” but in cultural terms, I really come from the smack dab middle of America. You can ask a lot of Californians, and they’ll tell you the same thing—that their California is the California of Ronald Reagan (our former governor), John Wayne (who has an airport named after him in Orange County), and church-going communities (from the Catholic missions of our past and present to some of the biggest and most notable Evangelical churches in America). This is especially true if they come from California’s ranching and farming country, or the areas inland from the coast, or like me, from San Diego, which remains a Navy and Marine Corps town. Vista, where I grew up, is the kind of place where Veterans Day means something more than a day off work, and school prayer means something more than a moment of meditation. Take away the palm trees and Pacific breeze, and Vista could be in Texas, Iowa, or Georgia.
I was a quiet kid—a very quiet kid. As a toddler, I was the kind of kid parents could take to a restaurant without fear of embarrassment. I would just look around the room at all the people, completely observant of the scene and totally silent (though my mother jokes I am making up for my silence now). In fact, I didn’t speak at all until I was four years old. That was just fine, however, because I had my sister, Christina, to speak for me. Chrissy, who is just eleven months older than I am, is practically my twin (except in one respect: she is every bit as liberal as I am conservative). My sister is also a source of tremendous pride for my mother, Francine, and my father, Will. Chrissy is today a second lieutenant in the United States Air Force, serving our country.
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