by Smith, L. J.
“This is my turf,” a voice behind her said.
She glanced around and saw a black leather jacket and black jeans.
“Nick,” she said. “I walked this way to be alone, so maybe you’re on my turf.” She was trying to sound playfully sarcastic. Then she immediately ruined it by adding, “But it’s really nice to run into you.”
She noticed him shift uncomfortably at the sappy comment, but more of the same started sputtering from her mouth. “It’s just . . . we’ve hardly gotten to talk lately,” she said. “And we never hang out anymore.”
Nick’s face appeared cold. No smile, not even a hint of one. He obviously didn’t feel the same way. He looked away and patted his jacket pocket for his cigarettes. Then he remembered he’d quit, so he stopped patting and stood still.
“I miss you, Nick,” Cassie heard herself say. And she immediately wished it hadn’t come out sounding so needy and pathetic.
Nick had been this way—aloof and closed off—since Cassie and Adam got together. The rational part of her brain knew he was only shutting her out because he’d been hurt, but the other part of her brain, the irrational part, didn’t care at all about that and just wanted him back in her life.
She touched the soft leather of his jacket and asked, as innocently as she could, “Don’t you miss me at all?”
A pang of agony shot across his face, like she’d stabbed him in the stomach with a sharp knife.
“Cassie,” he said.
He was about to say something important. She could tell by the gentle tone of his voice and the way he was struggling to find the right words. It was so difficult for him to express his emotions that to watch him working so hard at it now made Cassie’s heart melt a little. This was the tender side of Nick not many people had access to.
“Cassie, listen,” he said.
But just then Adam drove up, honking his horn. “Hey, you two,” he called out. “Want a ride?”
Shoot. What terrible timing. She and Nick were finally getting somewhere.
But the moment was lost. Nick’s face, which had opened itself up briefly, closed again, tighter and more secure than a vault.
“Do you want a ride home?” Cassie feebly asked him.
The sight of her with Adam was the last thing Nick needed, and Cassie knew it. “I’ll pass,” he said, with the coldest voice he could muster. “But you’d better go,” he added, when he noticed Cassie’s hesitation. “Your chariot awaits.”
Cassie was torn. For a split second she imagined their alternate future, the one where Adam didn’t pull up, where she and Nick talked the whole long walk home beneath a canopy of trees. She didn’t want to let this possibility go. But she knew not to push Nick too far. After all, her loyalties were to Adam, and they always would be.
Nick started shuffling away in the opposite direction of home. Cassie rushed to catch up with him and whispered into his ear. “You may have earned the right to wallow a bit,” she said. “But I’m not going to let you go that easily.”
Then she jogged back to Adam’s car, opened the door, and climbed inside.
The interior of Adam’s car always smelled the same. It was the sweet musk of autumn leaves and gasoline, oiled leather and rubber, and it never failed to make Cassie feel a charge.
Adam looked her over, analyzing every inch of her face with his piercing blue eyes. “I thought you were going out dress shopping with the girls.”
“I didn’t feel like it.”
He rested his warm hand on her knee. “Cassie, are you sure everything’s okay?”
She gazed out the window and didn’t answer.
“Was Nick giving you a hard time back there?”
“What? No, of course not. If anything, I was giving him a hard time, trying to get him to be my friend again.”
Adam returned his hand to the steering wheel and gripped it so tightly, his knuckles whitened. “He needs time.”
“I know.”
Cassie watched the more ordinary streets of New Salem give way to Crowhaven Road and decided to change the subject.
“Did you get a weird feeling from the new principal today?” she asked.
“No, why? Did you?”
“Kind of, but I’m not sure,” Cassie said honestly. “I think I want to ask Constance about it. Maybe she knows a spell or something that can show us his true nature.”
Adam tried to suppress a smile. “I think you’re being a little paranoid, Cassie. Rightfully so, after all we’ve been through. But honestly, the only thing I found freaky about the principal is that Faye is into his son.”
“I know, you’re probably right.” Cassie returned her gaze out the window. She noticed a black sedan behind theirs and strained to see if it was one of their friends. Not too many cars had a reason to turn onto Crowhaven Road.
“Cassie,” Adam said. “Listen to me. Black John isn’t haunting us anymore. He’s gone. We won.”
In spite of all of Adam’s sensitivity, it bothered Cassie that he still glossed over the fact that Black John, though evil, was her father. Whenever Adam mentioned him, it was always, He’s gone, gone forever—which of course was a good thing, but Adam could at least acknowledge that his death was confusing for her.
“I think I’d still like to go see Constance,” she said. “Will you drop me off there, please?”
Adam got quiet then, which meant he had the sense to know he’d said something to upset Cassie.
They were just about at Constance’s house now, so he let up on the accelerator and slowed to a stop. Cassie noticed the black car behind them also stopped. It then made a sharp U-turn and headed back to the main road. Weird, she thought.
At first no one answered her knock, but then Cassie saw Constance’s gray head of hair appear in the front window. She waved her birdlike hand at Cassie and then opened the door.
“Are you here to see Melanie?” she asked. “She’s not home from school yet.”
“Actually, Aunt Constance, I came to talk to you.”
“Uh-oh. What’s wrong?” She led Cassie across the spotless hardwood floor to the parlor, where she’d been having tea.
Cassie had grown quite comfortable in this house since her mother had stayed there when she was ill. It was similar to Cassie’s own home, but in much better shape. The walls were freshly painted, the silver was polished to a shine, and there wasn’t a speck of dust anywhere. The parlor smelled like the oil soap used to clean wood.
Constance refilled her willow-patterned teacup and poured a cup for Cassie. Then she sat back in her large rocking chair. “What’s on your mind?” she asked.
“Nothing, really,” Cassie said. “I guess I just came to ask your advice.”
“About what?” Constance was thin and regal, but she looked almost childlike, rocking back and forth in her chair.
“I’ve been feeling kind of uneasy lately,” Cassie said.
Constance stopped the rocking and rested her feet flat on the floor. “You’ll have to be more specific if advice is what you want, dear.”
“Believe it or not, I’m really trying.” Cassie set her teacup down. “I guess part of it is that I know I should be happy. The Circle defeated Black John, and my mother is well again. And I have Adam, who loves me very much.”
“But?”
“But I can’t seem to relax.” Cassie leaned in close to Constance and began speaking more softly. “Like today, when our new principal was introduced. I started to feel all shaky, right there at the assembly. I know it wasn’t about him, but how do I know, or how can I tell. . . . Oh, I don’t know.”
“How can you tell the difference between instinct and anxiety?” Constance smiled.
Cassie nodded.
“There’s only one way,” Constance said. “Years of practice. That’s one of the biggest challenges of having the sight.”
She leaned back in her chair and appeared lost in her own thoughts for a moment. Then her thin red lips formed a smile.
“Your grandmother was t
he same way,” she said. “What you call nervous. If you only knew how many times she woke me up from a sound sleep, crying about a bad omen that turned out to be indigestion.”
Constance started laughing so hard, tears formed in the corners of her eyes. She reached for a tissue and patted them away before she went on. “I’m sorry, I don’t mean to make light of it. But it’ll get easier with time, Cassie, you can be sure of that.”
“So what you’re saying is there’s no magic way to know for sure who’s good and who’s evil, no spell to test the principal’s true nature?”
Constance resisted the urge to start laughing again. “Honey, if only that spell did exist, it would have been the first one I showed you.” She looked at Cassie lovingly. “Unfortunately, there’s no shortcut to peace of mind.”
When Cassie made no reply, wrinkled lines appeared between Constance’s eyebrows. “Practice your daily meditations and your invocations,” she said. “Cultivate tranquility as best you can.”
It was simple advice, but Cassie left Constance’s house feeling just a little bit lighter.
Chapter 5
When Cassie arrived at Old Town Hall, the sun was shining down on the carnival as booths and tables were being set up for the evening’s festivities. She searched for her mom among the volunteers so she could help her put up the decorations they’d finally finished making late last night.
Old Town Hall was one of the earliest municipal buildings in New Salem. When it had been in use, it housed all the town’s federal offices. The surrounding area was designed to be an outdoor market, but these days it was mostly used as a public art space and, of course, to host yearly spring and fall festivals.
“Hey, Cassie.” Laurel appeared carrying a tray of tulip bulbs that was nearly twice her size. She dropped it onto a nearby table and waved a few sweaty strands of hair away from her pixielike face. “Are you psyched for tonight’s festival?”
“Sure,” Cassie said unconvincingly.
“Well, you should be,” Laurel said. “The spring equinox is important to us as witches.” She looked to her left and then to her right to be sure nobody had heard her. And then, as Cassie expected, she launched into a history lesson. History and botany lessons were pretty much mandatory when talking to Laurel. You either loved her for it or you had the urge to tape her mouth shut, but for now Cassie humored her.
“Like many traditions in New Salem, the origin of the spring festival has roots in paganism,” Laurel said. “This festival used to be called Ostara’s Festival, and it was a holiday to celebrate the Goddess waking from her winter slumber. It was a time when our ancestors honored the balance of all things, the physical with the spiritual. The old books said it was a time to plant seeds in the garden, as well as a time to plant the seeds of desired manifestation.”
“But what does that mean?” Cassie asked.
“It means it’s a time to start new projects and put new plans into action.” Laurel picked up her tray with a grunt and began to walk away. “It’s something to get excited about,” she said over her shoulder.
Cassie let her eyes wander around the square. In every booth was a local merchant offering samples of food or drink, or the chance to bid on some item up for auction. Local bands were setting up their equipment on a ramshackle stage. The whole event had simply become a backdrop for the kickoff of the tourist season. But still, Cassie thought she should embrace it. It was a celebration of sorts, like Laurel said.
Cassie found her mother on the far side of the square, stapling paper daffodils along a wooden baseboard. Across from her, Cassie saw Melanie and Constance setting up their jewelry booth. Melanie’s smooth cap of chestnut hair was pulled neatly back, while Constance’s gray mane feathered madly in the wind. They were quite a pair; Melanie was tall and beautiful and prepossessing, and Constance was shrunken and slumped over, bossily calling out commands with her wrinkled pointer finger. But the love and compassion between them was palpable, and the jewelry they designed was a physical product of that love. Melanie had told Cassie that the local townspeople didn’t have a real understanding of crystals, but that didn’t matter. Their jewelry made for pretty conversation pieces, and Aunt Constance really appreciated the extra cash.
Cassie waved to Melanie from afar and then spotted Diana. She was wearing all white, and the way the sun was striking her blonde hair, it appeared almost white, too. My God, Cassie thought, Diana is literally shimmering like an angel. And appropriately, she was helping with the charity raffle this year. In fact, she’d organized it. Sometimes Cassie wondered if there was anything Diana couldn’t do.
Cassie gave her mom a signal to let her know she’d be right there and then headed over to the raffle table to say hello to Diana. She’d felt so distant from Diana lately, she thought stopping by would be a nice gesture. Maybe even a first step in clearing the air between them.
Cassie understood the distance was because she spent most of her free time with Adam these days. How could that not make things weird, when not so long ago it used to be Diana who spent all her time with Adam?
But in spite of all that, when Diana noticed Cassie coming her way now, she couldn’t have offered her a more heartfelt greeting. She dropped her clipboard onto the table and jogged across the square to meet Cassie halfway.
“I’m so glad you’re here,” she said. “Your mother’s decorations look fantastic.”
“Thanks,” Cassie said, and then hesitated. She hadn’t known she was going to do this, but in the moment it felt right. “Can we talk?” she asked.
Without waiting for an answer, she took Diana’s hand tightly in her own and led her to the side of the square, where there was a long stone bench they could sit on without the risk of anyone overhearing their conversation. “There’s something I have to tell you,” Cassie said.
Diana’s green eyes narrowed with concern, but she sat down, as instructed. Cassie sat across from her, anxiously rubbing her fingers along the bench’s stone surface.
“I’ve been feeling so bad,” she said. “For all the awkwardness.”
Diana smiled wide. “Kind of like right now?”
“Yeah.” Cassie felt herself blush. “I guess I am being kind of awkward right now. It’s just that I know how close you and Adam were, and the sacrifice you made, and—”
Diana cut Cassie off mid-sentence. “Cassie, I know. I really do. And it has been hard at times, but I think we’ve all grown used to it a lot faster than you have.”
She put her hands on Cassie’s shoulders and gave her a little shake. “There are no hard feelings. Honestly. It’s you who’s making it hard, for yourself.”
Cassie’s eyes filled with tears, and she realized Diana was right. She had been making things unnecessarily difficult. This was supposed to be a new beginning. Everywhere around her, people were embracing change while she clung on to old hurts and past fears.
“Does this mean we can hang out more?” she asked.
“I sure hope so!” Diana brought her in for a hug, and when Cassie closed her eyes, everything felt just right. A new beginning, she thought to herself again. Now she really would be able to enjoy the festival.
Together she and Diana walked through the square, arm in arm, back to the raffle table. Cassie didn’t want their renewed closeness to end, but she had work to do.
“I’d better go help my mom,” she said, and was about to walk away when a girl approached her. The girl had long waves of bright red hair and wore high black boots that caught on the hem of her slip dress.
“Excuse me,” she said. “I’m looking for the bed-and-breakfast that’s supposed to be right around here.” She was about the same height and build as Cassie, and her eyes were a very dark brown, almost black.
Diana pointed west. “It’s about a two-minute walk that way.”
The girl gripped the handle of her overstuffed suitcase and stood gawking at them, as if she were hoping for more. “I’m Scarlett,” she said, offering her free hand to Diana.
Diana introduced herself and Cassie, and then asked, “Are you visiting from out of town?”
“Not visiting. I just moved here.” Scarlett bit at her fingernail, which was covered in chipped black nail polish. “I’m only staying at the B and B for now, if I ever find it.”
Diana raised her eyebrows. “Moving to a new town with only one suitcase, that’s very impressive.”
Scarlett laughed uncomfortably like she wasn’t sure if Diana was playfully teasing or rudely making fun of her. Cassie wasn’t entirely sure either. She knew Diana well enough to sense that she had her guard up around this stranger.
“Will you be going to New Salem High?” Diana asked.
Scarlett shook her head. “I graduated early. I’m working on the docks for the summer.”
“I see,” Diana said, in a tone dripping with judgment.
Diana got like this around Outsiders sometimes. Cassie knew she didn’t mean to be impolite; in fact, she probably wasn’t even aware of it. It was an unconscious self-righteousness that came from always knowing she was special. But Cassie knew what growing up average was like, and she’d once been the new girl in town. She sympathized with how awful and alienated Scarlett probably felt right now.
“Well, thank you for the directions,” Scarlett said. “It was nice meeting you.”
“Wait.” Cassie had the sudden urge to remedy Diana’s inhospitable welcome. “You should come to the festival tonight. It’s right here; you can’t miss it.”
Scarlett giggled in a way that made her sound like a little girl, and Cassie couldn’t help but join in. There was something refreshing about her. “We just met, and already you’re taking a shot at my poor sense of direction?” Then her face warmed. “I’d love to come, thank you.”
