I watched Lucan’s squire tie my red scarf around his bicep over the metal of his armor. Lucan looked up at me, catching my eye and winked before he dropped the visor of his helmet.
Instead of taking the stairs back up to the gallery, Arthur leaped onto the ledge in front of us, balancing precariously as he addressed the crowd. Clad as he was in heavy armor, it was a sheer testament to his athletic prowess.
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the caliber of the men protecting you. You will see that your country is in good hands.
Let the games begin!'
Bugles sounded and he leaped once more to the ground. Flags fluttered from the corners of the stands and people laughed merrily, all willing to forget the current dire situation of the country in exchange for one joyous evening.
First up, was Arthur and Tristan. As they faced each other from opposite ends of the arena, the court herald leaned from a small box protruding from the bleachers at the midpoint. When the king participated, the herald acted as an official in his stead and ruled the winners. The herald lifted his arm, a flowing black scarf in his hand, then dropped it.
At his signal, King Arthur and Tristan rode for his each other, their lances held tightly under one arm as their horses’ hooves thundered in the dirt. As they drew closer, anticipation built and then they met in the middle. Their horses did not swerve and they each lifted their lance, their faces invisible from behind their visors.
Arthur made the first contact, striking Tristan sideways on his chest, squarely across his chest plate. Arthur’s weapon knocked Tristan from his seat, causing him to sprawl headfirst into the dust.
Arthur spun his horse to face first the crowd, with his arms raised in victory, then to Guinevere. He dipped his head and then straightened again before sliding from his horse. Walking to Tristan, he helped him from the dirt. They both flipped up their helmets and chatted as they walked from the arena. Their squires scrambled to retrieve their weapons and horses, clearing the area for the next dual.
Gawain and Gareth competed next, two brothers pitted against one another in fun.
They each winked to the crowd before facing off, causing the eligible ladies in the crowd to giggle and watch the men with interest. Both of them were eligible bachelors, and they both incited much interest from the females in the kingdom.
After Gawain good-naturedly prevailed over his brother, they shoved each other out of the arena, much to the crowd’s delight. Sir Bedivere and Sir Kay followed them with Kay as the winner. Gaheris and Bors de Ganis were next.
As they faced off, Guinevere whispered to me.
‚How are you feeling? Are you okay in this heat?'
I reached over and squeezed her hand. ‚I’m fine, your highness. The breeze is nice, though, is it not?'
The ocean breeze blew in from the sea, breaking up the horse and dust smells.
Without that, the smell around the arena could become stifling, particularly to a newly pregnant woman. It seemed that all smells were becoming more potent to me now. I could even smell the sweat from the horses from here.
‚Oh, look!' Guinevere nudged me. ‚Lucan’s turn!'
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My eyes shot to the arena to seek out my soulmate. He was poised, tense and ready, waiting for the scarf to fall. It dropped, fluttering in the wind, and he and Sir Percivale went head to head, their horses’ massive hindquarters digging into the dirt as they ran.
Lucan raised his lance and deftly knocked Percivale from his seat. The crowd erupted into cheers and Lucan rode directly to my feet, taking off his helmet.
‚For you, my lady!' he called. I blushed and blew him a kiss. The crowd roared once more and Guinevere laughed, while Lucan retreated to help his brother-in-arms out of the dirt.
I glanced toward the end of the arena to find Mordred tensed and at attention, waiting for the signal to begin. As the newest knight, it was his turn to face Lancelot, the king’s champion. Even though this was simply an exhibition, tradition must be adhered to.
Mordred’s eyes were trained with razor sharp precision on my father as he dropped his visor and something about his stare put me instantly on edge. Everyone else was jovial and light-hearted. But Mordred was icy and tense. The hackles rose on my neck as the black scarf dropped in the wind.
They tore off for each other and as Lancelot raised his lance to knock Mordred from his horse in a sweeping motion, Mordred raised his lance as a javelin. While Lancelot’s arm was raised, Mordred impaled my father beneath his arm, in one of the few spots where armor was vulnerable.
The crowd gasped in unison and Guinevere jumped from her seat, her hands covering her mouth as Lancelot tumbled from his saddle.
‚Mother, don’t,' I warned as she hurried for the stairs. She ignored me and rushed into the arena. We were closer than anyone else, so we were able to get there more quickly than Arthur. He too hurried for his champion’s side, but Guinevere reached him first.
Easing off his helmet, she murmured, ‚Are you alright?'
‚Of course,' he nodded slowly. ‚It is but a scratch.'
Pushing in beside my mother, I lifted his arm and examined the wound. Mordred’s lance was embedded a few inches beneath Lancelot’s right arm. I swallowed hard. A mortal could bleed to death from such an injury.
Mordred had yet to dismount, instead sitting above us, the evening sun casting his shadow over where Lancelot lay.
‚This was an exhibition!' I snapped up at him. ‚What were you thinking?'
His face was meant to be sympathetic, I’m sure, but to me he seemed impassive as he apologized to the King.
‚Your highness, I apologize. I meant no serious injury. It was a slip of the lance. I have only the utmost respect for your champion and I beg your forgiveness, uncle.'
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Arthur clenched his jaw and remained silent as he knelt beside Guinevere.
Gripping the lance firmly, he wrenched it from my father’s side. Lancelot groaned and blood gushed from the wound. I quickly took off my cloak and wadded it up against the injury, hoping to staunch the blood.
Arthur called to the knights, ‚Come- bring your shields. We must carry him inside.'
The knights quickly brought their shields and laid four of them on the ground in a line. They transferred my father onto the makeshift gurney and then carefully carried him toward the castle with Mordred straggling behind them. Arthur turned to his squire.
‚Find the medicine woman,' he instructed. ‚And hurry.'
The boy took off running as Arthur studied his wife. She still sat in the dust, her skirts tangled around her legs, next to a pool of Lancelot’s blood. Her hands were visibly shaking, her face pale.
‚Are you alright, my queen?' Arthur asked in concern, reaching down to help her stand. ‚Your concern for my champion is admirable. You have a very kind heart.'
She nodded and allowed him to pull him into an embrace, and she laid her head onto his shoulder. He patted her back gently for a moment, before stepping back, gazing down at her. His blue eyes were full of emotion.
‚I must see to Lancelot,' he said. ‚But I will see you at dinner.' He looked to me.
‚Can you see her to her chambers, Heleyne?' I nodded.
He strode quickly from the arena, but as he retreated, I noticed the strangest look on his face and my heart stilled for a moment. It seemed that perhaps, my mother had given herself away.
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‚By all that is holy!' my father thundered. I smiled under my breath. I could hear him all the way down the stone h
all. The medicine woman had already attended to him by cleansing and dressing his wound before she decreed that he would live.
But he was pissed.
Apparently, my father wasn’t enjoying the limitations of mortals, in particular the slow healing process. I knocked lightly on his door and found him propped in his bed, while a page tried to help him into a clean tunic.
‚I do not need a shirt!' he yelled in agitation. The boy shrank away.
‚But sir, you must be dressed. Particularly in the company of a lady…' he trailed off at the look on my father’s face.
‚I do not give a rat’s front teeth about decorum right now,' my father enunciated clearly and loudly. ‚I have a hole in my side! Have you not noticed?'
I smiled and motioned for the boy to leave.
‚I can assist the kind knight,' I told him gently. ‚Why don’t you bring something for him to eat?'
The page more than happily took his exit while Lancelot scowled. ‚I am not hungry, either,' he informed me, his expression dark and sulking.
I stepped closer and rounded the bed, my skirts trailing behind me with a rustle.
‚Um, you do know that you are the god of war, right?' I asked with a raised eyebrow. My father stared at me for a moment before exploding into laughter, holding his side as he did.
‚Maybe,' he acknowledged finally. ‚But the god of war should not be reduced to weak mortal form. This is unacceptable…and painful.'
I patted his leg. ‚Perhaps,' I agreed. ‚But you’ve done it for thousands of years and have been none the worse for it.'
‚None the worse?' he asked incredulously. ‚Have you not noticed the hole in my side?'
‚So we’re back to that, are we?' I grinned. ‚You’ll be fine. My worry now is not your injury. It is Mordred. He tried to kill you and make it look like an accident. What did he call it? A ‘slip of the lance’?'
Lancelot instantly sobered. ‚Yes. He did. And he will not live to do it again.'
‚Father,' I cautioned. ‚You know that you may not seek retribution. Not right now. His death isn’t meant for you.'
My father’s glare was dark enough to eclipse the sun. He didn’t intimidate me. I shrugged. ‚You know it’s true.'
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He sighed heavily, stretching one leg gingerly in front of him. ‚Maybe,' he acknowledged and then changed the subject. ‚How is your mother? Is she worried sick?'
He actually sounded pleased by the prospect. I rolled my eyes.
‚She was,' I offered. ‚But then she remembered who you are and how strong you are and she realized that you would be fine. She did send me to check on you, though.'
He settled back into his pillows with a satisfied expression, reaching over to pick up an apple from his nightstand.
‚You’re both treading a thin line,' I told seriously, as he took a bite. ‚Arthur noticed that mother was the first to your side in the arena. I saw it on his face.'
For once, my father took what I said seriously and I watched him ponder it.
‚You know,' he said thoughtfully. ‚I never thought I would say this, but I actually like your mother’s husband. He’s a good man.'
‚Yes, he is,' I agreed. ‚And you will both break his heart.'
‚Perhaps,' he replied. ‚But I won’t enjoy it.'
‚Like that matters,' I muttered beneath my breath. ‚Okay. I’ve checked on you.
You’re fine, but for a foul mood. I will report back to mother and then I will continue to search for the sword. I only wish to find it and leave here. We can leave Camelot behind us and never think of it again. What say you?'
‚I say that you’d better be jesting,' Arthur said as he stepped into the room. My gaze flew to his face and he studied me curiously. ‚Leave Camelot? You can’t be serious.'
I nodded. ‚Of course, your highness. I was simply telling Sir Lancelot that with his luck of late, he might be better served to ride away from Camelot and never look back.
But of course I was simply jesting. Where would the Roundtable be without your champion?'
He nodded and I curtsied.
‚I’ll take my leave, your highness. I simply wished to check on Sir Lancelot’s injuries. He appears to be back to himself.'
Arthur nodded and turned his attention back to his knight and I slipped from the door, pausing to lean against it as I gathered my thoughts. I had almost given us away to Arthur. I really would have to be more careful.
The hall was empty, but for me. This section of the castle contained bedrooms, all of which were usually empty during the day. The queen’s bower was here, a quiet place where she was supposed to sew and do womanly things, although I didn’t think that Guinevere had used it even once since we’d been here.
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evening hours, after they had retired from dinner and before bed. It too was empty now.
A thought occurred to me and I ducked inside. Heavy chests lined the far wall.
They were intricately carved from oak, each standing three feet tall. Kneeling next to one, I removed the velvet table-runner from the top and unlatched the clasp, lifting the heavy lid.
Thick tapestries were folded inside. I rifled through them, feeling for anything metal within their depths. When I got to the bottom, I even checked to see if the chest had a false bottom. It did not. I sighed and began refolding the tapestries, wishing to leave it as I had found it.
‚Are you looking for something?'
Merlin’s quiet voice came from behind me and I spun around. He was standing with his arms folded, silently observing me. I had no idea how long he had been watching me.
‚Yes,' I answered calmly. ‚A table-runner. And lucky for me, I have found several.'
He remained impassive as I finished folding the soft material and closed the lid of the chest.
‚Is there anything else I can help you find?' he asked me, his black eyes glittering.
‚No,' I replied. ‚There is nothing that you could find that I cannot, Merlin. I am as familiar with this castle as you are.'
‚Really?' he asked, his lip curling with amusement. ‚And have you ever been here?'
Instantly, we were standing in the bowels of the castle…in the oubliette, the most feared and treacherous room of the castle. Situated in the dungeons, it was a small dark room where prisoners were sometimes left to die. It was devoid entirely of light, for there were no windows. Thankfully for me, Merlin held a torch in his hand.
The smell was overwhelming and sickening and as I glanced around me, with my hand over my mouth, I saw why. A partially decomposed prisoner was in the corner, flies buzzed around him as squirming white maggots covered open wounds.
His eyes were open and glassy, while a few maggots even clung to the yellowed, crusty corners. As I watched one crawl from his slack mouth, nausea welled up and I couldn’t control it. I bent over and vomited onto the floor. The smell of this place coupled with the sight of the maggots was simply too much to bear. My pregnant mortal body couldn’t handle it.
Once I had emptied my stomach, I stood once more, wiping my mouth with my arm and facing Merlin.
‚Why did you bring me here?' I asked. ‚I don’t wish to be here.'
‚No of course you don’t,' he agreed. ‚No one does.'
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He held his torch above our head, illuminating the .
‚Look above us, Heleyne. See that small hatch? That is how prisoners are lowered in here, with a rope. And that is how food and water is occasionally brought in as well, until that time which they simply decide not to do it anymore and the prisoner is left to starve. Or die from his wounds, whichever happens first.'
‚Does Arthur know of this
place?' I asked as I looked around once more.
Condensation dripped in the corners, dropping annoyingly to the floor. Listening to that long enough would be enough to make someone crazy.
Merlin shrugged. ‚Maybe, maybe not. His father certainly used it often enough.
Although Arthur may not personally authorize its use. I believe Kay is the one, as the castle steward, who oversees it now.'
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