A Heart Not Easily Broken (The Butterfly Memoirs)

by M. J. Kane

  I studied his eyes; lust and desire weren’t visible, but there was something else. Something made him hold my hand longer than necessary. I squirmed involuntarily before being the first to turn away.

  “Meeting like this is not the best way to get to know someone.” He released my hand before leaning down to talk to me without yelling quite as loud.

  My body tingled at the warm caress of his breath near my ear again. The scent of his musky cologne mixed with sweat from standing under the stage lights was alluring, the heat from his body inviting.

  Then I looked back at his skin. “You’re kidding right?”

  “Why would I be joking?” He took another swig of beer, his gaze steady on mine.

  I laughed lightly while raising my hand to break his line of sight, wiggling my fingers.

  He studied it briefly. “I don’t see a ring. Are you married or in a relationship?”

  He seriously didn’t get it. I glanced over my shoulder for a moment, wondering which corner of the club my roommates were hiding in while laughing at the practical joke they’d sprung on me.

  “Are you color blind?”

  “No.”

  “The lights in here are low, but you can’t say you didn’t notice. I’m black, that doesn’t bother you?”

  A deep line creased Brian’s brow. “Why should it?”

  I smirked.

  He appraised me for a moment. “Does it bother you?”

  “No,” I said a little too forcefully. I’d left myself open for that remark.

  “So what’s your point?” He angled himself to look directly in my eyes.

  I assessed him again. His cerulean eyes were sharp, studying me as much as I studied him. Sun-bleached hair set off his bronzed skin, a clear sign of time spent surfing, no doubt. Long legs led to a narrow waist and broad shoulders. I could only imagine what he would look like naked. Wait, why did I think that way?

  “You’re not my type, and I’m not yours.” I put my cup to my lips and gulped, forgetting about the extra shot of tequila, I nearly choked.

  Brian angled his head, apparently musing over my statement. “You have no idea what my type is.”

  “What about her?” I nodded at the brunette who sat behind me.

  She’d gone quiet the moment Brian came to the bar. I risked a glance over my shoulder and saw her lips were in a tight line as she glared at me. She didn’t bother to look away. If looks could kill, the coroner would have picked me up off the floor a long time ago. Fortunately, the music was too loud for her to hear our conversation.

  When I turned back, Brian’s stare continued to be intense. The room felt as if it had shrunk to the size of a shoebox.

  “If I wanted her, I wouldn’t be talking to you.”

  Disbelief had me laughing. Of all the brothers in the club, none approached me. Yet, this man spied me from the stage and made his way over. I had to admit, he was bold.

  “I want to get to know you. We could−” Annoyance flashed on his face when he acknowledged the hand on his shoulder.

  I scoffed, nearly spitting out my drink. The drummer, the object of my suggestive dancing−and oh, my God, that body−stood next to Brian. He didn’t give me the time of day.

  “Yo, man, the next set starts in five.”

  Brian nodded. “Sorry. I want to continue this discussion, but they need me back on stage. Why don’t you meet me in VIP when I’m done? It’s a little less crowded. Plus it’s away from the speakers, so you can hear yourself think.”

  As if to prove his point, a waitress caring a large tray full of empty cups bumped into his elbow. He managed to hold his beer without spilling a drop. “Tell security the Bass Man sent you. You’ll get in with no problem.”

  “The Bass Man?”

  “Yeah, I play bass guitar. You’d be surprised how many women try to get in there.” He nodded to the roped off corner of the room with oversized plush sofas under focused track lights. A few women were already lounging in the area. A man the size of Chewbacca and thankfully, a lot less hairy and dressed in black, stood, his arms crossed while wearing dark shades. He mean mugged the crowd, discouraging them from walking his way. My eyes must have bulged, because Brian chuckled. His laugh was as deep as his voice.

  “He won’t bite,” he said with a wickedly charming grin. “’Til then, Ebony.” He toasted me with his bottle, drained the remnants of his beer before disappearing into the crowd, and then reappeared on the stage.

  “Who was he?” Yasmine sat on the barstool Brian had left empty.

  Well, well, my roommates found their way back. “As if you didn’t know.”

  “Uh, no,” Kaitlyn replied in her country twang.

  I eyed them suspiciously. “A guy from the band.”

  “Really?” Kaitlyn stood on tiptoes to peer over the crowd. “He’s hot.”

  That seemed to be the consensus.

  “Did you get his number?” Yasmine asked when she finished her own study of his anatomy.

  “No, but I did get invited to VIP.”

  Two sets of eyebrows rose.

  “So, are you going?” Yasmine studied me, no doubt wondering if tonight’s mission had been a success.

  I stared at the stage as the music began to play, watching Brian in action. He looked in my direction and smiled.

  “I haven’t decided yet.”

  Chapter 2

  I loved to work, but after spending the weekend playing late night gigs with my band, sleeping in on Monday would have been my preference, except my bills made it impossible.

  Besides, laziness of any kind was not in my nature.

  My cousin, Dylan, waved for my attention. “Hey, Brian, we’re done over here. Is there anything else?”

  I cut off the weed whacker to appraise Dylan and Peter’s work, inhaling the smell of freshly cut grass. They did a good job clearing the yard of all the clippings. The decision to hire my young cousins for the summer paid off. Letting them handle the grunt work left me to handle the finer details, like trimming the edges of my clients’ professionally landscaped flowerbeds.

  Sweat dripped from my brow, stinging my eyes. “No, we’re done. Take the bags to the curb.”

  Dylan nodded before passing the message to his brother.

  I removed the weed whacker’s carrying strap from around my neck, placed it in the bed of the truck, and then reached into the semi-melted ice in the cooler to retrieve a bottle of Gatorade. The liquid saturated my parched mouth. The bottle was empty in seconds.

  “Heads up.” I tossed them both a bottle.

  They murmured their thanks before leaning against the tailgate.

  “Man, it’s hot,” Peter said. “How many yards have we done today?”

  Dylan laughed. “This is the fifth one, bro.”

  Peter turned to me for confirmation. I nodded and threw my empty bottle into the truck bed, adding to last week’s collection of bottles to be recycled.

  “Man, how did I forget that?” Peter mumbled.

  “Because your mind is still stuck three jobs ago,” Dylan replied.

  Peter continued to have a look of awe on his face. I chuckled. If he got this flustered at the sight of three grown women lounging topless poolside, he was going to be dumbstruck when attending his first frat party in college.

  I remembered my time spent in college. Somehow, I managed to discover my independence without screwing up too much along the way. Hot women always found their way into my dorm room once they learned I was in a band. A year after joining Diverse Nation, I got over the hype and focused on my craft instead. Being a member taught me discipline and kept me grounded with my eyes on the prize when it came to my career.

  Music was my life. Cutting grass made it possible to pay the bills until my career took off.

  I walked the yard one last time surveying our work. The hedges trimmed, grass cut evenly, and clippings set curbside. Mrs. Dillard would be pleased.

  “Finish loading up,” I instructed, while walking up the long stone pa
th that lead to a partially covered overhang, and rang the doorbell. The narrow strip of shade didn’t do much to ward off the sun’s oppressive heat. My attention went to the flowerbed kept near the front door. There were a few weeds growing among her flowers.

  I smiled down at the older woman as the door opened. She was in her late sixties and believed in looking her best at all times. Mrs. Dillard lived next door to my parents. She’d been my first paying customer. She’d advertised my services at the monthly homeowner’s association meetings until nearly every neighbor became my customer. As a thank you, I offered her a lifetime of free yard maintenance. She refused, insisting she pay a discounted rate instead.

  “Mrs. Dillard, you look young as ever.” I flashed the smile that used to earn me milk and cookies.

  She laughed. “Brian, you are such a flirt. If I were thirty years younger…”

  I shook my head. “Yeah, but then Mr. Dillard wouldn’t want me to come back around.”

  “True, oh, well.” She stepped out onto her porch to survey the yard. “A great job as always, thank you.”

  “You’re welcome.” Unable to resist, I asked, “When are you going to let me weed your garden? It would be free of charge.”

  “Never. I love to have my hands in the dirt. You handle the rest of the yard. I’ll handle my weeds.”

  “Yes, ma’am,” I accepted the check. “Thank you. We’ll see you in two weeks.”

  Sweaty bare feet hanging out the passenger side window greeted me when I reached the truck.

  “Peter, I am not going to be held responsible by Aunt Gina if your foot gets cut by road debris.”

  “Sorry,” he muttered, sliding his feet back inside. “It’s hot as h-e-double-hockey sticks out here. My feet were on fire in those boots.”

  Now that his feet were inside, it made sense he’d hung them outside. Telling him to climb into the bed of my truck didn’t sound like a bad idea.

  “Aunt Gina’s not around. You can drop your choirboy act, and say ‘hell’. It’ll be our secret.”

  “Yeah, right. My mom probably has my boots bugged. She’d come home and slap me upside the head after listening to the recording.”

  I cracked up. “Do you plan to let loose when you move into your dorm?” I concentrated on backing out of the driveway.

  “Hell, yeah.”

  Dylan and I both chuckled. My attention turned to my parents’ house next door. The yard would not need maintenance for another week. Unfortunately, my mother wasn’t home. What I wouldn’t give to snag a piece of homemade apple pie kept in the fridge for my dad.

  From time to time, I missed home and my four obnoxious sisters. There were plenty of good times shared in my childhood home: birthdays, holidays, and just flat out fun. My father made sure that as the only boy in a household full of women, we spent a lot of time together. My mom and sisters taught me how to treat a woman while my dad taught me how to be a man. Work hard, and never, ever take no for an answer. Words I lived by on a daily basis.

  We’d reached the front of the subdivision when my cell phone rang. I jotted down notes before snapping the phone shut. “It looks like we’ve got one more job.”

  Groans erupted from my passengers.

  “Hey, you want to get paid, right?” I glanced over my shoulder while punching the address into my GPS. “This is how it’s done. You guys want money for dates; I need money for my girl, too.”

  “What girl?” Peter blurted.

  Dylan cackled from the back seat.

  “I have a girl. Unlike you guys, my girl isn’t high maintenance. She loves it when I hold her, and it doesn’t take much for me to make her sing.” I grinned so hard my face felt like it would split in two.

  Dylan pretended to puke.

  “Dude, you seriously need to find a girlfriend. I can’t stand listening to you talk about your guitar like it’s a real woman,” Peter said.

  “Yeah, man, you need help,” Dylan chimed in.

  “No, what I need is a new guitar. That will take my playing to a whole new level.”

  Peter snickered. “Maybe, but your love life is gonna suck.”

  I smirked, ignoring the ribbing. These young guys just didn’t understand. There was more to life than chasing after women.

  Twenty minutes later, we arrived at the new customer’s address. There were no cars in the driveway. According to the woman who called, her roommate was on her way and would be responsible for payment. The guys waited in the truck while I surveyed the property, walking the length of the lawn, tossing small rocks to the yard’s edge. The last thing I needed was to pay for a customer’s broken windshield caused by a rock thrown by the lawnmower.

  The two-story house had a decent sized yard. There were a few large shade trees in the front. A quick assessment showed the roots shouldn’t get in the way of the lawnmower blades. My height allowed me to peer over the high, wooden gate of the backyard. It was less than half the size of the front. We’d be able to knock it out in no time.

  Peter and Dylan were out of the truck when I returned, so we went over the game plan. We’d just wrapped up when a car pulled into the driveway. I exhaled deeply before turning back to fill the weed whacker with gasoline. Our drive would not be a waste of time.

  I heard the slam of a car door, followed by the opening of another. Light footsteps crunched on loose gravel in the driveway as my customer approached. I turned to introduce myself in full customer-service mode.

  I paused; thankful my customer’s attention focused elsewhere, and quickly shut my mouth. It was Ebony, the woman from the club.

  Her attention appeared to be on something in her purse as she walked my way, so she hadn’t seen me yet.

  She was not dressed as she was Saturday night. Her hair wasn’t flowing over her shoulders, tempting my fingers to get lost in its waves. Her legs were not bare, nor did she wear a skin tight, short dress, showing off shapely calf muscles, as she had the other evening. Instead, she wore a baggy shirt over pants with some kind of printed design, something like standard medical wear. She wore her hair in a ponytail, and her feet were in tennis shoes. She struggled to balance an armful of books of various sizes and a book bag over her shoulder.

  Ebony was still sexy as hell.

  “I’m glad you haven’t got started yet. My roommate called me at the last minute and told me you were coming. I don’t have any cash on me. Do you take checks or−?” Her voice faltered when she saw me. “Brian? What are you doing here?”

  I caught a hint of fire in her eyes and something else. Maybe guilt for not meeting me in VIP?

  “I’m here to cut your grass.” I screwed the top back on the gas can, fighting the urge to laugh at the irony of the situation.

  Play it cool. I was not about to let her know how disappointed I’d been sitting alone. What happened a few nights ago had nothing to do with the money she was about to put in my pocket.

  “I thought you were a musician.”

  I pulled goggles and gloves out of the driver’s side door pocket. “I am, but it doesn’t pay the bills just yet. This is my day job.”

  Ebony’s eyes traveled to the truck and my cousins before settling back on me.

  “This is my business,” I added, watching her thin eyebrows arch.

  Since I hadn’t questioned her about the VIP incident, she seemed to relax. The sound of a lawnmower cranking up broke the awkward silence.

  “Well, I’ll get out of your way.” She backed away from the truck and headed for her house.

  It dawned on me I did not answer her question regarding the form of payment. At least it would give me something to talk about when we were done.

  Saturday night, Ebony disappeared like Cinderella, without leaving a hint of a glass slipper. Now, barely two days later, I found where she lived. What were the chances? This was fate.

  I took the opportunity to appreciate every inch of her hidden under baggy clothes. The image of her in the black form-fitting dress revealing every curvy inch of her body had
haunted my dreams.

  Outside the club, in natural light, Ebony did not disappoint. Her almond shaped eyes were a rich shade of brown, dark and mysterious. She wore no makeup on her caramel skin, and her lips were naked, with no hint of gloss.

  I chuckled when she finally got her front door unlocked. It appeared she’d run into some trouble with her key. Flustered perhaps?

  I hoped so. With a little luck, I just might have a chance to get her to talk to me about more than grass.

  Chapter 3

  “Damn it.” I pushed the door shut with my foot, nearly dropping the books balanced in my arms. A quick peek out the living room blinds showed Brian staring at the closed front door with a smug look on his face.

  Of all the people in southern California who cut grass, how in the world did he end up at my home? Where did Yasmine find this guy? Did she know Brian? After Saturday night, this smelled of a set up. My roommates gave me a hard time for not accepting his VIP offer. And now this. First, Yasmine calls at the last minute, knowing I’m on the way home and tells me to expect someone to be there cutting grass, and then coincidently forgets the guy’s name. Yeah, right.

  Annoyed, I pulled my phone out of my purse. Of course, Yasmine’s phone went to voicemail. Kaitlyn’s did too. It would be a waste of time to leave a message, but when they got home, there would be hell to pay. I appreciated their interest in my love life, but it was exactly that. Mine. After Saturday night’s attempt to set me up, they agreed to stay out of it.

  The sound of a lawnmower gliding past the living room window got my attention. One of the guys rolled the mower across the grass. At least the yard would receive the attention it needed. I sighed in resignation and headed for the kitchen.

  It was my turn to cook dinner. Tonight’s menu would consist of frozen lasagna and salad. Thank goodness for bagged salad, because I was in no mood to cut up any vegetables. Even though school was not in session, my goal was to stay on top of my game. Dr. Jacobs, my mentor and one of the head veterinarians on staff at the Los Angeles Zoo, allowed me to borrow several books from his personal library. He appreciated my hard work and offered to give me a heads up on classes I’d be taking in the fall. I was anxious to get started.