They watched waves roll into the shattered lighthouse. Once, the fence had kept the curious away from the dangerous ruins, until the promontory itself had given way. A few yards in, nubs of broken posts protruded in a row, waves sucking around them, and farther out, rust red tentacles broke the water—the ribboned remnants of iron supports. One clutched dried seaweed above the waves like a nest of straw; others twisted coils around hunks of concrete. The top of a cyclone fence protruded from the wash, seaweed and barnacles clogging the links. Spray exploded from a concrete pillar. From along the halfsubmerged wall of stone, terns rose in a shrieking flurry to float in the sunlight, dipping for the uneven glint.
“Sand dollar,” he muttered, stooping. He studied it a moment. “You never see them alive.” He held it out to her. “Only after they’re dead, after they wash up onshore.” His words came out in a rush of sound. “You don’t know me.” Wind buffeted them, rolled over them, blowing clouds of fine gray sand around their legs. “You only know what’s left.”
She pulled off her glove. “It’s really beautiful, isn’t it?” Like a splinter of ice, the sand dollar lay in her palm. Beyond the breakers, birds had settled on the water, mere flashes of white, indistinguishable from the flickering surface. The pale rind of the moon hung above the water.
“…never really brave.” Hoarseness grated in his voice. “It kills in secret—the young, the defenseless.”
“It?”
“They. We think they mostly die young themselves. There are convulsions that come with the changes. Or else they’re killed by the people around them, family, whatever, unless they just run off to the woods and starve or die of exposure.”
A wave collided with the closest rock and droplets sprayed them. “Monsters.” She turned and wandered along the edge of the surf. Clumps of vegetation mottled the mud, and she found a stick of driftwood almost buried in sand.
“They can’t help what they do. It takes them at puberty, when they’re still children practically, and…”
She threw the driftwood far out into the shimmering whitecaps, watched it crest a hill of water. “I can’t hear you.”
“…like a disease. They need help. But other things go along with it. Gifts. Special abilities. I’ve seen them do things.”
“Them.” The word hovered. “I can’t believe how cold it is. I can’t believe I’m freezing on the beach, talking about what? Mutants? Werewolves? Ever since I met you, I feel like I’m out of my mind. For one thing, I must be crazy just to be out here.”
Splinters jutted from the sand at their feet: a short distance away, more shreds of wood seemed to sprout from the gravel. “What the hell’s buried under here?”
“A piece of the old dock maybe,” she answered. “Don’t make conversation. Just tell me. How many?”
“How many?” he repeated.
“Monsters or whatever.”
“We’ve found…a few.”
The thunderous slap of another wave startled her. “Hell, I’m getting wet. Where do you have them?”
“A house. Far away from anybody who might get hurt. I can tell you that much. And they’re well supervised.”
“In the barrens, you mean? My God. Just like the stories. Monsters in the woods. Look, just give me a minute here, all right? Let me just make sure I’ve got it straight. You want me to believe these kids are…”
“Demons. Changelings. Whatever you want to call them. She says it can be a gift. I don’t know. Sometimes I think she’s…”
“Delusional? Swell. This is the woman I remind you of, right? Assuming for a moment that you’re not a stark raving maniac—and I’m trying to—aren’t you, well, apart from everything else, aren’t you scared?”
The cloud of his breath dissipated. “Every second of every day.”
She touched his arm.
“I’ve been…close to them.” The muscles in his face tightened. “She believes they can be helped, that they’re the future.”
“This woman,” she murmured, “that’s why you’re here. Am I right? You collect monsters for her?” She watched him flinch, watched the thoughts untangle themselves on his face. “I knew you were just using me,” she added before he could respond. “I knew it. You don’t care about stopping any killer. You couldn’t care less about saving any hostage.”
“You don’t understand. I do want to help the girl…if there is a girl…if she’s alive. That’s the biggest part of it. For me. Keeping them from hurting anybody. You don’t…”
“I don’t know if I can believe anything you say.”
They had backed away from the water, moving closer to the boardwalk. “I guess I can’t blame you.”
“It’s insane.” The wind shifted, and bursts of grit rippled across the beach, tracking each other in silent swells, until the gusts grew stronger and spun themselves into a conch of sand. “What if it’s true?” She shielded her eyes. “What if they ever got loose?”
“I thought you didn’t believe me?”
“I don’t. Look at me. Be honest. I’ll know if you’re not.” She squared her shoulders. “Do you really think…? Do you really believe Ramsey Chandler is one of these…?”
“No.” He saw puzzlement twist her expression. “Not him.” In the frigid sunlight, the fine veins near her temples were like purple cobwebs, the delicate hollows of her face almost blue. For an instant, he felt as though he confronted some weird child, some seductive elf with smoky red hair and eyes the color of moss. “It’s the boy,” he told her.
“What?”
“The brother. Don’t you see?”
Her mouth opened and closed. “He’s only…what? Fourteen? Fifteen?”
“That’s how I got onto him. That’s what I was searching for.”
“You were looking for a little boy?” Twisting away from him, she ran. “Oh God.” Cold air stabbed into her chest as she pounded over the gravel. “You’re crazy.” He caught her at the stairs and held on, until they leaned against each other, panting painfully. “Get away from me.” But she didn’t fight, only jerked her arm away. “What have I done?”
He released her. “Kit?” As he plodded up the stairs behind her, she dodged into a tiny gazebo. “You have to listen, Kit.” He found her huddled on a bench. “Please. After the first killing a few months ago…the pond where they found the first girl. Remember? I went there myself. On a hunch.” The balustrade blocked the worst of the wind. “I hid in the woods. And waited. It paid off. I spotted a boy prowling around. I stayed hidden. He seemed to be searching for something. Kit, I’m good at what I do. I’ve had to be. There’s no way he could’ve seen me, but all of a sudden, he knew I was there. He just knew. And he took off. Only animals run like that. No way I could move fast enough. I figured I’d blown my one chance at him, never thought I’d get close enough again. But then a second killing made the news a few months later, farther down the coast, and I played another hunch and started checking out the resort towns. Especially small deserted ones, right on the outskirts of the pines.” He chuckled grimly, a sound like the crunch of a clamshell underfoot. “It helped that I started hearing about Jersey Devil sightings.”
She smiled thinly. “You really are crazy, aren’t you?”
“You tell me.” He turned to look back at the beach. “I found footprints in the sand. Not every morning. But enough. And I waited.”
“I could have made those. I run every night.”
“Not these tracks. You see them once, you never forget. Then about a week ago I, well, let’s say I caught a glimpse of the boy.” Disgust and frustration gritted together in his voice. “That day they found the woman in the bay.”
“Spell it out for me. Let me just hear you say the words, just so I know I’m not dreaming this.”
“What difference does it make? Whatever you want to call them. There’s one of them here in this town, and I’m not going to let him get away.” He pulled something out of his coat pocket.
“What is that?”
“A list
.”
“I can see that much.”
“From the cemetery.”
“You copied names off headstones?” She leaned away from the bit of paper.
“There are families that show up a lot.” A muscle tightened in his face. “I was looking for any kind of lead I could follow. I found Chandlers going back four generations. All over the pines.” He squeezed her gloved hand between his fingers. “I’m not crazy. Honest to God, I’m not, Kit. And I need your help. Kit, please, look at me.”
“Stop.”
“Look at me. I’m a zombie. Going through the motions. And sooner or later, I’ll drop. Entropy, it’s called. And it won’t matter. Not even to me.”
“Stop, please.”
He didn’t seem to hear her. “There’s only one door out of this place. If I can finish this, if I can stop this nightmare, then maybe I’ve got a chance to get my life back. Some kind of life at least.”
Stiffly, she pulled her hand away. “I can’t do what you’re asking.” She brushed at her coat, stood.
“Can’t you?” He rose beside her.
“I’m a cop.”
“A cop who doesn’t report homicides?”
Her expression hardened.
“That has to tell you something, Kit. Like it or not, you do trust me. What if he really does have a hostage? You want her death on your hands? Like you said, you’re involved in this now. You know what kind of job the troopers will do, don’t you? Blundering in like an army? A minute after they pull into town, pieces of that girl will start hitting the water, because you can be sure he’s aware of everything that goes on. Can’t you feel that? Can’t you feel he’s watching us all the time?” He scanned the beach. Far off in the haze, a gull dipped languidly. “We’re her only chance. If we can find out where the boy’s got her…”
“It doesn’t make sense. It’s the other one, Ramsey, who has the hostage. Has to be. But what did he say? Something about…” Her voice faded like a receding wave. A stiff wind pushed her, and she staggered against him. “I knew you were good at this.” She shuddered with anger. “This is what you wanted, isn’t it? To suck me into this. To compromise me. Now I’m stuck. How could I explain my delay in reporting…how could I explain that I…?”
“You could always make an anonymous phone call.”
She huddled into her coat. “I still might.”
“No, you won’t.”
“Don’t be so sure.” A pigeon seemed to fall out of the air. It flapped spastically on the boards. “I’m freezing. Can we go now?”
His hands slid beneath her jacket, slipping from her waist to her back, under her sweater. Despite the chill, his palms felt warm against her spine, and she pushed against him, then went slack. Her head barely reached his shoulder.
“Go on. Tell me you’re not just using me.” Angrily, she tried to pull away. “I’ll end up doing whatever you want.”
He pressed closer.
She’d never felt anyone’s heart pound that way before, dull, rapid blows, as though some animal struggled beneath his jacket. Pulling off a glove, she touched his cheek, felt the heat flare beneath her fingertips, and she kept her hand there as though her touch had the power to silence whatever thundered within him. “Don’t look like that.” The pale stubble of his beard scratched her palm. “I’ve never seen anything so sad.”
She kissed him back, hard and determinedly, like a stubborn child. She felt him shiver but realized that she herself had stopped shaking.
He pulled her harder against him. Even in the wind, she felt his heat increase. He brought his mouth to hers and forced her teeth apart, sliding in his tongue, as she ground her hips against his.
“Can we get inside now, please?” She jerked her head away. “Before we freeze to death?”
XVII
As dream images lanced her psyche, she twitched: something vaguely human prowled along the swamp, and somehow she knew its pain and sensed the fetid lusts that drove it, even felt the freezing water that sucked around its legs. A thickly veined mixture of mud and stringy weeds dripped from its clawed hands.
No, not mud, she realized.
She sat up in the bed. Bright patches brindled the ceiling and blotted down toward the floor. Beneath the bureau, the cat curled in a wedge of sunlight, just a twist of dusty fur, belly-up to the warmth. Kit lay back, and the movement disturbed Steve so that he slid against her. She listened until his breathing eased again. After a moment, he turned slightly, and his chest, damp against her side, pulled away with a sound like a kiss. She stayed very still, and the drumming of her heart slowed. Just a dream. Heat faded from the bed, and a sweetness thickened the air. Molten light still pooled on the windowsills, but a tide of shadows rose along the walls and dimness sloped through the room. Chilly in here. Folded, the fireplace screen leaned against the wall. I have to get more wood.
Pulling the blanket higher, she tried to examine her feelings of exhaustion and tension…and contentment? Faintly, she could hear the wind chimes that had been left behind on the downstairs balcony, and her thoughts wandered to the past. Her mother used to play something for her on their old stereo. What was it? She could almost hear it. Something classical of course—Mozart or Beethoven, she supposed. Always, it had seemed to transform their cottage into something grander. This piece in particular had been her favorite to run about to, dancing and leaping, and always she’d hated to hear the final crescendo, to know that it heralded the return of drab normality. She felt that way now. This was fragile magic. Carefully, she rolled her head on the pillow. The blanket rose evenly with his chest, and she studied the square, flat muscles of his torso. So strong-looking. Yet he exhaled haltingly, as though gritting back a continuous onslaught of small pains.
She took in as much of the room as she could without moving. A puddle of amber light dripped across the edge of the carpet, and the cat rolled through it, then shook its head free of dust and sneezed before curling back to sleep. What have I been doing here? These past two years, she’d scarcely allowed herself to think about her life, but now, struggling not to twitch, she clenched her fists. I’ve got nothing of my own. How could she still be living like this? I’ve done nothing. All the furniture had come from her parents’ house. Even the dishes. Pictures on the walls. Everything. Like some college student whose adult life never got started.
In the dusk across the room, his leather jacket sagged over a bench, seeming to radiate some animal heat of its own. Dressed like a biker and trying to look inconspicuous. Ruefully, she grinned. And that awful car. Then she frowned, searching for the source of a low sound. I don’t believe it. She blinked at the cat. The thing snores. She felt herself sinking back toward sleep. Now, if I could just teach it to spit, I wouldn’t need a man in my life at all.
Without opening his eyes, Steve stretched across the rumpled bedding to draw a finger along her stomach. “…soft…”
“…”
“Did you say something?” he mumbled.
“…m…”
“Beg pardon?”
Sprawled in a languid stupor, she rolled and mumbled into his shoulder. “I thought you were asleep.” Her knees slid up beneath the sheet, and her legs wrapped around him, slackly.
Murmuring something that sounded like “I am,” he molded himself against her.
The blanket slipped down, and she wriggled on her side. Imbibing the musky smell of him, she toyed with the tightly curled hairs at the back of his neck, then languorously stroked the bright dusting of fur on his shoulders, remembering the warmth of his mouth and the taste of his tongue. Honey-colored light streaked his chest, and her fingers traced the muscles that braided his arm, traced the prominent veins. She brought his hand to her mouth, kissed his fingertips. Golden hairs glinted even on the backs of his hands.
He drew her damply into the nook of his arm. “You’re a very beautiful lady.”
“I was just thinking the same thing.”
“And modest too.”
“I meant about y
ou, stupid.”
“I’m a beautiful lady?” He twitched back the sheet. “If you’ll notice…”
“Shut up, idiot.” She smacked playfully at his head. “And I can’t believe this hair. Like animal fur.”
His limbs wound hot and moist around her. “And you haven’t commented on my almost canine sensuality.”
“Idiot.” Her laugh blurred against his chest.
“Doesn’t say much about your judgment, does it? What kind of a cop are you anyway?”
“The world’s worst. Haven’t you figured that out by now?”
“I think there’s some pretty stiff competition for that title just in this bed.”
“Stiff what?” She stroked him.
“Stop that. Hussy.” In retaliation, his hand slipped silken between her legs.
“Oh.” Her words flowed in a warm rush. “This scar on your stomach. It’s not from an operation, is it?” Everything had changed from this morning on the beach. Even their voices sounded different, she thought, like the voices of happy strangers, and they couldn’t stop touching each other. “So jagged.” She leaned forward and tried to kiss it, but he shifted away. “There’s another. You’re lucky to be alive, my boy.” She traced a line beneath his chin and down the side of his throat, until her hand hesitated. “My God.” Her voice cracked. “One of them did this to you. This is what you meant, isn’t it?”
The bed quaked as he turned away and sat at the edge of the mattress.
“Steve…I still can’t believe any of this is happening.” She watched his back. “Look at me.”
“Uh…do you have that list of properties here?”
He barely turned his head, but she glimpsed his eyes: dirty ice.
“You have it here? The addresses you found in Chandler’s office?”
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