As much? the voice in his head scoffed. You might have seen her more. You might have prioritized hopping a train or grabbing a flight home. Instead, you lived six blocks away and barely saw your mother once a month. An ache the size of the Walt Whitman Bridge yawned open inside him.
His mother had labored so hard, so long, and he’d never appreciated how crazy her life must have been until he spent today watching a much younger woman run around, dealing with people, pomp, and personalities.
All those years, often working seven days a week during the busy season, running the show, booking brides, selling, cleaning, ironing, mending. She’d done it for him, so he could be strong and successful. Never once did she make him feel guilty about it.
He felt guilty now. The thought of what she gave up, what she was willing to do—
Why would God take her at this stage? What point was there in putting a faith-filled woman through her paces, then letting her die before she ever had a chance to enjoy life? Was that how it worked? Because if it was, if there was some Supreme Being calling the shots, Greg was pretty sure he didn’t call the game fairly.
“I’ll be on the lookout for more info from this end,” Reed told him. “I’d love to have you here. There’s nothing like weekend nightlife in the Big Apple. Pretty wild, my friend.”
“Keep me posted, Reed.” Greg hung up the phone. Clubs. Professional sports. Upscale apartments and rooftop gardens. The chronic bustle that was Manhattan. What could be better? What more could he possibly want?
He was almost home now. He passed the Old City Mission and the quaint brick church around the corner. The sign outside gave times for services, and every Sunday morning the bells chimed a welcome, the steeple stretching up between old oaks.
And every weekend he waited them out, rolled over, and went back to sleep.
A strong wind broadsided him from the Delaware River.
His mother was gone. The days were short and dark at both ends. The coastal wind was brutal, and either snow or icy rain had pelted the city since the loneliness of the just-past holiday season. He ached for something new and different. Something vital and vibrant.
New York City was all that and more, but the thought of selling Elena’s Bridal—if he could find a buyer—galled him. Could he do it?
Hey. Life goes on. Change happens. The team knows this. They’ll be okay with whatever you decide.
He grimaced as he shut the brightly painted historic door behind him.
They’d pretend to be okay because they loved him. He’d been surrounded by pseudo-mothers from the time he was a little boy. Kathy, Jean, and Maisy had shared in his joys and sorrows, his successes and failures. And to pull the rug out from under Donna and those twins . . .
Where else would she find a job that understood the importance of raising her babies and earning a living?
Not. Your. Problem, the niggling voice inside reminded him.
Not so. It was his problem, and he knew it. His mother had raised him to be considerate, to put others first. But when he looked in the mirror, the image he saw was his father, Carlos Elizondo. Hard-hearted, heavy-handed, and crazy competitive, his father’s legacy seemed to take hold more fiercely every day.
But in his mother’s life, in her work? Kindness mattered. And he could do no less.
By the time he climbed into bed and closed his eyes, he was able to switch off some of his wandering thoughts, but two images remained. The sight of Tara Simonetti doing a slow, full-circle spin in his mother’s store as if she’d just grabbed the gold ring on the carousel . . .
And the sweet rush of awareness that woke him out of a months-long funk when his hand gripped hers.
He fell asleep remembering the warmth of her hand and the true sympathy in her eyes, and for the first time since last summer, he slept soundly.
She hadn’t wanted to let go last night.
The grip of Greg’s fingers, the touch of his hand, the strength in his gaze, had made her long to linger. She wanted to step forward. Meet his smile. Grip his hand a little tighter, longer.
So, of course, she stepped back.
Tara frowned into the mirror, remembering Greg’s face, his profile, his shoulders, his . . .
Everything.
The shirt and tie. The casual sport coat that said custom designers and good taste mixed well. The black trench so typical of professional men in big cities, uniform to the max.
She saw beyond the tough negotiator and read the sorrow in his eyes. His lingering sadness melted her.
But she’d been raised in the fallout of a ladder-climbing lawyer. Her family had suffered for nearly two decades because of one man’s greed. The moral of that story was that she would always tread carefully, even though she longed to stare into Greg Elizondo’s big brown eyes for oh, say, forever?
She couldn’t risk it.
She’d be kind, friendly, and compassionate because the guy had been through a grievous loss, but that’s where she’d draw the line. Greg’s professional record and competitive nature put him in the “Danger Zone” category. She glanced at the clock and hurried out the door to catch the midmorning service in the two-towered church around the corner.
With God comes joy.
Bells chimed happiness around the City of Brotherly Love every Sunday morning, their call a reminder of what built this great nation: the longing for religious freedom.
She slipped into the church, loving the brass-trimmed old lighting, the ornate wooden panels, and the carved balustrade wrapping the choir loft.
A blue-robed woman waved from above. Her friend Truly Dixon.
Tara waved back as the gospel group began a harmonized hum before breaking into the opening song of praise.
Tara left the church an hour later feeling energized, ready to walk the one-point-five miles to the bridal store.
Ice-cold, wind-driven rain changed her mind. She waited in the covered entry of the church for a bus, dashed across the road when she saw it approaching, and took a full-on splash from a careless driver heading in the opposite direction.
A few minutes later Tara arrived at the store—nearly an hour before she was scheduled to meet Greg. She sighed, scanning her options. The full-frontal drenching had put a damper on her church-inspired hope.
A nearby coffee shop smelled marvelous and looked warm.
She succumbed to the temptation, grabbed a plain coffee, and doctored it up with mocha powder, cream, and a dash of vanilla. It wasn’t fancy, but it was tasty and cheap, and these days, that was her rule of thumb.
The church bells woke Greg, as they always did on Sunday morning. Bright, vibrant, ringing in the new day with a gusto that should be reserved for classic movies.
Make a joyful noise unto the Lord.
One of Maria Elena’s favorite verses nudged him. She’d have been there this morning, singing. Praising. Praying.
And he’d have rolled his eyes, turned over, and gone back to sleep. But the bell’s tolling seemed even more enthusiastic than usual.
Rain drummed overhead.
Sleet beat against his back window.
Clearly the bell’s excitement wasn’t weather related.
Tara.
He jumped up, scanned the clock, and panicked. Those were the noon service bells, not the early ones. He’d promised to meet Tara at noon, and apparently he had slept through the first bells and was already late. He threw on some clothes, grabbed his coat, and jogged toward the shopping district.
The miserable weather magnified his guilt as he passed the mission and hooked a left. She was trying to do him a good turn, learn the business he was in danger of losing, and now he’d kept her waiting. Talk about a first-class jerk.
He reached the shop and headed for the door, then heard his name and turned. Tara was hailing him from the coffee shop across the street with a look of . . . welcome expectation? Her kindness pushed him undeservedly into the “hero” category.
“Good morning.” Gladness brightened her face as he cro
ssed the road. “I got here early and grabbed coffee.”
Greg tapped his watch apologetically. “Technically afternoon, my bad, and coffee sounds like an excellent idea.” He grinned down at her and fought the sweet swell of emotion growing within. Her forthright smile was absolutely contagious. He eyed her empty cup. “Can I get you another?”
She shook her head.
“You might want one later, and you can’t leave the store with the doors open,” he reminded her. “Although you could always lock up and run over. And you had no problem making me buy you food last night,” he added. “So I would think a Sunday coffee would fall within the parameters of compensation for job well done.”
“An excellent point, so I’ll say yes.”
“What kind?”
She hesitated a fraction of a second before saying, “Just straight coffee. A medium.”
He watched her doctor the coffee at the fixings bar near the front window, and then he got it: she loved fancy coffees, but her budget-conscious mind didn’t allow the extra expense. Instantly he felt like he’d paid too much for his shoes, his shirt was too high-end, and he should be supporting more charities.
She turned and raised the cup. “Thank you! This is perfect. Shall we go?”
“After you.” He held the door open, let her pass through, then noticed the wide splotches on her pants and boots. “You’re soaked.”
She shrugged as she crossed the street. “I was soaked. I’m almost dry now. Took a wicked splash on Germantown and got the worst of the deal. No biggie.”
From the look of the splash pattern it was a biggie, at least it would have been to any woman he knew.
Which should tell you something, Einstein. Charm is deceptive and beauty fleeting . . . Come on, all those years of Christian education. You must remember something, don’t you?
He did.
And Tara Simonetti brought the sweet proverb to life with her inborn optimism. Her hopeful attitude was just what Elena’s Bridal needed.
Except she’s leaving in a few months, which means your decisions have to be based on the here and now.
Greg pushed that reminder aside for the moment. He opened the door, followed her in, then pulled out books and computer procedures for her to study while he joined his buddies at Tim’s. He’d come back after the first game, lock up, then drive back to Tim’s apartment in Manayunk. This way she’d have a four-hour stretch of time to familiarize herself with the store, with coffee.
“Okay, I’m good.” She hung up her wet jacket, stowed her purse, turned up the heat, and was perusing the various bridesmaid gowns for color options per style. “I’ve got your cell number. If I need to ask you anything, I’ll call.”
“All right. Although Kathy knows way more than I do.”
“I have her number too. Maisy gave it to me yesterday.”
“Oh. Well. Good.” The fact that she could call Kathy for advice instead of him didn’t sit right, but that was absurd. Kathy knew the business inside out. She was the assistant manager. She’d loved his mother and she loved bridal. Why wouldn’t Tara call her?
“See ya.”
“Right.” He walked out the door, heard her click the lock behind him, and struggled with his feelings as he trudged to the parking garage for his car.
He wanted to stay.
You do not.
Greg tucked his chin lower into the neck of his jacket and recognized the silliness of his thoughts. There was nothing he could do there. He had an afternoon of football planned, and the guys were waiting. He’d anticipated this respite all week long. His fantasy team had tanked early, and his beloved Eagles had already been knocked out of the playoffs, but hey, it was football. More important than just about anything except money-making mergers.
A lone bell chimed the one o’clock hour.
A new day, a new week, a new person working in his mother’s beloved store. As he climbed into his car, he realized it felt wrong to be starting out something so new with something so same old, same old, especially a game he didn’t care a whole lot about.
Scowling, he put the car into gear, eased into the street, and headed to Tim’s place near the banks of the Schuylkill River. He’d put in plenty of late nights this past week, nailed a lucrative takeover of a faltering fossil energy business, and had a significant promotion on the line. There was nothing wrong with taking an afternoon off to watch football with the guys.
Nothing at all.
Don’t go. Stay here and show me around. We can talk about dresses and bridal and walks in the park and faith and babies and why Billy Joel songs are still the best.
He left, of course.
Tara watched as he turned and headed south outside the door. She had to keep herself from chasing him down. Grabbing his hand. Gazing up into those deep, brown eyes and drawing him back inside.
She needed to get a grip. Her goal here was to learn as much about Elena’s Bridal as she could. She took a deep breath, tugged her sweater closer, and studied the store from records to rooms, gauging what worked and what didn’t.
By three forty-five Tara had done all she could. She texted Greg not to worry about her, closed up the store and set the alarm, and started home, thinking. The information she’d gleaned concerned her.
Maria Elena had a brilliant eye for gowns and placement, but when it came to social media and Internet presence, she’d crashed. The sales numbers for the past eighteen months had gone into a slow freefall as a result.
Tara had a love/hate relationship with numbers. She loved their objective ease, but when they added up to a serious downward trend like she saw at Elena’s Bridal, she disliked them immensely. Was this the end of independent bridal salons? Had corporate-owned chains pushed everyone to big-box settings?
The rain and sleet had stopped, but the temperatures were dropping fast. She pulled her coat closer around her and walked a little faster.
A car pulled up alongside her. It wasn’t dark yet, but the heavy cloud cover, coupled with the shortened days of mid-January, made it dusky. A woman alone needed to be careful. She averted her gaze and sped up even more, ready to duck into a still-open drugstore just ahead.
“Tara? Why are you walking home?”
Her heart did a quick tumble when Greg called her name, one of those crazy things that shouldn’t and couldn’t happen because Greg was her boss and a ladder-climbing lawyer. “You’re supposed to be watching football.”
He double-parked the car, got out, and met her on the sidewalk. “It’s freezing out here.”
“Walking warms you up.” She said it with a bravado her chilled limbs didn’t feel.
“Really?” His look said he wasn’t buying it. “Get in, the car’s warm. I’ll drive you.”
“No, Greg, really, I’m fine.”
He made a doubtful face, took her arm, and led her across the quiet street. “Warm is better. I promise.”
Warm was better. It was so much better that she could have done a little happy dance as the blast of hot air from the car heater enveloped her. She held back on the dance, but just barely.
“I went to the store and you were gone. I thought we had this all arranged.”
“I texted you.” She indicated the cell phone sitting between them. “Didn’t you get it?”
He picked up the phone, opened it, and grimaced. “I did, but didn’t realize it. Sorry.”
“I decided there was no reason to interrupt your one day off with driving across the city just to make sure I locked up. It seemed wrong to interrupt a guy and his football.” She kept her gaze on the street ahead, because making eye contact with Greg made it tough to maintain a keep-your-distance mindset. “Besides, walking makes me hearty. It refreshes the soul.”
Her sensible reasoning would have been great if Greg had been able to focus on football.
He hadn’t.
He’d spent the afternoon wondering how she was doing. Did she need help? Did she have questions? And then the one thing she did text him about, he hadn’
t noticed. “I appreciate your consideration, but you’ve gone above and beyond trying to school yourself in a job where there’s no one around to train you. I feel bad about that.”
She raised her backpack and pulled out a bridal magazine. “I’ve been schooling myself for years.”
He laughed. “That anxious to get married?” He was slightly disappointed when she shook her head.
“No, that will happen in God’s time. It’s the planning I love. The structure, the helpful side of making things right. Cutting costs, trimming ribbon, planning seating. I love the logistics of weddings. My own?” She shrugged. “That will take care of itself, but being of service to others to make this special day memorable and stress-free? That’s my natural high.”
“Then why law school?” At the red light he stopped and turned toward her, puzzled. “If you love the wedding industry, why put yourself through the rigors of that?”
“My dad.”
“Ah.” Greg nodded, thinking he understood. “Family law practice. I get it, a lot of my pals went into law for that reason.”
“My dad wasn’t a lawyer.”
“No?”
She shook her head, and for the first time since meeting her yesterday, he sensed trouble. “He was a laborer. He was disabled in a work-site accident twenty years ago. Back then, it was tougher to prove fault and disabilities.”
Before the laws shifted gears. She was right.
“An attorney said he’d represent him, the company involved paid off the lawyer so he’d do a lousy job, my dad never got the benefits he needed, and we lost him to suicide four years later.”
“He killed himself?” Greg covered her hand with his, unable to imagine the sadness of that scenario, but able to read the reality in Tara’s shadowed eyes. “Tara, I’m so sorry.”
“Us too. We’d prayed hard and long for him to get better, but in the end it wasn’t enough.”
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