The Baby Arrangement (A Winston Brother's Novel #1)

by J. L. Beck

  “Harder Mr. Thompkins…” My eyes grew to the size of saucers and before I could stop myself I was pushing the door open, and crossing the threshold. I knew that voice, and the body it was attached too.

  “What the fuck…” My father growled, trying to cover himself and Kelly, Knox’s ex-wife. A wave of nauses and dizziness rushed through me and I gripped onto Knox’s shoulder for strength.

  “Actually it should be me who is saying what the fuck, since you’re supposed to be my business partner and friend…” Knox’s rugged face was void of all emotion but I could tell he pissed off over what we both had discovered.

  “Get out, both of you. Get out now.” Kelly tried to shoo us away, her cheeks growing pink with embrassement.

  “Did you forget about your meeting with Knox and I next door?” I narrowed my eyes at my father, trying to dismiss the fact that he was fucking Knox’s ex wife.

  “Ahhh, yes I’m sorry sweetheart.” My father’s expression softened and I almost felt back because I knew we were going to break his heart soon.

  Kelly pushed off of my father, and adjusted her skirt, a smirk playing at her lips, “I don’t know why you’re so upset Knox. You knocked up his daughter so it’s only fair that he gets to knock up your ex-wife, right?”

  Fire filled my veins and as badly as I tried to stop myself I couldn’t. Within seconds I was crossing the room, my fists swinging as anger coursed through my body. My knuckles grazed the bridge of her nose, and when she expelled a scream of pain I relished in it.

  Knox was on me before I could do anything else, his strong arms wrapping around my middle, gently, and protectively.

  “You’re pregnant…” My father’s voice wobbled, as he turned away from me, covering his exposed parts. It was weird to be having this conversation with him when he had been interrupted while screwing one of the people I hated most.

  “Yes, Knox and I have been seeing each other for awhile…” Anger swirled in his once soft eyes, and I knew he was going to say something that would end us both.

  “In my office, my business…” He narrowed his eyes at Knox. “Behind my back…” Venom filled his words.

  “Our business…” Knox corrected him and then smiled, before continuing, “I guess we’re even now aren’t we?” The muscles in my father’s jaw tightened and I wondered if for a second he was going to explode on us.

  “Even? Not yet, but I will be soon…” My father’s eyes cut to me, “and you, I’m so disappointed in your Meghan, you could’ve done so many things with your life, but instead you got wrapped up in him.”

  There was smugness in his words that I didn’t like, “he cares about me, and that’s all that matters. We’re going to have this baby together and be a couple, in fact, were getting married.” I shoved my hand out to show him the two-carat engagement ring that Knox had given me.

  Our relationship wasn’t perfect, and it was rocky at times but love was never easy if it was worth it.

  Kelly sucked in a loud breathe, “we’ve barely finalized our divorce Knox, how could you?” Coldness washed over me as I looked her in the eyes.

  “I’ve loved Meghan since she was a little girl, but I never acted on my feelings because it felt wrong, even when she was a teenager. Now she’s old enough to make her own choices, and I won’t let anyone, not even you stand in the way of us, our baby, and our future.” Knox held me together, his lips against the back of my head as he spoke.

  “Get out of my office.” My father ordered, his eyes furious, and swirling with hate, and rage. Sadness consumed me and tears filled my eyes. Knox guided us to the door, but right before either of us could move across the threshold and out the door we heard my father’s final words.

  “This isn’t over Knox. Not by a long shot.” I swallowed hard, knowing that it wasn’t over, at least not really. It was merely the start to something new. A new life, a new love.

  His Obsession

  A Secret Baby Military Romance

  J.L. Beck

  My eyes darted from the clock on the wall and back to the dough that was rising in a bowl on the counter. I had less than an hour to get Lola, and myself ready for my brother’s wedding rehearsal and I still had to prep the bread dough for baking that was rising. I ran a hand through my chestnut brown hair.

  You can do it, Mia. It was the mantra of my life and something I had to chant to myself for the last four years. I squeezed my eyes shut for a fraction of a second, well placing my closed fists against the cold countertop.

  I inhaled fresh oxygen and exhaled the stale oxygen from my body. The sound of the door chiming signaled a customer.

  I shook my head in confusion as I walked around the front of the kitchen and out by the register. I was pretty sure I had locked the front door and turned the open sign to closed, hadn’t I?

  The fact that I hadn’t actually done so became more apparent as my eyes caught a glimpse of what could be nothing more than a ghost.

  “Hello, Mia…” My eyelids fluttered closed, and my body lit up, like a Christmas tree. His voice was still the same, smooth like honey. No one said my name like Jake Matthews did. It had been four years, four long years since he broke my heart and walked away from me.

  “We’re closed.” I barely got the words out. I didn’t have any intention of seeing or talking to him again. Still, my body betrays me and I give into the need to at least have a look at the man he had become. I regretted it immediately my body coming to life like it had all those years ago.

  Jake had filled out mighty well. When he left he was fit, and tone, but now he was muscled, and rugged. His face was spotless with not a hair to be found. My eyes roamed over his strong jawline, and the very spot right next to his left dimple where I always placed a kiss when we departed. God, he was so fucking handsome, and it was going to be so hard to avoid him now that he was back in town.

  “Your sign says open. Though even if it did say closed I would still find a way inside…” I bit the inside of my cheek unsure of what to say to him. He couldn’t just walk back into my life like this after being gone for such a long time. There were things that he didn’t know about an entire life he missed out on being gone and he couldn’t just come back and decide he wanted to be apart of that now.

  “I’m glad your back in town Jake but you can’t just seek me out like this. We don’t know each other anymore. It’s been four years…” I ran my fingers through my hair once more, watching as his dark eyes filled with hunger. He was watching me much like a lion watched its prey before pouncing.

  I was more than thankful for the counter top separating us as he took a step in my direction. My heart came to life, slamming against my rib cage like it was going to beat right out of my chest.

  “We know each other. I’m Jake, your Mia. That’s all there is to us sweetheart…” I could feel my insides turning to mush. Jake had always been able to make me weak in the knees and now was no different than any of those other times. I just needed to remind myself that he couldn’t come crashing into my life like this again. Not when there was much more at stake than us.

  “Actually you know nothing. I’m different now. I’m not the same woman you left behind four years ago and you can’t just walk into my cupcake shop and think that you own me… because you don’t.” The last three words were harder to say than I ever expected them to be.

  I had practiced this day out in my mind a million times, thinking of all the things I would say to him if I ever saw him again.

  Jake didn’t seem surprised by my anger or bold headedness, he never did. Instead, one side of his mouth turned up in a smile, his dimple reflecting back at me.

  “Whatever you say, darling. I’m not going anywhere though. I’m back, and I’m staying, right here where I belong.” I couldn’t take my eyes off of him even if I wanted too. I begged my body to shut up, to stop reacting to his presence to stop wanting him.

  I clenched my fists at my sides. The man I once loved, was now standing right in front of me in his Arm
y fatigues. He looked so handsome and put together that it almost brought tears to my eyes. He had everything going for himself. He didn’t need me, or the things I had hidden from him over the last four years to bring him down.

  “Great. I hope you find Sweetwater Falls to be as great as it was when you left here four years ago.” I turned on my heels ready to make a beeline for the back door when I felt Jake’s hand on my shoulder. His touch burned a hole through my shoulder, and I pulled away as if he had really burnt me.

  “Your brother asked me to be a part of his wedding…” I stayed put with my back to him, refusing to let him see the tears that were burning in my eyes. He didn’t deserve my pain, not after leaving me they way he did. My body begged me to give into his touch like I had once before, but I stood my ground refusing to let myself live through that pain again.

  “Great! I’m glad you’ve reconnected with Donovan. Now I have a shit ton of work to do so if you could please leave that would be great.” I shrugged off his touch and headed towards the kitchen to finish up whatever it was that I was doing before he came barreling through my door.

  I wanted to scream out in frustration. There was no way I wouldn’t be late for the rehearsal dinner now that Jake was here.

  “I won’t just leave like I did before. I’m not lying when I tell you I’m here to stay.” Jake’s voice filtered into my ears and I twisted around, coming face to face with his broad, muscled chest. My eyes drifted upwards until they were on his face.

  Had he really just followed me?

  “You need to leave me alone. We have nothing to talk about Jake. The past is the past. It’s done and over with, let's just move on and maybe one day we can be friends again?” I lied, feeling the sting from the lie on my lips. My eyes refused to move from his full lips that begged to be kissed.

  “We have loads to talk about… For example how I never stopped loving you. Or the fact that you have a daughter now?” He raised an eyebrow at me in questioning. Fuck! He knows about Lola.

  “My daughter is none of your concern Jake.” My voice was filled with venom. You could say whatever you wanted about me but if you talked about my daughter then you would see a whole another side of me.

  He narrowed his blue-green eyes at me. They twinkled with curiosity, and I wondered for a second if he knew that she was his? If he had seen her then he may know? After all, she looked identical to him.

  “She will be when you become mine again because you will become mine again… You know that already though, don’t you?” He spoke with so much conviction that for a second I was caught up in his plan to win me back.

  Sweat formed against my palms. I didn’t like him being this close. Close enough for me to smell his cologne, or feel the heat of his body against my chest. Yeah, he was way to fucking close.

  “Go away…” My voice was weak, just like me, weak for a man that I still loved.

  “Is that really what you want?” His voice dripped with need, as the rough pads of his fingertips slipped under my chin forcing my eyes back up to his. I was in a trance, consumed by the need in his eyes.

  He wants me. He loves me.

  I nodded my head up and down, reveling in the feeling of his fingertips against my skin. Tingles of pleasure shot through my body. I needed to get a handle on the emotions I was feeling but before I could he was swooping in, his lips gently grazing mine. Fire filled my belly, setting my body ablaze.

  “Your body still reacts to my touch…” his voice was a mere whisper against my lips and I wanted him to kiss me, really kiss me. “I know you want me, Mia, you still want this…” Something in what he said snapped me back to reality, and before I realized it I was pushing a hand against his solid chest attempting to get him to go away. I couldn’t go through this all over again. Not with my daughter to think about. She deserved more than this.

  “I hate you. Nothing has changed. Now leave, before I call the police and tell them you broke in…” I sneered trying to hide the desires I was feeling. Jake knew exactly how to keep me coming back for more and if I wanted to save my heart, then I would have to become immune to his charm.

  “Hate?” A gruff laugh erupted from his throat. His Adam’s apple bobbed up and down and within seconds I became mesmerized by it all over again. “You couldn’t hate me if you tried. There’s too much good between us….” The air in my lungs refused to move, making it hard to breathe.

  “I can still hate you, Jake. It’s not really that hard of an emotion to feel when you left me the way you did.” I sneered finding my voice again. All I needed to do was find a way to get him to leave, and the easiest way to do that was to tell him off.

  “Say it again…” His voice purred in my ears.

  “Say what?” I looked at him bewilderedly.

  “My name. Say it again…” He reached out a finger tracing my bottom lip. My body begged me to give into him like I once had but my heart and mind told me it was nothing but a trap. I had loved him once and it burnt me. I couldn’t hurt myself like that again.

  “Leave, now and don’t come back.” I batted his hand away from my face and moved as far away from him as I could. He looked down at me with indecision.

  “Is that what you want?” He questioned me with anger burning in his eyes. I could hear the surprise in his voice. He was finally catching on, he was finally getting that this wasn’t a game to me that he couldn’t just leave for four years and come barreling back into my life like he never left. I wouldn’t greet him with the same welcoming the rest of the town did, not when he all but ripped my heart out.

  “Yes, it’s what I want. Now leave.” I lied knowing that even if it wasn’t what I wanted it was what I needed. He stared at me with anger in his eyes, his nostrils flaring with every breath he took. I was glad he was enraged. Maybe he would discover how it felt to be denied.

  “I didn’t mean to hurt you…” He started but I didn’t want to hear it. Not now, not here, and probably not ever.

  “GO!” I hollered my voice cracking just like my heart did the day that he told me we were over. It was his choice, his words that ended us. I watched as he took a step back, the sound of his boot colliding with the tiled floor.

  “I’m not giving up Mia. I’ll be back and when I do show up, here again, you better be ready to talk because next time I won’t be leaving…” The fire of determination flickered in his eyes. He was determined I could tell but so was I.

  He turned on his heels a second later and walked out of the shop as if he was never here, to begin with. As soon as I heard the bell ding signaling he was gone I broke down, the tears that I had been holding in streamed down my face, reminding me of just how not over him I was.

  “Fuck!” I slammed my fist down onto the marble island. I had worked so hard for the last four years bettering mine and Lola’s life and now he was back and ready to take over everything I had done.

  I squeezed my lids closed and sucked in a deep breath. The oxygen filled my lungs with fresh air, allowing me to think clearer. I was strong. I was smart. I could do this. I could stand up to him and tell him no.

  I would have to because my heart couldn’t stand to be broken by Jake again.

  My boots scuffed against the rocky driveway as I walked up it and in the direction of Mia’s parent’s house. I knew coming back here would do nothing but harm but I had to see it for myself and if I was being completely honest I would tell you that I still couldn’t believe it, that the woman I loved had a baby with another man. The words were ones I couldn’t and refused to speak out loud. Mia was mine, and her daughter was mine too, even if she wasn’t really mine.

  “I’m guessing the reunion didn’t go as well as you thought it would?” Donovan scoffed. He was more than just my best friend, he was also Mia’s twin brother and though he loved his sister with all his heart he knew the love I had for her ran deeper than anything else in my life.

  “What makes you think that?” I grinned at him. We both knew how stubborn his sister was, and could be, s
o it wasn’t a surprise to either of us if she didn’t take our reunion well. That wasn’t going to make me back down though.

  “Well, you look like she kicked you in balls, and ripped your heart out… that’s why…” He laughed before handing me a cold beer.

  “Isn’t your dinner rehearsal in like twenty minutes?” I popped the top off the beer and took a long pull from it. The cold liquid cooled the anger that Mia had stirred inside of me. I was still wearing my Army fatigues, having gone straight to Mia’s cupcake shop instead of coming here to change first. I needed to see her like I needed my next breath.

  Donovan shrugged. “Yeah it is, but everyone else is always late so why can’t I be late too?” He took a drink this time. I eyed him with surprise because had his soon to be wife Harper heard him say that he would be running for the hills.

  “I’m going to grab a shower before we leave.” I shot to Donovan over my shoulder, as I placed the half full beer on the patio table and headed inside. I couldn’t stop thinking about Mia and the way her body begged to be possessed by me all over again. The years in time that separated made the need for her stronger than it ever had been before. I stripped off my clothing letting it all fall to the floor at my feet. I was exhausted after a twenty-hour round trip flight back to the states, yet the only person I wanted to see was the only person who refused to see me.

  I twisted the shower knob, turning it all the way to hot before jumping into the stream of water. The water pelted against my back, relieving the ache in my muscles.

  “Fuck!” I growled feeling all my emotions at once. Mia didn’t want me anymore, and though I wasn’t going to give up on her that easily it hurt me to know that she had obviously at one point and time moved on with someone else. Still, I couldn’t blame her... Not after hurting her, the way I had.

  I clenched my fists at my side trying to stop the memories from that day, the day that I ended both of us.

  “You said you loved me!” I could see the steady stream of tears as they slipped from her eyes, and down her perfect creamy white cheeks. My teeth ground together as I reminded myself further why things needed to be this way. In the end, it would be for the best. When I enlisted I never expected to sign up for infantry, but now that I knew that was what I was doing and I had made a commitment to the Army I couldn’t leave Mia behind. I couldn’t leave her worrying about me at every turn. She deserved better than that, but of course, she didn’t see it that way.