“Do you surf?” I asked, suggestively, I admit.
He turned away, and picked up the photo again. I sighed and poured the rest of the Guinness into his glass, watching the foamy whitish brown head rise like bread dough. The man was driving me crazy. If he was anyone else, I would’ve just taken off my clothes and pushed him down into one of my kitchen chairs, but I had tried that once and he’d rejected me. I wasn’t interested in a repeat of that little scene.
I handed him his drink, which he sipped absently, licking the foam off his lips. I sat quickly in one of the chairs and pretended a keen interest in one of the photos. It just happened to be a picture of the tattoo.
I turned the photo and heard him curse. “Do you do it on purpose?” His voice was harsh. I looked up quickly, blinking.
“Do I do what on purpose?” I had no idea what he was talking about.
“Nothing,” he muttered, and took the picture out of my hand.
“So who is this guy?”
“I can’t tell you that.”
I rolled my eyes. “Jesus, I’ve been working with you guys long enough.”
“No, I mean we don’t know who he is.” He didn’t sound happy about it.
“No shit,” I asked, raising my eyebrows. He smiled a little at that and I felt my breath go. The man was truly beautiful when he smiled.
“No identification, clothing, or any other possessions that might belong to the victim were found at the scene. Preliminary forensics indicates that the body was probably dumped.”
I could’ve told him that. I worked with forensics a lot, shooting what they told me to shoot, touching only what they told me I could touch. I’d picked up a few things over the years, and one of them was that a bullet through the head left an awfully big mess, and the ground that would’ve been in the shot’s trajectory had been clean, or at least free of blood and brain matter.
“You got nothing on his prints?” I asked, surprised. Just about everybody was listed somewhere. The DMV required a thumbprint scan in order to issue driver’s licenses, and prints were required on gun permits. I’d had to have a complete set of my prints made before I could even work for the department.
“Nada. And no one has called to claim him, though the news ran some gruesome shots on the eleven o’clock news that night.”
“Buzzards,” I muttered, and he shot me a wry look.
“Hey, I work for you. There’s a big difference,” I argued defensively. He conceded that with another of those little smiles and sipped his Guinness again. I felt myself melting again watching him. He seemed massive sitting at my dainty little kitchen table, and dark somehow, as if I had let in a brewing storm.
“So,” he continued, flicking the photo onto the table. “It seems like this tattoo is the best we have to go on right now.”
I glanced at the picture again. “You know,” I muttered, picking it up again, “there is something familiar about it.”
“Really?” he asked, sounding interested, and a bit reluctant. I had gotten good at reading voices, since looking at the strange faces of those near and dear to me often left me feeling unsettled. His face was a pleasure to look at, though, and his handsomeness was always a surprise. I didn’t know why he would be reluctant, but I imagined it had something to do with the thought that if I recognized the tattoo, then I had probably seen it in person. I wasn’t discounting the idea. I’d seen too many dicks to remember them all; although I thought the tattoo was unusual enough that I would recall it.
“I don’t think I’ve seen this particular tattoo,” I said, studying it intently, absently noting that the hair on the fuzzy ball sack in the frame was dark, and that the man had been extremely long, well over ten inches. No, I wouldn’t have forgotten seeing that. “But I’ve seen one like it,” I finished, and handed it back to him.
He was looking at me. “Do you know that your eyes squint and your forehead wrinkles when you concentrate?”
“Yes,” I said shortly, and got up from the table.
“What did I say?” he drawled out, and the warmth in his tone had me half expecting him to add “honey” or “baby” to the end of his sentence.
“Nothing,” I said, flustered, and trying to hide it by opening the fridge and getting out some more Coke. An interesting side effect to my little disability was that in addition to not being able to recognize the faces of others, I could no longer recognize my own face. For a long time I refused to have a mirror anywhere near me, but once I started losing weight I surrounded myself with them. Floor-to-ceiling mirrors had covered the walls of the apartment I’d lived in before I’d gotten the house. My therapist said that my obsession with improving my body undoubtedly grew from a fear of losing my identity.
Well, duh.
It still bothered me a little when people commented on my face. I couldn’t imagine what the detective had seen while watching me examine the photo, and that thought had me a little unnerved. I was reminded of a fantasy book I’d read once, where a present-day heroine was transported to a world where no one used mirrors, and was told all she needed to know about her presence and beauty could be read in the eyes of the men and women who looked back at her.
It didn’t help me, though. There was only so much a person could understand by looking into a stranger’s eyes, and in my little world, everyone was a stranger. Blanche Dubois, I was not.
“Where have you seen it?” he asked me then, and it took me a moment to recall what we were talking about.
“Oh…” I said, thinking of the tattoo. “I’m not sure. I’ll have a look in my files. Maybe I’ve got it in there somewhere.”
“Can you let me know by tomorrow?” His voice was gruff.
I thought about the massive files in my office. There was no way. “I don’t think so, Detective, not without help. You willing?”
I let just enough heat roll off with the words so that there was no mistaking my meaning. I watched his face as I said it, fascinated that behind that stranger’s mask was someone I knew. I understood how mob wives felt when their husbands got plastic surgery.
I watched his eyes narrow. He stood and slowly stalked me back against my kitchen counter. Heat came off him in waves, and I put my hands against his chest in reflex. His muscles were hard and resilient against my fingers. I spread my palms wide, and ran them up and down his chest. Just once, but we both shuddered.
I felt a strange joy welling up in me, and I had trouble believing that he was actually there, touching me. I had imagined this for so long, imagined him, and now his gorgeous hands were reaching for my hips, pulling me against him.
The bulge beneath his jeans pressed into my belly and I pushed my hips forward.
“Oh, yes,” I said eagerly, rubbing my hips in circles against him.
He leaned forward and nipped my ear, his big body blocking most of the light and making me feel small and fragile.
“Do you want me?” he growled in my ear, sounding like deep-fried sin. He slid his hand across my hip and under the apron and the waistband of my stretchy pants, pausing when he realized I wasn’t wearing underwear.
I held still, breathless with anticipation, as those large hands combed through the springy curls of my bush. I imagined those hands, the long fingers that I had seen developing only hours before.
“I want to come into this kitchen someday,” he said in my ear, still not touching me the way I wanted to be touched. “And I want to see you wearing nothing but this apron.” Both hands slid to my ass, one hot against my skin. He squeezed my cheeks, his fingers sinking deep into the crease where the curve of my bottom met my thighs. “I want this ass to be the first thing I see.”
I whimpered, my head falling back. He slid his hand up my back and caught it in the tangled mess of my hair. He kissed me then, his lips brushing gently before his tongue came out to taste my bottom lip. “You taste just like I remember,” he said, and kissed me again, his tongue probing deep. I kissed him back, sucking on his tongue, nipping his bottom lip when he w
ithdrew.
He set me away from him and adjusted himself carefully while I watched. “I can’t stay tonight, but I’ll come by before work tomorrow and help you look.”
I heard the words, but I was still thinking that at any moment he would strip off his jeans and take me against the cabinets. He didn’t do that. He went to the table while I stared at him incredulously. He took one of the 8-by-10 photos of the tattoo.
“I’m going to have Stevens check with the local tattoo parlors to see if any of them claim this particular design, or remember someone requesting it. What time do you surf in the morning?”
“Six A.M.,” I said numbly.
“I’ll be here,” he said, gripping my chin and placing a quick kiss on my mouth. I leaned toward him eagerly, parting my lips, but he turned away like he didn’t notice.
I was still standing shell-shocked in my kitchen when I heard the front door open and close. I ran after him, spilling down the porch steps just in time to see his truck driving away.
“Prick!” I shouted.
There was a couple sitting in a porch swing across the street staring at me. I imagined I looked like a wild woman, barefoot, wearing an apron and shouting obscenities. I waved and went back in the house quickly.
I leaned back against my front door and closed my eyes. Why now? Was he just fucking with me? I couldn’t imagine he disliked me that much. I know he disapproved of me a lot. He’d already turned me down once. I didn’t understand him, but whatever had changed, I was looking forward to seeing him in the morning.
I shook my head at my idiocy and headed for the shower. I knew there was a reason I’d bought that removable showerhead.
Chapter Five
On a summer day in San Diego, sometimes there’s no sunshine in the mornings. The marine layer hangs on all morning, turning from a dark gray to a pearly gray that doesn’t burn off until about noon, if it burns off at all. Neither that nor the chilly water temperature deterred me or the other surfers.
I left the house at six on the dot, but when I stepped outside with my board under my arm, Detective Scott (I didn’t know if I’d ever be able to call him Marshall) was waiting for me.
At first all I saw was a strange man wearing a blue half-suit and holding a yellow surfboard, and I tensed, because while Encinitas was a pretty safe little town, I’d seen the evidence of too much violent death to believe the world was a safe place.
“Good morning,” he said thickly, and suddenly I was filled with a different kind of tension. Scott. All my nerve endings tingled at the sight of his powerful body encased in neoprene. I noticed his muscled calves, and strong brown feet covered in flip-flops. He was all strength and size and I had an insane urge to kneel down and lick his toes.
I turned my back on him and locked my door instead, still miffed at him for leaving me wanting the night before and for not telling me that he could surf. I’d thought he’d meet me after I got back from surfing. The thought of seeing that big, muscled body riding the waves was enough to make me feel all tight and itchy.
I stomped toward him, hoping that my budding excitement didn’t show on my face, and wondering what it looked like if it did.
We walked the two blocks to the beach in silence. I had my house key in a little Velcro pocket in my suit, but wasn’t carrying anything else. He wasn’t, either, so I assumed he had them stashed on his body somewhere. I ran my eyes over him to see if there were any suspicious bulges. I found one, and it was suspicious all right.
I don’t know what I expected him to do, kiss me? Hold my hand? I wasn’t sure I was comfortable with either idea. I wanted him, no doubt about it, but I wasn’t sure I wanted a relationship. I hadn’t been good at them before the accident. Now I downright sucked.
He didn’t touch me at all. The sand was cool beneath my feet when we hit the beach. We kicked off our flip-flops onto the sand, and I wriggled my toes in pleasure. The air smelled of brine, and the sea birds yawked and chased around the beach like wild dogs.
We walked companionably to the water’s edge, and I smiled at him. All the animosity, tension, and even lust sort of floated away. There were few things I loved more than playing in the ocean. When surrounded by its endless depths and unceasing rhythm, everything crazy in my life seemed insignificant and a little silly. The endless blue didn’t recognize me, no matter how many times I came back.
The water was shockingly cold on my bare toes, and I looked down to see Scott’s feet covered by the white foam of a running wave. He smiled at me and led the way out into the water. I thought that maybe the ocean eased him, too. He certainly seemed less tense, more human than I’d ever known him to be.
I followed him out into the water, where we floated for a while, watching for the good waves. He caught one before I did, balancing effortlessly on the long board.
I barely remembered leaving the water a couple hours later. I felt dreamy and disconnected, but I took the hand he held out to me. It was rough and callused, but warm, and for once in my life I didn’t feel disgusted at the sappiness and intimacy of the gesture. It felt right, almost a pleasure in itself. I found myself hoping that it would last, that this time, I would let myself go, and in the morning I’d still want him there to catch me.
WHEN WE GOT back to the house, he stood behind me as I fumbled for my key. We had propped the boards against the wall in the entryway, and now the only thought in my head was that I would finally, finally get to have him.
I pushed open the door and faced him as he stalked in after me. I put one hand to the zipper at the top of my suit and slid it down slowly. His zipper was in the back. He caught the pull-tab and drew it down behind him, the thick material bunching around his shoulders and armpits. His eyes were fastened on my chest as I peeled the suit away from my arms and pushed downward, the tops of my breasts squeezed together by my bikini top. He pushed his arms free quickly and came to me, his suit hanging down in front of him.
His cold fingers stroked my collarbone, and then he bent his head and kissed me there, his lips warm against my cool flesh. I gasped, and my hands fell away from my hips and went around his shoulders. His tongue flicked out, burning me, and I twisted closer to him. The rubbery suits kept us from feeling each other, and we both broke away to shove at them impatiently. I was careless in my efforts, and my bikini bottoms came off as well.
His suit dropped to the ground, shorts and all, and I got my first view of his dick, thick and long, pointing at his stomach while his balls swung heavily between his legs. I stared, riveted, wanting to touch and lick and nuzzle my face against that hardness. He grabbed my hands before I could move and began to nip and suck on my fingers, sliding them into his mouth and circling them with his tongue.
I moaned and fell to my knees, my arms stretched high. My head fell forward automatically, my wet hair sliding in front of my face, curtaining my face and his flesh in a cocoon of musky salt-and-sex-scented air. I breathed in deeply, and nuzzled my cold cheeks against his dick, exhaling my hot breath against him. His hands tightened on my wrists and drew my arms higher, so my shoulders lifted, and my mouth was poised at the rounded head. I flicked my tongue out, catching a couple pearly drops of pre-cum that had collected in the tiny slit. His hips jerked, and I caught him in my open mouth, taking him as deeply as I could, which was only about halfway down. He was thick and pulsing against my tongue as I ran it along the underside. I pulled upward, tracing the raised veins with the tip of my tongue.
He dropped my hands and pushed my shoulders back until I rested on the cool tile looking up at him. He stayed there for a moment, looking at me, and I let my legs fall open, just a little. He groaned and fell to his knees, straddling me. He put his hands on my chest, pulling the skimpy top down so that my breasts popped out, nipples eraser hard and pointing at him. He hummed his appreciation and leaned down to take one pink tip between his lips. I gasped, arching up to him. It was probably the first time I’d ever managed a back bend with outright enthusiasm.
I could feel
him pressed against me, and I reached down and parted my lips, so that the velvety smooth length of him slid against the wet slickness of my flesh. We both gasped at the sensation, and I felt his teeth clamp teasingly on the point of my nipple. I struggled then, trying to free my legs from the prison of his thighs and spread them wide.
He controlled me, scooting me forward and catching the backs of my knees in his hard hands. He pushed them upward, still not spread wide, until my knees were hugged to my chest, and my pouting flesh was fully visible to him, the red nubbin of my clitoris undoubtedly swollen and protruding. He crouched down, pushing my knees even farther so that my hips rose off the ground. I felt his tongue lick from the base to the top of my sex, and everything in me clenched in pleasure.
“You like that,” he murmured, tasting me again, lapping at the dewy wetness.
“Yes. Please,” I begged shamelessly. He feasted on me then, lips and tongue swirling and sucking until I screamed, undulating my hips against his mouth. He rose up abruptly and sank his dick into my hot, willing flesh.
I gasped at the feel of him probing deep, working his thick length into me. The walls of my passage tightened convulsively around him as he inexorably pushed his way in. I lifted my head and looked past my knees to the place where we were joined. My pink flesh was stretched tight around him and I gasped even as I watched him slide slowly out until only his thick head was inside me, rubbing gently, spreading my juices on my sensitive entrance. He stuffed inside me again, more easily this time, and began thrusting with slow, even strokes.
“Keep your knees there,” he ordered, and slid one hand down to cover my clitoris, rubbing me even as his dick thrust in and out. He did me hard, his rough fingers stimulating me even as his dick moved in and out with increasing force and pressure.
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