Miss Silver took up her knitting again.
“I see,” she said.
CHAPTER XVI
Margot Standing ran out into the street. Her heart was thumping so hard that it shook her; her legs shook under her as she ran. Her world had been so violently shaken that it seemed to be falling about her. She was really only conscious of two things-that she was frightened, oh, dreadfully frightened; and that it was dreadfully difficult to get her breath. She didn’t feel as if she could go on running; but she must go on running, because if she didn’t, the man might come out of the house and catch her. The thought terrified her so much that she went on running even after it seemed as if she could not breathe at all.
It was quite dark and foggy, and she did not know in the least where she was going; she only ran, and went on running until her outstretched hands came up hard against a wall. The shock upset her balance. Her left shoulder hit the wall. She swung half round and then fell in a heap. She had not breath enough to cry out. She lay at the foot of the wall with a sense of having come to the end of anything she could do. There was nothing but fog, and darkness, and cold wet stones.
After a few minutes her breath began to come back. Presently she moved and sat up. She wasn’t hurt, but her bare hands were scraped. She had run out of the house in Gregson Street without any gloves on; her gloves were on the table where the cocktails were. When she thought about the gloves, she could smell the strong sickly smell, and she could see Mr. Percy Smith standing there and holding out a little glass full of yellow stuff with a cherry and a grape bobbing about in it.
Sitting there on rough, wet cobblestones, Margot began to cry. She cried with all her might for ten minutes, and then began to feel better. She had got away. If he hadn’t gone out of the room-Margot dabbed her eyes with her very wet handkerchief and saw herself sitting there quite stupid and dumb with the cocktail in her hand, and Mr. Percy Smith going out of the room and saying he wouldn’t be a minute.
She scrambled up on to her knees because she didn’t want to see that picture any more. It made her feel exactly like she had felt when Mrs. Beauchamp took her to the top of the Eiffel Tower and told her to look over. Margot had looked for a moment; and then she wouldn’t have looked again for anything in the world. To stand on the edge of a frightful drop and to think how easily one might fall over it-
Margot got right up on to her feet and began to walk blindly forward over the cobblestones. The lights of a car flashed in front of her. Sounds of traffic came through the fog. Her foot struck against the kerb at the edge of a pavement. She turned to the right and walked along slowly without the least idea of where she was going.
She had been walking for half an hour before her mind really began to work again. Someone knocked against her, and a shrill cockney voice said, “Look out! Where are you going?”
Margot moved on, startled. The question repeated itself: “Where are you going? Where-are-you-going?” It was this question that woke her up: “Where are you going?”- “I haven’t anywhere to go.” “Where are you going?”-“I don’t know.” “Where are you going?”-“Oh, I haven’t got anywhere to go.”
She had cried so violently that no more tears came into her eyes, but she felt as if she were crying deep inside her. It was a frightful thing not to have anywhere to go to. She couldn’t possibly go back to Grange Square, where Egbert and somebody else-somebody who had answered the bell that William ought to have answered-were waiting to get their orders about removing her. Even after being so dreadfully frightened by Mr. Percy Smith she could still shake and turn cold when she remembered that vague, suggestive word.
What was she going to do? What did you do when you were a girl and you hadn’t got anywhere to go to, and you didn’t know anyone who would help you, and you only had a shilling in the world. If Papa had only let her have friends like other girls. But he had never let her know anyone except at school. And Mrs. Beauchamp was on her way to Australia. It had been her business to see that Margot didn’t pick up acquaintances in the holidays. Margot would have given a great many things that she did not possess to have had just one acquaintance now.
Mr. Hale-but if it were Mr. Hale who was giving those orders-perhaps it was-perhaps it was Mr. Hale who was going to tell Egbert and William-no, it couldn’t be William- to remove her.
She couldn’t go home. Oh, it wasn’t home anymore; it was only a house where people were planning horrible things. It was Egbert’s house; it wasn’t hers. She hadn’t got anywhere to go-she hadn’t got a home-she hadn’t got anything.
These things kept coming into her mind like a lot of aimless people struggling into a room and drifting out again; they didn’t do anything, they just came in and drifted out, and went away.
Margot went on walking, and the aimless thoughts kept on coming and going. The thick moisture that filled the air with fog began to condense and come down in rain. Soon she was very wet. The rain became heavier; it soaked through her blue serge coat and began to drip from the brim of her hat. The coat had a collar of grey fur. The rain collected on it and trickled down the back of her neck.
Only that afternoon Margot had written to Stephanie that there was something frightfully romantic about being a penniless orphan. It didn’t feel a bit romantic now; it felt cold, and frightening, and desperately miserable.
CHAPTER XVII
Charles Moray was still living at The Luxe, but he had fallen into the way of paying unheralded visits at odd times to the house in Thornhill Square. He did not always let the Latterys know that he had been and gone. He did not always enter the house; sometimes he merely walked along the square, up Thorney Lane, and into the garden by way of the alley that ran behind it. In all his visits he neither saw nor heard anything unusual.
On this particular evening he walked round the garden, heard ten o’clock strike from the church of St. Justin, and went out through the door in the wall, locking it after him. As he stood with his back to the alley-way and withdrew the key, someone passed him in the darkness.
Charles turned and began to walk towards Thorney Lane. The lamp at the end of the alley showed him that it was a woman who had passed behind him whilst he was locking the door. She turned to the left and walked quickly down Thorney Lane past the opening into Thornhill Square to the big thoroughfare that lay beyond. Charles followed her.
The woman was Margaret Langton. If she had been up to her old home, the alley-way and Thorney Lane would be a short cut for her. He thought he would wait a little before catching her up.
The night was cold, but there was no fog. Heavy rain had cleared the air, and the falling temperature seemed to promise frost before morning.
As Margaret turned into the lighted thoroughfare, he saw that she was carrying a parcel. He came up with her with an easy, “Hullo, Margaret! Where are you off to?”
“I’ve been up to see Freddy. I’m going home.”
“So you really haven’t quarrelled with him?”
“No,” said Margaret in a tired voice, “I haven’t quarrelled with Freddy. Why should I?”
Charles took her parcel and tucked it under his arm. It felt like a box, quite light, but awkward to hold.
“Loot?” he inquired.
“Only an old desk of my mother’s. It’s empty. Freddy said I could have it. He’s going abroad, you know.”
“Freddy is!”
“Yes-he can’t bear England without her. He wants to travel.”
“I’m awfully sorry for him,” said Charles.
He was awfully sorry for Margaret too, but he knew better than to say so. She kept her passionate feeling in a shrine which no one else must enter. He held his peace.
They walked on in silence until Margaret stopped and held out her hand.
“I go up here. Give me my parcel, please.”
“I thought I was seeing you home.”
“I don’t know why you thought so.”
“I still think so,” said Charles cheerfully.
Margaret shook h
er head.
“No. Please give me my box.”
Perhaps she expected him to contest the point. Instead, he said quite meekly,
“Very well, if you like carrying things that run into you, carry them.”
“Thanks,” said Margaret.
Her way lay along one of the darker streets. She felt an odd, rough disappointment as she walked along it alone. She had certainly expected that Charles would thrust his company upon her. She had told him to go; but she had not expected him to go. He was not at all a biddable person. If he let her go home alone, it was because he didn’t to want to come with her. Margaret held her head a little higher. The old desk was a most uncomfortable thing to carry; some-times the edge of it ran into her side, and sometimes into her arm.
In the darkest patch of the road she bumped into someone. Her “Oh, I’m so sorry!” received no answer except a sort of half sob.
“Did I hurt you?”
The distressing little sound was repeated. Margaret began to wonder what was the matter. She could just see someone standing against the brick wall that bordered the tiny front gardens of the houses on this side of the road. The dark figure seemed to be leaning against the wall in a helpless half crouching attitude.
“What is it? Are you ill?”
The figure moved. A girl’s voice said shakily, “I- don’t-know.”
“What’s the matter?”
It was abominably stupid to ask the question-the girl would certainly beg from her.
“I haven’t anywhere to go.”
Margaret moved, and at once two despairing hands caught at her.
“Don’t go away! Don’t leave me!”
Margaret told herself she had been a fool, but she was in for it now. She took the girl by the arm, and felt that her sleeve was soaked.
“Good gracious! You’re wet through.!”
“It rained.” The voice was one of utter misery.
“Come along as far as the lamp-post-we can’t talk in the dark.”
The lamplight showed Margaret a girl with drenched fair hair hanging in wispy curls. The girl was very pretty indeed; even with a tear-stained face and limp hair she was very pretty. Her dark blue coat was beautifully cut, and drenched though it was, Margaret could both feel and see that the stuff had been expensive. It had a grey fox collar, draggled and discouraged-looking, but a fine skin for all that.
The girl looked at her out of blue, tear-washed eyes set round with astonishingly black lashes.
“Have you lost your way?” said Margaret gravely.
“Yes-I have-but-”
“Where do you live?”
The girl gulped down a sob.
“I can’t go back-I can’t.”
She couldn’t be more than seventeen or eighteen. Margaret’s eyes travelled down to her feet. Expensive shoes-real Milanese stockings. “The little idiot has had a row with her people and run away.” She spoke firmly:
“Where do you live? You must go home at once.”
“I can’t. I haven’t got a home.”
“Where have you come from?”
“I can’t go back. They’ll do something dreadful to me if I go back.”
“Do you mean they’ll be angry with you?”
The girl shook her head.
“There isn’t anyone to be angry. I haven’t got anyone- really I haven’t. They’ll do something dreadful to me. I heard them making a plan-I did really. I hid behind the sofa and I heard them. They said it would be safer to remove me.” She shuddered violently. “Oh, what do you think they meant?”
Margaret was puzzled. This might be delusion; but the girl didn’t look unhinged. She looked frightened, and she was certainly soaked to the skin.
“Haven’t you any friends you could go to for tonight?”
“Papa wouldn’t let me have any friends, except at school.”
“Where was your school?”
“In Switzerland.”
“What on earth am I to do with you?” said Margaret. “What’s your name.”
“Esther Brandon,” said the girl.
The desk that Margaret was carrying fell on the pavement with a crash. The name was like a blow. She looked at the girl’s brimming eyes and quivering mouth, and saw them as if they were a long way off, a very long way off. She had to put her hand on the standard of the lamp and lean hard on it for a moment before she could find voice enough to speak.
“What did you say?”
“Esther Brandon,” said the girl.
Margaret felt quite numb and stupid. She bent down and picked up the desk. It had been Esther Brandon’s desk when she was a girl, no older than this girl. And Esther Brandon had become Esther Langton, and afterwards Esther Pelham. Margaret straightened herself, holding the desk as if it weighed heavily. Then she spoke suddenly and sharply:
“Where did you get that name?”
The girl didn’t answer. She had looked frightened when Margaret caught at the lamp-post. Now all of a sudden a vague look came over her face; her eyes clouded. She put out her hand and said “Oh!” then she took a wavering step forward and went down all in a heap on the pavement.
Mr. Charles Moray loomed up out of the darkness.
“Charles-thank goodness!”
“What’s up?” said Charles. “Who is she?”
“I don’t know. Be an angel and get me a taxi.”
“What are you going to do with her?”
“Take her back with me.”
Charles whistled.
“My dear girl, you can’t go about London collecting strange young females.”
Margaret was on her knees. The girl moved a little and drew a choking breath.
Charles bent nearer.
“Take her to a hospital, Margaret.”
“I can’t.”
She turned her face up to him, and it was as white as paper.
“My dear girl-”
“Charles-I can’t.” Her voice fell to a whisper. “She says her name-Charles, she says her name is Esther Brandon.”
Charles whistled again.
CHAPTER XVIII
Margot sat curled up in the one easy chair. She had a novel in her lap. The room was pleasantly warm, because before Margaret went out she had lighted the fire. There were no chocolates, and no one to talk to until Margaret got back at half past one. If it hadn’t been Saturday, Margaret would not have been back till nearly seven. Margot thought it was a very good thing that it was Saturday.
She was wearing a jumper and skirt of Margaret’s, and a pair of Margaret’s shoes and stockings. She was also wearing Margaret’s underclothes. Her own wet things were all in a heap inside the bedroom. It simply did not occur to her to pick them up and hang them in front of the fire to dry. After a night of profound slumber in Margaret’s bed she looked very little the worse for her fright and her wetting.
She wished she had some chocolates, and she wished Margaret would come back. The book was rather a dull one. Besides she didn’t want to read; she wanted to talk. It was frightful not to have anyone to talk to after the sort of things that had happened yesterday.
Margaret came home at half past one. She proceeded to get lunch. She had brought the lunch with her-a tin of bully beef, a loaf of bread, and a cream cheese.
“I’m hungry,” said Margot.
Margaret considered the beef and the cheese. They were meant to last over the week-end. Well, with any luck the girl would be off her hands to-day-she must be. She looked at Margot placidly eating beef and decided to wait until she had finished.
Margot announced a passion for cream cheese. She ate a good deal of it, and did not notice that Margaret ate bread and scrap; she was too busy talking about Stephanie and the skating parties they had had last winter-“I didn’t come home for the Christmas holidays”; and how Mrs. Beauchamp had taken her to Paris for Easter-“I got my coat there. Do you like it? Of course you haven’t seen it properly yet, because it’s all wet; but it’s rather nice, really, and Mrs. Beauchamp said it s
uited me.”
“Who is Mrs. Beauchamp?” said Margaret. She looked at the loaf, and decided that she had better not have a second piece of bread.
“Papa got her to look after me in the holidays. Can I have some more cheese?”
“And where is Mrs. Beauchamp?”
“Well, I expect she’s got to Australia by now. She was going out to see her son. Fancy! She’d never seen her grandchild-and it had the dinkiest curly hair! Don’t you call that frightfully hard?”
When Margaret had put away what was left of the loaf, the beef and the cheese, she planted herself squarely in front of Margot who had returned to the easy chair.
“Look here, we’ve got to talk. Is your name really Esther Brandon?”
Margot gazed at her ingenuously.
“No, it isn’t.”
“Then why did you say it was?”
“I thought it was a romantic name, and I thought if I was a penniless orphan and going out to earn my own living, I might just as well have a romantic name.”
“Where did you get it from?” Margaret’s deep voice was almost harsh. She sat forward in her chair and kept her eyes on Margot’s face.
Margot giggled.
“I found it on a bit of paper-a bit of a letter, you know. It was in an old desk. I expect it was my mother’s.”
Margaret drew a breath of relief. It was just a chance-a bit of some letter her mother had written long ago, perhaps to this girl’s mother, perhaps to some other relative. It didn’t really matter. She spoke again in an easier tone.
“You were going out to earn your living? How?”
Margot told her.
“I was going to be a secretary. I answered an advertisement. And he said to send my photograph, so I sent a little snapshot M’amselle took. I’ve never really had my photograph taken you know-Papa wouldn’t let me because of its getting into the papers. And the man said I’d do splendidly, and I was going there today.”
Margaret heaved a sigh of relief.
“Then you’ve got work to go to.”
“No, I haven’t-not now.”
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