by Nalini Singh
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"Drop by anytime," Tamsyn said. Putting her hands on Sascha's arms, the other woman kissed her cheek.
Sascha had frozen the instant Tamsyn touched her, feeling such overwhelming kindness from the brunette that she could do nothing else. She'd always imagined she could read the emotions of others but her delusions had never been this bad - there was simply no raw material in the Psy world to feed the fantasies of her fractured mind.
"Thank you. " The second Tamsyn let go, she stepped back and walked out the door to the waiting vehicle. It was too difficult to be in that room full of laughter and touch, warmth and temptation, and not hunger for more. . . for everything.
"Oh dear," Tamsyn said, watching Sascha retreat. "I shouldn't have touched her. "
Lucas hugged her to him. "Of course you should have. Just because she's Psy doesn't mean we are. "
Tamsyn laughed. "Did you see her boot?"
"Yes. " Lucas was the alpha of DarkRiver - he'd known exactly what was going on with Julian. What he couldn't understand was why Sascha had let it happen. And there had been that moment when Psy energy had flared extra bright. Perhaps her telepathic call had gotten heated, or perhaps she'd been doing something else. Like talking to a cub.
"I never expected a Psy to be so good with children. " Tamsyn laid her head against his chest.
"Neither did I. " Quite simply, she shouldn't have been. The Psy would never allow a child to nibble on their shoes. There was no reason behind it, no efficiency. Yet this Psy had. "Tell me if the cubs say anything interesting. "
The healer of DarkRiver was no fool. "Still nothing?"
"Not yet. " Dropping a kiss on her hair, he said good-bye and headed out.
Sascha was already in the vehicle when he took the driver's seat. "Your first time with changeling children?"
"Yes. " She tucked the chewed toe behind her leg and right then and there, Lucas knew he was in trouble. "Are you always in animal form as children?"
"No. " Backing slowly out of Tamsyn's long driveway, he turned onto the street, the passage of air smooth and swift under the vehicle. "We gain the ability to shift forms a year or so after birth. It's as simple as breathing to us. "
She was silent for the next stretch of road, as if thinking over what he'd said. "What about clothing? What happens to it when you change?"
"It disintegrates. We prefer to change while naked. " He paid close attention to the energy in the air as he spoke and detected a definite spike - Sascha Duncan reacted to the thought of him naked.
Both sides of his nature liked the idea of disturbing this intriguing female on a sensual level, but as alpha, he had to consider the deeper ramifications of what he'd learned. . . and how it could be used against her.
"Tamsyn - what role does she occupy in your pack?" she said, changing the subject so quickly that he knew he'd been right. "I know you're hierarchical. "
"Exactly like the Psy. You show me yours and I'll show you mine. " If she clammed up to such a simple request, then he was going to have to rethink his strategy. He needed to get inside a Psy mind to get into the PsyNet. There was no other way to track the killer, not if the Psy Council was covering for him.
"Our overall leadership is in the Council. "
He tried to keep his exhilaration under control. "We have no overall leadership. Each pack is autonomous. "
"Within the overall structure we're organized by family groups. "
They hadn't known that for sure because to the outside world, the Psy concept of family looked like any other business relationship. "Family ties exist within the pack but ultimate loyalty is to the pack itself. "
"What about mated pairs?" she asked, displaying an insight into the changeling mind that startled him. "Surely their loyalty is to each other first. "
"That's the one caveat. Leopard changelings mate for life so no other option is workable. " He wondered what she'd make of that, this woman who'd been created by medicine not passion. "What about the Psy? Where is your loyalty?"
"The good of our people," she said. "We're allowed to compete with other families for business, but that's on the inside. Against outsiders we have only one loyalty. "
"To ensure the continuation of the Psy race. "
"Yes. " Shifting in her seat, she asked him another question he wasn't expecting. "Mating for life? Is that a choice like human marriage?"
"Actually, changelings and humans can mate. Several of my pack are mated to humans. " Children from such matches always had the ability to change forms.
"I've heard that Psy-changeling unions occurred in the past. "
"My great-great-grandmother was Psy. " He glanced at her. "Do you think I would've made a good Psy?"
She stared at him for a second before saying, "Perhaps you should watch the road. " Cool, practical, and without feeling. Except for the fact that the toe of her boot had been chewed by baby leopard teeth.
He obeyed her this once. "To answer your question, no, it's not a choice like marriage - at least not for the leopards. Once we find our mate, the only choice we have is whether or not to take the final step. There's no walking away after that's done. "
"What's the final step?"
"Tell me about the PsyNet. "
She paused. "It is secret?"
"It is private. "
"How do you find your mate? How do you know that he or she is the one?" Her tone was neutral but her questions held hints of the deepest curiosity.
He wondered if she'd be this inquisitive in all aspects of life. A curious lover was the ultimate lure to his panther soul. "I can't answer that - I'm not mated. " He'd seen his father's heart shredded by his mother's death. Part of him didn't want to be that vulnerable to anyone.
It was one of the reasons he'd never nurtured a long-term relationship with any female, human or changeling. Mating couldn't be so easily influenced, but he'd done his damnedest to limit the chances of his mate finding him.
If she did hunt him down despite that, he'd accept her and then he'd never let her out of his sight. Forget about freedom - his mate was going to be protected every moment of her life. Pulling to a stop in the parking lot of the DarkRiver building, he switched off the engine and slid up the door of the car.
"Do you want to be?"
The question had him turning to face those night-sky eyes. No Psy should've ever asked that. No Psy should've ever heard the ambivalence in his voice. "Do you?"
"Is it private?" She tipped her head slightly to the side. It was a tiny movement but it wasn't in the nature of her race to make such movements.
He reached out and stroked a finger down her face, wanting to see what she'd do. "I'll tell you the answer to that once you have skin privileges. "
She froze at his touch and then jerked away to exit the car. When he joined her on the other side, she kept at least a foot of distance between them. He wanted to close that distance badly enough to scare himself. The enemy was starting to look far too enticing. The feel of her skin had been a jolt to the senses, the dark honey like warm gold brushed with velvet, sensuous and luscious.
The panther in him craved more, while the man. . . the man was starting to think that Sascha Duncan was unique, a Psy unlike any other. Whether that made her less dangerous or more remained to be seen. What was clear was that both panther and man were captivated by her.
Kit was waiting for them in the meeting room. "Hi, Lucas. " At a fraction under six feet, the boy was tall but hadn't yet filled out. Not that it mattered at his age. With his rich auburn hair and dark blue eyes, he was never short of female company. But Lucas knew the juvenile was more than good looks - he had the scent of a future alpha.
"Sascha Duncan, meet Kit Monaghan. "
Kit smiled in that way he'd already learned brought most women to their knees, all slow burn and promises of delight. "A pleasure. "
Sascha nodded. "Do you have the designs?"
Lucas wa
nted to laugh at the crestfallen look on the boy's face. "Kit works part-time as a general assistant. Zara is the designer. " He shrugged out of his jacket.
As he spoke her name, a small female with mocha skin and cloud gray eyes walked in through the door behind them. Sascha immediately shifted to avoid contact but the move was so unobtrusive that neither Zara nor Kit noticed.
"I'm sorry I'm late," Zara said. "The copying machine got stuck. " She was holding rolled-up copies of several designs in her arms. Lucas helped her put them on the circular table and gestured for everyone to be seated.
Sascha took a seat to his left, with Zara to her left and Kit beside the designer. Lucas had noticed Sascha glance at Zara several times since she'd entered the room and so, apparently, had Zara. "If you have a problem working with me, tell me now. " The petite woman wasn't one to keep silent.
Sascha didn't react in any physical way but he was sure he smelled confusion. "Why would I have trouble working with you? Are you unable to do your job?"
"I can do my job fine," Zara bit out. "Some people just don't like the fact that I'm a darker shade of brown. "
"That reaction is based on nothing but human emotion. I'm not human. " Sascha pushed up her jacket sleeve. "If it soothes you then please see that I'm also a. . . darker shade of brown. " The beautiful rich honey of her skin seemed to glow even in the artificial light.
Lucas felt Kit's beast buck at the reins and couldn't blame the boy for wanting to touch. Sascha's skin was an invitation to the senses and now that he'd stroked it once, he found himself starving for more.
Zara laughed. "If you're not bothered by color, then why are you staring at me?"
"I'm not sure, but you don't appear to be a leopard. "
Lucas froze. There was no way a Psy should've picked up on that. No way. Scenting another animal was a changeling trait. Precisely what the hell kind of Psy was Sascha? Had he brought a spy into his world while trying to infiltrate hers?
