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by Jane Urquhart


  She thinks of the still, warm, dead heart of a pigeon, housed in a vermilion box, said to have power, but useless without the bird itself, without flight. Finally it had bloated, become putrid, had to be disposed of along with the box that held it.

  Beyond the curtains the women discuss their lovers in the warm glow of the candles. Their smooth hands finger the cards nervously.

  Madame de Montespan closes the lid on the poison.

  HORSES

  In fields that unfurl to

  the left of the garden

  twelve grey horses

  ease into canter

  their loins adjust to

  the three-beat rhythm

  breaking like thunder

  deep in the forest

  flashing by branches

  trampling moss

  I never see them

  here in this dream where

  I’m pacing my limbs to

  the nod of the trainer

  here in this dream

  educated muscle

  covers the length of

  my bones

  I remember

  clouds of rhythm

  surrounding the palace

  his step on the stair

  his key in the lock

  the supple behaviour

  the hunt and the harness

  unyielding

  THE YEARS DEPARTING

  Coaches departing

  are the years pulling away

  stern their private latches

  closed on cool compartments

  once I wept the distance

  remembering the pressure

  limb on limb

  and the landscape outside

  ringing like time

  you coasting from my view

  from balconies I have seen

  you coast from my view

  I have seen you hunched

  like a thief over the wheel

  of the months turning

  another year towards closure

  the inevitable closure

  quiet click

  of the door’s latch

  how I bolt it afterwards

  the metal hard against my hand

  THE POISONED SHIRT

  The poison is absorbed

  into the meat of his back

  the muscle

  I want it to travel

  nerves sinews

  chords of tissue

  to answer the pluck of pain

  I want to kill from without

  the whole man

  his body absorbing the entire

  corruption

  a final message from

  blood to brain

  until it bubbles away

  the last sentence

  frozen in his eyes

  and me answering

  Glass Coffins

  It was not wise to leave so precious a relic in an undefended place outside the walls of town … because in those days a saint’s body was esteemed more than a treasure.

  – The Little Flowers of Saint Clare

  ANONYMOUS JOURNAL

  During this long winter we rarely go outside, though it is seldom warmer in our rooms. The interior of the palace has become a condensed winter world – cold mirrors, frozen chandeliers. Our fogged breath precedes us everywhere, softening candelabra and fresco.

  It is as if the garden has completely disappeared. We can hear the wind and the groaning of the giant trees. But we never see outside. Thousands of window panes are covered by a thick frost.

  There are no more gold settings at the table. Too much warmth in the cutlery is ridiculous. Soon the silver will disappear as well, reducing us to crockery.

  It is February and we are surprised by a miraculous sun. He insists that we move outdoors, walk in his white garden. We don’t object, put on our cloaks and boots, leave rooms for the first time in months.

  At first we are overcome by endless snow and the shock of the first cold swallow of air, fresh on the tissues of our lungs. But when we can see again we are amazed by the unbroken surface of white and the open blue of the sky. The ground plan of the garden is erased by winter.

  The statues are confused, awkward under hats and epaulets of snow. Urns grow ice. Our steps are new marks, making new boundaries.

  We move towards the Bassin D’Apollon, watching as the metal forms take shape against white. We are able to pick out the four horses, the sea monster, the torso of the young god emerging from his chariot. The wind has swept all the snow away from the Bassin, revealing enclosed ice, thick as marble. The sculpture is now locked, changed completely, made impotent by ice.

  He, standing there looking at this, understands for the first time that all his monuments are immovable, frozen in their own time. They are like novelties on display, already under glass.

  The Sun God and his Chariot, powerless in a cold, cold season.

  The light, the wind, revealing all of this. Making the image totally clear. And totally brutal.

  WINTER OF 1709

  You rearrange the lace

  at your wrist with cold fingers

  the freeze deepens

  hens are laying frozen eggs

  behind the kitchen garden

  blossoms are trapped in the false

  promise of tubers

  cold days

  the last time

  I wore this cloak against

  the weather I noticed

  how velvet remains unaffected

  by the breeze fades only

  when the sun touches it

  over and over

  the sun no longer reaches me

  the colour of this cold

  is permanent

  when trees become cathedral

  bones over our heads

  you add another acre

  to the dormant garden

  ice silvers steps and paths

  and fountains

  your finger prints

  on everything you touch

  SILENCED

  Autumn

  false gold falling on actuality

  stone walls all around

  summer hid the prison

  the perfect palace

  draped in green and growing

  overtop the stairs

  winter now

  and every word is opened

  syllables ride to the horizon

  in the grim hands of the post

  false gold covers gravel

  nothing hides in green

  this palace

  this prison

  built in time

  to silence

  every loss I speak

  LADY REASON

  Emotionally

  I am not yet ready for

  Madame de Maintenon

  Your Solidity

  he calls her or

  Lady Reason

  she answering

  Majesty

  Majesty

  he bows

  to the superior religion

  she holds up a mirror to

  his crime

  his passion

  the vanity of wars

  and women won

  landscapes pillaged

  Lady Reason

  Lady Reason

  you move in a different realm

  pulling out the power of

  the lust of a King

  his will to control

  the world

  himself

  I am not ready for you

  I am still

  running through crooked

  paths in my imagination

  ONE MEMORY OF OPENING

  With nothing to hold

  I remember open windows

  a garden or lake beyond

  you holding me

  how our clothing opened

  and closed again like windows

  the night or light entering

  us pouring out

  surely there is more than this

  one memory of opening

  the
breeze from the world

  around us a sail on the lake

  crowds waiting on the shore

  wind on my sleeve

  a sail suddenly pregnant

  the ease with which

  we fell together then

  and fell apart

  DOCTOR FAGON

  We reason with one another, he prescribes the remedies, I omit to take them and I recover. Molière

  Doctor Fagon killed them all. I saw his window the other day, filled with blades. Enormous scissors intersecting the rectangle. And knives, knives.

  Doctor Fagon enters the chamber in a brown cloak. He bleeds the Queen. Laundresses delight in sheets stained royally red.

  Doctor Fagon performs his operations by the light of a thousand candles. Muscles, soft to the scalpel, open over royal bone. The silversmiths are busy building reliquaries all across the country.

  Earthworms against gout.

  Bees’ ashes to make hair grow.

  Ant oil against deafness.

  Doctor Fagon senses hidden smallpox deep in the palace. He administers emetics. Three princes vomit their way to heaven. The iron heart of a King breaks open in the carriage on the way to Marly.

  Doctor Fagon mixes powders long into the night. He rebukes those that avoid him, accuses them of impiety. Museums prepare for his mortar and pestle.

  He prepares for the King.

  Doctor Fagon broods over Burgundy wine. He doses the King with spirit of amber, rubs his left leg with hot cloths, wraps the royal limbs in linen soaked in brandy.

  Eventually the pain evaporates. It leaves the palace by the back door, hovers somewhere east of the Grand Canal.

  Doctor Fagon cures the King. The King is dead.

  GLASS COFFINS

  The women longed for glass coffins. They imagined that centuries later men would file by to wonder at their incorrupt flesh. They were also interested in satin pillows and narrow couches. I know that is true. One told me so herself.

  Glass coffins. Like the one the friars built around the body of Saint Clare. Like the one that dwarfs placed Snow White in. And these women had been kissed and kissed by their prince.

  Often the women chose their costumes for the sake of glass coffins. They knew their fabric held together longest.

  They arranged their hair in deathless styles.

  Between the covers, under the glass, their bodies shine.

  HALL OF MIRRORS

  Overhead the crystal hangs

  handfuls of tears

  in placid air

  the mirrors divide

  my body darkens

  waiting in the hall

  see me in the glass

  reflected

  see me in the glass

  abandoned

  I am walking back and forth

  in a dream

  never changing

  my costume or my mind

  I am blind

  from staring too long at the sun

  the scent of a King

  is still in my hair

  II.

  ELEVEN POEMS FOR LE NOTRE

  In the gardens the King never says outright “Do not accompany me.” When you meet him he halts and if he bows after saying a few words you must walk on. If he wishes you to stay, he asks you to walk with him. Otherwise you simply can’t.

  – Duchesse D’Orleans

  Princes were in the moral world what monsters were in the physical; we saw openly in them the vices that are unseen in other men.

  – Duchesse Du Maine

  I

  I was walking in the garden of his imaginary palace

  he had chosen silence and indefinite vacations

  there was nothing to clean up afterwards

  except the season

  which shed its possibilities all along the pathways

  and the horizon

  which carried sails of ships I had not visited

  as I was walking

  in the garden of his imaginary

  palace planting episodes and confrontations

  bits of history for fine dust

  and despite the promise of my delicate rehearsals

  despite the maps that he’d proved true to scale

  all that lay beneath the surface of the soil

  I’d come to alter

  was a river of thickened ink

  and it appeared that over and over

  I had a black thumb

  II

  His position

  mine

  a crazy axiom of linear perspective

  the function of that garden

  painters stoop to it

  as if the world were solid architectural

  but colour softens up their distances

  green emptying to blue

  no colour there

  we walked kept to the walls when possible

  expecting that predictable geometry would save us

  in the end from paths of intersection

  and then events became confused degrees of angles

  something we intended did not flex

  broke through the surfaces of diagrams and entered

  structure

  so that even now

  two hundred well placed orange trees lead off

  to nowhere bulbs pulsing underground anticipate

  survival

  we’re stopped here frozen

  to the marble of the balustrade

  where vanishing points

  beckon

  III

  Before I came to move again

  this man prepared to organize

  restrain the landscape

  a simple act

  of laying hold of paper pencil ruler

  a protractor

  and clumsy shovels

  projecting from the end of several brown arms

  no complex survey tools the paths he chose were

  marked by hand with chalk

  or maybe twisted ribbon

  back to design the arrows on the paper which follow

  to the target of translation

  they projected from the eye and then the arm

  of what would seem a softer individual but

  long before the workmen bent to turn aside

  the first inch of the earth

  design had settled

  hard in this man’s head

  more like concrete

  than a garden

  IV

  Thresholds existed

  and I might have voyaged out at any moment

  past the rusted cage of gates

  and into

  intense disorder

  instead I walked for months around

  ambitious cultivation aware of intervals of timber

  and of fountains the scrape of rake against

  a thousand pebbles

  the dull insistent questions of the statues

  and when his smile exposed the iron teeth

  of garden tools

  I felt the silver of the thresholds glisten

  out to me

  but I was captured by his will the formal garden

  and welded too by indecision

  to the holy taste of ash

  around his mouth

  V

  In winter trees exploded up against the sky

  like black fireworks

  they touched

  to make the tunnels that I moved through

  the sun is gone I thought until I captured its reflection

  in the dirty water of canals

  and then I took it

  in my eyes and held it there

  the after image burning permanent diamonds

  on the folds inside my brain

  these were the personal adornments

  that I carried with me always

  always

  so I could not see around them or beyond them

  could not see beyond them

  out to the shadow

  of another burning image

  he
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  walking unescorted through the garden

  half a mile away

  VI

  Dust on satin

  the soft hems of my clothing

  and I believed it pleasant to carry something

  of the garden to my wardrobe

  like silver powder drawn

  to me by some remote

  magician

  pleasanter let’s say

  than stunted vegetation

  reality made dirt of it of course

  and quickly cleaned it from the tissue of my skirts

  the brass and bristle of the clothes brush

  in the cool hands of the servants

  their motions so deliberate

  and so angry

  it was the way they disapproved of me that brushed aside

  the traces of peculiar recreations

  the way they disapproved of subtle dust

  on satin

  and all those mornings that I emptied

  free of time

  walking walking walking

  in that foolish garden

  VII

  Spring was worst

  a little wind would settle in

  warm moist disorganized

  pushing line away from the clutch of centre

  tossing back the gathered skirts

  of unchecked form

  and overlooking the importance of security

  and then ignoring the obvious yellow

  of old well draughted plans

  his plans

 

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