by Simon Ings
To Jane Renée with love
HOTWIRE
SIMON INGS
Contents
Cover
Dedication
Title Page
Epigraph
Hotwire
Daughter
Wife
Also By Simon Ings
Copyright
Some souls one will never discover,
unless one invents them first.
Nietzsche,
Thus Spake Zarathustra, Part One
Shama wandered off in search of shells. The old man and his grandson tucked the blanket round their shoulders, watching her. The deep blue of her dress matched the colour of the sky. She edged forward after a retreating wave and plucked up a white lozenge, larger than her hand. The old man examined it. He said, ‘It’s a cuttlefish shell.’ She went off again and found three more.
The boy, her brother, said: ‘Last week we found the skeleton of a duck, in the field behind our house. There were feathers all over the place, but the skeleton was picked clean.’
The old man said nothing.
‘Look at the moon!’ The boy pointed at the water.
The sea was still as a swimming pool, deep as the sky above them. It was so calm, the reflection so clear, you could see the moon’s face.
‘Is there a man in the moon?’ said the boy.
‘Not any more,’ the old man smiled. ‘Your grandma and I stuck a knife in its guts, years ago.’
(Later, back home, at bedtime, the old man will come into the boy’s room and say goodnight. He will sit on the boy’s bed and bend his head and let the boy worm his fingers through his thinning hair till he finds the neat, triangular scar.
‘What’s inside?’
And the old man will say: ‘Cobwebs and treasures, half-eaten digestives and dust.’)
Shama returned with her pockets full of shells.
The old man led his grandchildren to the car. They drove back through the foothills of the Central Range. As they climbed, the boy looked out the rear window. The rice fields and the swamps of Caroni glittered in the moonlight.
He looked up.
The moon was less bright now, blurred by faint cloud. The haze was a halo: the white of an eye. The moon was its glistening pupil.
Six years passed. The morning boat from Cuba slid up the beach at Port of Spain, heat eddies spilling out its fans in glassy storm-tossed tresses. Two men in zoot suits disembarked. Strange gangland retro from Havana: matt black wrapshades, spats, the works. By night they strutted provocatively among the negroes of Arima. By day they haunted the pink and white houses of San Fernando, standing at street corners, scanning veterans with a home-made spectrometer hidden in a briefcase. They got mugged in broad daylight.
Wising up at last, they went east to Rio Claro, where the vultures lumber from one apocalyptic concrete shell to the next – homes for the poor with communal sanitation! – and dusty, wrinkled children sit, one to each patch of shade, whittling toy guns out of old planks, silent, unsmiling and patient as old men.
They paid the local whores for likely contacts. One night a girl even chauffeured them to the door. She was owed money: turning up with a pair of overdressed Cubans would, she thought, give her an edge.
But she was too easily freaked. ‘You won’t need them,’ she said, seeing their guns. ‘You won’t. Christ.’ She got out the car.
A shaky plank spanned the gutter. She led them along an unlit dirt path to the door. Through the window, they saw six young blacks lounging about on cushions, broken sofas, the floor. They were wearing jumpers of some indeterminate, bleached-out colour, and jeans torn across the thigh.
The door was open. The girl walked straight in. The men within heard her, glanced out the window, then turned back in on themselves, unworried, relaxed: open house.
The room was lit by two naked bulbs. Instead of shades, some fabric had been tacked up on the ceiling, and light spilled from folds in the cloth in unexpected ways. The cloth was thick and cream-coloured, like artist’s canvas. They had painted it with whatever came to hand. Turmeric paste. Beetroot. Sump oil. Here and there they’d cut designs into the fabric. Flowers, grotesque faces and guitars were full of out-rushing light.
On the opposite wall hung a strip torn from a hoarding – part of a make-up advertisement. The model’s eyes, huge, mascara’d, indifferent eyes, stared through the newcomers as they entered.
‘Sit,’ said one of the boys.
There was no matting. The furniture – a mattress, a table, a few battered wooden chairs and a sofa with a rent cover – had been scavenged from skips. There was a cast iron stove, its top thick with ash and spent matches, connected to the chimney breast by a foil hose. The men were gathered in a circle round the stove, chaining cigarettes. They did not look up.
The Cubans contemplated their hosts nervously. They felt conspicuous and foolish. Their sharp clothes looked like uniforms, and their shoes were too new.
The taller man cleared his throat. ‘Any all-you been to war?’
The young men shook their heads and smiled. No eye-contact. A bad sign.
‘Eyes, prosthetics, anything.’ The shorter added, helpfully, ‘Top dollar paid. Excision in the comfort of your own home. MacLloyd’s insurance.’
Someone hawked spit onto the stove-top. It sizzled. The young men smiled secretly at one another.
The taller Cuban muttered something foul in a foreign language. He took a phial from his pocket. ‘Or we’ve zee-bee fifteen. A quarter ounce, lab grade, for information leading to.’
The young men’s smiles dropped. They looked at their guests. ‘We know a man,’ the nearest said. He turned to the youngest of their group. ‘But I don’t know we want to tell.’
‘No way,’ the boy said, staring at them all like they’d already betrayed him. ‘He’s – Christ, what are you thinking of? He ain’t for sale.’
‘A relative?’ the tall Cuban enquired. ‘Let me assure—’
‘He just ain’t suitable is all.’
‘That we can decide, if you’ll excuse. Our diagnostics are the best—’
‘We have all current permits, papers—’
‘A portable autoclave—’
‘—self-sharpening scalpels!’
An uncomfortable silence descended.
The taller man rummaged in his pocket. ‘I can see you boys know what I’m offering. Here, that’s half an ounce ZB15 to introduce—’
‘He’s too old!’ the boy said.
‘How old?’ the shorter man demanded. ‘Chilean campaign?’
‘Hell no,’ said the girl, at the open door. She had returned bearing bottled beers on a tray. ‘Moonwolf.’
The buyers turned and stared at her, the boy, each other.
‘You stupid, big-mouthed bitch,’ the boy murmured, reddening.
‘Hi, Ajay.’ She balanced the tray and rubbed her fingers and thumb together: where’s-the-money?
Ajay looked at his feet. He shook his head.
His friends stirred uneasily.
The whore’s smile was cruel. ‘The old fart flattened railguns in Tranquility, you buy his grandson’s tales.’
The old man lived in an elaborate, tumble-down two storey wooden house, all fretwork and jalousies.
The house had been built for an estate overseer. Back then, you could stand on your veranda under a canvas awning and look down to where the year’s cocoa crop reflected the light in waves. Now only the occasional immortelle tree, with bird-shaped scarlet and orange flowers, marked the old plantation tracks, and the sugar cane fields had long since been overrun by the oil refineries of Pointe-à-Pierre.
They waited for nightfall – tall Cuban, short Cuban – in an old army surplus bush hide, side by side, hardly moving an inch. They whispered togethe
r, disconsolate, fretful. Around ten the house lights went off one by one.
They slipped on night glasses and used the boy’s keycard to get them inside.
Chinese hangings decorated the walls. There was a tiger skin by the fire. In the centre of the room stood a mahogany dining table big enough to seat twenty. Bureaus and bookshelves lined the walls. The effect was odd and disappointing: the room did not seem lived in at all, but more like a storeroom.
They crept upstairs. They found the old man in bed. They hypoed him while he slept and shaved off his hair with a battery clipper. They found the scar.
‘Oh Jesus, man.’
‘Man, I read about these!’
‘Yeah?’ The taller Cuban – who was also the older of the two – took a step back. ‘Y’know, I once heard they’re boobied.’
‘Oh bullshit, Gabby,’ the short one complained. ‘You know shit about techniq.’ He traced the scar with his fingers, gingerly. His hand was shaking.
Gabriel chuckled. Bullshitting the young was so easy.
‘Unlock the coolbox,’ the younger man muttered. From inside his jacket he drew out a wood chisel. It was still in its blister pack. He’d lifted it from a hardware store only that morning. He felt along the scar, like he knew what he was doing, then pressed the business end of the chisel against the old man’s skull. ‘Find me a book or something. Heavy, not too hard.’
Gabriel bent down, picked up a walking boot. ‘This do, Raul?’
Raul rapped the chisel with the boot heel. The old man’s scalp tore. Blood ran into the pillow.
‘No, something heavier. A mallet sort of thing.’
Gabriel found a wooden box on the window ledge. ‘Look,’ he said, delighted. ‘You turn the pegs, it changes the date in these little windows.’
Raul weighed it in his hand. He struck. A vein burst. Dark liquor dribbled over the blade, through the old man’s hair and soaked the sheets beneath.
‘Oh fuck.’
‘You want I go look downstairs?’
‘Yeah. No. Hang on.’ Raul wobbled the chisel about in the wound. ‘There’s a catch around here.’ He prised at the opening. Something snapped. A flake of bone erupted through the skin above the entry wound. Raul took hold of it and pulled it out, tearing another vessel. Brighter blood this time. He let go the chisel and wiped his hands on the man’s pyjamas. Blood ran down the shaft of the chisel, wetting the handle. He plucked the chisel up, cursing, and wiped it off as best he could. He pressed the blade into the wound again and slightly to the left. It grated round the hole, jumped out and scored a ragged wound across the crown. ‘This is no good,’ Raul muttered. He crawled up onto the bed and braced himself, knees wide apart, above the old man’s head. ‘Now. Hold him still.’
Gabriel pushed the sleeves of his jacket up round his elbows and leaned across the bed. He pulled the pillows out the way and braced the old man’s head against the mattress.
Raul dug in with the chisel. His hands kept slipping on the shaft.
‘You sure you got the right place?’
As if in reply the chisel slipped inch-deep through the old man’s skull. Raul let go, surprised.
‘You silly prick.’
‘Shut up, Gabby,’ Raul breathed, ‘just shut up. Keep hold of his head.’ He wrenched the chisel down. Gabriel lost his grip, his fingers slipping on the bloody skin. ‘Hold him still, I said.’
‘You’ll wreck him.’
‘Get away, then. Let me do it.’ Raul shook the blade about.
‘Leave off!’ the older man protested. ‘You’ll jelly it all. I’ll hold him, you lever. Steady now.’ He reached inside the old man’s mouth, and hooked his fingers round his palate. ‘Okay. Gentle to start.’
Raul pulled. Nothing gave.
‘Hold on.’ Gabriel put his other hand inside the man’s mouth, stretching his cheeks so hard the lip-corners tore and blood ran into his ears. Now Gabriel had hold of his lower jaw too, and he was using it like a lever. ‘Go on.’
They heaved in opposite directions. Cartilage crackled and tore. The jaw began to pull free.
‘There!’
Gabriel took his hands away.
‘We’ve got it.’ Raul levered the chisel. A triangular segment of skull sprang up. The skin over it stretched like sheet elastic. Raul let the chisel go. The skin sprang back into shape, snapping the lid shut.
‘Cut the skin.’
Raul carved up the old man’s scalp and tried again. The hatch came free. Raul put his fingers inside and prised it up from the inside. It was badly buckled. Raul forced it. A hinge snapped. Pink juice spattered his face. He wrenched the lid off, tossed it onto the bed. Gabriel picked it up and examined it. On its inside surface, slimed over with a greenish jelly, a decal glimmered, chrome and gold: HOTOL.
Gabriel pocketed the find, then crawled up onto the bed. He watched attentively as Raul dug greedily away at the jelly.
The cavity was disappointingly small.
It was empty.
Gabriel and Raul stared into the hole.
Raul spat. ‘Son of a bitch is stripped already!’
Gabriel cleared his throat. ‘Raul,’ he began, carefully, ‘that jelly. It was just packing, wasn’t it? It wasn’t—’
Raul shook his head bad-temperedly. ‘Datafat is creamy white. All knobbly, like a clam’s insides. And hot: a fast metabolism. It’s not lime fucking jello.’ He ran his finger over the back of the cavity. The old man’s legs spasmed. ‘Hey, look here.’ The back wall of the cavity was textured. It looked for all the world like bubble-wrap. Raul whistled, reverently. ‘Get the coolbox up here.’
‘What?’
‘The interface is still intact.’
‘It looks like bubble-wrap to me.’ Still, he fetched the box.
‘Placental data interface,’ Raul intoned. ‘It’s this webs datafat to human CNS. Delicate as hell. You got a penknife?’
Gabriel picked out the sharpest blade on his Swiss Army combo.
‘Cheers. Sit on him.’
‘Eh? Why?’
‘Just sit on him.’
Gabriel mounted the man’s quivering hips, sat down on him.
‘Okay.’ Raul began to cut.
The old man let out a dreadful sound, as loud and crude as a horse’s neigh, nothing human about it at all.
Raul went on cutting.
The old man started to shake all over. He snorted and gurgled: a horrible sound, like paper being shredded in a faulty waste disposal.
Gabriel felt hot wet seep up his groin. ‘Oh fuck.’ He leapt off the bed, tugging at his pants.
A musky sweetness filled the room. The old man arched his back like it would break, kicked and flailed and bounced over the bed, sending bloody spray over the headboard, the wall, Raul’s face—
‘For fuck’s sake keep him still!’ Raul yelled.
The old man’s arm shot out, knocking the coolbox off the bed. Gabriel dived for it, missed. It fell to the tiled floor. Glass shattered.
‘Here!’
Gabriel got up off the floor and looked.
Raul was standing on the other side of the bed, grinning, holding aloft a bloody rag.
‘That’s it?’
‘That’s it.’
The body meantime spasmed, shook – lay still.
Gabriel retrieved the coolbox and examined its insides. ‘It’s just the shelving snapped,’ he said. He shook the glass out and pointed to the panel set into the lid. ‘Look, all the little lights are green.’
‘Put this away.’ Raul handed him the sticky scrap, and slumped to the floor, his back against the bed. ‘Boy, am I tired.’
Gabriel stowed the scrap away in special patent packaging.
Headlights swirled across the ceiling, blinding them. They cursed, tore off their night goggles, scrambled to the window.
‘It’s that little sod.’
‘No,’ said Gabriel. ‘He ain’t got no car.’
A white Fiat pulled up outside the house.
‘It�
��s him!’
‘It’s not – there, satisfied?’
A girl got out. Long lacquered hair. Long neck. Long legs. Her skin was black as night. She approached the house and disappeared under the veranda canopy. Below, they heard the front door open.
‘What do we do?’
‘Go say hello.’
‘You crazy, Gab?’
‘Could be.’
Raul had never seen Gabriel grin before. It was not pleasant. ‘Leave it, Gab,’ he said, ‘I’m tired. I just want out of here.’
‘Give me the chisel.’
‘Oh for God’s sake—’
‘The chisel.’
‘It’s on the bed.’
‘I won’t be long,’ Gabriel promised, standing at the open door. He laughed softly.
Raul sighed: they’d been here before.
He looked round for something to stuff in his ears.
Ajay moved to Port of Spain to be near his sister. He worked a night shift, slept from eight till one, and spent his afternoons in an ancient and defeated corner house near the hospital.
Chumi’s Eats had been built years ago, in the days of British occupancy. Back then it had impersonated a Lyons’ tearoom. Now it lay becalmed, peeling quietly in the heat, cut adrift from the road behind a row of glass recycling drums. A sign by the door, meticulously lettered in red permanent marker, said: ‘Try our meals and you will know’. But its bleach-yellow melamine tables, its floor with half the tiles missing, the others curled treacherously to catch the foot, and the grease stains on the walls offered a diner only the most tawdry revelations.
The proprietor was a fat woman who had something wrong with her eyes. They looked as if they had never gelled properly. She worked from seven to seven, silent, companionless, sliding about the floor on her ketchup-flecked mules, dishing out indifferently fried food without comment or smile.
He ate nothing there, but drank endless cups of Indian-style tea. Cardamom, clove, lots of sugar.
The doctors were locals. They had learned their bedside manner from the evening soaps. They said ‘she is lucky to be alive’ and ‘there’s a slim chance she’ll make it’. But Shama had never been that close to death, nor was she lucky to be living. Death – as his work often reminded him – can sometimes be a kindness.
