She had one of those too rare glints of awareness, as she sat in the Jeep sharing fries with Teddy and Winston. This was it. This was happy. Whoever that was who said you couldn’t come home again was totally full of shit. From here on out things were going to be good. They had been through the wars, her little family, but now they were over the hump.
Olivia would remember this one, truly perfect moment, before she and Teddy took their very first look at the house. Blaming herself, later, for being dazzled and distracted by the joy of coming home, was entirely unfair.
They rolled into Knoxville right at dusk. It was a strange feeling, being back home, where the streets were familiar but so distant in memory. Two months ago, home for her brother’s funeral, Olivia found her way around by instinct, only getting confused when she tried to consciously think about which way to go.
She headed north on Kingston Pike, late enough that the after work rush had died away.
‘Look for a street sign that says Westwood,’ she told Teddy. ‘It should be on our left. Do you want to run by and see your new school? It’s on the way.’
Teddy shrugged and stared out the window. Her hair was half in and half out of a ponytail, and her little round glasses were smudged. She had chosen to wear socks today with her sandals, for no particular reason, different colored socks, sliding and bunching at the ankle.
‘You want to go see it?’ Olivia said.
Teddy’s voice was a whisper. ‘That’s okay.’
‘I know how much it sucks to have to go to another new school, Teddy. But remember, me and Uncle Chris both went to Bearden when we were kids. It’s friendlier here than in California.’
‘I like California.’
‘I know. But after this, Teddy, no more moving and no more changing schools. This time we’re going to stay put.’
Teddy’s hand strayed to Winston, who was straddling the middle trying to get his head in the front seat. He licked each one of Teddy’s fingers, and she wiped them on her shorts. She sat forward and pointed.
‘There it is, Mommy. See the sign? Westwood.’
Olivia put on the turn signal.
‘Are we almost there?’
‘One minute away.’
Teddy smiled and sighed deeply, and the dog put a paw in her lap. ‘It’s a pretty house, Winston. Uncle Chris used to live there and it’s cool.’
Olivia turned right on to Sutherland Avenue, watched for the landmarks, the line of little bungalows she’d known from childhood.
The front porch light was on, which was comforting, though it was not yet dark. As far as Olivia was concerned, the stone Tudor cottage defined home. Charlotte and Chris had let the yard go to hell, but even behind the overgrown magnolia and berry bushes, the clumps of dried leaves and moldy chestnuts that littered the ground, the house struggled to welcome her back. She loved the wood battens and diamond paned windows, the waist high stone wall and black iron fencing, the thick hedge of snarled honeysuckle and forsythia that shielded the boundaries of the property on all sides.
For Olivia, a house was a love affair. She loved arched doorways, wood floors and casement windows, but when she had been married to Hugh every move meant the inevitable decision between living in older, edgy neighborhoods and beige carpeted suburbia. Olivia’s preferences were always trumped by crime rates and good schools.
And though she kept her secret curled tight inside, she allowed a private wish. Because coming home meant a revival of hope for that tearful reunion Olivia dreamed about, where her sister Emily would knock on that front door, with a long story that no matter how horrific, would be calmed and healed by the joy of returning home. When Olivia had been a little girl, she had sat on those stone steps out front, waiting and waiting. Even now, twenty-five years later, when those stories broke on the news of a miraculous reunion and return, a missing child come home at long last, Olivia had hope that it would happen in her family. She had never given up. Neither had Chris. She missed having someone to hope with.
And just as Olivia turned left into the steep driveway, and eased up the broken and buckled asphalt, thinking how much she missed her dead brother, she recognized Chris’s Ford Explorer parked to the side of the garage. The driver’s door hung open, the way Chris always left it, when he was absentminded and in a hurry to get where he had to go.
Olivia jammed on the brakes and sat forward in the seat.
‘There’s somebody here,’ Teddy said.
FIVE
‘Teddy, you and Winston stay in the car. Just for a minute. I’ll be right back.’
‘We’ve only been in the car two hundred million hours.’
‘Then another few minutes won’t hurt.’
Olivia looked in the pickup when she walked by. Chris’s orange UT ball cap was there, crammed into a corner of the dashboard.
The backyard was bound with a privacy fence, the gate slightly ajar, and Olivia thought she heard a voice. She listened, just for a moment. Crying, someone crying softly, and the hair rose on her arms, because it sounded so much like her mother. When Emily disappeared, there had been a lot of crying in that house.
She pushed the gate open, remembering how Hunter the German shepherd had been Lord of the Backyard, and King of the Mountain on the sloping hill. It would be good for Winston, too, a safe, fenced place to run. Not that Winston ran a whole lot these days.
The crying stopped. But Olivia saw her, a woman sitting on tiles beside the koi pond and fountain, cross legged, head in her hands, only now starting to turn and get to her feet.
Charlotte. Of course, Charlotte, her sister-in-law, driving Chris’s Ford, it made perfect sense.
Charlotte was one of the best things about coming back to Knoxville. She and Olivia had always hit it off, but lived too far apart for a true, intimate friendship. Olivia was home now, and she and Charlotte could be close. They could take care of each other when they missed Chris. Olivia had precious little family left.
‘Olivia?’ Charlotte was coming down the hill. ‘Did I get the day wrong? I thought you weren’t due in till tomorrow. I was just going to call you.’
‘I’m early. It’s me that needs to call you. Oh, honey, you’ve been crying. Are you missing Chris?’
Charlotte enveloped Olivia in a hug. She smelled like something sweet and lemony, and there was sweat in the creases of her neck, and mascara running down her cheeks.
Olivia felt better, like she always did, whenever she was around her sister-in-law. Charlotte was the kind of woman people gravitated to, her dinner invitations were never refused. Physically, she somehow managed to add up to more than the sum of her parts. Reddish gold hair, chin length and blunt cut. Brown eyes, skin a bit rough and pitted, generous in the hips and waist. The longer you knew her the more you noticed how pretty she looked.
Chris had always said that Charlotte’s only fault was that she fed their children oatmeal for breakfast, which both Chris and Olivia found grotesque. Olivia was not sure when she and Chris had developed their oatmeal prejudice. In truth, Olivia loathed almost all breakfast foods, and started her own days with microwave popcorn and coffee, feeling that life was too short for anything with bran.
Charlotte also drank white wine, another serious strike. Olivia felt that wine should only come in shades of red, but she never said anything about this to Charlotte. There was a need for diversity in the world, and there were people who found her own love of mustard sandwiches weird.
‘I came over to do some work on this yard before you saw what a mess it was.’ Charlotte held up a pair of pristinely clean gardening gloves. ‘You can see how much I’ve accomplished.’
‘Don’t worry about the yard, Charlotte. Don’t worry about any of this. You’ve got enough on your mind these days.’
Chris had been madly in love with Charlotte (in spite of the oatmeal) from the first moment he’d seen her, saying there was something sparkly about her, though she had lost a lot of that sparkle now. They had been one of those touchstone couples everybody
else had envied, which made it all the more upsetting four months ago when Chris had insisted Charlotte and the girls move out of the house, and leave him there alone. Neither Chris nor Charlotte would talk about it, though they’d sworn the marriage was sound and intact, and Olivia had wondered but not intruded, aware the little family was in trouble, and watching helplessly from the sidelines, hoping things would work out. Things had been very wrong, and neither Charlotte nor Chris would tell her why.
Olivia noticed that Charlotte would not look her in the eye. There was none of the usual calm steadiness that was like an anchor for everyone else.
Charlotte ran a hand through her hair, and looked up at the fountain. ‘I meant to get things taken care of. I really did. It’s pretty awful. And look – see? Both of the apple trees are dead.’
‘It doesn’t matter. You know I don’t eat fruit.’
‘But Livie, that’s not all. Come look, come on, up at the fountain.’ Charlotte tugged Olivia’s hand and led her up the hill. ‘I didn’t want you to see this, it’s horrible. All the fish are dead.’
Olivia followed Charlotte up the hill, the uncut grass itchy on her ankles. The circle of tile and stone was chipped and broken, and there was a coating of dark green where the water had once spilled in a spray from the stone lion’s mouth into the little pool. The pond smelled like the river at low ebb, and Olivia saw lumps of floating things. Bloated koi, in advanced decay. The fish had been dead for months.
Olivia nudged Charlotte back down the hill. ‘Let it go, Charlotte.’
‘The truth is, Livie, I still need to clean out the freezer, and scrub the bathrooms, and it’s . . . it’s a mess and I can’t . . .’ Charlotte put a hand to her face, wiping the tears and makeup into another smudge. ‘How long before your moving van gets here?’
‘Four days. Don’t agonize about this, Charlotte, I’ll take care of things myself.’
‘I just don’t want you to think I’m upset about you taking the house. You understand I’m okay with the trust? I always thought it was great that your parents paid the house off and left it for you and Chris.’
‘And Emily.’
‘And Emily, of course. I don’t want you to think this is sour grapes on my part, because I had to give up the cottage. Because I promise that’s not it, Chris found us another house, right before he died, and it’s pretty and it’s new, so you have to promise me that you won’t think it has anything to do with that.’
‘Charlotte, I do feel bad about taking the house—’
‘No.’ Charlotte put both hands on Olivia’s shoulders, pressing down hard. ‘I don’t want this house. I hate this house. I spent all afternoon trying to get the nerve up to go inside and do some cleaning, and you know what? I made it to the back door, and couldn’t even put my hand on the knob. Look at my hands.’
Charlotte held her hands out. They were shaking.
‘Charlotte, come on, look, it’s okay to have a meltdown, anybody would with all you’ve been through.’
‘No, listen to me. The fish are all dead. Chris is dead—’ Charlotte looked over Olivia’s shoulder and froze.
Teddy had gotten tired of waiting in the Jeep, and come to find her mom, and neither Charlotte nor Olivia had noticed her, standing close and listening in. How much had she heard, Olivia wondered.
‘Mommy?’ Teddy pushed her glasses back on her nose. ‘Did Uncle Chris die in this house?’
‘He died in his sleep, Teddy,’ Olivia said. ‘He was sick. I told you that, remember?’
‘But was it in this house?’
Charlotte put a hand on Olivia’s arm, but Olivia shook it off. ‘Yes, it was in the house. That’s normal, in older houses. Families live there for years and years and it’s a natural part of life. He was very sick, and he went to sleep, and he didn’t wake up. It was very peaceful.’
‘But which room was he in? What made him sick?’
Olivia looked at Charlotte, who bit her lip.
‘A grown up sickness,’ Olivia told her. ‘Something that kids can’t get, so you don’t have to worry. Teddy, where is Winston?’
‘He won’t come out of the car.’
Hours later, at Charlotte’s new little house, when Teddy and her cousins had been fed, taken baths, and been tucked into bed, when Winston had relieved himself, stretched his legs, and sniffed through every interesting smell in Charlotte’s raw and new backyard, Olivia and Charlotte huddled together at the kitchen table. The dishwasher hummed, and they opened a bottle of pinot noir. Charlotte was no doubt being polite, because Olivia had seen a bottle of chardonnay, already open in the fridge.
The house was a mix of rosy tan brick and white aluminum siding, small, one level, brand new, in a subdivision off South Peters Road, three miles past the Baker Peters Jazz Club where Olivia and Hugh had their second date – a quirky, old brick southern mansion with a dental practice in one wing, a restaurant where Olivia could not afford to eat out front, and a jazz club and patio on the roof. The parking lot adjoined a gas station on one side, and an insurance office on the other, and there was a hive of suburban tract houses fanning out on either side.
Charlotte was calm now. Her hands had stopped trembling about halfway through making her trademark macaroni and cheese casserole, which Winston had tried and approved to the admiration of Teddy’s cousins, who sorely needed a dog of their own.
‘Where is Winston?’ Charlotte said, chin propped on her hand.
‘Sleeping with Teddy. Is it okay with you, that he’s up on the bed?’
‘Sure, this is a dog friendly household. I was just thinking, you know, how he wouldn’t get out of the car. Before. At that house.’
‘That house? Charlotte, that house was your home for the last, what, twelve years?’
‘I know. Are you sure you want to move in there?’
‘Charlotte, I grew up there, it’s my home. Not to mention that it’s paid off, there’s no mortgage, and I love it there. I get, you know, that Chris died there. I can understand that it brings up bad memories for you.’
‘It does. It was so weird. I was going to go in there and clean. Put some flowers in a vase in the kitchen. But when I was all set to go inside . . . it was like I panicked. I couldn’t make myself go in.’
‘Chris died there, Charlotte. Don’t you think it’s like an association thing? Because bad things happened when you lived in the house?’
Charlotte rubbed her forehead. ‘We used to be so happy there. But we’ve had a bad couple of years.’
Olivia put her palms on the kitchen table. ‘Charlotte, were you and Chris getting divorced?’
Charlotte looked up and frowned. ‘No, of course not, why would you say that?’
‘I just don’t get what was going on. Why Chris had you move.’
‘Chris was not . . . himself. But it wasn’t about the marriage.’
‘Then what was it about? Charlotte, he lost sixty pounds before he died. When did this thing, whatever it was . . . when did it start?’
‘When does anything start? It just creeps up on you, that’s what it does.’
‘Give me your best guess.’
Charlotte folded her hands in her lap. ‘I guess . . . really, I think it all started with Janet.’
‘Janet?’
Chris’s oldest daughter. Tall for her age, big boned like Chris, but thin and tiny waisted, where her father had bulk. She had been dry eyed and angry at her father’s funeral, the first eruptions of adolescent acne making bumps along her chin.
Olivia took a sip of her wine. ‘What did Janet do?’
‘Do? What do you mean by that?’
‘I’m sorry. I don’t mean anything. I don’t know why I said it.’
Charlotte ran a finger on the side of the table. ‘Janet didn’t do anything. Janet got sick.’
Olivia gripped the stem of her wine glass.
‘It started in the middle of the night. She would get these horrible attacks – high fevers, vomiting. They ran tests and found all kinds of
weird stuff. But nothing would really add up. First her liver enzymes were sky high. Then they were normal. Then they thought her gall bladder was shot.’
‘At her age?’
‘I know. And then . . .’ Charlotte put her face in her hands and her voice caught. ‘Then a malignant tumor on her liver. Then it was a pancreatic tumor. An automatic sentence of death. Chris and I were just . . . we were so worried, so scared for her. We were literally just hanging on.’
‘But why didn’t you tell me?’
‘We told no one. We didn’t want to talk about it to anybody until we were sure. And then – then it was nothing at all. All those scary test results were some mysterious mistake. We got a clean bill of health for our little girl. I was so . . . grateful. So relieved. I used to stand outside her bedroom door after she and Annette and Cassidy fell asleep, and literally cry from happiness. I thought how good life could be. Back then.’
‘And?’
‘And . . . it seemed to affect Janet. She was different somehow.’
‘Well, come on, Charlotte, she’d been sick, all those tests.’ Olivia gentled her voice. ‘No matter what anyone told her, she’s a smart girl, maybe she was afraid she was going to die.’
‘But that’s just it. She wasn’t afraid she was going to die. She was worried about everybody else. And it wasn’t just Janet. It was Chris. He was more affected than anybody. He stopped sleeping. Stopped eating. Started having dreams, horrible dreams, about – how did he put it? Something evil sitting on his chest. And he would wake up choking, saying he couldn’t breathe. I thought it was some kind of stress reaction. I dragged him to the doctor, they tested his heart. Everything was normal, everything was fine. But he was so different. Our little girl wasn’t sick anymore, but instead of feeling the joy he was so . . . sad. He started losing weight. And then Janet started having nightmares, terrible terrible dreams that made her scream. She said someone was watching her. That it whispered to her when she was alone. It got so bad that she was afraid to go to sleep. She said if she didn’t keep watch, something bad was going to happen. First it was the fish. She was convinced that something was going to kill all the koi in the pond. And then the fish died. All of them. Just like Janet said they would.
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