by Mark Morris
THE ABDUCTION DOOR
by Christopher Golden
You’ve probably seen the abduction door, maybe stood right beside it and never understood the kind of danger you were in. Might be you never even noticed.That’s the way it works. You step onto the elevator and it’s just there, no explanation, as if there’s nothing at all out of the ordinary about a smaller door set into one wall of the elevator. Not at the rear of the box—like in a hospital, where most of them have sets of doors at the front and back.The abduction door always appears on one of the other walls, illogical and even absurd.The door is too small for a person to walk through, roughly three square feet, and about eighteen inches off the floor. Of course, even if one wanted to go through that door, it doesn’t make sense, does it? The only thing that could possibly be on the other side is a wall or the open elevator shaft.
That’s true, isn’t it?
Of course it is.
When I was a boy, my father did his best to teach me to be brave, but to him “bravery” consisted mostly of ignoring fear. My mother disapproved. She taught me to trust my fears, to explore the shuddery intuitions in life. But even my mother had her limits. Even she told me that my fear of the abduction door was silly and childish.
I wonder what she would say now.
Mostly, I suspect, she’d be screaming.
***
I’m fairly certain that I was nine years old the first time I noticed the abduction door. That would’ve been 1986. My parents had taken me to New York City for the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade. I’m an only child, so they spoiled me rotten in those days, and I loved every minute of it. When I think back on that weekend, so many images cascade through my mind—the crowds of people lining the sidewalks in Times Square, the massive character balloons floating overhead, the marching bands and floats and Santa waving directly at me, the orange scarf my mother wore, my father’s cold-reddened cheeks… so many. But the image that remains the most vivid is my second glimpse of the abduction door.
Not the first glimpse, because with the first glimpse I felt only curiosity. It was the second glimpse that etched a lifelong terror into my mind, the way some things can only manage to do when you’re nine years old.
My parents always blamed the bellman, a true New Yorker named Cyril. In his red-and-black uniform, skinny, sixtyish, white-moustached Cyril seemed almost a part of the hotel itself, as if he’d stepped right out of the lobby wallpaper and would slide back into it when his shift ended for the night. We’d gone out for our Thanksgiving dinner and returned to the hotel—I don’t remember the name, but it doesn’t matter now, does it? The abduction door isn’t there. Not in any predictable sense, anyway. The point is that we’d come back from dinner and Cyril had one of those wheeled carts filled with somebody’s luggage and we were all waiting for the elevator together. I’d noticed the abduction door on our way out to dinner—not before that, though we’d been up and down the elevator half a dozen times since checking in.
Cyril looked wise to me. Old and wise, somehow more a part of the place than the younger people behind the registration desk.
“What’s the little door for?” I asked him.
“Say again, kid.What’s that?”
My parents shared the smile reserved for mothers and fathers who believe fully in the precociousness of their children and assume that everyone will find their offspring charming.
“The little door in the elevator, on the side. Where does it go?”
Cyril didn’t smile. It’s important for you to understand that. He didn’t smile, he didn’t wink at my parents, he didn’t crouch down with a popping of arthritic knees or smooth his moustache. His brows knitted together and he glanced at the elevator doors. Above the elevator, the numbers were counting down toward L.
“Started working in hotels in Manhattan when I was still in high school,” Cyril said. “In those days they still had elevator operators in some places. This one old fella called it ‘the abduction door’. Said kids got snatched right in the middle of their elevator rides… sometimes grownups, too.”
I stared at him, forgetting to breathe.
“Hey,” my dad said.“That’s not okay, man. He’s only nine. Kids his age, they believe all that stuff.Tell him it’s just a story.”
Cyril smiled then, but his eyes were dull and glassy, like doll’s eyes—like he wanted to do anything but smile.“Course it’s just a story. Sorry, little man,” he said to me.“Don’t mean to scare you. All these old hotels have creepy stories—ghosts and stuff—but that’s all they are. Stories.”
He smoothed his moustache now. Glanced away from me. I knew he was lying.
“Do they ever come back?” I asked.
“Stop,” my mother said, but I wasn’t sure if she was talking to me or Cyril.
“Funny you should ask,” the bellman said, and now he leaned on the baggage cart, one foot up on it like the stalwart hero in some old movie. Relaxed and confident, and so I knew the next words would be the truth. “About a month ago—no word of a lie—I’m waiting on the elevator and the doors open and this boy runs out. Little kid, couple of years younger than you. He’s scared out of his wits and he grabs onto me and won’t let go. Says he got away. Someone grabbed him in the elevator but he got away from ’em.Thing is, we got security cameras on every floor, right? None of the footage showed this kid getting on the elevator, not on any floor. He just appeared on the elevator while it was moving, then jumped out when it hit the lobby.”
I could hear my heart drumming in my chest. My mother protested and my father got in between me and Cyril, threatening his job. I think maybe Dad even grabbed him by the red lapels of his uniform until Mom pulled him away. Cyril said he was just trying to erase what he’d told me about the abduction door, figured the story about the little boy escaping would put it right. My father muttered about him being a fucking psycho. When the elevator door dinged, all four of us flinched.
My dad pointed at Cyril.“You can take the next one.”
Cyril held up his hands in surrender, but once my parents and I had gotten into the elevator and the doors were closing, I heard the skinny old bellman finish his story.
“Crazy thing was, when they tracked the kid’s parents down, they found out he’d vanished from a hotel elevator in Pittsburgh,” Cyril said.“Figure that one out.”
The whole ride up to our floor, I stared at my feet. My parents fumed, determined to call the front desk and raise holy hell about Cyril’s behaviour, but I barely heard a word that passed between them.Their fury washed over me, but I kept staring at my feet until the elevator reached the tenth floor and juddered and squealed to a stop. For a breathless moment, it seemed the doors would not open, that we would be trapped inside, suspended, waiting to fall.
Something creaked over my left shoulder. I peeked, and I saw it there. Just a glimpse, through the screen of my father’s arm and my mother’s purse and the shopping bag in Dad’s hand.The abduction door.
You can imagine how fast I got the fuck off the elevator when the doors finally slid open.
***
A quarter century later I’m in Los Angeles with my wife and daughter.We don’t live here. Nobody lives in L.A., not really. Tori and I have moved around a lot in the nine years since Gracie was born. Some of that nomadic spirit sprang from me being relocated for work, but several of those moves came because Tori couldn’t stand to remain living in communities where she’d humiliated herself so badly. Alcoholism and schizophrenia make hideous bedfellows, but Tori has them both. She fights that two-front war valiantly and most days she wins, but on the other days, things get uglier than you can imagine.
Or maybe you can imagine, after all. If so, I’m sorry for you.
At nine years old, Gracie has seen and heard things no child should see or hear. Doubtless she’s got a little maelstrom of love and hate churning inside her that she can’t even understand, but somehow she’s the sweetest, kindest, gentlest kid you’ll ever meet.
E
ven today, when Tori had a schizophrenic break while we were shopping on Third Street Promenade in Santa Monica, and started screaming at a woman busking on a street corner, convinced that the woman was an alien insect creature—one of millions invading our world—and that her song had taken control of our minds. Tori thought she had to get us away from the music, and monitor us for behavioural changes, and kill us if we showed any sign of alien insect control. Out of mercy, you understand.
The doctors at UCLA Medical Center explained this last part. Fortunately, Tori hadn’t come right out and told Gracie and me that executing us was her fallback plan. Maybe you’re thinking shit like that only happens in Oscar-bait movies, and for your sake I hope you keep on believing that, I hope you never have a reason to come to terms with what can really happen during a schizophrenic break.
They put Tori on a 5150 hold at UCLA Med, which basically means they’re keeping her for observation against her will, and even if I wanted to get her out of there, I couldn’t. I’m told sometimes these episodes are fleeting, easily treated by adjusting medications… and other times they go on for months. Maybe forever.
By the time Gracie and I flee the hospital it’s after dark. My eyes are so tired it feels like there’s sand in them, and though Gracie has been a trouper, she’s flagging. I can see it. The strain of having to pretend that everything’s okay, having to nod earnestly and tell me Mommy’s going to be all right—because that’s the kind of nine-year-old she is—has exhausted her. I drive us back to the Hotel Beaumont—or just “the Beaumont” if you’re a local—and let the valet make the car vanish for us. We don’t talk to anyone, barely look at anyone, as we trudge through the lobby. The Beaumont has been restored so that it looks precisely the way it did in the early 1940s, in the age of the Hollywood studio system, when producers and directors met for drinks around the swimming pool in the courtyard, when aspiring starlets sunned themselves by day and sat listening to the big band in the dining room, hoping Frank Sinatra or Burt Lancaster might spot them and turn them into the next great leading lady.
Gracie and I keep our heads down.“You hungry, sweetie?”
“I’m okay, Daddy.” She’s too tired even to push the call button beside the art deco elevator doors, so I do it for her.
“We could order room service.”
The elevator dings and we wait for two elderly women to get off.They’re so old they might well have been a pair of those aspiring starlets hoping to catch Burt Lancaster’s eye. Gracie and I shuffle onto the elevator as if we’re even older and I smile weakly at the thought. I punch the number seven and the doors glide shut.
Head hung, I feel the elevator moving. It shifts and rattles as if it’s an actual relic of those ancient days and not just made to look like one. My thoughts are with Tori, then. All I can see in my mind’s eye is the fear etched on her face, the lunatic certainty that the world is secretly infiltrated by dark forces and that somehow she can save us by murdering us. I begin to well up with tears, but I can’t let that happen. Not now. Gracie needs me. Sweet Gracie, who looks so much like her mother.
“What do you say, kiddo?” I ask.“Room service?”
Nothing. Then a muffled sniffling noise that I figure means my daughter—whose very existence takes my breath away—is finally crying, overwhelmed by the horror of what’s become of her mother.
“Oh, hey, Gracie, it’s—” I say as I turn toward her.
Just in time to see the long, spindly arms.The filthy hands. The stained fingers. Just in time to see them drag my little girl through the abduction door. It’s the matter of a heartbeat as she vanishes. I scream and lunge, reaching out to catch the edge of the little door, but I’m too late and it clicks shut almost silently. It should close with an earth-shaking clang, but that click is so quiet.
I scream her name, but only twice. All my life I’ve been wary of the abduction door, I’ve kept my distance, I’ve been vigilant. It waited until I let down my guard and now…
I pound at the door, dig my fingers into the crease between its halves. The metal is oddly cold and it hums with a vibration completely divorced from the rattle of the elevator. Tears are streaming down my face and my jaw is clenched and I can feel myself snarling savagely and I know that is only right. I’m savage now. My Gracie, my baby girl… she’s been taken and the only part of me that’s left is the animal part.The most ancient part.This is what it is to be a parent, to love a child. It’s ancient and bestial, and I claw at the edges of the abduction door and I crack a fingernail and blood drips but I manage to force the fingers of my left hand into the crease between the halves of the abduction door and I start prying, and hope ignites and my tears now are tears of rage and determination.
The elevator slows. Dings. I hear the real doors, the full-size doors, start to slide open and I turn, thinking, Help me, they’ve got Gracie. My fingers slide out.
A thirtyish guy with too many muscles for his silk t-shirt to contain gets on. He stares at me for half a second, maybe wondering if he should wait for the next elevator. Maybe he sees my tears and my hunched posture—maybe he sees the animal in me—but it’s L.A. and surely he’s seen stranger things than me.
“Help,” I say, and I turn back to the abduction door.
But it’s gone.With the stopping of the elevator, it has been erased.
“No,” I say quietly. As quiet as the click of the horrid little door. I say it again, louder this time, and I run my fingers over the wall of the elevator, over that smoothness where Gracie has gone. I’m about to scream when I hear the clearing of muscle man’s throat and I whip my head around to stare at him.
He’s wary, suspicious, but not scared. One fist is clenched. His brow is knitted, and I think he wants to help but he’s also ready for trouble. Maybe those muscles aren’t just for show.
“You okay, brother?” he asks.
I can’t speak. Can’t even take my eyes from him now. We stand like that, locked in a moment of tense possibility, until the elevator dings again. The door opens and he steps off with a single backward glance and a shake of his head. I think he mutters something like “this fucking town,” but I can’t be sure.
Then he’s gone, and I’m alone again on the elevator.
Alone. Oh, Jesus, Gracie.The tears come hot and fast now and I put myself into the corner of the elevator, staring at the smooth place on the wall, and I settle in for the long haul.Waiting for the abduction door to reappear. I could call the police, but what am I going to say that anyone would believe? They’d put me in the room next to Tori’s at UCLA Med, two-for-one, a special on 5150s today.
So I ride the elevator and I wait. I ride all night.
***
I hear the woman’s murmur before I feel her touch. My eyelids flutter and I see her standing before me, one hand still on her rolling carry-on. Dark and lovely, so neat in her flight attendant uniform, she gazes at me with open and genuine concern, the kind of real humanity that is so absent in our daily lives that it’s shocking when you come face-to-face with it.
“You okay?”
I nod, struggling to stand upright. I’d been propped in the corner of the elevator, more or less asleep on my feet. Now I scrape the grit from my eyes and try not to release the sob rising in my chest. I nearly spill it all, nearly tell her the truth that would surely get the police involved and end up with me dragged off the elevator, but I can’t get off. I can’t. So I choke back the unshed tears.
“Long night,” I manage, realizing how awful I must look. How exhausted and worn, like some barroom drunk who’d stumbled into the wrong hotel.
“We’ve all had them,” she says gently, trying to reassure me with her smile. Instead her kindness only makes me want to scream.
I want to ask the time but I’ve drawn enough attention to myself. I figure it’s early, that she’s heading off to an early flight. The elevator slides downward without stopping and dings at the lobby. She gives me one last reassuring glance and steps out, and I miss her painfully, th
is woman who offered me a moment of comfort. I want to scream after her. I want someone to help me, please God just help me get my baby back.
The elevator closes. Ticks quietly, awaiting its next summons. A minute or so passes and there’s a hum, and it’s rising again. Someone else is awake besides the flight attendant, someone else headed out into the pre-dawn hours, and I think of Tori in the hospital and I know—I know—I can’t get Gracie back by myself.
The numbers illuminate as the elevator climbs.Trembling, I exhale and lean back against the wall, and then I see the abduction door out of the corner of my eye. My keys are out of my pocket even as I turn toward it.The elevator rises and the floors pass by and I know that when it reaches its destination the door might vanish again, so I jam my car key into the crease between doors and lever it hard, not caring about the key or the car. I get my fingers in and the metal edge scrapes the skin and blood wells up but after a second the door gives way. No snap or crack or wrenching of metal, it just gives, almost like it wants to.
The elevator starts to slow. I stare at the space yawning on the other side of the abduction door, the impossible space. Where the elevator shaft ought to be is a narrow corridor, both there and not there. It moves with the elevator, disorienting because I can feel myself in motion but the view through that little door makes it appear that I’m not moving at all.The shadows are fluid in that impossible space, shifting and yet solid at the same time, so that it looks like the unfocused mist of a dream but it feels real and Gracie’s in there, my Gracie, and if the elevator stops…
I take a breath before I hurl myself through, fingers throbbing, scraped raw and now outstretched as I fall hard to the floor on the other side. The way my elbow cracks as it strikes the floor sends jolts of all-too-real pain up my arm, but the blur of my surroundings stays the same. Real and unreal. I hear the ding of the elevator as if it’s right next to my ear, so loud, but when I look up the abduction door has closed. A little smear of my blood remains in the crease.
