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by Kate Le Vann


  Lavender Sandcastles

  Before they started their project Lavender Sandcastles, Quentin Vienna (vocals) and Marv Higson (keyboard) were playing in a band called Primitive Grip. Later on they left that band and they started writing with new band member Danny Redstone (guitar). They were contacted by Fruitgum Records and got a contract with the label. They were joined by Kelvin Culhane (bass) and Jeff Riesling (drums and percussion). Their first hit single was ‘Elemental’ from their debut album Lavender Sandcastles, which reached number 3 in the British charts and was number 1 in Sweden, Finland and Norway. The following year they released Belinda’s Destiny which would be their last album. The first single from that album, ‘Can’t Face You’, reached number 10 in the British charts.

  Later Years

  After the band broke up, Quentin Vienna left the music business.

  ‘That is … interesting, my mum has both those albums and she used to play their songs when I was a kid,’ Rain said. Her heart and pounding head seemed simultaneously flooded with panic and adrenaline. ‘But that’s got to be true of millions of women her age, hasn’t it?’

  Harry gave a little shrug. ‘Yeah. Thousands, maybe.’

  Rain tried to find some more revealing links, but there was just page after page of identical hits telling her how to buy their songs, brief discographies on geek music sites, the videos on YouTube and Google, and some pictures that would have been funny, with terrible clothes and hair-cuts, but were now weird and jarring. She stared at the close-ups of Quentin Vienna’s face.

  ‘He doesn’t look like me, though. Does he?’ Rain said. She could see a resemblance, but she didn’t want to.

  ‘He … well, he does,’ Harry said. ‘You can see it, I can see it. Look at this one.’ He clicked back to a window at the back of fifty other pictures of Quentin Vienna. He had blond hair and Rain was a brunette, and Rain’s dad had brown hair and her mum had had dark blond hair … but Quentin’s was clearly dyed. His eyes were similar to Rain’s – hazel-brown, not much lid showing, low brows. Her chin had a little dimple in it like the one Quentin Vienna was thoughtfully rubbing in some of his pictures. Rain took a knife out the kitchen drawer and studied her reflection, as if she needed a reminder. Meanwhile, Harry waited quietly, and she realised how silly she looked, staring at herself and trying to find a stranger.

  ‘Look at his ears,’ Harry said.

  Rain touched her own ears with her fingers. ‘Well, who looks at ears?’ she said. Harry shrugged. But Rain could see exactly what he meant.

  ‘You don’t really have any big reason to think I’m Quentin Vienna’s daughter? My mum had the albums and the initials are QV, that’s it?’ Rain had to work hard to say this in an offhand way, as if she was making fun of him and herself, and wasn’t feeling let down. But her eyes gave her away.

  ‘Well, look, don’t think I’m completely barking,’ Harry said, picking up a bag he’d slung under the table earlier, ‘but there was sort of one other thing I did.’ He took out his phone. ‘I … well, I downloaded a couple of their songs.’

  ‘Quentin Vienna’s songs?’ Rain said, looking at him with wide eyes.

  ‘Lavender Sandcastles. Yeah. I mean, just because I knew them and wanted to hear them again and I’d started thinking about them. And this one’s interesting.’ Harry found the track on his phone – it was called ‘Not My Baby’ and they both listened to it through the tinny little speaker.

  ‘I can’t hear what he’s … ‘ Rain began, but Harry made little shushing gestures with his fingers.

  When it was finished, Harry said, ‘Neither can I, not all of it, but I think we should try to work it out. I looked on lyrics sites, but it’s not there, probably because it wasn’t a single.’

  ‘Hang on, let me get a pen and something to write on.’ She brought two pens and Harry started the song again. Three or four listens later, they’d got it.

  You don’t get my life it’s not your life

  Maybe you’re braver than me

  Or maybe you just don’t know what it’s like out there

  I’m scared for you but I can’t do this with you

  So someone else will be holding my baby

  Someone else will be teaching my baby to smile

  Have to tell the world this is not my baby

  Though I love you more than any other boy ever will

  Have to let the world think this is not my baby

  If you knew how much I love you you’d never let me go

  You want more than I can give you

  You say it’s easy and I laugh then you laugh

  But I saw you last week with that guy

  The one with the hair and the stupid look

  And someone else will be holding my baby

  Someone else will be teaching my baby to smile

  Have to tell the world this is not my baby

  Though I love you more than any other boy ever will

  Have to let the world think this is not my baby

  If you knew how much I love you you’d never let me go

  ‘You know baby never means baby in pop songs,’ Rain said.

  ‘Mostly not,’ Harry agreed.

  Rain read through the lyrics again, frowning and pulling little strips of skin off her lips.

  ‘I just don’t think it’s enough,’ she said, looking up at Harry with a tiny blob of blood in the middle of her mouth.

  ‘You’re, er, bleeding,’ Harry said.

  ‘Oh sorry,’ Rain said, rubbing her lips with her fingers, which came away bloody. ‘I do that. I do some weird stuff sometimes.’

  ‘Everyone does,’ Harry said, nodding.

  They heard the door open and Vivienne was back from the supermarket, carrying heavy bags. Rain had all the clearest pictures of Quentin Vienna open on her computer, and their transcriptions of the song were spread in front of them. The little phone rattled as ‘Not My Baby’ played for the fiftieth time.

  ‘What are you two up to? Homework?’ Vivienne said.

  Rain closed the laptop a bit too hastily, just as Harry grabbed for his phone and turned off the song.

  ‘Well, take your faces out of the internet, it’s Saturday,’ Vivienne said, heaving a huge bag of potatoes on to the kitchen table.

  ‘Let me help you with those bags, Vivienne,’ Harry said. ‘Can I make you a cup of tea?’

  ‘So, Harry, why are you here today?’ Vivienne said.

  She started pulling things out of her cotton carrier bags, until the table was crowded with fruit and deliciouslooking pastries and bread. Rain hadn’t eaten any breakfast yet and grabbed a croissant, while listening to the rest of the conversation. She was feeling a bit lost for words because they’d been doing something she didn’t want Vivienne to know about.

  ‘I fancied going to the Tate Modern today to see the new Andy Warhol exhibition and wondered if Rain wanted to come along,’ Harry said. ‘Although I know it’s the weekend and you may both have something else planned.’

  ‘Actually, I would love it if you both got out of here for the rest of the day.’ Vivienne was stacking yoghurts in the fridge and she whirled around, smiling. ‘I really need a haircut so I thought I’d drag Rain along with me to the Red Door, but quite honestly, it’s not cool enough for her.’

  ‘What’s the Red Door?’ Rain said.

  ‘It’s a salon thing in Mayfair,’ Vivienne said. ‘I used to go a bonkers-number of years ago, and probably everyone I knew then will have gone and it’ll all be different and depressing, but … ‘ She looked thoughtful. ‘Anyway, if I can palm you off it’d be even better, I can take my time without feeling guilty. I’d like a manicure, too – my hands are manly after all that gardening.’

  ‘Terrific,’ Harry said. ‘And your hands are still very dainty. Are you taking a 23? We can all get the bus together.’

  ‘Oh, good idea,’ Vivienne said. ‘You two can cross the river at St. Paul’s.’

  ‘Exactly,’ said Harry.

  ‘I’ll just get changed
, so I don’t scare their chi-chi customers,’ Vivienne said. She vanished into the hall.

  Harry and Rain looked at each other as they waited for her.

  ‘You’re very quiet,’ Harry said. The arrival of Vivienne seemed to have loosened him up: he seemed back to normal, teasey Harry again. ‘Although I suppose you think it’s rude to talk while you’re absolutely stuffing your face with croissant.’

  Rain immediately gulped the mouthful down. ‘Maybe I just got a bit freaked out seeing how quickly you came up with that lie.’

  ‘It wasn’t a lie!’ Harry said, laughing. ‘Look!’ He pulled a crinkled Time Out from his pocket, which was open on an article about the exhibition he’d mentioned.

  ‘Oh, that’s convenient,’ Rain said. ‘But you were obviously planning on taking Madrigal and just improvised.’

  ‘I thought it’d be a good idea to spend a day away from this house to talk things over, if you wanted to. And it’s a good place to do that, you’ll see. Why would I lie?’ Harry said.

  Rain bit her croissant again. ‘I don’t know,’ she mumbled as she chewed.

  ‘Well, look, I should probably just go,’ Harry said. ‘In fact, that’s probably best because you’ve got a lot to think about, more than you wanted to, and I think I’ve only complicated it … ‘

  ‘But … I don’t think I want to go on without you,’ Rain said. ‘I’d like to talk about it some more. If that’s okay?’

  Harry paused. ‘So you’re going to love the Tate,’ he said, grinning.

  Rain’s diary

  30 July

  I keep staring at the Lavender Sandcastles albums and thinking, are you totally nuts, Rain? I keep looking into Quentin’s eyes, trying to see if he has a message for me. Are they like my eyes at all?

  My weird days, my weird summer, my weird life. I’m feeling closer than ever to knowing my mum this summer … but at the same time she’s throwing unbelievable shocks at me. I’m having something that feels quite like a romance … but I know the boy can’t be mine. I think the hardest part of all of this is having to go through it all without my dad. Today I miss him more than ever before, so hard it hurts … but I have to start accepting that he isn’t my dad, and maybe at the end of this, when we’re together again and everything should be fantastic, I’ll have to tell him.

  Harry and I went to the Tate Modern today. We took the bus to St Paul’s, which is all plump and pretty like a cake, and walked across the Millennium Bridge, which is shiny silver and seems really fragile compared to all those big scary Thames bridges that cars go over. It’s very windy, so my rubbish hair flew about and this either made it look worse or better. And there’s a bloke at the other end trying to sell you whistles that make bird sounds who you have to sort of ignore by pretending your mind is on higher, artistic things. Quite honestly I was terrified of going into an art gallery with Harry because I don’t know the first thing about art. I was worried we’d stand there in silence and he’d say something about abstract or cubism, or ask me what century Anthonyo da Vinci was painting in and I wouldn’t know anything, so he’d secretly think I was an idiot and want to run away.

  We went inside and it was the most amazing thing I’ve seen since I got here. A massive hall, giant, bigger than any room, really high, really long, the floor all painted like a chessboard with black and white squares, and tons of little kids running around with silly bowler hats and moptop wigs, screaming with laughter and having a fab time with their parents and each other. I was just standing there with a slack jaw thinking – this is an art gallery? They also had more of my new worst fear … living statues. Harry said, ‘Oh no. Can you try to control yourself with the statue people this time?’

  Then we just messed about. We watched the kids, we wandered around. I even understood the art! I think. I mean, there’s not that much to understand. The name gives you a clue and it’s more about feeling whatever you feel when you look at it. The Warhol pictures were stunning – just these simple photographs, but some of them made me weirdly emotional, like a series of prints of electric chairs. Then as we walked back through the other rooms there was a grand piano hanging from the ceiling which suddenly seemed like it was about to fall on our heads when we walked under it – all the keys fell out and I jumped a mile, and we had to leave the room because we were laughing too much. I wondered if my friends back home would take the piss if they knew what I was doing, because this summer, no one is going to be wandering round art galleries, that’s for sure. They’ll just be having a laugh, drinking cider by the river, going to Blackpool for the day. And I love that stuff.

  Sooner or later, though, I guess you have to do something else.

  My mum went to art galleries with him – the summer she got pregnant with me.

  We went ages without talking about QV and I got nervous, wondering whether Harry was avoiding the subject now or what. It wasn’t till we went to the café and we’d got our drinks and some bread with mezze and dips to share, that Harry quietly drummed his hands on the table and said, ‘Okay, Miss Rain, what’s our plan?’

  ‘What are we supposed to do?’ I said, ‘The Wiki entry didn’t give us anything. I don’t suppose Quentin Vienna was in the phone book?’

  Harry said, ‘No. It’s probably not his real name, it doesn’t sound very real. But I bet Madrigal could help.’ I don’t know what my face looked like, but it must have given away something, because Harry said, ‘Oh, hey, I’m not going to tell her anything. Her dad’s this really rich estate agent now, but he used to be big in the music industry at exactly the right time for Quentin Vienna, so I’m guessing he still has some contacts.’

  ‘If her dad’s so rich,’ I said, ‘why is Madrigal spending her summer doing decorating work?’

  Harry looked like he was about to answer, but he just changed the subject and started talking about the London music scene twenty years ago. I couldn’t think of anything except Madrigal finding out about my life.

  ‘How are you going to not tell her? She’ll want to know why you’re asking – what ARE you asking?’ and Harry smiled in this sort of pretend secretive way and I suddenly got angry. I said, ‘Look, this is serious and it’s horrible. When I’m with you it’s easy to forget what we’re actually doing and it just seems like, nearly like fun, and then as soon as you’re gone I remember and it’s not fun, it’s nothing like fun. And then I want to stop and run away and go back home to my dad, except he’s not there and I don’t know who he’ll be when he gets back. I don’t think I can keep doing this Miss Marple investigates thing.’

  Harry said, ‘Rain, the only way you’re going to stay sane if you do this is to remember every minute of every day that your dad is your dad. And he loves you. And you love him. What we’re doing now is … just like when people trace their family trees – but it is NOT YOU. You haven’t changed. You’re still you.’

  I got all whiny and said, ‘Family trees are about people you never knew. This isn’t like that. Everything has changed! You just don’t understand,’ feeling totally stupid as I was saying it, but I couldn’t stop myself.

  ‘Well, tell me how you’re going to NOT find out.’ he said. ‘Tell me how you’re going to go back home and carry on with your life and not spend every moment wondering what the truth is.’

  I shoved dry bread in my mouth, which was suddenly sore because I wanted to cry. I could hardly swallow. I said, ‘Please stop pushing. I don’t care. I wish I’d never read the diary and I don’t want to know any more.’

  ‘I’m sorry,’ Harry said. ‘I didn’t mean to push you, that’s the last thing you need. I was trying to keep things light, but look, it was a mistake. I KNOW this is really big, life changing. I just thought I could help. I think you’re great.’

  And I, like some total dick, started crying.

  From: [email protected]

  Subject: I miss you too

  Date: 31 July 08.10 a.m.

  To: [email protected]

  Rainy, I don’t know what I did to
deserve such a sweet email – probably being so far away from me for so long has made you forget what an infuriating absent-minded neglectful dad I am. But I miss you very much too. It’s Sunday, which means you and I would normally be making our way through a mountain of papers and a hill of fried bread. The thought of that is making me homesick. You’re the only reason I want the summer to go quickly. It’s strange reading emails from you when we’ve never been apart before and we’ve always just communicated in half-sentences and shorthand while going about our normal days together. I’ve meant to tell you since we started sending emails to each other that you write very well and you’re super-smart, a lot better than me at this kind of thing. I think maybe you’ll never be a scientist, but I’m not worried about you at all. Other parents worry all the time about their kids, and I never have, but not because I don’t love you. I’m very proud of you, Rainy.

  Love Dad

  Chapter 9

  On Monday morning, Rain was up early, nervously waiting for Harry to come and start work. She astonished her granny by bringing her breakfast in bed. Well, a pot of tea and a piece of hot buttered toast. Vivienne looked very pretty first thing in the morning, her wavy silver hair falling over her face, her blue eyes brighter without make-up around them. Rain opened Vivienne’s heavy, faded curtains, letting in the dappled sunlight that filtered through the tall trees that Vivienne and Harry had left alone, and sat on the edge of her gran’s bed, casually looking through the jewellery and perfume bottles on the bedside table.

  ‘How’re things?’ Vivienne said.

  ‘Things’re good,’ Rain said brightly, taking the stopper out of a tiny round bottle made of indigo glass. The perfume inside smelled of violets and dark chocolate. ‘I’ve never even heard of this one,’ Rain said.

  ‘It’s not easy to come by,’ Vivienne said. ‘Your grandfather used to buy it for me. It’s from an odd little French perfumery, and they still make it but they don’t sell it in Britain.’

  ‘My granddad or Philip?’ Rain said, referring to Vivienne’s second husband.

 

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