The gratitude in his voice encircled her like a net. She felt herself drawn in until skepticism pushed back.
Something didn’t fit. The equation was off-balance.
“You’re saying they arrested you. Used brutal force for a confession that you wouldn’t make. And yet, they trusted you enough to let you join their military?”
“I know how it sounds. I swear, it was all the professor’s doing. He convinced an old comrade, an officer in the SS, that the report about me was mistaken. He told him my loyalty remained with the Fatherland. The home of my parents. In the end, they decided that my English skills, and my ability to blend in here, could make me a strong asset for a special assignment.”
“But if you wanted to blend,” she pointed out, “you wouldn’t be wearing a German uniform.”
He regarded his collar and agreed. “I was instructed to wear this only until I made it ashore, so if I were caught I’d be treated as a POW I was then to bury it and change into civilian clothes. But in doing so, I’d be labeled a spy.”
“And that isn’t what you are?”
“I was sent here as a scout.” He said this firmly, desperately, as if trying to convince himself there was a difference. “I’m only to confirm data and contacts before meeting at a rendezvous point.”
Part of her insisted that the less she knew the better. But after years of unanswered questions, she could not rest without the full story.
“Who is it you’re meant to meet there?”
He glanced around in a precautionary manner. Evidently what he was about to reveal was more incriminating than all that preceded it.
“A week from now, or shortly after, eight agents will be delivered by U-boat, just as I was. Half at Long Island, the rest in Florida. They were trained at the German High Command for Operation Pastorius. For two years, they’re to sabotage waterways and canals, magnesium and aluminum plants. Anything to delay war production, but also to demoralize citizens. They’ll target train stations and Niagara Falls. And department stores too–though just the ones owned by Jews.”
Her thoughts stumbled, attempting to keep up. “Why?” she breathed.
“They want German Americans to be blamed. The Führer is convinced Roosevelt will turn on them, just like he did to the Japanese here in the States. Then those with German blood will retaliate, bringing more power to the Reich.”
The magnitude of the mission far surpassed Vivian’s comprehension. The details soaked into her with the power of acid. She strained to salvage a shred of reasoning.
A week, he had said. They still had a week.
“It’s not too late,” she assured him, and herself. “You have plenty of time to let authorities know what’s coming.”
“And I plan to,” he said, yet a stipulation resounded in his tone.
“However ... ?”
He moved a step closer. “First, I have to know my family is out of Germany. They need papers-exit visas, new identities-so they can cross the Swiss border. Which is why,” he added slowly, “I need your help, darling.”
“My help?”
“Through your father. With all of his connections, surely he can arrange this. There are only five of them. I brought a list of their names for you.”
As he delved into his pockets, Vivian mentally grasped his request. What followed was the impossibility of fulfilling it.
“He can’t,” she said. “That is-my father isn’t here.”
Isaak looked up, the folded paper in his hand. “Where, then? At the Capitol? Wherever he is, we could-”
“Isaak,” she said, “he never left London.”
The lines on his brow deepened. “I thought that by now, your father would have come . . .”
She shook her head.
Another ill twist of fate had befallen them. Isaak rubbed at his hair-his buzzed, military cut–as if to stimulate new ideas. “There has to be a way. I can’t turn myself in until they’re safe. I simply can’t.”
The repercussions were woven into his voice, his eyes: As relatives of a traitor, his family would never be granted the luxury of a formal interrogation. One knock at the door and they would vanish into dust.
“I’ll find someone,” she heard herself say.
He gawked at her, a series of wordless questions.
Her mind scraped for the answers. “Who knows, maybe my father can still help. He also has colleagues in DC, men I’ve known through the years.” Whether she could trust anyone in regard to Isaak, she would determine as she went. “I’ll just . . . tell them I’m friends with your family. Nothing about you for now. And that they’re in imminent danger and have to be saved.”
Isaak paused before nodding. Through a layer of dimming hope was the need to believe. All of his faith, the fate of his family, he would place with her.
He spoke softly as he came closer. “I despise dragging you into this. My God, I never should have left your side, darling. Never.”
When he lifted his hand to touch her cheek, it took all of her will to stop him. Innocent lives were at stake, both on the home front and abroad. For now, these would take priority over the sorting of her heart, and her feelings for Isaak Hemel.
PART THREE
Here, where the world is quiet;
Here, where all trouble seems
Dead winds’ and spent waves’ riot
In doubtful dreams of dreams
–from “The Garden of Proserpine”
by Algernon Charles Swinburne
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Early June 2012
Portland, OR
The water feature in the corner, a huge sheet of glass atop smooth white stones, was surely meant to relax clients but only added to Audra’s frustration. She needed to be sharp and clearheaded, and the sounds of a gentle brook were causing her eyelids to droop. Though she was growing accustomed to fractured nights of sleep, the court summons from yesterday had left her tossing and turning until morning. Now, during waking hours, her body wanted to doze.
Go figure.
She kept herself awake by picking at a thread on the black leather couch. With checkered pillows and an amoeba-shaped table, the waiting area looked more like an LA nightclub than a legal firm in Portland.
At the reception desk, a twenty-something gal with large hoop earrings answered the phone with a long string of surnames. She was transferring the call when Russ Graniello appeared in a charcoal-gray suit. He wore his black hair neatly slicked to frame his olive complexion.
“Good morning,” he said to Audra. “Sorry to have kept you waiting.”
“Oh, gosh, not at all. I appreciate you squeezing me in so fast.” She grabbed her purse and stood, expecting a friendly hug. It had become their usual greeting after sharing potlucks and birthdays and more than one off-key duet of “Islands in the Stream.”
Instead, he offered a handshake.
“Come this way.” He guided her down the hall and into his office.
The room was smaller than she had imagined for a nice-sized firm. Aside from a few file folders and a single lawbook, his desk appeared too tidy for an attorney. Not one who rolled up his sleeves, anyway, and dug deep into his cases.
“Please, have a seat,” he said, and lowered himself into his tufted rolling chair. As he flipped through a folder, Audra sat down, now fully alert.
From conferences with the school principal to sessions with Dr. Shaw, these scrutinizing reviews had become regrettably familiar.
Russ began to pen notes on the documents she had faxed over the night before.
On the lateral file cabinet by the window was a framed photo of his family, exuding love and smiles. A stark reminder of what Audra stood to lose. She had dressed in tan slacks and an emerald V-neck, wanting to look nice for this meeting, but wondered if a suit would have been wiser.
“So, it appears,” he said, “that your in-laws’ primary grounds for seeking custody are based on suspicions of abuse.”
She would have presumed his inflection on abuse would commu
nicate even a hint of incredulity. Yet from his tone, he could have substituted a thousand trivial words—stone, bowl, log—and they would have conveyed equal emotion.
“I love my son more than anything. I’d never in a million years try to hurt him.”
“Of course,” Russ said assuredly, but proceeded in work mode. “Now—just so I understand the whole situation—have Robert and Meredith ever addressed their concerns with you?”
“No,” she insisted. “They never said anything about filing a petition. Ever.”
“Sure, that’s not surprising. But what about the issues they’ve outlined? Jack’s injuries, his reclusive nature, and so forth.”
“Well . . . I suppose some of it. They brought up the bruises on his wrists once. But I told Meredith, those were from Jack’s struggle on the airplane.” Audra wasn’t sure how much Russ knew about the flight. “You see, he panicked a bit during takeoff ... but I thought he’d enjoy flying, because he’s always loved planes—”
Russ gently interjected, “It’s okay. You don’t have to explain. I’m aware of the incident.”
Audra sat back and nodded.
“What about your son’s birthday barbecue? Did they ever ask you about the bruises they noticed at that point?”
Audra recalled the distinct change in mood, after she’d returned from her car with Jack’s gifts. She had assumed Devon’s absence was the cause, unaware—until the petition—that Jack’s sleeves had slid up just enough to expose his marks.
“Meredith did say something while we were doing the dishes. She made a comment about it looking like Jack was still having nightmares. But that’s it.” Once more, Audra wasn’t clear how informed Russ was on the topic. “Tess might have told you, but Jack suffers from night terrors. They can be extremely violent. That’s the reason his room was in shambles when Meredith saw it.” Contrary to the woman’s allegation. “Sometimes I even have to hold him down to keep him from hurting himself.”
“Like the fracture to his arm?”
“Yes. Like his arm.”
This seemed sufficient enough to move on from the cast issue. But then Russ asked, “Do you know why your in-laws think alcohol was involved?”
Alcohol. The merlot she had spilled before taking Jack to the ER.
“I’d fallen asleep on the couch, holding a glass of wine. I was still wearing the stained shirt the next morning when they saw me. I hadn’t even taken a sip of it.”
“So, you didn’t pass out from inebriation.”
“God, no,” she said. “I don’t drink.”
Of course, if taken literally, the statement would be viewed as false; over the years, Russ himself had seen her enjoy margaritas and martinis firsthand. “What I meant was, I don’t have a drinking problem.”
Fabulous. Now she sounded like an alcoholic in denial. She tried again.
“Jack and I had been in the ER through most of the night. Otherwise, I would’ve been showered and dressed long before Meredith and Robert showed up.”
Russ nodded while writing down more. “This was on Memorial Day weekend, correct?”
At last, a simple objective question. “Yes.”
He proceeded to locate the pertinent section. “It says here you tried to cancel their preplanned outing with Jack, just before they discovered he’d wet the bed. Is any of that right?”
In her short time with the petition, she had already memorized each claim. As indications of abuse, Robert and Meredith had cited age-inappropriate urination, his sudden interest in violence, and the physical outburst at school. Supposedly, at the Rose Festival, his running away from Audra was another telling sign. Either that or a direct result of her dictatorship. Not only had she banned her son from “normal and healthy” children’s activities, she’d robbed him of any positive spiritual influence and made a concerted effort to erase Devon from his memory.
Was it any wonder that reading this heinous list had caused Audra to drive straight to their house to confront them in person?
Unlike then, however, she would now control her tone. “Jack just drank too much juice in the ER. Before then, he hadn’t had an accident since he was little. As far as me almost canceling on them, I was worried Jack would be too tired after such a long night. I was actually trying to be a good mother.”
She wanted Russ to chime in, to contend that any judge would agree she was exactly that. But he merely nodded while taking more notes.
“I also see here,” he said, “that your in-laws feel you’ve been attempting to distance them from Jack. Not just with phone calls and visits, but also moving cross-country.”
The accusation was almost as appalling as the other ones!
“Our move has nothing to do with them.” Her brusqueness raised Russ’s head. She returned to calm reasoning. “Since Devon’s death, Jack and I have been through a lot. We just need to start a new life somewhere else—for us.”
No question, she had made mistakes. But when it came to this case, there was only one crime to which Audra would admit her guilt: confiding too much in a couple she believed she could trust.
“I’d like to add, the only reason I ever told Meredith so much is because I was trying to keep her in, not out, of Jack’s life. I actually wanted her advice about his nightmares and his interest in ... military ... things.”
Russ suddenly turned to the next page. “I assume you’re referring to the reincarnation issue? Your theory that in another life Jack died in a World War Two accident.”
“Yes—no. It wasn’t my theory. It was just a theory.”
She cringed as the words tumbled out. Were these seriously the best arguments she could formulate? Keep this up and a custody battle would lead to a commitment hearing.
“Please, Russ, believe me. I am not delusional.”
He responded with an unreadable smile. After all, crazy people never accepted they were crazy. A second case of denial.
Audra unclenched her hands and folded them in her lap, an attempt to resemble the rational client who would accompany him into court.
If he took the case.
After a quiet beat, Russ set down his pen and steepled his fingers. His voice reclaimed a touch of the warmth she recognized. “Rest assured, Audra—regardless of these claims—taking a child away from his or her biological mother is exceptionally difficult in Oregon. You don’t have to be a good mother to keep your son, just not a blatantly abusive one. Frankly, a crack whore can maintain custody, so long as she doesn’t shoot up in front of her kids at the breakfast table.”
The example, lumping her in with an addicted prostitute, didn’t exactly boost Audra’s confidence.
“What’s more,” he added, “grandparents in particular are hardly ever awarded custody.”
“You’re saying it does happen though.” An important point to clarify.
“On occasion,” he admitted, “yes. But it’s remarkably rare.”
Rare. The adjective grated her nerves raw. She had grown well acquainted with the word even before losing Devon. She’d often used it herself when informing clients of the unlikelihood that the worst would befall their pet—only to later diagnose a fatal infection, second tumor, or failing organ that couldn’t be saved.
Rare, for Audra, couldn’t hold a thimble of water.
“So, how long do cases like this usually take?” she asked, turning to the pragmatic.
“That depends. A few months after the initial filing, the courts frequently start with what they call a ‘housekeeping’ hearing.”
“And what is that?”
“That’s where the judge tries to get a gist of how long the evidentiary hearing will last. It’s also a chance to sway both parties toward a settlement. This is assuming the petitioners are serious enough to pursue the case even that far.”
That much, if nothing else, was abundantly clear. “What happens in the meantime?”
“There could be depositions scheduled. And your in-laws will probably request an evaluation of you and Jack. This would
be on their own dime unless you wanted the court to appoint a psychologist, which I’d personally recommend; it could mean you’d have to split the costs, but I wouldn’t be surprised if the judge made the petitioners fully responsible.”
Evaluations. Depositions. The details swam in Audra’s head and delivered her back to her earlier question. “About how long could all of this take?”
“The standard,” he said, “is twelve months.”
She gaped, hoping she had misheard. “A whole year?” “That said, given your circumstances, I would say nine months isn’t at all out of the question.” He stated this as though he’d delivered a platter full of relief, rather than a bin of burning dollars.
Assuming he was right about her chances of maintaining custody, that still meant a large depletion of her savings. Those funds were for her and Jack to start fresh in—
Oh, no. Boston. It hadn’t dawned on her before.
“I’ve accepted a new job on the East Coast. We’re supposed to move before August.”
“I’d heard that was the plan,” he said, “and it might work out just fine. But if the case does move forward, I’m afraid you won’t be permitted to relocate until it’s over.”
Just like that, the gate leading to Audra and Jack’s future had been slammed shut. She squeezed her eyes and rubbed her temples, wishing away the entrapment.
“You know, Audra,” Russ said with a sigh, “although you might not be up for this at the moment, there is another option you should consider.”
With barely the energy, she lowered her hand and inclined her head.
“You could talk to your in-laws. Come to an understanding without a judge involved. Oftentimes, open and direct communication can make legal action unnecessary. Perhaps, on some issues, you could even reach a suitable compromise.”
The solution sounded so easy. A key to the gate, dangling within reach. She could picture herself grasping it.
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