by Unknown
I squeeze my eyes shut, fighting for control. What if this is real? What if, for some unfathomable reason, Ekeeta truly means me no harm? Then all of this has been for nothing. Niklaas’s mind and will and last chance at a human life have been stolen away for nothing. Nothing!
“You must listen,” Ekeeta says. “There isn’t much time. We will be missed if we stay away too long. We regret these things, but we cannot make reparations now. It is more important that we prevent the worst of our brother’s plans from coming to pass.”
I open my eyes. “You mean the prophecy?”
“The prophecy is not a true prophecy,” she says, rising to her feet. “He has lied before, but we didn’t want to believe … But now there is no doubt that this divination did not come from our goddess. We know not what Illestros hopes to accomplish with the rise of darkness, but it is not to open the gates to paradise.”
I cross my arms at my chest. “Of course it isn’t,” I say, not bothering to hide my disdain. “He wants the Fey dead and humans so weak they can’t fight back. He wants to rule Mataquin and is willing to drive our world to the brink of death to do it.”
Ekeeta flinches. “We wish we had seen things so clearly. Our only comfort now is that it isn’t too late to set things right.”
“Set things right,” I echo, acid in my tone. How can she expect me to believe she wants to set things right? She, who assassinated my father, drove my mother to take her own life, and who has made Norvere a place of fear and desperation ever since. “Why this sudden change? After all this time?”
A beatific smile lights Ekeeta’s face. “We were in the garden late last night, with our creatures. We were lost and afraid and we begged for wisdom, no matter what the cost, and then … we felt the goddess moving within us. Her presence guided us to the truth, to peace so wide there is no way for doubt to swim across it.”
“You’ve found peace.” I don’t know whether to scream or cry. In the end I laugh, a strained sound that makes Nippa eye me strangely. “How lovely for you.”
“We know we are the last soul in the world who deserves salvation,” Ekeeta whispers, bowing her head. “But that is the glory of the goddess. Even the most wretched can be made pure if they trust in her guidance.”
“And what does the goddess guide you to do?” I ask, glaring at her with undisguised hatred. I hate her still. I might even hate her more.
How dare she? How dare she come to her enlightenment now, when my mother is dead, my brother scarred, my dear friend and first love both robbed of their senses, and myself cursed to a lifetime of regret? How dare she talk to me of peace, when I know it will forever be beyond my reach?
“The goddess does not wish for death or pain or for one people to destroy another,” she says. “Human, ogre, Fey—we are all one in her eyes, and paradise will come to each of us, in its time, in its own way. The only genuinely holy quest is to nurture peace in our own hearts, and do our best to love each other.”
She lifts her arms, as if offering an embrace. I instinctively cringe away. Her words about love and unity are all well and good, if she means them, but they are still coming from the mouth of a monster.
Which reminds me …
“Your new peace will make mealtime difficult,” I sneer, enjoying the way her skin pales at mention of her voracious appetite.
She presses her lips together and breathes sharply through her nose. “We shall no longer feed upon the souls of man, and will ensure our brothers and sisters make the same promise.” Nippa comes to stand at her elbow in a silent show of solidarity. “Ogres can be sustained by simpler foods. We may perish sooner, but better a hundred years of life lived in love than a thousand in fear and greed.”
I shake my head numbly. She means it. I can tell. She’s going to stop killing, and she’s convinced at least one other ogre to do the same. So …
“Then you’ll let us go?” I ask, finally daring to hope our escape may be far simpler than I’ve dreamed. “My brother and … and me?” I almost let Niklaas’s name slip but stop myself. I can’t let her know Niklaas is my ally. If I do, and this turns out to be an elaborate trick, I will have ruined our last chance at escape.
“We can’t let you go, our brother would never allow it,” Ekeeta says, “But we can help you escape. We will send Nippa to you as soon as darkness falls. We will fetch Prince Jor and meet you at the docks. You will have our fastest ship and two of our trusted guards to sail it. Thank the goddess, it was our personal guard who found you in the fountain this morning. They will keep our secrets and aid you well.”
“We won’t need the guards.” The fewer ogres involved, the better. I’m sure Ekeeta’s brother isn’t the only ogre who will loathe the idea of giving up living for centuries and ruling the world. “Jor and I can sail a small ship together.”
Ekeeta long fingers tangle in front of her. “Hopefully he will be able to sail. We sent healers, but some of his wounds … We’re afraid some of them are deep.”
I clench my jaw. “I can manage on my own. He’s alive. That’s all that matters.”
It isn’t all that matters, and she can be damned sure I’ll have my vengeance if she’s broken my little brother, but for now his life is enough. I can wait to plot my revenge—and devise a plan to reclaim my kingdom—until Jor, Niklaas, and I are safe on Malai.
“But I want Niklaas of Kanvasola on board when we set sail,” I say, realizing how I might save Niklaas without giving our connection away. “He betrayed me and doesn’t deserve his freedom. Tie him up and leave him below deck. The Fey and I will dispense the punishment we see fit.”
“The prince will be punished soon enough,” Ekeeta says. “His eighteenth birthday draws near and there is nothing we can do to lift the burden of his curse.”
“Then I will have to dispense justice quickly.” I meet her tearful glance with a cruel one, imagining it is she who will be my prisoner. “Have him stowed beneath the deck of the ship. No one betrays me without paying for it.”
Ekeeta nods. “It saddens us to see cruelty in another when we are so recently free of it, but … we owe you that much.”
“You owe me everything,” I spit, so angry I begin to shiver with it. “My throne, my family, my heart. You owe me more than you can ever repay. And if I’m cruel it is because of you.”
Ekeeta watches me, eyes shining with a mix of tenderness and sorrow that makes me wish I could strike her, if only to slap that stupid expression from her face.
Her lips part, but she wisely decides against speaking to me again and turns to Nippa. “Stay with her. If I’m needed, send Herro. I’ll come straightaway.”
Nippa curtsies, bowing her head so far to her chest she develops an extra chin. “Yes, my queen. Blessed be, my lady.”
“Blessed be, my friend.” Ekeeta touches a light hand to Nippa’s shoulder and leaves without a backward glance.
I’m glad. I don’t want to look at her a second longer. I hate her so much I can taste it, like cork-fouled wine filling my mouth, destroying my ability to recognize any flavor but its bitterness. I stomp around the bed, tearing off my gown as I go, not caring if Nippa sees me naked. She’s already bathed me. It’s not as if we can be on more intimate terms.
“Is it not more extraordinary for one so lost to be found than it is for one who never strayed in the first place?” Nippa asks, plucking my gown from the floor and folding it as I pull on the boy’s pants—which fit as perfectly as I suspected they would—and reach for the black shirt.
“Yes,” I say in a falsely pleasant voice, working my buttons with trembling hands. “She should be given a medal for finally realizing it’s wrong to go about killing people as if they are grouse.”
Nippa frowns. “I know your heart is kinder than that. Even half of your mother in you is enough to make you three times the person your father ever was.”
I pause in pulling on my new st
ockings. “You knew them?”
“I knew your father when he was a young man, and, after your mother moved to the city, I would attend her when she was ill.” Nippa sets the gown on the bed and begins spreading up the covers. “I came here as a junior nurse when the queen was married to King Radord. She lost so many babes during those years.” Nippa tuts beneath her breath. “Little ones born of a human and ogre union rarely survive, and when they do it is often only for a few days. Ekeeta would hold the babes, rocking them until the light went out of their eyes. It made her … frail, easy prey for Illestros and his allies. Her brother convinced her the only way to end her torment was to allow him to poison King Roland.”
“He killed my grandfather and my father?” I ask, not wanting to think about Ekeeta rocking her dying babies. She has destroyed too many lives for me to have pity for her suffering. “Is he the one who ordered the executions of Mother and the others loyal to my father, as well?”
Nippa nods. “And ogres, too.” She opens the armoire across from the bed and pulls out a sliding shelf, revealing a brush and comb set and a bowl full of ribbons.
“My sister died for refusing to swear allegiance to the new rule,” Nippa continues, handing me the brush and a blue ribbon and watching as I pull my hair into a swift braid. “She made me swear to go along with the takeover and … everything else. She believed one day our queen would see that Illestros had led her astray and need allies. Those who’ve been in hiding are glad that day has finally come.”
“After ten years.” I shove my feet into the black boots.
“Better than twenty.” Nippa says, clearly a pragmatist. “Better now than after our world has been plunged into darkness. I believe your mother would have agreed. She wasn’t the sort to hold on to anger.”
“I’m not so sure about that,” I mumble as I tie up my laces. If Mother hadn’t held onto her anger at Father, then she wouldn’t have wished for me to possess a heart no man would dare defy and Niklaas and Thyne’s minds would still be their own.
“I am. She had such a kind soul. She was the only person who could bring out your father’s gentle side. I only ever saw him smile in her presence.”
“Will you tell me about them? My father, especially?” I ask. “I remember my Mother, but I—”
I stop, head swiveling as a terrible howl breaks the silence outside. I hurry to the window, with Nippa close behind, coming onto my tiptoes to see down into the garden.
What I see makes gorge rise in my throat.
“Goddess,” Nippa murmurs, hand flying to cover her mouth.
Three floors below, on the east side of the royal garden, ogre soldiers are busy in the animal pens. A company swarms into the neatly ordered holdings, slitting throats and shattering cages, claiming a life with every slash of their blades. A few birds manage to escape their enclosures and take to the air, but dozens of vultures, crows, and other birds I can’t name are not so lucky. Feathers fly and wings go limp as the animals fall and are trodden into the dust by black boots.
In the dog and wolf pens, teeth flash and claws scratch, but it is steel that sends blood spraying onto the grass, onto the stone walls, onto the uniforms of the ogres who have set about killing the queen’s pets with a single-minded rage.
What could these animals have possibly done to deserve such a fate?
It isn’t the animals; it is their mistress this is meant to harm.
“We have to go. Now.” I grab the sleeve of Nippa’s brown dress and pull her from the window. “Where is my staff?”
“The guards took it,” Nippa says, clasping her hands together, terror and misery mixing on her face. “Why are they doing this? What’s happening?”
I ignore her and turn, scanning the room for anything I might use as a makeshift staff, but there is nothing. I snatch up the paring knife, deciding it will do until I can steal something better.
“Our plan has been discovered. Take me to my brother,” I say, motioning for her to follow as I dash to the door. “If we hurry we can—”
My words end in a growl of frustration as ogre soldiers appear in the doorway, swords drawn. I rush at them, knife slashing in swift diagonals, puncturing chain mail and nicking ogre flesh, but it’s only a matter of seconds before I’m disarmed and my arms wrenched behind my back. There are too many of them and I am still weak. Too weak even to resist as they haul me from the room.
I hear Nippa cry out behind me, but I know a plea for mercy from me will only make things worse for her.
I am the enemy, and it seems I’ll have my chance to suffer for it, after all.
Chapter Twenty-Five
Aurora
The golden hall leading to the throne room is even more magnificent than I remember. Floor-to-ceiling windows as tall as Gettel’s cottage line the walls, granting an unparalleled view of the city on one side and the castle grounds rolling down to the sea on the other. In sharp contrast to my dreams of a crumbling Mercar, the city is in excellent condition—every whitewashed building standing tall and strong, every shutter straight, every street so clean it’s hard to imagine horses ever travel them.
There are no horses now. No people, either. It’s as if the citizens have sensed the darkness building inside the castle and have shut themselves up against it, though the evening is warm and the setting sun makes the city glow a glorious pink, like roses dipped in honey.
It is beautiful, so beautiful it makes me ache all over. The light, the sea, the elegant lines of the castle my ancestors commissioned after the last fairy war—they paint a picture that fills me with such bittersweet longing I’m tempted to close my eyes against it, but I don’t. I focus, sealing this last glimpse of Mercar away in my heart.
Janin was only a girl when the last fairy war ended, but she remembers the celebration to christen the new castle, the way humans and fairies celebrated with dancing in the streets and midnight swims and feasting that went on and on until people collapsed on the grass to sleep off the effects of too much meat and wine.
I imagine the streets filled with laughing people. I imagine pleasure ships floating in a peaceful sea, waiting to take the adventurous out for a swim with the giant turtles. I imagine so hard that, for a moment, I swear I hear music—fairy pipes and fiddles calling all to dance—but then we arrive at the throne room and my paper-thin imaginings are burned away by the reality of a bonfire lit before an ogre altar and a scaffold of pale wood against the wall behind.
Niklaas and Jor stand atop the scaffold, their hands tied and nooses looped around their necks, already trussed and ready to die.
“No!” I scream, tears springing into my eyes.
Niklaas calls out my name as I’m dragged across the room, but Jor doesn’t waste his words.
“Don’t do what they ask, Ror!” he shouts, turning his face as the soldier next to him grabs the back of his neck. “Let me die, it’s all right. I love you, I—” His words end in a pained cry as the soldier forces a rag into his mouth.
My brother is as thin as I’ve ever seen him, with bruises on his face and a filthy, patchy beard that makes Niklaas’s look perfect in comparison, but he isn’t broken. He is as strong and good as ever, and willing to die for what is right.
But by the stars, how can I let him? How can I watch him hanged? How can I let my brother, my best friend since the day he was born, the boy whose baby tears I wiped away, who has trusted me with his hopes and dreams and fears and whose hand has always fit so perfectly in mine, die, if there is anything I can do to spare him?
And Niklaas … Niklaas …
Gods, goddess, any good force that might be listening, give me the strength to do what’s right, to save them if I can and to make their deaths noble if I cannot.
But how can I? How? I would rather die myself. I would rather suffer torture for a hundred years than see either one of them lost.
By the time I’m shoved into a chai
r in front of the flames, separated from the scaffold by the fire, altar, and a number of armed guards, I’m crying so hard I can barely see. The world blurs, turning the priest’s robe to a smudge of white.
“You may still save the ones you love, child,” the priest says, his voice so deep it vibrates my bones. “If you do as I bid you.”
I sniff hard, focusing on the dagger in his hand, following his arm up to his shoulders, and on to his eyes. It is Illestros, Ekeeta’s brother, the priest who terrified me as a child, and the puppeteer behind the ogre queen’s cruel reign.
His gaze is even more predatory than I remember.
“What do you want me to do?” I glare at his oiled head, wishing I could strip the skin from his bones, piece by piece.
“It is not what I want, but what the goddess demands,” he says with a cruel smile.
I shiver. Illestros is no servant of the goddess. He isn’t even deluded like the fanatics who burn people they suspect of being witches; he is simply evil and greedy and willing to do whatever it takes to convince those who follow him to commit the necessary atrocities. The goddess is nothing more than a tool, an instrument of manipulation he twists in the hearts of his people.
“Release her.” Illestros nods to the ogres pinning my arms behind me.
I wrench free, rubbing at my shoulders but making no move to rise from my chair. There are at least a hundred men in the room: five priests, the rest soldiers. I am fairy-blessed, but even on my best day I wouldn’t stand a chance against these odds, and today is far from my best day. Walking to the throne room was enough to have my heart beating faster. I am a shadow of myself, weaker even than the animals slain in the garden.
You will not need strength, and if you need it, it will be too late. Gettel’s warning echoes in my mind, giving me some small hope that my weakness won’t matter.
