by Raye Wagner
“Am I going to stay with you?” Hope looked down at her aunt.
Priska wiped at her face and took a deep breath. “You can stay with me as long as you want.”
She opened the door to her gray sedan, and Hope collapsed in the passenger seat. The drive to Mercer Island was silent. Did Priska feel the same way? As if the world had tilted and someone just needed to right it. Hope kept hearing the counselor say she passed. Passed. Passed where? Passed what? What did that mean?
She walked into Priska’s house in a daze, clinging to the warm hand guiding her. Hope spent hours sitting at a window, staring at the sky as it changed from gray to black and back to gray again. The gray lasted so long, so much longer than the black.
Hope sat on an armless chair, staring out the window at the gray drizzle. “Was it Skia?” Her voice cracked as if she were breaking it in. When her words met with silence, she turned to fix her gaze on Priska. “Did Skia get her?”
Her aunt’s head dropped. “I’m so, so sorry. I failed her. I failed you.”
Hope’s heart skidded and tripped at an erratic pace. “What does that mean?”
“I don’t know what happened.” Priska’s eyes were puffy and swollen. “She called me . . . just before . . . She saw Skia when she was out. Said she had something important she needed to tell me. Asked me to come over as fast as I could.”
Skia. They should’ve moved. Hope should’ve said something sooner. If they’d only moved. Maybe her mom was calling Priska to help her pack . . . Except they almost never packed. That’s why all the furniture was cheap. Disposable. No, it wasn’t making sense. “And? What happened?”
“I went, but . . . it was too late. I was too late.” Her voice cracked.
Too late? A wave of pain crashed in Hope’s chest and rolled lower. It was Skia. Oh, gods. The pain receded and an ache followed. Seconds later, the pain was back, and bitterness burned the back of her throat. Hope raced from the room.
She retched into the toilet, the yellow bile making the water bright. Tears left salty streaks on her skin. She pulled tissue from the roll and blew her nose. Her mother’s death was her fault. If Hope had said something sooner, they would’ve left. And they would be safe. Together.
“I’m so sorry,” Priska said, and the words fell all over the floor in a mess too big to step around.
A gaping chasm opened between the two of them.
But Hope had told Priska about Leto and Paul. Priska had said she would talk to Leto, and they would move. It was Priska’s fault.
“I thought you were supposed to help keep us safe.” The words were an accusation, and they found their mark. “I thought Hecate was supposed to keep us safe.”
Priska stood in the open doorway, but Hope refused to look at her.
“I know. I know. Hades in hell, I know! Don’t you think I know? I told her! I told her it was time to move. Told her that whatever she thought she had with that man was nothing. I told her!” Priska was sobbing, her small hands covering her face. “I don’t know what happened . . .”
Hope sat dumbfounded while the older woman wept.
Priska sagged to the floor. “I don’t know what to do anymore. Do you know what it’s like to be an epic failure?”
Hope didn’t know what to say. She’d never seen her aunt like this. Hope grasped, but words were elusive wisps floating away. Her aunt didn’t lose it. Not like this.
“Do you know what it’s like to watch time and again as your loved ones die? Over and over and over again? And you can do nothing, absolutely nothing about it? It would be easier to cut out my own heart, and I am so, so, so sick of it.” Priska’s sobs started again.
Hope’s eyes got bigger and bigger until they felt like they were going to pop out of her skull. What was Priska saying? The words made no sense.
A haze of silence descended, filling the space with a throbbing ache. Hope could say nothing to comfort her aunt, and nothing Priska said made her feel better. So, she waited, not knowing what to do, not wanting to do anything. Eventually, her gaze went to the frosted window above the tub, and she watched as the light faded.
“Zeus Almighty.”
Hope looked away from the window to Priska standing over her.
“I think we better go to bed.” Priska made no movement to help Hope but stepped away, giving ample space to get up.
Hope pulled herself up, feeling pins and needles in her legs from sitting too long on the tile floor.
“Second door on the left, you remember?” Priska walked down the hall without looking back.
Hope remembered the room. It had allegedly been her mother’s for a few months before she’d married her father, and then again after he left.
Hope couldn’t sleep in there, in a room filled with loss and pain. No. She wouldn’t sleep there. Not tonight.
Not ever.
“Hope.” Priska sat on the edge of the overstuffed sofa and tapped her back.
Hope sat up, blankets falling from her shoulders, the Book of the Fates thumping to the floor. She’d fallen asleep clinging to the immortal book, one of the few things that had escaped the effects of the fire. The room was dark, but light seeped in from the cracks in the shutters. The smell of peach tea wafted from the mug her aunt was holding.
Hope’s restless sleep left her disoriented and confused, but there was something wrong—she just couldn’t remember what.
It hit like an anvil to her chest. Two days. It had been two days. In six more days, she would shift and become the Sphinx. For the first time in her life, she would change alone.
Priska pulled Hope into a hug, arms lingering for only a few seconds. “We need to talk about what happened.”
She tried to swallow the mass of sorrow lodged in her throat. She wanted to curl into a ball and cry until her feelings fled, until she had no emotion left. This weight was too much.
“I’m going to change without her,” she whispered.
Priska’s hand was on Hope’s knee, and then it was gone. “I think you should stay in the apartment this time, when you change. Just . . . stay. I don’t think you should go anywhere right now.”
“I don’t think I can do this.”
Priska’s teeth were clenched, her lips pursed. “You’ve done it a thousand times.”
She hadn’t done it a thousand times, but Priska was right.
“There’s something else, Hope. When I was there, at the apartment, I’m pretty sure I saw a demigod.”
“A demigod? I thought you said mom saw Skia? That Skia were hunting us.” She thought about how her mom had burned. “And what about the fire?”
Priska pushed against Hope’s legs, scooting back further onto the couch. “When I got to the apartment, after your mom called me, I noticed a young man walking away from the building. He looked familiar, but I’m pretty sure . . .” She ran her hand through her dark hair. “He’s a demigod.”
“A demigod?” Demigods with their immortal weapons. The other reason they ran. Demigods hunted monsters for sport. “Is that what happened?”
“I don’t know.” Priska’s lips pulled into a tight line. “There were Skia close by. She’d seen one a week earlier, when she was grocery shopping.”
Hope stared at her aunt, momentarily dumbfounded. It was like they were all closing in on them. Had Leto said something to Paul? That would explain his fear, his panic.
“But none of it makes sense. Demigods don’t start fires. That’s more of a Skia ploy. And the only god who would care is . . .” She didn’t say his name, but they both knew. “And then only if the curse were complete.”
“What does that even mean?” The words circled around her head, creating a cyclone of chaos. So many questions. “And why doesn’t the Book of the Fates say what happened?” She’d spent hours last night staring at the blank pages that should tell her mom’s story. “Why is her story not written?”
Priska shook her head. “I don’t know. I don’t know how soon after death the Fates write the story. I don’t
know.” She sighed. “I think we’d better move. It isn’t safe here.”
“I need to know what happened,” Hope said. “I need to know who killed my mom.”
She could stay with Priska and help. They could solve this together, and then Hope could take her revenge.
“Hope.” Priska interrupted her musing. “It was probably Skia. The most important thing is still to keep you safe.”
“But I want to know. I need to know.”
Priska sighed and held out her hands as if she were weighing them against each other. “If you want me to find out what happened to your mom, you being with me will not be safe.”
“What are you saying?”
Priska put her hand on Hope’s shoulder. “You need to stay hidden. If we stay together or not, you’ll need to be holed up in some small town where you can become invisible. The last few months were pure foolishness. You should’ve never stayed there that long.”
Hope couldn’t argue that, and the familiar guilt gnawed on her soul. More than anything she understood, someone had found them. Someone who knew what they were. Someone who knew how to kill them.
Priska sighed. “If you want me to hunt down your mom’s killer, you’ll need to be by yourself for a while.”
Alone? Hope had never been completely alone. How was she going to do that? The idea of school, on top of trying to keep up a house felt overwhelming. There was no way she could do it. Fear clawed at her stomach and up into her chest. Grasping for something, someone she could stay with she said, “What about Paul and Sarra?”
Even as she said the words, Paul’s voice echoed in her mind. He’d called her a monster. She shook her head. “He knows something.”
Priska froze, her features hardening with laser focus. “What do you mean?”
“He came just before you did . . . at the apartment. Got Sarra away from me and drove away like demons were chasing him.” Something inside Hope didn’t want to believe he’d called her a monster, and she refused to admit it.
Priska sank into the cushions of the couch with a sigh. “I don’t know what happened there. I guess I can look into that, too.”
Hope scrunched her brow with worry. She just wanted to have some connection to someone. “Maybe . . . maybe I could say goodbye to Sarra?”
“Call her,” Priska relented with a frown. “But make it fast.”
Hope stood and retrieved her phone. With trembling fingers, she dialed the number of the only friend she’d ever had. Sarra picked up on the second ring.
Her voice felt like the last chance for something that had eluded Hope her entire life. The normalcy she craved, the desire for friendships, a symbol of acceptance and love. She wanted some balm to soothe the gaping wound in her heart.
“Sarra? It’s Hope.” Tears spilled from her eyes.
The kindness that had defined Sarra, that had made her the ideal friend, disappeared in an instant. Replacing the soft voice of her friend was a razor’s edge. “Why are you calling me?”
It was a punch to Hope’s raw emotions. “I . . . I thought . . . I thought we were friends.”
“You’re a monster. A freak.” There was a pause before she continued, “You lied to me. Don’t call me, Hope. We aren’t friends.” Click.
Hope stood motionless, staring at her phone.
Priska came over and took the small device from her trembling hands.
“There was a reason your mom kept you from the world for so long. Having friends can be wonderful. But humans fear what is different.”
Hope could only nod while she swallowed back her hurt, shoving the pain into the dark recesses of her heart. If isolation was so safe, why didn’t they just move into the mountains and live in a cabin? Just as fast as the thought came, Hope dismissed it. There was no way she could survive in a cabin in the woods. It was time to grow up. “Where am I going to go?”
Priska pursed her lips and was silent for a moment before answering. “I think you need to find a quiet little town to hide in. Get into a routine, keep your head down. You’ll need to be emancipated, and until that happens . . .” She took a deep breath before continuing. “You’ll need to go into the foster care system.”
Priska outlined her side of the plan. While Hope hid in Eastern Washington, Priska would go to Turkey, where the original temple of Artemis stood. There, she could petition her mother for divine aid. Both of them knew the mortal police wouldn’t find anything.
“But we don’t need to do this. I can move with you and help keep you hidden until you’re old enough to be on your own.”
Hope pushed back the frustration caused by her aunt’s words. Her decision was made. She needed answers. “No. I’m almost seventeen. I can handle being alone if it means finding out what happened.”
Priska nodded. “You understand—”
“I get it, Priska.” Hope could hardly breathe. “How soon can we start?”
“The day you shift back to human. I can take you into Children’s Services first thing Tuesday.”
Hope felt the last sliver of light in her life extinguish, and she bowed her head. “Let’s file the paperwork, or whatever we need to get done. I want answers.”
The warmth in the lobby was a stark contrast to the chill in the air outside. Hope stood alone in Mr. Davenport’s carefully decorated lobby, her canvas sneakers almost buried in the plush carpet. A fireplace insert gave off little warmth, but the flames danced behind the glass, giving the room a cozy feeling. A loveseat and several chairs were settled at angles encouraging conversation. A marble-topped bar held pastries and muffins, as well as a carafe of coffee and another of orange juice.
Hope stared at red circles and brown squares while Priska and Mr. Davenport argued in his office. Glowering at the abstract art, Hope pretended she couldn’t hear them, but every word leaked down the hall.
“But why does it have to be you? Isn’t there someone else that can . . . hunt the information down?”
“Charlie.” Priska paused. “You already know there is no one else.”
“What will you do?” The tremor in his voice was so uncharacteristic of the stalwart attorney.
“I will call the agency today and see if we can find someone suitable to start next week.” She ignored his question. “I just need to know if you want me to find a temp, or should I find someone permanent?”
“Themis and Eunomia,” he cursed, referencing the goddesses of law. “How long will you be gone?”
“A month, maybe two or three, depending on what I find out in Ephesus.” Another pause. “You’ll be fine. Now, do you want a temp?”
A long exhale. “Yes. If you hire someone permanent, I’ll just have to let them go when you get back. You are coming back, right?”
“Of course I am.” Her laugh sounded forced.
Gods, this was so lame. While Priska hunted down Mom’s killer, Hope would be hiding. Like a coward.
“So, will you get that filed today?” Priska asked.
“Are you sure? If you’re not here and I file for emancipation, she’ll have to go to foster care until it’s done.”
“We already talked about it. She knows.”
“Why not wait, Priska? Why the rush?”
“Eventually, the news of the Sphinx will spread, then I won’t be able to get anything without drawing suspicion my way.”
Wait. He knew? Priska had told him . . . how much? Hope inched closer to the hall.
“Fine. I’ll file today, but it will be close to a month before we can get a hearing. And we have to show that her father is really out of the picture.”
“That won’t be hard. He left before she was even born.”
“She really doesn’t have anyone?”
The pity in his voice made Hope’s eyes fill, and she blinked away the tears.
“I hope you know what you’re doing, Priska.”
Hope heard the door handle turn, and she jumped back in front of the geometric canvases.
“All ready to go, Hope?” Priska raised he
r eyebrows.
Hope nodded.
“I’ll be in touch, young lady. We’ll need to go to court for the hearing. If your petition is granted, and I suspect it will be, you’ll be free in the next month.” He held out his hand, then wrapped hers in both of his. “Keep your chin up. It’ll be okay.”
How could he say that? He didn’t know.
He had no idea.
Hope gripped her jacket, pulling the thin material tight. It was the end of February, but in Western Washington it didn’t matter the month. The cold rain started in September and continued through the end of June. But it wasn’t the temperature, or the rain, that bothered her. The wind in North Bend was fierce, and as she hugged her clothes to her body, she wished for her winter coat.
She should’ve driven to school. She usually did, but she walked out the door of the Smiths’ home that morning without her keys, and the constant yelling deterred her from going back in to get them. So she trudged her way back to the house in the cold, wet afternoon, dreading the noise and commotion that would assail her when she entered the door.
Out of habit, she stopped at the mailbox as she did every day since her hearing. They had appeared in court less than a week ago. Less than a week ago, a judge had declared her emancipated, and she was just waiting for the proof in writing. How long could it take to mail a piece of paper? Hope thought it would be a quick process. She’d been wrong.
And while Priska called every night, her time at the temple of Artemis had yet to expose who was behind Leto’s death.
Hope pulled the tab down, put her hand into the metal box, and grabbed the stack of mail. After adjusting the strap of her backpack, she thumbed through the envelopes.
There! The crisp white paper had her name, Hope N. Treadwell, typed in the middle, the return address King County District Court. Hope wiped her thumb over her mother’s maiden name. Priska had recommended using it. Just as a precaution. Unconsciously, Hope dropped the rest of the mail and tore open her envelope. She was so happy she could sing. There it was in black and white, no longer a ward of the state: she was free.
This would be better. Life would be better. At the very least, she wouldn’t have to barricade herself in a bedroom when she shifted into the Sphinx. She’d hid in her room the last month during the change, yelling at anyone and everyone to leave her alone. She’d pushed every piece of furniture against the door to ensure that they did. The counselor explained her anger was part of the grief process. But it wasn’t grief; it was fear. Fear that someone would discover she was a monster.
