by Mj Fields
���Tessa can I go with you?��� he knew he pissed her off���again.
���No, actually I need to do this alone, although I don���t know why I bother it���s not like I am going to be a FUCKING marathon runner,��� she put her shoes on and started out the door.
He slammed the door and grabbed her.
���Don���t leave,��� he was a mix of confused and pissed.
���Take your hands off me,��� Tessa snapped.
���No, you listen to me,��� he yelled as he grabbed her tightly holding her arms to her side.
���Take��� your��� hands��� off… of��� me��� now,��� she yelled.
���Fine go run, it���s not like you���re doing anything else,��� he let go of her and walked away.
���You have no idea what you have just done to us Lucas ��� NONE!��� she started to leave.
���You go right ahead and make threats, Tessa. What are you going to do run home to the farm,��� she slapped him across the face. ���Nice ��� you���re certainly the most fucked up of all of them.���
She ran for almost two hours. When she came home, he was gone, he left a note.
Tessa,
I���m going to New Jersey for a couple days. Do whatever it is that makes you happy, it certainly isn���t me.
Lucas
She screamed and started crying. She jumped in the shower and came out and threw on a bra and underwear on. She grabbed a tote from the closet and started emptying her drawers in it. She cranked up the radio and started throwing stuff out of the closet onto the floor. The radio turned off, and she turned around.
���Tessa don���t go,��� he said his eyes were red, ���Please don���t go.���
���Are you high Lucas?��� she was shocked.
He looked at her, ���I love you, Tessa. Don���t go, please.���
���I���m not staying here with you, you���re mean,��� he walked towards her. She stepped back, ���I will slap the other side of your face.���
���Okay, just don���t leave,��� he stepped closer.
���Lucas I can���t feel like this anymore. I won���t feel like this anymore. We need a break. We need a break every four months,��� she laughed. ���This is crazy��� what are we doing?���
���We love each other,��� he said quietly.
���We love to sleep together,��� she went in the closet and brought out more clothes. ���You don���t love me Lucas or you wouldn���t talk to me the way you did today.���
���Do you honestly believe that?��� he said. ���Is that all this has been to you?! You���re full of shit Tessa!���
���That���s what you���ve shown me for three weeks. You ��� Lucas have shown me that what I want, what I feel, and who I am��� doesn���t mean a thing to you,��� she said fighting tears.
���You are my world Tessa, my whole world. Don���t leave me, I won���t survive without you, do you understand��� I won���t!��� He got on his knees and hugged her around her waist. ���I don���t want to do this without you, I love you.���
She looked down at him clinging to her. She took a deep breath. He looked up through his long lashes, and she saw tears. She ran her hand through his hair and he closed his eyes and leaned into her.
���Okay,��� she whispered finally.
She woke up in the morning, and everything had been put back in place. There was a note in the bathroom,
Thank You, Baby, I Love You
I���m so sorry,
Love,
Lucas
She went to work, and the day dragged. She spent time with one of the older women holding her hand to comfort her, she had dementia and was having a very rough day. It was hard to let her go. She understood a little about the disease: her grandmother had it and had passed four years ago. She realized now how scared and alone she must have felt, even surrounded by her family.
She pulled in the parking lot and took a deep breath and realized he was home, and she wasn���t ready. She sat outside for fifteen minutes looking down. God what am I doing? Enough damage has been done.
He opened her door and looked at her, ���Will you come in?���
���Just give me a minute,��� she said and pretended to look for something.
He laughed and shook his head, ���Alright, but could you hurry I want to show you something.���
He stood at the door.
She got out and walked up the stairs, he held the door open, there were candles lining the hallway into the dining room. The path led to a black lacquer piano.
She smiled and looked at it, ���It���s beautiful, Lucas.���
���I want you to do what makes you happy,��� he wrapped his arm around her.
She closed her eyes and looked down.
���You can���t look at me because I hurt you. Again, I hurt you again,��� he pulled her tighter and her breath quivered and her body shook.
���I need a minute,��� she said but didn���t leave. She was afraid if she walked away, she wouldn���t come back.
And if she didn���t come back, she wouldn���t see him again. And if she didn���t see him again, what was this all for? She loved him; she gave herself to him that has to mean something.
���Thank you,��� she finally said.
���Would you like to play?���
He looked down at her, and she shook her head no.
���Alright would you like to eat? I made dinner.���
���No, I���m not hungry, but you eat,��� she walked upstairs and took a shower and went to bed.
She was asleep, and he lay next to her. He watched her sleep as he drifted off. She screamed and sat up.
���Tessa what���s wrong?��� as he sat up and grabbed her.
She cried out and he held her, as she fell back asleep.
She didn���t wake up with him, and for the next few days she tried to avoid him. He uncomfortably walked on pins and needles around her.
Her phone chimed, and it was him.
- meet me for lunch today, I need to talk to you about something that has come up…LL
She pulled into the job site, and he was waiting.
���Hi Tessa.���
���Hi.���
���I know you probably have plans but,��� he said and lifted her chin, so she had to look at him, ���Can you please look at me. Thank You, Miles has invited me to train with his team for a week.���
Her eyes got wide, and she looked scared. ���I don���t want you to.���
He looked confused, ���Why?���
���I���m sorry, you should go,��� she looked down.
He pulled her down to the ground, ���Knee to knee, and look at me.���
���Lucas we���re on the sidewalk, there are people looking at us,��� she gasped.
���I don���t care just look at me,��� he said desperately. ���If you don���t want me to go I won���t, I just think it���s a good opportunity, Jose will be there too, just tell me what you want.���
���Okay ��� go,��� she stood up.
He stood and cupped her face in his hands, ���Are you sure?���
���Yes, when?���
���I will have to leave Sunday night. I will be back on Friday night, and I start practice the next week,��� he answered.
���Okay, I am going
to help at my church���s Vacation Bible School next week,��� she looked at him ���It���s from five to eight at night.���
���When did you decide that?���
���Just now,��� she looked down.
���Okay, will you be home Friday night when I get back, at our home Tessa?���
She looked at him for a minute, one of the longest minutes of his life, ���I thought I would be��� do you not want me to be?���
���God yes, I was just afraid you would move out,��� he admitted.
���I told you I wasn���t leaving Lucas,��� she looked hurt.
���Tessa we haven���t exactly been doing all that great, I just didn���t know what you were planning.���
���Ok, but I mean what I say. Don���t you know that by now?��� she asked and started to look away.
He pulled her face up again, bent down and kissed her gently. She stood still; he gently kissed her lip sealing his over hers and she squeezed her eyes shut. She gasped, and he pulled her to him and kissed her over and over. Her face relaxed and she finally kissed him. She pulled away and rested her forehead on his chest.
���Thank you,��� he said. ���I love you, Tessa.���
She reached up and grabbed the back of his neck, ���I love you too, Lucas.���
He held her tight, and she wrapped her arms around him, and breathed deeply.
���See you at home?��� he asked pulling her chin up and resting his forehead against hers.
She looked at him, ���Yes.���
His eyes lit up and relief swept across his face. He picked her up and hugged her.
���Lucas, people are watching.���
���Let them,��� he said and kissed her cheek.
He walked her to the Jeep. She drove to the store and bought some things for dinner. She thought this would be a good break. She would miss him, and he would miss her. Maybe that���s what they needed.
She got out of the shower and dressed a tank top and shorts. She cranked up some music and cooked. She had an hour or an hour and a half before he would be there. She popped the cork on a bottle of wine left over from New Years Eve, Lucas���s birthday, and she had two glasses. She felt relaxed and good.
Tessa jumped when he wrapped his arms around her, and he turned her towards him.
���You���re early,��� she laughed.
He saw the wine, ���Have you been drinking?���
���Just a little, but I���m not drunk,��� she smiled. ���Would you like a glass? It was from your birthday.���
He shook his head yes, and she poured each of them each a glass.
���To forever,��� he smiled they clinked glasses and Tessa slammed hers.
He laughed, ���Aren���t you supposed to sip wine?���
���It tastes nasty.���
���Then why are you drinking it?���
���To relax a little,��� she smiled and giggled, ���I���ve had a very stressful few weeks.���
���Tessa you���re drunk,��� his lips twisted up.
She shook her head no.
���Can I kiss you?��� she smiled shyly and shook her head yes.
He kissed her as he ran his hand down her back, and she moved her hips slightly.
���May I touch you?��� he asked softly as he lightly bit her ear.
She kissed him and rubbed low on his back, she felt him against her, and she whimpered. She took his hand and put it on her stomach. She reached behind him and pulled his shirt over his head and opened her mouth as she looked at him, she bit her lip and looked up at his eyes. Her body needed his touch, her heart needed him more. He pulled her shirt off and took her in his mouth and she moaned loudly. She undid his pants, and they dropped to the ground. She pulled down his boxer briefs and felt him pressing against her, she wiggled her hips as he pulled her shorts down and she stepped out of them. She reached around his neck and wrapped her legs around him he pushed into her, and their hips met each others in perfect rhythm. She moaned and arched her back he looked at her and kissed her breasts lightly. He was lost in the moment and was almost ready, he pulled away from her, and she looked confused.
���Let���s go upstairs.���
They lay in bed, and his hands explored her body.
���Please Lucas,��� she begged.
���Just a minute, baby,��� he whispered as he kissed her.
She rolled to her side and wrapped her leg around him and brought him to her. They moved slowly as he kissed her neck and her face. When he felt her body start to tense, he moved faster and rolled onto her she gasped loudly and sank her nails into his shoulders and they finished together.
He rolled over pulling her against him, ���I love you baby.���
���You too,��� she kissed him.
She used the bathroom and heard the timer. She grabbed a towel and ran down and grabbed her clothes. She dressed, and he came down showered. They ate dinner at the Island. She did the dishes, and he helped.
���Do you want to go out tonight?���
���Not really,��� she said. ���I���m a bit tired.���
He looked at her, ���I don���t want to sleep.���
���You can go out if you want to,��� she said as walked in the living room.
���Tessa I don���t want to go anywhere without you, I���m not going to see you for a week,��� he sat next to her.
���Give me a few minutes,��� she said and went upstairs to shower.
She came out of the bathroom, and he was in bed, he smiled at her. ���Let���s just stay here. You can sleep, but I���m going to wake you up several times tonight. I���ve missed you.���
���Good.���
Tessa got in bed. They didn���t sleep.
* * *
Sunday she drove Lucas and Jose to the airport. She was going to miss him and he seemed worried about leaving her.
���I can���t wait until Friday,��� she whispered in his ear, ���I already miss you.���
���Good,��� he looked relieved and smiled, ���You better rest up while I���m gone.���
She smiled and he hugged her.
���Have a good time,��� she kissed him.
���I���m going to be getting my ass kicked all week baby, I wish you could come too. I wish you would stop working and just be with me all the time.���
She laughed, ���I love you.���
���Tessa would you ever consider quitting your job?��� he asked. ���I can take care of us.���
���Can we have this conversation later?���
His flight was called.
���Sure,��� he kissed her and walked through the tunnel.
She drove to the farm. No one was home. She walked in and immediately felt safe and happy all at once. She changed her clothes and ran down back with Chewy. She sat by the water and watched him play. She missed it here, and she missed her dog. She sat until her furry little friend had his fill of playing in the water. They walked back to the house.
Her phone chimed
- We just landed I will text you when we get to the stadium��� LL
- Glad your safe! Call me before bed��� LT
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
Kendall was home and reading a book.
���Hello,��� Tessa hugged her.
���Tessa, you���re here,���
���I am until Friday,���
���Are you really?���<
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���Yep, Lucas is training with the Brown���s this week, and there is no place I���d rather be,��� she smiled, ���What are you reading?���
���The new Vampire series. I���m on book two of four. You should read the first, it���s beautiful,��� Kendall smiled.
���Vampires aren���t my thing,��� she laughed.
���Oh no, you would love this, it���s not all I WANT TO SUCK YOUR BLOOD stuff. It���s about love and��� just read some of it,��� Kendall laughed.
Kendall grabbed the first book off the bookshelf and handed it to her.
���I would rather go do something,��� Tessa rolled her eyes.
���Read a few pages, please,��� Kendall begged.
Tessa and Kendall sat and read for two hours. Maggie walked in and laughed, ���She has got you reading that?���
���SHHH,��� they both said in unison. Maggie laughed.
Her phone chimed it was him
- Hey, baby I���m here and it���s amazing. We took a tour and are going out to dinner. What���re you up to?... LL
- I���m at home reading a book��� LT
- I thought you were going to the farm��� LL
- Yes, I���m here now��� LT
- What are you reading?... LL
- The new Vampire series, its Kendall���s fault ��� I already love it!!!... LT
- You like to read? Since when?... LL
- Since kindergarten, silly boy���LT
- Oh, learn something new every day��� LL
- There are four books in the series so I should be pretty busy this week, lol��� LT
- Well good, I miss you baby��� LL
- I miss you, but right now Edward is calling me back to this book��� LT
- Who?... LL
- Edward is the main character, lol��� LT
- GOOD! I was getting worried��� LL
- You don���t have to Lucas, not ever, I Love you, have fun at dinner��� call me when you can��� LT
- Thanks, Tessa, I love you��� LL
At five o���clock, they stopped reading and looked at each other all Doe- eyed and laughed.
