by Jane Gardam
Remembering the tea-cosy, Eddie flinched.
“My aunts have gone to Scotland somewhere,” he said. “I don’t know where. If you find out, don’t tell them. But I’d like to know about my father. If you can find out somehow.”
“I have to go now,” said Oils. “Ten minutes at a time.”
A nurse came in one day with mail which lay by the bed for several days.
“Shall I read it?” asked another nurse. “Well, this is nice, it’s from your aunts. It says: ‘Bad luck, Eddie dear, what a hoot.’”
“The police found them,” said Oils on his next visit, embarrassed. “Your aunts.”
“Can they be lost again?”
“I’d think so,” said Oils.
“This visiting card’s been stuck to your locker since the first day you came in here,” said the Red Cross hospital librarian, pushing round her trolley. She always stopped by his bed though he read nothing. Masks had been abandoned now. “You’re not ready to read yet, are you?”
“I don’t think so.”
“I don’t blame you. These are all awful old trashy paperbacks. They have to be burnt in case they get into the general library and spread infection. They can’t get librarians for this ward. I wipe all the books in Dettol—not a nice job. Shall I read you this visiting card, it says Isobel Ingoldby, that will be the girl that brought you in, her and the schoolmaster—he’s a funny one.”
“Has she been back?”
“Yes. Several times. When you were not with us.”
“Where does she live?”
“The card has her address. It’s in London.”
“However did she find me here?”
“How did you find me, Mr. Oilseed? I’m glad you’re out of your overalls, sir.”
“You’re not infectious any more. You’re to sit up at the window tomorrow.”
“But how did you know I’d be on that particular ship?”
“There were signals sent of some sort. From Colombo. To me and to Ingoldby’s sister and maybe to others but we haven’t heard. The Admiralty tracked the ship. Ingoldby’s sister has some underground job there somewhere. Something to do with the Admiralty.”
“Underground in the Admiralty? Was it signed? What was it—a telegram?”
“It was a cable. Unsigned. I gather it came by way of a place called Bletchley Park. Where Isobel Ingoldby was.”
“Could it have been from my father?”
“No,” said Oils. “No. Sorry. I don’t think so. Singapore isn’t in touch. Some prisoners have got letters out, somehow . . . but no . . .”
“D’you think someone in Colombo got a message to him?”
“I’d not think so. Not unless someone knew every single one of our addresses.”
They moved him by ambulance to the South of England and Oils said goodbye, with some relief, Eddie thought. “By the way, we’ve informed Christ Church. You are not forgotten. As soon as you’re released.”
“Thanks. Thank the Headmaster for me, sir.”
“Yes. Of course. And well done again. You’re fit now.”
“But I’m going to another isolation ward. The Plymouth Naval Hospital. Whatever for?”
“The ways of medical men are very strange.”
“Sir—thanks for being so brave.”
“Nothing brave about me,” said Oils. “Matter of fact you’ve cheered me up. Glad you’re better.”
In Plymouth, in the isolation wing, he kept apart from the rest who were thoroughly dispirited, most of them gnarled old salts who swore considerably and talked of past delights. One of them had been at Gallipoli, and he talked on through the night of the horrors of the deep. “There was one sailor,” he said, “looked ninety. Homeless. Living miracle. He was so riddled with corruption—look, one day on deck he coughed up something with legs and a backbone.
“A backbone,” he said. “I’ve never forgotten it. What’s the matter with the lad? Squeamish?”
Slowly they let Eddie walk about outside along the old stone terraces. It was autumn. The air was sweet.
Then one afternoon came Isobel, striding along.
“They wouldn’t let me in before,” she said. “They didn’t tell me what you’d caught, either. Whatever have you been doing? You never left the ship, did you?”
“I a-a-ate bananas in Freetown.”
“Your stammer’s come back.”
“Only i-i-in-intermittently.”
“You’re keeping something to yourself.”
“I suppose so but I don’t quite know what.”
She leant towards him and stroked his arm. “You look like a grub,” she said. “One of those things you can see through.”
He was in tears. “Sorry. I’ll be OK in a minute. Don’t go.”
“I have to get the train back. I’ve come two hundred miles.”
“Isobel.”
“You’ve got my card and number.”
“Come next leave.”
“My next leave maybe I’ll go to Scotland to flay your aunts.”
“Don’t,” he said. “I’m nothing to do with them now. Just get me near to you. Somehow. For ever.”
“Child,” she said, and was gone.
And—six full months later—“You are passed and fit, Feathers,” said the Surgeon Commander, RN, with a facial tic and a foghorn voice who ran the hospital like a cruiser, each patient to attention each at the end of his bed. “I suppose you will now depart to Oxford?”
“No, sir. I’ve decided not.”
“Yes?”
“I’m going to join up, sir.”
“We’ve just got you shipshape. You may prove we’ve been wasting our time. A very expensive case. Expensive and unsavoury. But good show.”
“I’m sorry, sir.”
“You will want to join the Navy, I suppose? Return to the source of the trouble?”
“No, sir. The Army. My father was in the Army. I’d like to join his old regiment.”
“No accounting for taste,” said the Commander. “Foolish of you. The sea is pretty well ours now. The going is easier. The Army’s just about to move to the thick of the last long shove. It will be slow and bloody, and you don’t look like a soldier.”
“I think I might be, sir. Given the chance.”
He felt naked on the hospital forecourt. He travelled to Gloucestershire alone. It was as terrifying as the journey to a first school, as horrible as his first walk with Babs and Claire to the Welsh baby school when he was five. He’d been feeling ill with the Welsh winter then. There had been a pain in his chest—but every time he had turned to look back at the farmhouse, Ma Didds, as usual clutching her stomach, holding her little stick, had waved him furiously on.
He missed the safety of the hospital.
Now it was a ride in a train again into a different world, the West Country, Eastward from Plymolith, across a beautiful river, soil the red of sunset, a change of trains; and into Gloucestershire. Someone had given him a bed-and-breakfast address and a warm soft-voiced old couple saw that he had a hot water bottle. There was a boiled egg for breakfast. An egg! “Joining up?” they said. “Make the most of the egg, now.” He borrowed a bike and turned up at the recruiting office, in Gloucester; where he was expected.
There were three of them behind the desk and they looked at him with considerable interest. They spoke of his health. He had been cleared one-hundred-per-cent fit and he was brown from the air and sea off Plymouth and he looked every bit of his nearly nineteen years. His hair was curly again and auburn. His weight was now normal. His eyes were alive.
“Your father’s regiment?” they said. “The Gloucesters?”
“Yes, sir.”
“I know your father.”
“I’m afraid I hardly do, sir. I was on my way—”
“So we understand. There is, I suppose, no news from Changi?”
“No, sir.”
“I hope very much that we’ll hear something and that he will hear of you. Well do what we can.”
The m
iddle one nodded at the other two who got up and went out.
“We have a proposal to make to you, Feathers. You were a member of your school’s OTC, I understand, and have done some basic training—can march and so forth?”
“Well, I could, sir.”
“It doesn’t leave you. We have decided to send you to the platoon that is guarding Queen Mary.”
Eddie stared. “But she’s well guarded, sir. And she’s in the Pacific Ocean or somewhere.”
“Not the ship. The Queen. The mother of our Monarch. She is down here in the West Country. We have one hundred and fifty men in her defence and four particular bodyguards. What’s the matter?”
“It is not s-s-soldiering, sir.”
Instead of darkening with rage, the Colonel’s blue eyes shut and opened again quickly.
“Only a run-in, Feathers. Not for the rest of the War. It is to finish your restoration. I notice you have a stammer and I have heard that it can be chronic. You would find it hard to give orders. The stammer must be removed.”
“It is only i-in-int-int-ermittent, sir. It re-t-urns when it is comm-comm-ented on.”
“You will report to Badminton barracks tomorrow at fourteen hundred hours. Understood?”
“Yes, sir.”
“But there is one more thing. Your health.”
“I’m a hundred per cent, sir.”
“I wonder if you know what has been the matter with you, Feathers?”
“Fever, sir. A bug from Sierra Leone. Pretty lethal, I suppose. They never told me.”
“You have been infected, Feathers, with three different types of parasitic worm. And certainly from Sierra Leone.”
“Sir?”
“But that has not troubled us. The worms are gone. We know how to treat these things. But the other thing was more serious. You have been suffering from a venereal disease.”
“What is that, sir?”
The Colonel looked at him warily.
“You have been in close contact with a woman.”
“She died of gangrene, sir, on the ship after Cadiz. I only did what I could. Miss Robertson. She was over seventy—”
“I doubt that she was the source of the infection. What I am saying, Feathers, is that you have acquired sexual knowledge through a most unpalatable source. Isn’t this true?”
A long and thoughtful silence.
“It was dark, sir. I never really looked at her. I never thought of her as palatable or unpalatable. She just climbed in. I’d no idea how to do it, and she had. She gave me buttermilk, sir. It was in Northern Ireland, sir.”
The Colonel paced hurriedly across to the window and stood looking out intently.
“Were you taught nothing at school, Feathers?”
“I have won a scholarship to Oxford, sir.”
A sort of sob from the window. A pause for recovery.
“Feathers, I have decided that this disreputable episode should not be passed on to Badminton. Primarily because of Queen Mary. I hope I am not being unwise.”
“Thank you. Yes, sir. I can’t think that Queen Mary would be in any danger from me.”
“Go! Enough!” roared the Colonel. “You’re dismissed, Feathers. Go.”
Afterwards the Colonel wondered if he’d been made fun of. Beaten in argument. Run rings round.
Feathers wasn’t certain, either.
And so, this October, Filth was in a wheelchair being pushed round the Badminton meadows around Badminton House by the nice girl and her grandmother, their feet crunching on the crystalline grass. They stood at a distance from the great house.
“The cedar’s gone,” said Filth. “Well, well.”
“Oh, the cedar’s gone,” said the grandmother. “Not so very long after Queen Mary. The sixties. She’d be pleased. It was what might be called a running sore, that tree. ‘Have it down,’ she told the Duchess (and her hardly moved in!). ‘It’s in the wrong place. It blocks the light.’ ‘Lord Raglan used to climb in it,’ says her Grace. ‘It’s not to be touched.’ ‘Over my dead body,’ the Duchess said. I heard the very words.”
“The tree was still the issue when I arrived,” said Filth.
He had not seen Queen Mary his first month at Badminton, after a three-week OCTU course in another camp. Once he saw a silvery pillar above him on a terrace. Once again he seemed to see something moving slowly inside a long glass gallery. Then one day, reading in the vegetable garden—he had begun to order Law books from London—there she was, watching him from over the hedge. It was a hot day but she was dressed in full rig—a long coat and skirt, pearls and brooches, and a rucked hat like a turban with a sweep to it. He stood up at once and she gave a strange half-bow and turned away. There was an attendant nearby who was knitting on four-peg needles. Knitting steadily, she turned about and followed the Queen. The next week he was invited to the house to tea.
It was served in the large salon where new acquaintances were tried out. If they made the grade there would be a future invitation to Her Majesty’s private sitting-room upstairs. Big test. The Queen sat doing needlework, her lady-in-waiting sat picking over some scraps of cloth, and a fat noisy woman was shouting.
“Over my dead body,” she was saying, “will you cut down my tree. Cut down my spinneys, my ivy, my woodlands, my bramble bushes. Cut down my house, but not the tree.”
Queen Mary continued with her blanket stitch. The lady-in- waiting looked exhausted and the fat woman came up alongside Eddie Feathers as the twelve-foot high doors to the salon were being held open by footmen in scarlet.
“She’s impossible. I’m the Duchess of Beaufort. I know I look like somebody’s cook, but that’s who I am, and this is my house. She’s only an evacuee,” she spat as she blew past, the doors being silently closed behind her.
Queen Mary looked across at Eddie and smiled.
After the tray had been put down (margarine on the bread, pineapple jam but really made from turnips, a terrible seed cake and some oatcakes) Queen Mary passed him an almost transparent cup half-full of pale water.
“Cream?” she asked.
“No, thank you.”
She nodded. There was no cream, anyway, and the milk looked blue.
The lady-in-waiting brought out a box of pills and dropped one in the Queen’s cup and one in her own. “Saccharine?” she said.
“Oh, no, thank you.”
“It is quite true. What my niece says is perfectly true. I am only an evacuee. A very unwilling evacuee.”
Eddie wondered what to say. “I was once an evacuee,” he said. “And very unwilling. And far too old.”
“I am far too old,” said the Queen. “How old were you?”
“Eighteen.”
“Good gracious. How humiliating for you.”
“Yes. It was. My father sent for me to Malaya, to escape the War.”
“How disgraceful of him.”
“He had had a very bad time in 1914.”
“Yes. I see. But you escaped? To tell you the truth I don’t altogether feel ashamed to have escaped. It was the Govern- ment’s decision I should come here. They told me I would be much more trouble in London. In case of kidnap. Personally I think that a plane might come and bundle me off more easily from here. That of course is why you’re all here. A hundred and fifty of you. Quite ridiculous.”
“Yes, your Maj—”
“Call me Ma’am.”
“You must miss being at the heart of things—Ma’am?”
“I don’t, now. I’ll tell you more another time.”
She looked pointedly at the lady-in-waiting who gathered up a skein of mud-coloured wool and passed it to Eddie who was having trouble with the turnip jam. “Hold Her Majesty’s wool, please.”
Eddie held out his hands and the wool was arranged upon them in a figure of eight. The lady-in-waiting began to roll it up into a ball. He felt a ninny.
“Do you think you will enjoy soldiering?” asked the Queen, looking hard at him.
He blushed and began to stamm
er.
“Ah yes. I see. You’ll get over it. I know a boy like you.”
He walked in the park with her through the next hard winter. The ground was black, the trees sticks of opaline ice.
“We shall just walk up and down,” said Queen Mary. “For an hour or so. We must get exercise at all costs. D’you see how the wretched ivy is coming back?”
“Did you walk like this, Ma’am, before you came here?”
“I’ve always tried to walk a great deal. You see my family runs to fat. They eat too much. My dear mother would eat half a bird and then a great sirloin for dinner, and she loved cream. And the Duchess—I used to walk in Teck but only round and round the box-beds. Sandringham was the place to walk, but somehow one didn’t. One went about in little carts to watch them shooting. And one didn’t walk in London of course. I luckily have magnificent Guelph health.”
“I have never been to London.”
She stood still with amazement. “You have never been to London? Everybody has been to London.”
“Most of Badminton village has never been to London.”
“Oh, I don’t mean the village. I mean that a gentleman, surely, has always been to London?”
“No, Ma’am. I’ve been in Wales and in the North—”
“You haven’t seen the galleries? The museums? The theatre?”
“No, Ma’am.”
“That is a personable young man,” she said that evening, hard at work arranging family photographs in an album before getting down to the red despatch boxes the King sent her daily. She read them in private, and nobody was quite sure how many, but probably all.
“Very good-looking indeed,” said Mary Beaufort. “He’ll be useful at dinner parties.”
“We don’t give dinner parties,” said the Queen. “It would be out of kilter with the War effort. But we could ask a few of the Subalterns.”
“We could.”
“In fact it seems quite ridiculous that a boy like that should be billeted down in the stables. Why can’t he come and live in the house, Mary? Do you know, he has never been to London?”
Eddie refused to live in Badminton House. He said he must stay with his platoon. He began to find the tea parties rather trying. The mud-coloured wool had been overtaken by a cloud of unravelled powder-blue which clung to his uniform in tufts. He let it be known that he had to work hard, and he settled to his Law in the stables.
