But Maddy is different. I know she sees my pain; I see hers, and I can’t help but wonder what put it there. It’s been five years. Maybe now it’s finally time to heal. Maybe Maddy can help me figure out how.
I push back through the exit, only to be greeted by Mike and Maddy. We’re at opposite ends of the hall, but even from that distance I’m sure that Maddy can see the shock and disgust in my eyes.
She is leaving. With him? What the fuck!?
I stalk past them, and I turn on my heel the second that I make eye contact with Maddy.
Something’s wrong. Really wrong.
Her eyes look all cloudy and faraway. She’s stumbling, so much so that Mike is practically dragging her out.
“Maddy, are you okay?” I can’t hide the genuine concern in my voice.
Mike answers for her. “She’s fine, douchebag. We were just leaving. You can go back to your little friends now.”
I grab her by the shoulders and pull her face up to meet mine. She is definitely not okay. I don’t get it, though. She hasn’t had anything but soda all night. Even if there was rum in those cokes, she wouldn’t be this drunk after only three or four.
And then it hits me—the look he gave me when I walked past earlier. It was him. He did something to her drink. He waited for me to leave so he could get her out of here and alone.
“Maddy, please tell me you’re okay. Come on, let’s get out of here. I’ll take you home.” I’m practically begging her to come with me, but she won’t leave his side. I realize at that point that it isn’t so much that she won’t leave his side, it’s that she can’t. She can’t stand on her own. She’s really fucked up.
“What the fuck do you care, Reid? You don’ wan’ me. Made that perfectly clear. I’m not hot ’nuff for you or whatever.” Her words are slurred, and her eyes start to roll back in her head.
“Let go of her.” My calm, even voice belies my boiling anger and frustration.
“No, fuck-face! You heard the lady. She’s leaving with me. Now get out of my way.” Mike pushes me back in an attempt to get past me.
I size him up. I’ve got a few inches on him and at least twenty pounds of muscle.
Nope—she’s definitely leaving with me, and you’re getting your ass kicked, too.
“Wrong move, asshole. I said, LET GO OF HER!” I push him on each word to accentuate the seriousness of my threat.
He drops his arm from around Maddy’s waist. Thankfully, she is close to the wall and uses it for some support. The second he takes to recover his balance is all I need to knock him on his ass. I knock him further off balance with a quick left hook to the chin and a swift knee to the groin. While he’s bent over in pain, I grab Maddy and run through the back exit.
Running my hands over her face and pushing her hair out of her eyes, I ask if she’s okay. She can’t even form a response. I can feel her slipping away from me into unconsciousness. I’ve got to get her home.
I carry her over to my Mustang and drop her in the front seat. I lean over and buckle her in, and she leans into my neck.
“Hmmm, you smell so good, Reid. You always smell good. Kiss me, please.” She’s obviously regained her voice and her bearings for a minute.
“Soon, baby. I’ll do more than kiss you soon, but right now I just want to get you home and take care of you.” She nods her “okay” and swiftly returns to her nearly comatose state.
I tuck her hair back behind her ear and kiss her forehead. I won’t kiss her how she wants to be kissed right now. I will not take advantage of her, but, well, if she wants a kiss, then a kiss she’ll have.
When I get into the driver’s seat, I shoot off a quick text to Jack, telling him that I’ve got Maddy and that we’re on our way back to the house. I also ask Jack for Melanie’s number. I know she’ll freak if Maddy doesn’t come home. He sends me Mel’s number and responds that he knew I had it bad. I’ll deal with him later. My main concern is that everyone knows she’s okay.
When we pull up to the house, Maddy is completely passed out. I lift her out of the car and carry her up the front steps. It’s not an easy feat to open the door with her in my arms, but it’s a welcome challenge. She’s here with me, and she’s safe. That’s all that matters.
Walking through the living room, I consider letting her sleep on the couch, but I don’t want her to wake up alone. I don’t know what she’ll remember, and I don’t want her to get scared. I decide that her sleeping in my bed is the safest place for her. Upstairs it is, then.
No hidden motives at all.
I lay her down in the middle of the bed and pull off her strappy black sandals. I decide to leave her in her clothes. Not that I don’t want to take them off—oh, God, I want that more than anything—but I want her to be conscious when I undress her.
I crawl in next to her, pull the covers up over us, and fold my arms behind my head. I won’t be able to sleep a wink tonight with her soft, warm body next to mine. I need to stay awake anyway to make sure that she’s okay.
I lean into her ear and whisper, “Goodnight, sweetheart. Don’t worry—I’ll take care of everything.”
She mumbles something, hopefully not in protest, and returns to her deep slumber.
I stare wide-eyed at the ceiling, chuckling on the inside. I wanted Maddy in my bed, that’s for certain, but definitely not like this.
Chapter 7
My head is pounding. My mouth is dry. My body is weak. I try to blink the sleep from my eyes, but even that requires monumental effort. I have never felt like this before. What the hell happened to me?
As consciousness slowly returns, I stare up at the ceiling and realize I’m not in my own bed. Where the hell am I?
Panic sets in. I can feel my body start to tremble as the panic morphs into fear. I take a deep breath to try to calm myself, and in that moment I know exactly where I am.
Inhaling the scent from the pillow arouses more than my sense of awareness. I’m with Reid. I would know that smell anywhere. It smells like home.
The panic of not knowing where I am retreats, and a new one surfaces. Did I sleep with him? Did he take advantage of me? I don’t even remember hanging out with him last night. How the fuck did I end up here?
He senses that I’m awake and rolls over to face me. His hair is all sleep-mussed, and his eyes are still drowsy. He looks innocent and sweet—two words I never thought I would ever use to describe Reid Connely.
He reaches out to cup my cheek when he sees what I can only imagine is shock in my eyes.
“Good morning, beautiful,” he croons.
His words and soft endearment make my belly clench in a good way—a deliciously good way. He moves his hand from my cheek to brush back a piece of hair that has fallen in my eyes.
“Um, did we . . .” I move my hand back and forth between the two of us, “ . . . you know? Did we . . . um . . . do it?”
Well, that was articulate.
He chuckles a soft laugh at my question and continues stroking my cheek with the pad of his thumb.
“No, Maddy. We most definitely did not ‘do it.’ Believe me, when we ‘do it,’ you’ll remember.” He pauses for a beat and looks like he’s searching for the right words before he continues. “So, what do you remember from last night?” he asks.
He sits up and leans back against his headboard. I join him and pull the covers up as I do. I chance a peek under them. Thank God! I’m still clothed.
Not that being naked with Reid isn’t on the top of my current bucket list.
I swallow past the choking feeling in my throat. Wait a second! He said when. He wants to sleep with me? He hates me, though? My brain can’t handle much this morning. Maybe I just heard him wrong.
“Did you just say when we sleep together?” I can’t hide my shocked tone.
“Yes, I did,” he replies bluntly.
Okay—not really sure what to do with that. I’ll just have to file it away for later, but it’s definitely nice to know.
He repeats his
earlier question. “So, Maddy, what do you remember?”
“Um, well, I remember being at the pool hall with everyone. And then I remember Mike and I hanging out at the bar for a little bit. After that things get a little fuzzy.”
His brow furrows as if he’s trying to figure something out. He looks worried, but he’s not saying anything.
“What, Reid? What happened? What aren’t you telling me?” His silence is scaring me a little.
“You got most of that right. You were with Mike, and you had a few drinks at the bar, but from what I saw, it was just soda.” He leaves that last part hanging in the air between us—loaded and heavy.
Realization dawns—I didn’t drink last night. This is not a hangover.
Reid catches the look of overwhelming panic in my eyes, and he immediately reaches to comfort me.
“Don’t worry, Maddy. Nothing happened. I was walking back into Shooters when Mike was trying to leave with you. You guys walked past me, and I saw that something was off. Your eyes weren’t clear. They were all glassy, and you just didn’t seem with it. I had been watching you all night, so I knew you weren’t drunk. That’s when I realized that he must have slipped you something. I knocked him on his ass and then brought you here. I know you probably didn’t want to wake up next to me, but I didn’t want you to be alone and scared when you woke up.”
As reality starts to settle in, I realize that Melanie doesn’t know where the hell I am. I gasp and cover my mouth with my hand. “Oh, God, Mel! I need to call Mel. She must be worried sick. I never stay out without telling her.” I fumble a bit in a half-assed attempt to get out of the bed. My head is still foggy, and I immediately feel dizzy when I try to move.
“Shh. Don’t freak out. It’s okay. I texted her last night and let her know that you were here. Don’t worry. It’s all taken care of.” His voice is calming and soothing, as are his fingers, which are still delicately tracing lines over my eyes, cheeks, and lips.
I lean back against the headboard and take a few more calming breaths.
“You were watching me?” My question catches him off guard.
He doesn’t answer right away. I can tell he’s searching for the right words. He stops stroking my face and runs his hands through his own hair. I can see him internally battling over what to say. He’s really struggling here, and if I wasn’t on the edge of my seat for his answer, I might actually find this pretty funny.
He finally decides to speak.
“Um . . . Yeah. I guess you could say that. It’s just that . . . well . . . I didn’t trust that guy. I’d never seen him there, and he was staring at you while you were leaning over the pool table like a wolf eyeing up a lamb. I wanted to make sure that you were okay, that’s all.”
I can’t manage more than an “oh” in response. The silence stretches. Unsaid words are hanging heavy between us. I can’t take it any longer, so I say, “Thank you.”
“For what, Maddy?” His eyes are wide and clear now, all traces of sleepiness gone.
“For saving me from him. For bringing me here and knowing that I would be scared if I woke up alone, for texting Mel, for not taking advantage of me. I know you don’t really like me and all, so I just wanted to say thank you for helping me despite that.”
He visibly flinches at my words. He looks offended and pissed—he looks more like the Reid with whom I’m familiar.
“That’s what you think? You think I hate you?”
I pull back from the harsh tone of his cold words. “Well, I know I’m not your favorite person, that’s for certain. I’d like to think you don’t hate me, Reid, but I don’t think you like me very much.”
He inches toward me, closing the distance I just created.
“I definitely do not hate you.” His hand returns to my cheek, and his eyes meet mine. He gazes intently and I’m mesmerized, completely glued to the honesty shining through their blue depths.
“Then what is it, Reid? What is going on here?” I throw my hands up in frustration. “I’m exhausted from all of this. You antagonize me and all but treat me like shit, and then you run in like some kind of knight in shining armor to rescue me from some big bad wolf. I . . . I . . . don’t know what to do or how to feel. I can’t keep running away from you. Avoiding you is draining me.” I inhale a shaking breath before admitting this next part. “Since the moment I met you, I’ve wanted to be here in your arms, but you’ve done nothing but push me away. So tell me how I was supposed to think that you felt anything other than hatred for me.”
“So you think I’m a knight in shining armor huh?” His lips quirk up into a gorgeous little smile, and I roll my eyes. I slap him playfully on the chest—his broad, muscular, perfect chest that I just seem to now be noticing is not covered in a shirt.
God, I hope he’s not naked under here.
Yes, I do.
No, I don’t.
Yes, I do.
Silence again permeates the room, but he’s the one to break it this time.
“I’ve been an ass, Maddy.” His confession gets a small chuckle from me.
“That’s an understatement, Reid.”
“Okay, fine! I’ve been a huge ass. Like, off-the-charts ass. I’m pretty sure Sir Mix-a-lot wrote a song about me.” His words are playful and mocking, but he knows that there is truth in them.
“That sounds more like it. You can proceed now,” I quip, and stick my tongue out at him, hoping to keep the mood light. I want him to keep opening up. I’m dying to know what he feels.
He reaches out with his other hand so that he’s cupping both of my cheeks. He lines my face up with his and stares even deeper, if that’s even possible, into my green eyes.
“I’m so sorry I’ve acted that way, Maddy. I know it sounds cliché and dumb, but I never meant to hurt you. I . . . well, you . . . I mean. . . . Oh, God I can’t even speak right now. What I mean to say is . . . um . . . well . . .” His incoherent ramblings trail off as I lean my face in closer to his.
I stare patiently up into his crystal-blue eyes and whisper, “What, Reid? What do you want to say?”
He takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly, his gaze never wavering from mine.
“You’ve completely knocked me off my game. I’ve never met anyone like you, and it scares the shit out of me. It’s like you don’t see me.” My brow furrows in confusion and I move to interrupt, but he continues before I get the chance. “You don’t see me—you see straight through me. You see beyond the outside, and it’s like you see the me that no one else sees. I saw it in your eyes that first night I met you, and it knocked me on my ass. I was a goner, and since then I guess I’ve just been trying to push you away.”
Wow, now that’s a confession.
He shushes me and continues.
“You’re a smart-ass, and I love that you keep me on my toes. You are most definitely not like the other girls, and I love that, but it also scares me like nothing else. I haven’t let anyone in for years and, well, with you I feel like I want to give it a chance.”
Did he just say love?
Twice?
It’s all so much to take in. My brain is still in a fog, and all of this new information is not processing very quickly. Reid must see me trying to make sense of it all, and even under his scrutinizing stare, I can’t form any words.
“It’s a lot, Maddy—I know. And I know I have no right to ask you to share how you’re feeling, but can you give me something? I’m dying here.”
“I’ve never let anyone in, either.” My words are barely a whisper, but I continue, “I’ve kept so many walls up my whole life. The only one who has ever gotten through is Mel, and that’s mostly because I’ve known her since middle school. I keep people at such a distance that I even broke up with the only boyfriend I’ve ever had before I came here because I didn’t want us to get close.”
His response is a laugh. He asks me to open up and then laughs.
Fucker.
“Seriously! You’re going to laugh at me, Reid? We
ll, thanks for this heart-to-heart, but I think I’m done.” I cross my arms over my chest and huff at him. He’s such an ass.
“I’m sorry. It’s just that you said you’ve only had one boyfriend, and I find that fucking hilarious. Seriously—just one. You mean to tell me that your dad didn’t have to beat the boys away with a stick?”
Suddenly, I’m frozen. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to feel. With everything that’s been going on with Reid, with everything that happened last night, with this morning’s revelations, the mention of my father, as unintentional as it is, it’s all just too much to take in.
A tear rolls down my cheek as I think about my dad never having the chance to grill prospective boyfriends. Another tear follows as I think about how he’ll never be waiting up for me to come home from a date, how he’ll never be asked for my hand in marriage, how he’ll never walk me down the aisle.
Reid pulls me into his arms when he sees my tears. We slink down from the headboard, and he leans on his side. I lie on mine, and we’re facing each other still entangled in one another’s arms.
“What, Maddy? Please tell me what I said. I hate that I’ve already made you cry once. I hate seeing you like this. I’m so sorry if I upset you.” His eyes are sincere and genuine. He’s offering me everything I’ve ever wanted—a chance to let someone in and share my pain, to lighten my heaviness. I take a deep, cleansing breath and decide to take him up on his offer.
His hands are lightly combing through my hair and tickling my scalp. It’s so comforting and soothing that I almost forget to speak. His lips touch down lightly upon my head, and he prompts me to say something.
“Please, Maddy. I want to be here for you. I know that I’ve been a dick, but I’m really sorry for that and I want to make it up to you, if you’ll let me. Please.”
He brushes my hair behind my ear and looks pleadingly into my eyes.
I try to come up with the right words, but there aren’t any, so I go for bluntness.
“My parents are dead. Both of them. They died when I was ten, so he never had the chance to chase the boys away. Not that I’ve ever had a real date anyway.”
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