by Leah Bobet
Contents
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Title Page
Contents
Copyright
Dedication
Map
Eight Years Before, Midsummer
AUTUMN
one
two
three
four
five
six
seven
eight
nine
ten
WINTER
eleven
twelve
thirteen
fourteen
fifteen
sixteen
seventeen
eighteen
nineteen
twenty
twenty-one
THE QUIET PLACE
twenty-two
twenty-three
twenty-four
twenty-five
THE DUST
twenty-six
twenty-seven
twenty-eight
twenty-nine
thirty
SPRING
thirty-one
Acknowledgments
About the Author
The author gratefully acknowledges the support of the Ontario Arts Council.
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Copyright © 2015 by Leah Bobet
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Bobet, Leah.
An inheritance of ashes / by Leah Bobet.
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Summary: Now that the strange war is over, sixteen-year-old Hallie and her sister struggle to maintain their family farm, waiting to see who will return from the distant battlefield, soon hiring a veteran to help them but, now as ugly truths about their family emerge, Hallie is taking dangerous risks and keeping desperate secrets while monsters and armies converge on the small farm.
ISBN 978-0-544-28111-0 (hardback)
[1. Fantasy. 2. Sisters—Fiction. 3. Secrets—Fiction. 4. Monsters—Fiction. 5. War—Fiction. 6. Farm life—Fiction.] I. Title.
PZ7.B63244In 2015 [Fic]—dc23
2015006823
eISBN 978-0-544-27588-1
v1.1015
For Chandra,
Michael,
and my Philippe,
fixed stars all
PROLOGUE
Eight Years Before, Midsummer
“HALLIE?” THE VOICE WHISPERED AROUND THE BROKEN chairs and cobwebs, and I breathed out because it wasn’t my father.
Uncle Matthias edged past the snapped spinning wheel, over a pile of fishing nets set aside for mending. “You can come out, sweetheart,” he said. “It’s over.”
My ears still rang with Papa’s roaring swears, with Uncle Matthias’s voice pitched low to cut. They didn’t bother whispering anymore when they fought. Marthe had nudged her foot against mine—I’m right here—when Papa started to growl, but I wasn’t half as big or strong as my older sister. When the first dish had flown, I’d run for the smokehouse—and I hadn’t looked back.
Deep behind my junk barricades, I swallowed. “Who won?”
“Nobody.” Uncle Matthias’s light steps stopped in front of me. “It doesn’t matter anymore.”
I scowled. Of course it mattered. I would feel that win or loss in the weight of Papa’s footsteps on our farmhouse floorboards, in whether being slow on my chores tomorrow would mean an indifferent smile or a bucket of water across the face. I peeked out from behind the scratched table leg. “Who won?”
Uncle Matthias sighed. “Your father did,” he said, and my shoulders sagged with relief. “Come sit with me, kiddo. You’ll get splinters down there.”
My uncle’s careful hands lifted me from my tangled fortress, carried me—even though I was much too big for carrying—to Great-grandmother’s red brocade stool. He set me down gently, a thin, hardy brushstroke of a man, and I pulled my knees up to my chest. There were new islands in the mess of the smokehouse floor: clothes, tools, two pairs of walking boots.
Uncle Matthias’s clothes. Uncle Matthias’s tools and boots, scattered everywhere.
“Liar,” I blurted, and he straightened up. “You said it was over.”
Uncle Matthias’s shoulders slumped. “It is, sweetheart,” he said, so gently. “For good. You and your sister and father are staying. I’m leaving tonight.”
I gripped the sides of the red stool. “You can’t.” Uncle Matthias was the one who handled the goats, who could tell Papa come on, let the girls be without a day of screaming. Who still gave me piggyback rides along the plowed fields, neighing like the horse Papa’d always promised and never bought.
Who still, after Mama died, loved Marthe. Loved me.
“I’m sorry,” he said, and pulled out a dusty leather pack. “Your father’s the older brother. The older child inherits; that’s the way it’s always been. His name is on the farm deed, Hal. I don’t have a choice.”
“He can’t make you go!” I argued. My voice swooped and cracked. Uncle Matthias looked down at me, red-eyed, exhausted, and we both knew it was a lie. Tears crept from my eyes: the first drops of a cold winter rain. I buried them against his shoulder. “You can’t.”
“Hallie, sweetheart,” he said, and wiped my nose with his worn white handkerchief. “Just sit with me while I sort.”
He’d given up. The fight really was over. I nodded, wordless, and he opened his bag.
I watched Uncle Matthias pack as slow as a lullaby. Each seed bag weighed in his palms he fixed in his full, kind attention; each warm sock tucked into the leather pack was another piece of him, vanishing; each shirt left on the smokehouse floor whispered like shed skin. He walked in tighter circles through his scattered worldly goods, and I watched him, my chapped nose buried in white cotton and the smell of his sweat. Both of us just breathing, until the pack was full.
He looked down at his warm winter boots, muttered, “No good,” and closed the pack. It sat between us, bulging, full of fights and love and years: a full quarter of my world, wrapped in a slice of old leather.
“Where are you going?” I asked, too small.
The long, lonely road unwound in his eyes. “South. There are good farms in the southlands.”
“But then you’ll come back, right? When it’s better?”
Uncle Matthias winced.
He crouched on his haunches so his serious eyes were level with mine. “Hallie. Love. I need you to take care of your sister, okay? Be good to her; be strong. You’re the only sister either of you is ever going to have.”
I nodded. I was crying again, crying uselessly, knuckles tight on the stained cotton hanky. Uncle Matthias kissed me gently on the top of my head and picked up the pack. “I love you,” he said clearly, and then slipped out through the smokehouse door.
Behind him, through the eaves and flagstones, the endless silence poured in.
The lamps were lit in the kitchen windows when I trudged back to the house. Light shone jaggedly onto the porch. Papa’s voice blasted through the orchard trees, shivered the foundations of our house on the hill.
I clenched my fingers around Uncle Matthias’s kerchief. You have to take care of Marthe, I thought, and opened the kitchen door.
The kitchen was a shambles. Broken crock
ery gleamed sharp on the floor, tinkled against Marthe’s dustpan as her broom went shush, shush across the boards. The table was still uncleared: an overturned chair and four places set for the very last time.
“Leave your shoes on, Hal,” Marthe said, still the stone-faced mountain she became when Papa thunderstormed about. “I haven’t found all the pieces.”
I didn’t say a word. I didn’t have to: Marthe took one look at me and put down the dustpan. “What happened?”
My face twisted. “He’s gone.”
Her eyes went wide. “What?”
“Uncle Matthias—”
I wasn’t quiet enough. “And where have you been?” Papa snapped from the next room, and my shoulders hunched high.
Marthe’s expression flattened. “She checked the coop for me,” she answered, oh so casual. “I thought the latch was loose.”
“Well, close it next time,” he snarled, and just like that, just like always, Marthe shouldered his fury away from me. My smart, strong sister, putting the mountain of her fearlessness as shelter over my head. Take care of Marthe, Uncle Matthias had said. It was a ridiculous thing to ask. Marthe was ten years older than me. How would I ever be able to take care of her?
And then it struck me finally why Uncle Matthias, the younger son, had told me to make sure I was good to my sister.
Papa and Uncle Matthias hadn’t always hated each other so. And it was Marthe who would one day have Roadstead Farm.
“Hallie?” Marthe said softly. “Talk to me.”
I looked up at my sister’s troubled face. And for the first time—the first time ever—my mouth shaped the lie: “It’s nothing.”
Her frown crinkled as Papa stormed up the stairs. “Here,” Marthe whispered with a new reserve, a crack of worry. “Hold the dustpan for me.”
I crouched on the floor and gripped it tight. Stared at the floor while Marthe’s broom worked its rhythm, shush shush, to clean up Papa’s mess. Upstairs, his footsteps banged. His bedroom door slammed. The walls hummed with his fury.
It was only the three of us now: Papa and Marthe and me. All alone together.
Be good to your sister, I told myself among the broken dishes. Don’t fight. Be nice. And think hard about what you need in order to survive.
So that when the day came, when it was over, I’d know what to pack.
AUTUMN
one
THE BARLEY WAS IN. THE STUBBLE OF IT LAY BENT-BROKE IN the fields as far as the eye could see, rows of golden soldiers, endlessly falling, from the river to the blacktop road. On a clear evening, with the harvesting done, you could see both river and road from the farmhouse porch: every acre, lined in sunset light, of Roadstead Farm.
So I was the first to see him. Everyone claimed a sighting in the stories that grew up later: a dark man, with a dark walk, striding bravely through the dying grainfields. But it wasn’t like that. I was the first to see the stranger when he came to the lakelands, and he stumped up the road like a scarecrow stuffed with stones. Marthe’s chimney smoke drifted to meet him, a thin taste of home fires. He caught its scent, his head tilted into the breeze, and hesitated at the weathered signpost where our farm began.
It can’t be, I thought, breathless, and then he straightened—and strode up the gravel path to our door.
For a moment I forgot the argument Marthe and I had just had: every vicious thing I’d said to my sister. I leaned forward, fingers wrapped around the porch rail, and squinted at the silhouette ghosting through our fields: The fields Thom and I had planted together before the men marched off to war. The fields I’d harvested alone—and was still working alone, plowing them under for the winter, when I wasn’t having pointless, nasty arguments with Marthe over nothing more than a heel of bread.
No, I told myself. It was about more than the stupid bread.
It was about . . . everything.
I’d known right away that asking was a mistake. Marthe had been wrestling with the autumn canning since sunrise, as behind on our winter stores as I was on the woodpile, and the second the word bread came out of my mouth, her face fell into put-upon fatigue. And suddenly I couldn’t bear to hear her tell me for the thousandth time—like I was a slow child and not half owner of Roadstead Farm—“Hallie, I need you to try harder.”
One more chore before I could taste a bite of supper, because Thom was gone and the war had killed half our harvest. Because of the November wind outside, the woodpile that wouldn’t get us past January, the snarled hole in the chicken coop that let the foxes in. Every time she said it, I could see the disappointment in her eyes: self-centered, childish, useless Hallie. Hallie, not strong enough.
“I’m trying, okay?” I pleaded, exhausted, hungry, cold. Marthe stared down at me, sweat-smeared and impatient; no mud on her boots and no sympathy in her eyes. She doesn’t understand, I realized, and then it hit me: She doesn’t care.
“It’s easy for you to say,” I shouted, wild with hurt. “It’s not you out there, working yourself dead.”
Marthe stiffened. Put down her cheesecloth, slow. She didn’t say anything; she didn’t have to. She was just in the kitchen working herself dead, seven months round with Thom Clarlund’s child. The doorway stood deadly quiet between us, as wide as the wound of Thom’s missingness. And then my sister did something she never had in the six years since Papa’s funeral: she shut the door in my face.
I stared at that door a full minute before it sank in: You’ve finally gone too far.
It had been eight years since the fight that ended things between Papa and Uncle Matthias; eight years since my uncle went his lonely way. Marthe and I—at this rate we wouldn’t even make it to my seventeenth birthday.
But none of that—none of it—mattered if Thom was finally home.
The wind stirred my hair, stirred the edges of that ragged silhouette in the broken barley fields. Please, I thought, be Thom. Not some man two inches too tall who walked all wrong, who didn’t wave to me—
I let myself believe it for thirty delicious seconds before I let the truth in: It wasn’t Thom. Just another veteran coming up the road, with a family who was waiting and wouldn’t have to wait much longer. Just another stranger.
The man set down his pack five feet from the porch rail, in the soft gravel and dust. He was full-grown, but not long to it: twenty-three or four and long with muscle, his brown forearms three shades paler than Thom ever got. He huddled before me in a red-checked flannel work shirt worn threadbare, useless against the chill November breeze. My breath puffed out. It was plain what he wanted. He had a soldier’s sleevebuttons, and his boots were in ribbons.
“We’ve nothing to spare,” I muttered, too distracted to say it louder. He wasn’t Thom, Marthe was still furious, and I was still in trouble. I stared into the dirt at his feet: Please, please go away. “You might try the Masons down the road.”
He neglected to pick up his pack immediately, turn around, and never be seen again.
Instead, he took off his cap. There was a shock of black hair under it, pulled back in a cattleman’s tail. “Thank you,” he said, quiet for such a big-shouldered man, “but I’m actually hoping to hire on.”
I blinked. The barley was in. Anyone could see that.
“I’m quick with my fingers,” he kept on. He had an accent more suited to the wild country northward than our lakeland farmsteads and ruins. “And I don’t eat much.”
My hands tightened on the rail. “You’re come from the war.”
The man tucked his chin with a passable country respect.
“You by any chance pass a man on the road, shorter than you by a few inches?” I worked to keep my voice casual. “Twenty-seven, dark skin, brown eyes, name of Thomas Clarlund?”
The stranger pressed his lips together, a hair’s-width, no farther. “I’m afraid I’ve not passed any travelers in some weeks.”
A tiny shudder moved through me, from the rib cage down. I shut my eyes against it: against the empty road and the ruin I’d made of
the farm Thom, Marthe, and I had built up together.
“We don’t take on help past harvest,” I said hollowly. His starved face emptied like a water bucket. All I could see inside it was some black-haired mother or sister pacing behind wood walls, weeks north, her door left unlatched past midnight in case he arrived before dawn. “Look, I can spare some apples. I’ll give you apples if you just go home.” Frustration beat hollow fists against my temples. Thom, if you’ve hired on somewhere—“Your people don’t know if you’re alive or dead. You can’t do that to them.”
His smile twisted like a scar. “Don’t worry,” he said crisply. “No one’s waiting for me to turn life normal again.”
I flinched. That wasn’t why I wanted Thom home. That wasn’t it at all.
Something in his eyes flinched back. That anti-smile faltered. “I’m sorry,” he said, humbler. “You’re being kind and I was just snide.”
I blinked. “Kind?” I’d done everything but run him off.
He lifted his chin and regarded me: a girl too sunburned to be pretty and too small to throw him bodily off the kitchen porch. “You looked at this”—and he gestured down, from that soft north country accent to tattered shirtsleeves and the reek of sweat—“and saw a man someone might wait for.”
I’d done everything but run him off. I hadn’t run him off. And for that—
No one had ever called me kind before.
“So if it’s too late for harvest,” he finished, oblivious to my surprise, “I’ll help however I can.”
I bit back the automatic response: I can do this, the ugly chorus of every fight Marthe and I ever had, with the ghosts of Papa and Uncle Matthias hovering over our shoulders. I can run this farm. I can earn my keep if you just give me a little more time. I had to, so Thom had somewhere to come home to. So Marthe and I could laugh again, could build pillow forts under the table like we did when I was young. So we could raise her almost-child together in our own house—a house where everybody knew the younger Hoffmann sister was still half owner of Roadstead Farm.
