by Cach, Lisa
“Stop it. You know what I mean.”
Theresa squeezed her shoulder. “Of course I do. I have sometimes thought that the true loss of innocence is not when a maidenhead is broken, but when a woman realizes she cannot change who she is inside by putting a man in there with her. There is something frightening when he pulls out of you and you discover you are as alone in your body as you ever were.”
“Do you suppose married women feel the same?”
“It’s one of the truths of life that no words or ceremonies can blend two people into one.”
“What about love? Can that do it?”
“Love. Now that is a tricky one. Love casts the illusion that two people are one, but it is the nature of illusions to be false. Eventually, if you’re fortunate and wise, you’re glad to break the illusion and remain as yourself.”
Valerian didn’t answer. The idea of not being alone in her own skin appealed to her, and she couldn’t understand how the wise choice could be separateness.
When they reached Greyfriars they parted company. Theresa needed to tell Charmaine about her mortal illness, having decided in the night that it would be unfair to keep it from her. About Valerian’s sense that the baby might not be well, however, she would say nothing.
Valerian herself headed for Sally’s home. The boil she had lanced had healed quickly, but she wanted to check on the children and bring Sally a fresh supply of St. John’s wort. The woman had suffered from melancholia for years, and the herb was showing signs of helping to lighten her mood, as well as helping to impair her fertility and give her body a needed rest from childbearing.
She felt the eyes of passersby on her as she walked down the street, stronger than usual. Gwen’s father, the miller, actually stopped and stared at her as she went by.
She was frowning when she reached Sally’s home. She called in to her through the open shutters, and Sally quickly came to the door. Her eyes were wide and searched the street nervously from behind their curtain of stringy bangs. “Inside!” Sally whispered urgently, and all but yanked Valerian into the dark little house.
“What is it, Sally?” Valerian asked. The small room reeked of old cooking fat, all but obscuring the fresh scent of wood shavings from the attached carpentry shop out back where Sally’s husband worked.
Sally pulled her to the wooden shepherd’s chair by the fire, the best seat in the house. The baby sat under the table, gnawing the head of a wooden figure carved by his father.
“What’s going on?” Valerian repeated. “People are staring at me like I’ve grown another head.”
“What dealings have you had with Eddie?” Sally asked.
Valerian rolled her eyes. “Not that! I thought surely it must be over by now. Are people still talking about that kiss he gave me?”
Sally waved away her words. “After that.”
“Sally, tell me what has happened. Don’t make me guess.”
Sally dropped onto the low stool beside Valerian. Her face looked paler than usual in the grey light from the window, her lips colorless. “Eddie has had a spell cast upon him.”
“A spell? What nonsense. Who would have put a spell on Eddie?” Even as she spoke, the answer came clear. “Oh, no.”
“He says you did it, or he did say that. He isn’t saying much of anything now, but Gwen is going about spreading the tale of how you cursed him, that you said that she would get no joy from him as a husband. That same night an owl came and snatched Eddie’s cock.”
“An owl?”
“Swooped down and snipped it off.”
“How would an owl get to it through his breeches? Or was he not wearing breeches?”
Sally stared blankly at her, and then some of the tension slipped from her shoulders, and she chuckled. “I didn’t think you had done it.”
For the first time, Valerian felt a quiver of alarm. If Sally could have seriously doubted her, then what must the others be thinking? “But you thought it possible I might have.”
Sally looked away, her head slightly bowed. “You’ve never shown me anything but kindness. I didn’t want to think you would do such a thing, however provoked.”
“But you thought I had the power to cast such a spell.”
“We all know that you and Mrs. Storrow command more than earthly powers. How else could you heal so many when even the surgeons cannot? And Mrs. Storrow, she sees into the truth of one’s soul.”
“It’s not witchcraft, Sally. It’s knowledge and perception, that’s all.” She could see in Sally’s eyes that she was not believed, as well she should not be. Both she and Theresa did call on powers most others could not, though there was nothing demonic about it. “I don’t cast spells.”
Sally did not answer.
“Where is he?” Valerian asked. “I want to see him.”
“At the smithy. You do not mean to go over there?”
“Indeed I do. I intend to put a stop to this nonsense.” Valerian stood, and Sally scrambled to her feet, her eyes wide and anxious.
“You can’t go over there, it might be dangerous.”
“Oh, yes I can. What are they going to do? Throw rocks at me?” she said with false bravado, for in truth she was frightened by this turn of events; but the best thing would be to stop this before it went any further. She took the little jar of Saint John’s wort from her basket and put it on the table. “For the melancholia,” she said, then hoisted the basket over her arm. “We will just see what is missing from Eddie’s breeches.”
She marched out into the rain and headed down the street. She was vaguely aware of the attention of those few people out and about, but her mind was focused on the smithy and what she would find. She didn’t pay attention when they stopped to watch her pass, and then turned to follow her.
A man leaving the smithy stumbled out of her way when she stomped up to the door, then stood and stared as she pushed her way inside.
The heat hit her face with a blast, making her eyes sting. She blinked them clear and scanned the interior for Eddie. The rhythmic beating of metal on metal ceased, and Eddie’s father, Jeremiah, approached. He was a large man, black-haired and bearded, wearing a leather apron over his work clothes. A heavy hammer dangled from one of his huge fists, and his fingers were black with grime. He looked a living embodiment of Hephaestus, angry god of fire and forge.
“Good day, Mr. O’Connor. I’ve come to see Eddie,” Valerian said firmly. Her heart beat rapidly in her chest, and she could feel nervous sweat under her arms.
The burly smith adjusted his grip on his hammer and said nothing. Valerian could see his uncertainty. She knew him as a kind man who made decisions by the promptings of his conscience, but he was clearly in conflict at this moment.
“I wouldn’t be here in the middle of the day if I intended to harm him,” Valerian said.
O’Connor’s eyes flicked to something behind her. She half-turned, and saw the crowd that had gathered at the door, their faces both guarded and eager.
She turned back to the smith and spoke softly. “You know me, Mr. O’Connor. Have I ever done you or your family any harm? Have I ever done anyone in this village any damage?”
She could see his internal battle rage a moment longer, and then he relented, gesturing with his hammer to the back of the smithy. “He’s back there, in the corner. Won’t come out.”
Valerian nodded and slipped past the smith, winding her way through the equipment and piles of metal to the far corner. Eddie sat on the floor, arms around his knees, crooning to himself. He hadn’t shaved, his chin was stubbled with irregular patches of hair, and his face and clothes were smudged with soot.
Valerian sank onto her knees and set down her basket. “Eddie?”
His glazed eyes blinked at her voice, then focused on her. Horror crept over his features. His hands dropped to the earthen floor, and he scrambled against the dirt, trying to shove himself farther away from her, his efforts voided by the wall at his back.
“Eddie, stop it.” Valerian or
dered. “I’m not going to hurt you.” She reached out a hand and placed it on his knee. He stilled. She locked his eyes with her own and concentrated on her breathing, bringing it down to normal and calming herself, then sent that calmness to him through her hand and her gaze. She felt her palm grow warm, and imagined the heat spreading up his leg to his heart. Within a few minutes his breathing was matched to hers, and some of the color had returned to his face.
“Tell me what scared you,” she said softly, and she sent her senses searching through his body for any injury.
“You said she would have no pleasure of me,” he said dully. “And then the owl came, and I couldn’t feel me self.” He looked down at his breeches. “And when I look, I can’t see it.”
“Can others see it?” She could sense no wound upon him, only hunger and exhaustion.
“Gwen says she can, but I can’t. The owl took it from me.”
“The owl took nothing from you,” she said calmly, putting the force of her will behind the statement. “Everything is where it has always been. You are whole and healthy.”
“I haven’t lost it?”
Valerian could see the thought swimming in his mind. The lack of sleep and food had confused his thinking beyond his normal impressionability. A dim acceptance of her words began to form in his eyes. He saw her as enough of an authority on this topic to believe her, the calm she had sent through her hand allowing him to accept her words.
“Witch!” Gwen’s voice screeched from behind her. “Get away from him, you cock-stealing whore of Satan!”
Valerian began to turn, and Gwen struck her on the shoulder. She lost her balance and slid off her knees onto her hip, her hands on the ground to catch herself. She saw the blur of motion and something black in Gwen’s hand, then felt the sharp blow as the girl stuck her forehead. A searing pain followed a moment later and she fell to the floor, blood running down into her eyes.
“Feel for your cock now, Eddie!” Gwen crowed triumphantly. “I have scored her above her breath. If ’twas she who put the spell upon you, you will have your cock back!”
Valerian put her fingers to the gash on her forehead, stunned by the attack. No one had ever struck her before. There was an old superstition that drawing a witch’s blood from above her breath—her nose and mouth—would break a spell, but she could hardly believe someone had used it against her.
“It’s back, I feel it!” Eddie cried out.
The gathering of villagers drew an awed breath, then erupted into a confusion of angry words and crowded forward to the corner where the three young people crouched.
Valerian’s forehead throbbed, and the blood was making it hard to see. The press of bodies and the tone of the crowd unnerved her as she had never been unnerved before. They did not sound in the mood to listen to reason, not when Gwen’s attack had, to their eyes, broken the spell. No matter that he was free of his delusion moments before Gwen hit her with… with what?
Valerian found the black object on the ground, and picked it up. It was a scrap of iron, and one edge was wet with her blood. She dropped it and began to scoot away towards the large sliding shed doors at the rear of the shop.
Someone noticed her movement, and eyes turned from Eddie and Gwen to herself. She wiped blood out of her eyes and felt a chill in her flesh as the malevolence in the faces above her became clear.
“Don’t come near me,” she warned in a voice made high by fear, and shakily she stood, backing away to the shed doors. She could only presume that a wariness of her evil powers held the crowd as she fumbled one of the doors open.
“Don’t let her escape!” a voice cried. Valerian’s eyes flew to the speaker, Mrs. Torrance from the inn. “She’ll be after your own children next. Christ will protect you from her evil.” She came lurching through the crowd, and her forward motion freed the villagers from their own inertia.
Valerian turned and fled through the doors, lifting her skirts to keep them from hindering her. She slipped and almost fell in the mud in back of the shop, then gained her footing and ran around the building to the cobbled main street of the town.
Some of the crowd had come back out through the front door of the smithy, and they shouted when they saw her. There was no place to hide. All she could do was run. She heard more shouts behind her and put all her strength into her legs, sprinting down the center of the street.
She cast a glance over her shoulder, and saw that two men were bearing down, their long legs and light clothing giving them every advantage over her. She whimpered low in her throat and faced forward again just in time to see two mounted riders emerge from the side street right before her. She could not deflect her path in time, and ran with a thud into the side of the nearest horse, startling both it and its rider.
She and the horse danced out of each other’s way, Valerian pushing against the warm body of the mount and the leg of the rider, desperate to escape prancing hooves and buffeting horseflesh.
Nathaniel fought to control his mount, simultaneously taking in the chaos that he and Paul had ridden into. He would know Valerian’s black hair in any crowd, and but for it might not have recognized her terrified face, covered with blood, as she was jostled between the horses.
He bent down and seized her, pulling her bodily up onto his mount. Beside him, Paul unsheathed his sword with a distinctive ringing sound that was a clear warning to all who approached. Whatever Paul’s thoughts on Valerian, Nathaniel knew that he could count on his loyalty as a friend.
Valerian briefly continued to struggle, then looked up into his face, and when recognition registered, she wrapped her arms around him and buried her face in his chest. Fury roiled within him that anyone had dared to harm her, and that she had been chased down the street like an animal.
“Halt!” he shouted to the villagers in the voice he had used as an army officer.
The approaching mob, that had slowed when the riders appeared, now stopped completely.
“What has happened here?” he demanded. “Who did this to Miss Bright?”
The crowd shifted, and he easily read the emotions of the villagers. They looked like a group of unrepentant children, not sorry for their actions, but certainly considering the welfare of their own skins now that authority had arrived. He felt loathing for them swell within him.
“Speak, goddamn you!”
Several flinched, and heads turned towards Gwen, who was just now bringing up the rear of the group. Nathaniel locked eyes with her.
“You. Come up here.”
Gwen gave a defiant toss of her head and strode forward, the villagers parting before her.
“Your name, girl.”
“Gwendolyn Miller, my lord.”
He did not like the tone of her voice. “What part have you in this affair?”
“I have done nothing wrong, my lord.”
“As I act as magistrate of this district, I will be the one deciding that. Unless you think you are better suited to the task?”
“No, my lord.” A little of her confidence slipped, and she shifted her eyes away from him.
“You are the girl involved with young Eddie, are you not?”
Her blue eyes flew back to him, surprised that he knew anything of her. “Yes, my lord.”
“And you are the one who has been spreading tales that Miss Bright casts spells and sends owls after young men.” He could not keep the disgust from his voice, and indeed did not even try. “You say she stole Eddie’s cok. Tell me, what do you think she did with it once she had it? Do you suppose she tanned it and mounted it on the wall above the mantel?”
A nervous chuckle escaped from a few of the men in the mob.
“She did not steal it physically,” Gwen protested. “‘Twas the spirit of it she stole. I held it in my very hand, and yet he could not feel my touch, no matter how I rubbed it.”
There was a burst of laughter this time, except from Gwen’s father. He pushed his way through to his daughter, turned her to face him and gave her a resounding s
lap across the face. Apparently unsatisfied with the results of that, he slapped her again.
“Father!” she pleaded, her hands on her cheeks, and tears starting in her eyes. “I did nothing wrong. I was checking him for injury.”
“Miller,” Nathaniel interrupted. “If I may continue?”
The barrel-chested man stepped back, keeping his angry eyes on his disgraced daughter. It was apparent to all that Gwen had not heard the last of this from her father.
Nathaniel whispered to Valerian. “Lift your head. Turn to them.” He felt her arms tighten around him, and with his own hands coaxed her to unbury her face from his jacket and turn.
Some of the women gasped, and more than one man looked away. The wound to her forehead, though not large, had bled profusely. Valerian’s face was coated in crimson, her light blue eyes all the more startling in contrast. Gwen herself grimaced.
“Are you the one responsible for this?” Nathaniel asked Gwen.
Gwen chewed her lip, then, prodded by her father and knowing half the town was witness to what she had done, nodded. “But it broke the spell!” she immediately protested. “He could feel it again as soon as I scored her. That proves she cast the spell.”
“There is no such thing as witchcraft. It’s clear to me that Eddie had at least one motivation for claiming he could not feel his manhood.” He paused, and there was an answering wave of laughter in the group. “And it is also clear that there was never any physical harm done to him, by your own word. The only person I see who has been injured is Miss Bright.”
“Gwen will see a proper punishment from me,” the miller said, gripping his daughter’s arm.
Nathaniel narrowed his eyes at the pair. Gwen had harmed someone he cared about. He had the power to wreak his own vengeance upon her, and he would use it. “Certainly you may impose whatever punishment you wish for your daughter’s private misbehaviors. This, however, has been a public affair, and as such should be dealt with in a public manner. Are there stocks in this village?” he asked the crowd.
“Aye, in front of the market square,” Mr. Torrance, the innkeeper, said. He cocked his head back towards the ten-by-ten-foot roofed area with open sides where goods were sold on Saturdays. “But they have not been used in years. The hinges are all but rusted off.”
