A Cowboy's Christmas Reunion (Mills & Boon Cherish) (The Boones of Texas, Book 1)

by Sasha Summers

  “Not in the boxes we’ve been through. Maybe—” She looked down to see Wesley sucking the top corner of the angel’s box. “Aha! Found it.”

  “Thanks, bud.” Chance took the box from the baby, replacing it with the teething ring he had been contentedly gumming. “How about you do the honors?” he suggested, handing the golden angel to her.

  “I’d like that,” Rachel said, embarrassed to admit just how much the small gesture meant.

  At the orphanage, placing the angel on top of the tree was generally a task reserved for the child who was newest to the home. Since Rachel had gone to live there the summer just before her fourth birthday when her parents had been killed in a car accident, she’d never had the chance. By the time Christmas rolled around, she had only been the third-newest kid.

  Knowing this, Wes had made their first Christmas together as a married couple extra special by taking her to pick out an especially extravagant angel that they really couldn’t afford. In Denver, at a desperation yard sale she’d held in a futile attempt to stay financially afloat, it had devastated her to have to sell that precious angel to a cranky old guy for the princely sum of three dollars.

  Rachel swallowed hard at the bittersweet memory of how dearly she’d loved sharing Christmas with Wes. There was a part of her struggling with the guilt that she was once again immersed in holiday cheer...but Wes was gone. It somehow felt disloyal for her to be so happy.

  Trying to focus on the task at hand, Rachel climbed onto the small stepladder she’d used to hang the ornaments from the highest branches, but she still wasn’t tall enough to reach the tree’s top.

  “Let me help,” Chance said, inching up behind her, settling his hands around her waist, then lifting her the extra inches needed to get the job done.

  His nearness was overwhelming, flooding her senses to the point she nearly failed her mission. Had his hands lingered on her waist longer than necessary after he’d set her back to her feet? Was that the reason for her erratically beating heart? What kind of woman was she to one minute reminisce about her deceased husband, and the next wonder at the feel of another man’s strong hands?

  “Thank you,” she said, licking her lips, going by habit to push back her long hair that was no longer there.

  “You’re welcome.” As if he’d sensed the awareness between them, too, they both fell into awkward step, bustling to clean the wreckage of tissue paper and boxes.

  Once they’d finished hauling the mess to a spare bedroom Chance used for storage, they were in the dark upstairs hall when Chance asked, “Why’d you cut your hair?”

  The question caught her off guard, made her feel even more uncomfortable than she already did. “It was too much trouble,” she said.

  “It was beautiful. Not that it’s any of my business, but you should grow it back.”

  She looked down to hands she’d clenched at her waist.

  “Not that you aren’t still attractive,” he said. “It’s just that Wes always had a thing for your hair. I think he’d be sad to see it gone.”

  What about you, Chance? Did you like my hair?

  Rachel was thankful for the hall’s lack of light—the question, even if asked only in her head, made her uncomfortable. Why would she even care what Chance thought of the way she used to style her hair? Worse yet, why did his question leave her feeling lacking?

  Suddenly, she was wishing she at least had a little more length to work into an attractive style instead of the boyish cut that’d been easy to keep clean and neat at the homeless shelter. This cut hardly made her feel feminine or desirable. But then until her reunion with Chance, she’d had no use for vanity.

  “Chance?” she asked, her voice a croaked whisper.

  “Yes?”

  “When we first met, you know, back when you, me and Wes used to just be friends, hanging out at Ziggy’s, did you find me pretty?”

  He cleared his throat. “What kind of question is that?”

  “I don’t know.” She shook her head. “Sorry I asked.”

  Because she truly didn’t know, Rachel returned to the living room, where holiday cheer and the sight of her contented child banished doubts and fears. The question had been silly. As was her growing awareness of her late husband’s best friend. For a moment she felt better, but then Chance returned, his essence filling the room.

  “For the record,” he said, perching alongside her on the toasty fireplace hearth, “yes. I thought you were pretty back then, but you’re even prettier now.”

  * * *

  CHANCE HAD A tough time finding sleep. Why had Rachel asked him such a loaded question? Why did he feel his final, almost flirty answer had been a betrayal of his friend’s trust? Yeah, Chance thought she was pretty—gorgeous, in fact. But for Wes’s sake, couldn’t he have just skirted the issue?

  Sunday morning, he woke to a breakfast spread fit for a five-star hotel. “Wow,” he said. “What’s all this for?”

  Looking more gorgeous than any woman had a right to first thing in the morning, she shrugged. “Guess I just wanted to say thanks for the great day we had yesterday. Never having had a family growing up, I always wished for that kind of traditional family fun.”

  “Is that what we are?” he asked, forking a bite of pancake. “A family?”

  “You know what I mean,” she said, avoiding his glance by drinking orange juice.

  He broke off a piece of bacon and handed it to Wesley.

  “Yeah,” he said. “I know what you mean. But is that what we are, Rache?”

  Sitting with her and Wesley, from out of nowhere Chance was struck with the realization that no matter how she answered his question, he very much wanted them to be a family. They’d already fallen into husband and wife roles. The only things missing were emotional and physical closeness.

  And as reluctant as he was to admit it, from the day he’d set eyes on her all those years ago, kissing Rachel was something he’d always longed to do. And therein lay the rub. Somehow, he had to find it within himself to squelch that want.

  “We’re sort of a family,” she said. “But I suppose, once I get Wes’s life insurance you’ll probably be glad to get the house back to yourself.”

  Boldly reaching across the table for her hand, stroking her palm, lying to himself by labeling it a casual, friendly touch, he said, “Actually, it’s nice having you two here. Waking up to you in the morning, coming home to you at night.”

  She laughed off his admission. “You’re just being polite. No bachelor actually enjoys being strapped with another man’s wife and child.”

  “That’s just it,” he said. “Crazy as it may seem, I like you being here—a lot.”

  * * *

  ANOTHER WEEK PASSED, during which Rachel had too much time to ponder Chance’s curious statement. He liked having her and Wesley sharing his house? If only he truly felt that way because, truth be told, she liked being there, and judging by Wesley’s easy grins, he did, too.

  Being with Chance made her feel safe—an emotion that’d been sorely lacking from the past eighteen months of her life. Being with him now told her what a fool she’d been for ever denying his offer of help and companionship. He was a wonderful man.

  The only reason she was now standing at the front window on a sunny Friday afternoon, watching for his Jeep to head up the winding lane leading to his home was because she was thankful to him...right? No way could it be something more.

  Trouble was, try as she might to pass off the growing feelings she had for him as simply affection between friends, she did feel something more. Twinges of attraction. Flickering flames.

  Whatever the label, it had wrongfully been there Sunday morning when he’d held her hand across the breakfast table. And Monday night when their hands brushed while Chance helped with Wesley’s bath. Again still Tuesday and Wednesday when they’d shared the usually dull duty of cleaning up after dinner.

  Instead of being ho-hum, washing dishes with Chance towering beside her, making her feel smal
l and cherished and protected, had been—in a word—intoxicating.

  But why? Why couldn’t she keep at the forefront of her mind the fact that Chance had been Wes’s best friend? To follow through on any attraction for him would be wrong.

  Finally, she saw him pulling into the drive. Though she wanted to run to the back door to greet him like a giddy school girl, she somehow managed to rein in her emotions. Instead, with Wesley in her arms, she checked on the latest fragrant batch of sugar cookies still in the oven.

  “Smells wonderful in here,” Chance said with a gorgeous grin on his way through the back door. “You must be psychic.”

  “Why’s that?” she asked, telling herself the heat from the oven had her cheeks flushed—not the pleasure of being the recipient of his smile.

  “My parents invited us for dinner. Sugar cookies are Dad’s favorite—not that he’ll need a reason to fall for you or my buddy Wesley.” After slipping off his coat, then setting his keys and wallet on the blue tile counter, he took the baby from her, swooping him high into the air, then snug against his chest for a cuddle and kiss. “Mmm... I missed you,” he said, nuzzling the infant’s head.

  Rachel fought irrational jealousy strumming through her as she realized she wanted Chance to have missed her, too. Almost as much as she wanted a welcome home kiss...

  * * *

  RELAXING OVER ALMOND Bundt cake and coffee with Chance’s mother, Helen, while the men washed up after dinner, Rachel would’ve had a hard time remembering a time she’d ever felt more content.

  Helen had decorated her home from top to bottom in holiday decor ranging from elegant to goofy fun. The crackling fire and Elvis CD of holiday love songs playing softly in the background only made the night that much more special.

  “Please don’t think me forward for bringing this up,” Helen said after they’d had a few moments to finish their cake, “but my son’s a different person around you and Wesley. Better, in every conceivable way.”

  Rachel was so caught off guard by the woman’s random statement that she darned near choked on her last bite of dessert. “Oh?”

  “He loves you, you know. Has loved you ever since you first met all those years ago. Bless his heart...” She paused for a sip of coffee. “He was always the strong, silent type. His father and I urged him to tell you how he felt before you and Wes grew close, but he missed his window of opportunity and seeing how he and Wes were always such good friends, he did the gentlemanly thing and bowed out.”

  Not knowing what to say, her head and heart reeling, Rachel was hard-pressed to say much else but another “Oh.”

  “He’d kill me if he knew I was telling you all of this, it’s just that—” she peeked over her shoulder to make sure they were alone “—I’m not getting any younger and the thought of having an instant grandson, as well as a daughter-in-law whose company I’m very much enjoying, fills me with indescribable joy.”

  * * *

  CHANCE LOVES ME.

  Lying in bed that night, listening to Wesley softly snore from the beautiful crib Chance had bought for him on a wondrously hectic shopping trip Tuesday afternoon, Rachel wasn’t sure what to do with this knowledge.

  Part of her wished Chance’s mother had kept her nose out of her son’s affairs. Another part, the part of Rachel increasingly craving Chance’s touch, was secretly thrilled. But if she was falling for Chance, what did that say about her love for her poor husband? What kind of wife was she to so soon be falling head over heels for Wes’s best friend?

  Finding sleep impossible, she tossed back the covers and padded barefoot downstairs. Cookies and milk. That’s all she needed to get this ridiculous notion from her head.

  She wasn’t falling for Chance. He was like her brother.

  She was grateful to him.

  “Hey, gorgeous,” he said from in front of the open fridge, the dim light washing over the muscles of his bare chest. “Fancy meeting you here.” He winked.

  Her mouth went dry. That gratitude she was supposedly feeling for him? One sight of his rock-hard pecs and abs and there was no denying it. She wanted the guy—bad. Not in a friendly way, but in a way she had no business even thinking about, let alone aching to act upon.

  “Um, hi,” she mumbled, biting her lower lip.

  “Want milk?” he asked, wagging the gallon jug.

  “Yes, please.”

  While he poured, she grabbed the foil-wrapped plate of cookies from the kitchen’s center island.

  They reunited at the kitchen table.

  “Why can’t you sleep?” he asked.

  For a long time, she stayed silent, toying with her cookie. “Truth? You.”

  Gracing her with a slow, sexy grin that turned her resolve to think of him as a brother to mush, he said, “I’m flattered. At least, I hope I have reason to be.”

  Swallowing hard, she nodded. Everything about him was good. So why, then, did the realization that she was falling for him hurt so bad?

  “Rachel?” Setting his milk glass on the table, he asked, “You okay?”

  In a last ditch effort to prove to herself—to both of them—that the two of them as a couple would never work, she blurted, “Kiss me.”

  Per Rachel’s request, Chance did kiss her. At first, softly, reverently. But then, the closer she melded to him, the more he increased his pressure, dizzying her with fervent strokes of his tongue.

  And then, just as abruptly as their kiss had begun, it ended with Chance pulling away.

  Fingers sliding into the hair at his temples, breathing ragged, he said, “Sorry.”

  “For what?” she asked, eyes welling with emotion. “That was beautiful. It’s been so long since I’ve felt anything but pain. Your kiss...it was as if somewhere deep inside me, the wall of grief I’ve been hiding behind has been shattered.”

  “That’s all well and good,” he said with a sharp laugh. “But what about Wes? Don’t you feel guilty? As if our being attracted to each other is a betrayal of his trust?”

  Eyes closed, she took a deep breath. “Honestly,” she said, eyes open, facing Chance straight on, “I know how awful it must sound, but from the moment your lips touched mine, all I could think about was you.”

  * * *

  TWO DAYS LATER, with Wes’s life insurance check safely in the bank and her bills paid, Rachel should’ve been on top of the world. But as she finished wrapping the last of the presents she’d purchased for Chance and his family, all she really felt was sad. He’d invited her to stay with him through New Year’s—longer if she liked—but after their kiss, she was more convinced than ever that maybe what would be best for them both was for her and Wesley to move on.

  She’d already caused Chance so much trouble. Why stick around if their attraction would only bring him—not to mention, her—pain?

  “You look pretty,” he said from the living room door, hands behind his back.

  “When’s the last time you had your eyes checked? I’m a mess.” From the oriental rug where she’d parked herself in front of the fire with a mess of bows, boxes and ribbons, she grinned up at him. Dressed in comfy, but hardly flattering sweats, her short hair sticking out at crazy angles and no makeup, she was sure she’d never looked worse.

  “My eyes are fine,” he said, wading his way through the mess. “Seeing you like this, so at ease in my home...it’s my heart I’m worried about.”

  “Have you always been such a charmer?” she asked, batting her eyelashes exaggeratedly.

  “I don’t know, you tell me...” From behind his back, he withdrew a perfect cluster of mistletoe.

  With him kneeling beside her, holding the sprig over her head, it would’ve been rude not to follow through with tradition. Seeing how she’d long since put Wesley to bed, Rachel had no qualms about reaching Chance halfway for a mesmerizing kiss.

  * * *

  “YOU KNOW,” CHANCE said the next afternoon, Wesley gurgling high on his shoulders as they crunched their way through freshly fallen snow in the neighborh
ood’s park, “at work this afternoon, I had some downtime while the jury was deliberating. I did some thinking.”

  “‘Bout time,” Rachel quipped.

  Her sassy comment earned her a snowball fight. And like the day at the tree farm, the guys once again got the better of her. Laughing so hard her lungs burned from the cold, she cried, “Stop! I give up!”

  “Oh, no,” Chance said, setting a bundled Wesley beside him so he could tackle her with both hands. “You don’t get to surrender until you apologize.”

  “Sorry, sorry,” she laughingly cried, her foggy breath mingling with his.

  He kissed her, and despite the fact they were lying in the snow, she felt warmed inside. Which was wrong. She shouldn’t be on fire for this man who was her husband’s best friend.

  “You’re forgiven,” he said a few minutes later, when her every defense had been shattered. “Now, back to what I was saying before you so rudely interrupted... I’ve been thinking about how you said you felt like you should find a place of your own. And then I got to thinking how much I enjoy having you both here. And how big this rambling old house of mine is for just me. And how Wes made me promise to look after you if anything should ever happen to him...”

  Heart galloping like a herd of runaway reindeer, Rachel alternately dreaded, yet prayed for what she knew Chance would say next.

  “And so, anyway, what would you think of the two of us getting hitched? You could still keep your own room, if that’s what you wanted, but at least then it’d be official. Me watching out for you and Wesley, I mean.”

  Tears of joy and sadness stung her eyes.

  “Well?” he asked while she blinked.

  “Oh, Chance...” Holding her fingers to her mouth, she tugged off her fuzzy mittens with her teeth, then cupped her hand to his cold, whiskered cheek. “I would love nothing more than to marry you. If only there wasn’t so much history between us...”

  “Say no more,” he said, pushing himself off her. “I understand.” Snatching up Wesley, he trudged toward the house, telling her without a single word that he didn’t truly understand—at all.

  * * *

  AFTER TURNING DOWN Chance’s proposal, to say there was tension between them would’ve been a major understatement—which was why Rachel sat alone in the kitchen that quiet Christmas Eve morning, scanning apartment ads while Chance had gone off to work.