She smiles and bids me sleep but, forgetting my recent declaration of obedience, I sit up again.
“How can I sleep if no-one will tell me what is happening? I am afraid.”
She leans forward, kisses my hair. “Very well. In that case I shall do my best to answer.” She clasps her hands and I wait while she considers how best to begin. “They want the king to change his mind about many things. They did not like his treatment of the late queen and the Lady Mary, or his marriage to Anne Boleyn…”
“But she is dead now, isn’t she? I heard the maids gossiping about it. Didn’t the king cut off her head?”
“Yes, Margaret, but you really shouldn’t listen to gossip. The king has a new wife now and Queen Jane will lose no time in bearing him a son … God willing. It is the changes to the church that these men are protesting about. They don’t like the religious reforms or the closure of the monasteries. They cling to the old ways.”
“Why has Father gone with them? Does he cling to the old ways too?” She straightens up, her gaze straying to the window as she considers my question.
“Your father will do as the king wishes, to ensure your safety and mine, regardless of what he really thinks.”
“But what about the monks? Who will speak out for them? And what about God, what will He think about church reform? Do you think the king has consulted Him about it all?”
“I am sure the king has searched his soul, which is much the same as consulting God. Now, be a good girl and lie down, get some sleep.”
I slide down my pillows, keeping hold of her slim white fingers.
“Everything is changing. Why can’t things always stay the same?” My mind drifts back to my mother and how it was before she died. Her memory drifts across me in a wave of scent – a sense of happiness, security and love. Even after all these years my heart is sore for need of her. Katheryn, my stepmother, although only just past twenty has been married before. When she came here John and I made up our minds not to like her. We hoped she’d go away, back to her old family, but she stayed, and disliking her has not been easy.
“Nobody likes change,” she whispers as she gives my hand a squeeze. I increase my grip so she cannot pull away.
“No. But sometimes change isn’t as bad as we imagine it will be.”
She looks up quickly, understanding flickering in her eyes. Her face softens. “I am lucky to have such a wise daughter. Now, go to sleep. You are exhausted after your adventure. I can see it in your face. Tomorrow you can help me begin work on a new set of chair covers for the hall.”
“When will Father be back?”
“Soon, my darling. He will come back to us soon.”
I snuggle into my pillow, listen to the hush of her skirt as she crosses the room and softly closes the door. The shutters are closed, the fire glowing red in the hearth, all but three of the candles snuffed. Cocooned in my bed, I am safe at last, the terror of the day receding. Today, amid the upheaval of rebellion a new alliance has been forged. The king and the northern rebels may well be enemies but my step-mother and I are now friends.
***
A noise disturbs me. My eyes snap open, my heart begins to thump. I pull myself up on my pillows and peer into the darkness, listening. Footsteps hurrying along the corridor, a door slamming, and an angry voice cut off mid-sentence. I throw back the cover and slide from the bed.
The floor is cold underfoot as I creep to the door, open it just a crack. I sneak across the upper landing. The carved oak bannister is cool beneath my hands as I look over the balustrade to the hall below.
A huddle of servants, and Mother in her nightgown, her hair coiled into a serpentine braid, her face white and tight. My brother John hovers behind her, as if uncertain, as acting baron, he should intervene.
Raised voices, crude words and a glare of torchlight accompany the gang of rebels as they intrude into the hall. The household, with mother at its head, retreats backward. One of the rebels is clutching a flagon, his lips loose and wet, his eyes unfocussed.
“It’s bitter cold in the stables, we’re coming in ‘ere, whether you like it or not.”
“Your leaders have forbidden that. I was promised you would stay outside the house. I have the servants to think of … my children …”
Only a slight quiver in her voice betrays her lack of certainty, her fear, but it is enough to strike terror into my very soul. I sink to my knees and press close to the newel post as the rebel spokesman steps forward, his face thrust menacingly toward mother. John moves backwards, treads on our dog Homer’s paw, who yelps loudly.
“Well, our leaders ain’t ‘ere, are they?”
As the rebel shoves her aside Mother falls back against the wall, my brother darts out of the way. The servants fall like wheat as the mob passes through them, their snivelling protests robbing me of the last of my courage. The dogs will stop them, I tell myself; they will come no further. I dig my fingers into my face, praying I am right.
Behind the doors to the great hall the castle hounds are slavering and growling loud enough to deter even the most fool hardy. But, when the doors are forced open the dogs betray us, and the great fickle beasts leap up to lick the rebel faces in greeting.
From my hiding place I hear the scrape of wooden chairs on the stone flagged floor as the rebels make themselves comfortable, calling for victuals, for more wine.
From my place on the upper floor it is as if the scene below is frozen. The servants are all looking to mother for direction but she remains where she is, hovering undecidedly. Then, suddenly making a decision, she turns on her heel, her braided hair whipping in her wake.
“Come,” she orders. “We must barricade ourselves into my apartments. Layton, be quick, see that food is brought up from the kitchens, enough to last a few days.” She ushers the snivelling women up the stairs. I feel the waft of their skirts as they pass me by, snatches of their terrified conversation instilling me with further dread.
I see Mother reach out and grasp the knob of my chamber door. I want to call out to her but she hurries in before I can speak, cries out in fear when she sees my bed is empty. The flurry of her skirts raises dust from the corners as she rushes out again, belatedly spying me cowering in the shadow.
“Margaret!” She grabs my wrist in relief and drags me in her wake to her apartments that stretch the length of the house. I drop my nightcap in our haste and my hair falls on to my shoulders. Once inside, she clasps me briefly to her chest. I close my eyes, hear her heart hammering, the energy pulsing in her throat. Then, she wraps me in a fur, sits me beside the hearth and her voice when she speaks is high and wavering. “We will be safe here once the door is locked and barred. Don’t worry.”
I turn my face toward the huddle of female servants who have taken refuge by the shuttered window, blubbering and weeping and seeking comfort in numbers. Mother does her best to soothe them, promising that my father will soon be returning.
“We must pray,” she says. “And take comfort that God is watching over us for we know he must have some influence over these ungodly pilgrims.”
Obediently they fall to their knees.
Bread, cheese and wine is brought up from the kitchens, my mother’s ante-chamber is stacked high with casks and pots. At least we will not starve, not for a while.
Layton and the male servants tug their forelocks and shuffle away to resume their duties leaving John the only male in a roomful of women. I can see from his face that he resents it.
“Will our men be safe?” I blurt out. “Won’t the rebels hurt them too?”
Dorothy perches on the arm of my chair. “No child. They may be rough handled a little but it is always women folk who are most in danger when men run wild.”
She picks up her comb and begins to tease the tangles from my hair, throwing small knots on to the fire where they shrivel and burn – like the heretics I have heard them gossip of in the kitchens.
I know what she means. I know the dangers women face. When I was eight years old I was bet
rothed to the son of my father’s friend, Sir Francis Bigod. I met Ralph Bigod only once; a skinny little boy who would not look me in the eye.
Thankfully our marriage will not take place until I am older and, as far as I am concerned they can postpone it for as long as they please. I learned a few weeks ago that Ralph’s father is leading the band of rebels. I heard father whispering of it to Katheryn but they have said nothing to me. I am too young to be involved in their discussions. Instead I pick up servants tittle tattle and it seems that Sir Francis is an angry, foolhardy man. Instead of letting the unrest die down, he is stirring up hatred and will surely bring down the wrath of the king upon us all. Father has ridden away but I don’t know whether it is to intervene with the king or to ride against him. My mind doesn’t linger on it for long.
I wonder what it is like to be married and what sort of husband Ralph will make. I know that some men make harsh partners, demanding much and providing little, and I do not relish the thought of lying with any man skin to skin.
I am not as ignorant as they suppose about the things that go on between men and women. I have seen the servants sporting in the stables, misbehaving in the wine cellar. It is my virtue and reputation that Mother is keen to protect for, once taken, a woman’s chastity can never be redeemed.
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