“What brought you back?” Spencer asked. “Aren’t you supposed to be on your honeymoon or something?”
“I’m back to work,” Lola said. “Towels don’t fold themselves. No honeymoon, at least for a while. There’s a lot going on.”
Spencer laughed mirthlessly to himself and shoved a piece of badly burned bacon into his mouth.
“How long are you staying at the Peninsula?” Scarlett asked.
“A few more days,” Lola replied. “Just while we get everything…settled. Then Chip has to go back to school. He’s already missed a lot of classes.”
“You can always come and stay here,” her dad said a bit hesitantly. “You can have the Empire Suite.”
“I think we need…some space.”
“You mean there’s no way in hell Chip is going to come and stay here,” Spencer said. “It’s not really his standard of living.”
“Chip would be very happy to stay here,” Lola replied. “But I didn’t think you would appreciate having to live with him.”
“Good call,” Spencer said. He pushed himself away from the table. “Scarlett, if you want a ride, the car will be here in five minutes.”
“It’s okay,” Scarlett said, looking out at the gray sky. “I’ll walk.”
Scarlett cut across Central Park and made her meandering, diagonal way up the forty blocks past the joggers and the dog walkers and the moms with the big strollers. She had dressed carelessly, throwing on a pink shirt and an old blue skirt of Lola’s that didn’t really fit her right. It was a horrible day, too. Cloudy, but refusing to rain. Just gray, gray, gray. The leaves were just starting to shrivel and detach apathetically from the trees. Somewhere in the back of her mind, she knew she was late.
Scarlett stopped at the park gate and looked across the street. Frances Perkins looked like the big red loony bin more than ever. Today would be terrible. She would tank on her International Politics quiz. Her French homework was half-baked.
What she needed to do…was skip. Just walk away from school. You can’t lose if you don’t play.
But skipping—that wasn’t in her. She was programmed to obey. Scarlett staggered into the building. The computer screens in the hall seemed too bright, and had too much information on them—this activity was being moved to a new room, this class had completed such and such a project, the jazz band was performing at fourth period lunch if anyone wanted to go. The day went every bit as badly as Scarlett suspected, and she developed a massive headache in third period that never went away. But Biology brought the worst news of all. She blinked and stared in front of her, at the word EXAM written on the board.
“If you’ve had a good look at the syllabus,” Ms. Fitzweld said, “you’ll see that your grade is based on five exams over the course of the year, and the first of these will be next Monday.”
“I hope you study,” Max said, leaning close. “I always try to sit next to a winner. There’s no point in cheating otherwise.”
“Max,” Scarlett said calmly, “I swear to God, I’ll kill you if you don’t shut up right now. I will kill you dead.”
“You just violated the no-tolerance violence policy in a huge way.”
“It’ll be worse when I put my pen in your eye.”
Surprisingly, he backed off. But she could feel him watching her the whole period.
“Oh, Martin,” Dakota said, putting a hand on her shoulder after class. “You are structurally unsound right now. I have some of those big chocolate chip cookies from Fairway. Here.”
It was like she was six years old all of a sudden. But Dakota was right. This is what she needed. She took a big bite of the cookie, feeling the warm chocolate smudge around her mouth.
“Married,” she said, spitting crumbs by accident as she walked down the hall. “Married? What does that even mean?”
“Some people get married at eighteen,” Dakota offered. “I mean, no one I know, but people do. People used to do it all the time.”
“She doesn’t even like him that much! She broke up with him a few months ago. She’s just bored. You don’t get married when you’re eighteen because you’re bored.”
Scarlett ate the rest of the cookie in three angry bites.
“She can undo it,” Dakota said after a moment. “It’s not like it’s forever.”
“It’s kind of forever,” Scarlett replied. “She said she’s not going to, you know, get divorced.”
“She’s saying that now. She’s only been married for five minutes. Once they realize what they’ve done…”
“Once they realize what they’ve done, Lola will be rich. She probably already is.”
Scarlett said it without even meaning to. It just came out of her mouth, a total surprise, like a frog had just sprung forth.
“There is that,” Dakota said quietly. “Do you think that…that Lola…”
“Married for the money?” Scarlett said unhappily. The words hurt. She didn’t even want them out in the universe. “No, but…I can’t think of why else she’d do it, either.”
Being a good friend, Dakota just left that alone. But it was there, the only possibility left standing in Scarlett’s mind.
“Well,” Scarlett said, leaning against her locker, feeling the metal give gently against her weight, “at least you’ll be happy about one thing. I almost went to Chelsea’s show with Eric. But then all this happened, and I never called him.”
“You’re right. That is a good thing.”
“And I guess it makes me seem all aloof and over it, right?” Scarlett added, trying to smile. “That’s supposed to make you more attractive to guys, when you don’t seem to care. They like a little abuse.”
“We love it. We need a spanking.”
That was from Max, who was heading for his usual music room by Scarlett’s locker. He had stopped a few feet off to unabashedly listen to the conversation. Dakota reeled around on him.
“Do you mind?” she asked.
“Don’t ask him that,” Scarlett said. “He doesn’t mind.”
“What she said.” Max nodded at Scarlett.
“Go. Away,” Dakota told him. “I am not kidding. She is not okay right now.”
Max obeyed this time, perhaps a little too quickly.
“See?” Dakota said. “You just need to use a little force with him. Now come to my house. We’re going to watch TV.”
“I’m not always going to be like this,” Scarlett said. “I’ve been useful to you, right?”
“Many times,” Dakota said, leading her along. “Sometimes, we all get a little broken.”
A little broken. Scarlett wondered about that. At what point do you get so broken that it’s time to just get thrown away? She had a feeling she was going to find out.
THE DOTTED LINE
Mrs. Amberson had told Scarlett she didn’t have to come in that week, but going there was better than sitting around at home. She preferred going through the submissions and organizing the file of theater reviews to the yawning silences of the fifth floor. She decided to stop in on the way home from Dakota’s. The intense reporting of her movements had loosened slightly in the last few days. It was a minor benefit in an otherwise untenable situation.
Murray the doorman was in extra fine form, poised at his station, eating one of the biggest sandwiches Scarlett had ever seen.
“Hey!” he said. “That dog of yours made a mess again down here today!”
“I told you,” Scarlett said, “he is not my dog.”
“You gotta do something about…”
Scarlett felt like every capillary in her face had just gotten the go code. She could actually feel the blood filtering into her skin. Someone had to be punished today, and that person was going to be Murray the doorman.
“What part of not my dog do you not understand?” she asked. “What’s the stumbling block? Is it the not? Is it the dog? Is it the sentence? The dog does not belong to me. He doesn’t even belong to my boss. He’s a borrowed dog, and he has issues!”
&nbs
p; Murray made a disapproving sound, slapped down his sandwich, and picked up the receiver to tell Mrs. Amberson that her psychotic assistant was on the way up. Scarlett felt bad enough to stalk away with her head down, not looking back as she turned the corner to go to the elevator bank. She rested her head against the mirrored tiles above the buttons and looked at her face in extreme close-up. Her pores looked huge, her eyes red, and her hair broken and crazy. She didn’t like mirror-Scarlett. She didn’t like the Scarlett she was in, either. Or anyone else, for that matter.
“Did you just yell at the gatekeeper?” Mrs. Amberson asked, curious, when Scarlett let herself in. She was sitting on one of the white sofas, sucking on a piece of dried mango and scanning a copy of Variety. “He called up here sounding very hurt. Remind me to give you a raise.”
“He keeps asking about the dog,” Scarlett said, walking past her and going right to her desk.
“Are you all right, O’Hara?” Mrs. Amberson said, looking over in interest.
“It’s nothing,” Scarlett said. She grabbed for the first of the pile of envelopes to be opened and sorted. She tore it viciously, ripping the headshot contained inside. Some actress. Another starry stare and whitened, eager-to-please smile. The world was full of them.
“O’Hara…”
Scarlett clawed the next envelope from the stack. Where did they all come from, these idiots who wanted to work with them? There had to be a hundred more today.
“O’Hara. Leave those for a moment. Come sit over here.”
“I need to get these done.”
“They can wait.”
Scarlett dropped the envelopes and came and sat opposite Mrs. Amberson, sinking deep into the plush sofa.
“You’re having a hard day,” Mrs. Amberson said. “You didn’t have to come in today, you know. I know it’s not the easiest time right now.”
“I’m fine,” Scarlett said, staring at the carpet.
“Lies are a tremendous karmic setback. Keep it up and you’ll come back in the next life as something without a spine. You’re not fine. And you don’t have to be fine. This move of your sister’s…it’s a shock.”
“I don’t understand anyone,” Scarlett mumbled. She felt her eyes filling up, but blotted any tears away with her thumbs.
Mrs. Amberson thought for a moment before speaking, which was a little bit frightening.
“O’Hara,” she finally said, “I speak from long experience—when it comes to romance, all bets are off. I like to think that I’m a sensible person, but I’ve done some extraordinary things for love. And even the things that didn’t work out, I don’t regret.”
“Are you actually married?” Scarlett asked.
“Oh, let’s not tell folktales right now,” Mrs. Amberson said. “My point is, the only way we learn anything is by taking chances. I can’t really explain what Lola’s done, or why, or say if it’s a good idea or bad. Nothing in this world is black or white.”
“What do I do?” Scarlett asked.
“Well,” Mrs. Amberson said. “You can’t control other people. They’re going to do things you don’t like, that you don’t agree with, that you don’t understand. But, by the same token, they cannot control you. You’re stuck in this situation. You have to decide what outcome you want. What do you want, right now?”
“I want my sister,” she said. “I don’t want to…lose my sister.”
“How could you lose her?”
“She’s gone,” Scarlett said. “She’s living at the Peninsula, and I don’t even know what’s going on with her or what she’s going to do, and…”
“Do you think your sister wants to lose you?” Mrs. Amberson asked.
“No.”
“Have you spoken to her? Called her?”
No, Scarlett had not called her. She’d been too angry.
“The answer seems simple enough,” Mrs. Amberson said. “I know you are more than capable of being direct. Go to your sister and tell her you do not want to lose her. Find out what is going on. Go do it now. Get to the bottom of it before it becomes a much bigger problem. And I know Lola. She undoubtedly wants to talk to you.”
Murray came along the edge of the sofa, sniffing a trail on the floor. He wriggled his pencil-thin stump of a tail nervously at her, in a little show of encouragement.
Lola answered on the first ring.
“Are you talking to me?” she asked.
“I called.”
“I’m at work right now,” she said. “But can we talk? Or meet?”
“You’re at work?” Scarlett asked.
“I work on Wednesdays. But I get a break soon. Can we meet at the park? Southeast corner, by the book stands? In an hour?”
Lola appeared right on time, wearing a little black skirt and blue Bubble Spa T-shirt. She approached Scarlett cautiously.
“You’re still working?” Scarlett asked. “Even after…”
“Sure,” Lola said. “I had to cover for those few days, though. I had the flu, remember?”
It was so odd. Scarlett and Lola had shared a room all their lives. Lola’s presence was just something she took for granted. This looked like Lola as usual, in her black skirt and blue Bubble Spa T-shirt, her fine blonde hair looped back in an attractive knot. But everything had changed. There was a space between them that was hard to cross.
“I’m glad you’re still talking to me,” Lola said. “You’re the only one.”
Scarlett could only shrug.
“Marlene was doing so much better,” Lola continued. “And Spencer…I know that a lot of times it seems like we don’t get along, but it’s just…I don’t know. He frustrates me sometimes. We’re just so different. But I’m so proud of him. Spencer’s on TV. My big brother. I always thought that was impossible, but there he is. And he’s so good.”
That was maybe the biggest compliment Lola had ever paid Spencer, and he was nowhere around to hear it.
“I didn’t think it would be like this,” Lola said. “I knew people would be a little shocked, but I didn’t expect Marlene to react like that. Or even Spencer. Mom and Dad look heartbroken. I don’t want everyone to be upset because of me. I’m going to make it up to everyone. It’s going to be fine.”
“I need to know something,” Scarlett said. “I need you to tell me the truth.”
Lola looked over cautiously, but she nodded. She guided Scarlett to a bench and they both sat down. Scarlett had to take a deep breath before asking the question.
“I need to know if you married him for the money. Because you thought we needed it, or…just to be…secure.”
“That’s what everyone thinks?” Lola asked quietly.
“I don’t know what anyone thinks. I don’t even know what I think. I mean, you get married, you move into one of the most expensive hotels in the city…”
Lola flipped over the edge of her skirt and examined the hem.
“Let me tell you something about the money,” she said. “But I don’t want anyone else to know. You have to keep this a secret. Do you promise?”
Scarlett nodded.
“The Sutcliffes aren’t paying for the hotel,” she said.
“Then who is?” Scarlett asked.
“A friend of their family. The Sutcliffes…cut Chip off. All of his money has been locked up. His credit cards have been stopped. Even his tuition bill won’t be paid. Right now, we have nothing.”
Scarlett just shook her head in confusion. The idea of Chip not having money was…well, that idea didn’t compute. Chip was money. There seemed little else to look at.
“The only way we can fix it,” Lola said, “is if I sign a postnuptial agreement that says I have no claim to any of the Sutcliffe money. They brought in a lawyer and everything. If I sign it, they’ll recognize the marriage by throwing us a party and announcing it. And they set up an account for me. Mrs. Sutcliffe keeps calling it a ‘household account.’ A credit card and a few thousand a month for whatever I need, plus credit at shops for buying things for our new apartmen
t.”
“You mean, like an allowance?” Scarlett asked. “A really big allowance?”
“I didn’t ask for it,” Lola said. “The lawyer just read it off as part of the deal. I told them I didn’t want that, but they just said it was all part of the package. What they really mean is if I’m going to be their daughter-in-law I have to live up to a certain standard. They’re afraid I’m using him, but I’m not. I didn’t do this for money.”
“Why did you marry him?” Scarlett asked.
“It wasn’t…enough.” Lola’s voice wobbled uncertainly. “I just needed…I wanted something real. Something that worked. And I know you don’t believe this, but Chip and I work. I know I’m young, I know all of that. It doesn’t mean I don’t know what I want. You have to understand, the money is just a side benefit.”
“You’re telling me that if Chip wasn’t Chip Sutcliffe you’d marry him anyway? If he didn’t live in a huge apartment on Park Avenue? If he didn’t have a car and a driver, if he couldn’t buy you expensive stuff?”
“It’s all part of who he is,” Lola said, shrugging. “He can’t help that. That’s not why I like him.”
“So then sign the paper,” Scarlett said, shrugging.
On this, Lola got very animated.
“I wanted to! I said I would sign it. I had the pen in my hand. Chip stopped me.”
“Why?”
“Because he didn’t want me to feel second-rate,” Lola said. “He wants his family to accept me, totally. And if they don’t, he’s prepared, you know…for what comes. He’s prepared to let them take it all away. He’s for real, Scarlett.”
That did sound genuine. Scarlett had never doubted Chip’s intentions. She had only doubted Lola’s.
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