‘Gabe, I want to try it now,’ I whispered. He looked down as me as he continued to thrust into me his eyes questioning me and I nodded and bit my lip. He pulled out of me with a deep breath looking concerned, as I sat up to look at him, planting my palms on his chest. ‘Gabe what’s the matter, I thought you wanted this? I’m ready, I want to try it.’
‘Mia, I’m bigger than those beads and I’m worried about hurting you.’
‘Then why bring it up in the first place? Why talk about it if you’re never going to do it with me. I’m telling you that I want to try it.’
‘Mia,’ he pleaded.
‘You don’t want me like that?’ I asked, feeling hurt. I knew he’d done it with other girls, why not me?
‘Of course I do Mia, I want you every way possible,’ he replied, running his fingers down my cheek, ‘but what if I hurt you?’
‘Did you hurt other girls?’
‘Unintentionally yes, I don’t want to hurt you baby.’
‘Then we take it gently and if it hurts I tell you to stop.’
‘You have to promise me you will. I’ll be fucking furious if I find out you lied and I hurt you.’
‘So is that a yes? The longer we argue about it the less horny I’m feeling,’ I said with a sulky pout. He grabbed me, kissing me before he threw me back on the bed, flipped me over onto my front and smacked my bottom really hard making me squeal and drench myself. I watched him lean over to the bedside drawer, slip on a condom and smother himself in lube before he applied some to me with his finger which made me clench.
‘Get on your hands and knees, move up the bed and grip the headboard,’ he barked. I scrambled into position, incredibly turned on that he was ordering me about and with the thought of trying something new. ‘I’m going to warm you up first with my fingers ok?’ he advised. I could hear the excitement in his voice. I gasped as he entered me with one initially, but managed to stay relaxed and groaned as he moved it inside me. ‘You ok baby?’
‘Yes. I’m so sensitive there it feels really nice,’ I arched my back and inhaled sharply as I felt another finger push its way in, my nerves firing off pleasurable sensations to my brain. I groaned and pushed back against him as he gently moved them in and out lubricating me internally.
‘I can’t believe you want to try this so quickly, you only lost your virginity a few weeks ago.’ I could detect a hint of pride in his voice and it made me happy to know I was pleasing him.
‘What difference does that make?’ I sighed.
‘Most girls won’t even entertain the idea of a finger let alone going the whole way, it’s considered pretty hard core.’
‘Why won’t they try?’ I said, groaning again.
‘I don’t know, it has this stigma attached to it that it’s wrong. Maybe it’s because you can’t conceive that way.’
‘Well I couldn’t get pregnant by us doing oral, so why’s that ok and this isn’t?’
‘I’ve no idea baby, but as long as we’re both happy to do it then there’s nothing wrong is there?’
‘No, so can we try now?’ I felt him start to slide his fingers out of me and made the mistake of clenching and winced.
‘Mia that was only two fingers, you’re not ready.’
‘I clenched, I just need to remember to relax and not clench and I’ll be fine. Please Gabe, try.’
‘You tell me you quit the minute you’re unhappy Mia, I mean it.’ He put more lube on me and leaned over me and kissed the back of my neck.
‘I will.’
‘Promise me.’
‘I promise, Gabe please, before you put me off and I lose my nerve.’ I took a couple of deep breaths and gripped the headboard, closed my eyes and focussed on relaxing. I opened my mouth to steady my breathing as I felt his head nudging against me and his hands gripping my hips as he slowly started to push. My nerve endings were firing off a million to the dozen and my eyes went wide as a Frisbee as I inhaled and exhaled, desperately trying not to clench.
‘Gabe,’ I cried out, my senses on overload.
‘Do I need to stop?’
‘No, until I say those words you carry on no matter what I say ok?’ My nails dug into the headboard. I felt stretched to my limit, it was that weird combination of pleasure and pain, a bit like being spanking, but on a much higher level. He did as he was told and I started to pant and put my forehead on the headboard and groaned loudly. ‘O god stop a minute I’m tensing up,’ I panted. He ran his hand up and down my spine slowly making me shiver. ‘How far in are you?’
‘About two inches.’
‘Shit, it feels like all the way.’
‘Mia I’ll stop. We can try again another time.’
‘What will be different next time Gabe? No, I just need to relax, carry on.’
‘Mia.’
‘Gabe carry on please,’ I pleaded. If I could focus on the nice sensation, instead of the pain side of it, I’d be fine. It was incredibly intense, a constant amazing feeling as opposed to the ebb and flow of being fucked normally, masturbating or even Gabe’s tongue. I was determined that if Lexi could do it, so could I. Surely the worst was him entering me? He was the same width all the way down so it shouldn’t hurt any more than it already did. I noticed he still hadn’t moved. ‘Gabe does it feel nice for you?’
‘You’re incredibly tight so even though I’m not thrusting, yes it does.’
‘Tighter than the other way?’
‘Not quite, but pretty damn close,’ he sighed. I took another deep breath and made my mind up, if we kept going a millimetre at a time we’d never make it and he was going to lose his hard on.
‘Gabe, please will you play with me? It’ll relax me more.’
‘O course baby. I need to lean forwards, so you may feel some pressure.’
‘O god,’ I moaned as he gently leaned over me, his stomach and chest pressed against my back. He placed his fingers on my clit and started to circle, while kissing my neck and I felt my body relaxing immediately. ‘Gabe do it, just go all the way.’
‘What?’
‘Just do it, please just do it, or I may chicken out. You’re already in me and we’ll be here all night trying gently, just don’t slam into me, one smooth movement please.’
‘Shit Mia.’
‘Possibly not the best of phrases given our current position,’ I giggled, trying not to imagine what could happen given where he was wedged. ‘Please Gabe I’m begging you to. Just do it, I want this, so much.’ He didn’t answer, he kept kissing me with his one hand caressing me and the other holding my hip and I sighed, he’d obviously just chickened out. I released my grip on the headboard and went to turn my head to tell him to forget it, just as he pushed. I felt myself give way and yelped as he buried himself to the hilt in me and groaned. I felt like I was going to hyperventilate I was panting so hard, I felt strained, ridiculously strained and over stretched.
‘Mia,’ he sighed.
‘O god Gabe you … you feel enormous, it feels … it feels just … amazing.’
‘Really baby? You’re not in pain?’ his voice sounded different, more husky and I could tell it was the effect of what he was doing to me. I regulated my breathing, now I knew he was all the way in I felt more relaxed, I’d gotten over the worst.
‘Sort of, but it’s bearable pain. The … o god … the pleasure side of it is so much stronger. Is it ok for you?’
‘It feels bloody tight Mia, so it’s definitely a nice sensation. Do you want me to move in you?’
‘Yes, but take it gently and please keep fingering me, you’ve stopped.’
‘Sorry, it’s just kind of exciting to know that I’ve had you like this.’
‘Does it make you feel all manly?’ I giggled.
‘Yes, I feel like I own you now, all of you,’ he said proudly as he kissed my neck.
‘You’re such a macho male Gabe. Maybe I ought to try a strap on and do it to you, so I get to feel the same on the ownership stakes.’
‘Over my dead
bloody body,’ he exclaimed making me laugh again and I felt the small movement run through me.
‘Are we doing this or what? I’m on sensation overload here,’ I groaned. He bit the back of my neck then slowly pulled himself backwards, sliding almost out before going back in and we both groaned in unison.
‘Again please Gabe, keep going until I tell you to stop.’ He set up a gentle rhythm and the more he did it the more I relaxed into it and enjoyed it. The feeling wasn’t as intense as stimulation on my clit or nipples, or from him fucking me normally, but it was constant. I tried clenching on each thrust in and we both grunted and moaned. Now he was in me it felt comfortable, almost natural to feel so full. My head started to tingle and I felt my cheeks flush. ‘Gabe, it’s happening,’ I groaned and squeezed him harder. He suddenly he put two fingers up inside me and I screamed his name as I gripped the headboard. ‘O god it’s too much … Gabe … it’s too much.’
‘O god baby, you’re so wet, you feel so good.’ He pushed them in and out as he was fucking me and I felt myself seeping all over his fingers as my climax approached. I whimpered as I bit my arm hard and started to tremble, which only added to the sensation of him filling me from behind. When it hit me full force, I flung my head back and screamed and felt myself clench so tightly around his dick and fingers, that he grunted and shouted out my name and I felt him flex inside me as he came. He lay on my back groaning trying to hold himself up with his fingers on the bed, while I used all the strength in my arms to stay on all fours. There was no way I wanted to fall on the bed with his large dick up there.
‘You alright baby? You screamed really loudly,’ he asked nuzzling my neck.
‘Yes, but I don’t know if I can hold myself up much longer, my arms are shaking.’
‘You want me to come out?’
‘Yes please, but do it slowly Gabe.’ I felt him pull himself upright which sent a tingle through me and he gently placed a hand on each butt cheek as I pushed against the headboard as I felt him very slowly pulling out. I groaned, it sent shivers up my spine, until the very last second when he actually left me, then I yelped in pain and slid down the headboard and buried my face in the pillow and fell on my side. ‘Owwww that hurt,’ I felt tears stinging my eyes. ‘Why does it hurt now?’
‘Mia you’ve just had a rather large cock in a very small hole. I’ve really stretched you baby, are you ok?’
‘I will be,’ I winced and wiped my eyes.
‘Shit it was too soon for you.’
‘No Gabe, no. It was so good while you were doing it, it just hurts now.’
‘Just lie there baby, I won’t be a minute.’ I heard him pad out to the bathroom and he returned soon after and lay down and spooned behind me and I automatically tensed as I felt his semi-hard dick graze my buttocks. ‘It’s ok, I’m just coming to hold you nothing else.’
‘Thank you.’
‘You’re one amazing girlfriend, do you know that?’ He kissed the side of my neck, which always made me go all soft and pliable and I sighed.
‘I can see why woman have threesomes. It must be amazing to be filled in both holes, or even to have three guys so you can have another in your mouth at the same time.’
‘Holy shit Mia. You’re not suggesting? ... if you think for one minute that I want another man even touching you, let alone …’
‘No,’ I exclaimed in horror. ‘I’d never want anyone but you to touch me, but I’d like to know what it feels like. Maybe after I’ve got more used to it you could try with a larger vibrator or something at the same time?’
‘God I so hit the jackpot when I saw you,’ he squeezed me in a bear hug before letting me go. ‘Do you think you can stand?’
‘I think so why?’
‘We need to get you cleaned up, you’ve got wet thighs, a lubed up rear and a sticky ice cream body, plus I need to change the sheets.’ He sat up and climbed off the bed and I slowly rolled over to hold his outstretched hand. I winced as I sat upright and again as I stood. ‘Bath or shower?’ he asked.
‘Shower then bath, if you don’t mind.’
We walked into the shower and turned on the water and let it wash away the stickiness of the ice cream from us both. He kissed me and stepped out to run the bath while I carried on cleaning up.
‘I’ll go and change the bedding, take as long as you need.’ He gave me a lovely smile and disappeared. I washed my hair again and stood for a moment, my hands pressed against the wet tiles. I couldn’t believe how far I’d come in a little over two weeks since first sleeping with him. It was insane, insane but simply amazing. I turbaned my hair and stepped into the bath, he’d put some kind of relaxing bubble bath in for me and I could hear the bubbles popping and fizzing as I inhaled the eucalyptus scent they gave off. I sank down into the water and gasped as it touched me, I was still sore and hoped it would pass quickly. I lay back, closed my eyes and enjoyed the warmth of the water surrounding me.
‘Here you go,’ he came in with his joggers on, with a mug in his hand which he handed to me and kissed my forehead.
‘You made me a hot chocolate?’ I asked, surprised.
‘I remember Lexi saying you liked it with two sugars, so I thought it may help.’
‘You’re so sweet Gabe,’ I whispered as I smiled up at him.
‘How are you feeling?’ he asked as he sat on the side of the bath and stroked my stomach under the water.
‘Good, better. The water and bubbles are really nice. Are you going to join me?’
‘No, I want to talk to you.’
‘Talk to me in the bath.’
‘Mia I’m already turned on again seeing you lying there all hot and flushed, getting in with you would totally put me off the conversation I want to have with you.’
‘What’s wrong?’
‘Nothing. I’ve been thinking about you …’
‘Gabe seriously I told you I’m fine, I can hardly feel anything now.’
‘That’s good to know, but that’s not what I wanted to talk about. It’s about Tuesday I want ...’
‘O god, what’s it with the bath and emotionally fraught conversations with you?’ I groaned.
‘Mia will you let me finish without butting in, it’s bloody infuriating,’ he snapped. I put my head down and sipped my hot chocolate feeling suitably chastised. ‘Sorry I’m just worried about you managing when you come out of hospital. You’ll need to take it easy and I’m not happy you being alone in the day, especially given the fact that you can’t cook.’
‘I’ll be fine Gabe, I’ll take it easy. I have my phone for when Lexi’s in lectures and we’ve lived without cooking quite well for the last few weeks.’
‘Somehow that doesn’t reassure me,’ he said as he lifted his hand out of the bath and gently stroked my face.
‘So what would reassure you?’
‘I want you to come and live here until at least next Sunday.’
‘Gabe that’s just ridiculous.’
‘Why?’
‘I’d be sitting here alone for most of the day too, so why move?’
‘Lexi, Doug and I all have free periods to look after you and for the odd one where none of us are available, I can ask Mrs Darby to change her schedule.’
‘Gabe,’ I sighed.
‘It also means that I can come home and cook proper meals for you. You’ll have the cinema to entertain you and when you feel up to it you can swim, which will help strengthen your stomach muscles. Plus I get to spend every night with you, watching over you, without rushing backwards and forwards.’
‘Gabe it seems overkill, plus I’m not happy leaving Lexi alone for that long.’
‘I knew you’d say that Mia, so I’ve just asked Lexi if she’ll come and stay here too and she’s said yes. Nothing’s overkill if it means you’re safe and I have peace of mind.’
‘You spoke to Lexi about this before me?’ I frowned.
‘Don’t be angry with me. I knew that you’d use her as an excuse and I wanted to make sure that
I’d covered all options.’
‘I don’t believe you sometimes,’ I sighed, exasperated.
‘Mia you know how I feel about you and I’m really not happy about you staying at the apartment with all those stairs as well. I asked out of courtesy, but it’s not up for negotiation. You’ll agree to it to make me happy.’ He had his authoritative tone on again. I sighed and drank my chocolate, my mind racing. I was half angry with him and half touched that he cared so much and wanted to protect me.
‘I’m not happy that you went behind my back Gabe, in future you talk to me before roping my friends into decisions about me.’
‘Mia ...’ he tried to interrupt.
‘I’m not done,’ I snapped fixing him with a glare. ‘Have you discussed this with your father? How would he feel about a girl he and his son hardly know roaming around his house alone?’
‘You’re not a girl I “hardly know” Mia.’
‘Gabe, I could be a kleptomaniac for all you know and you could come back to find the house empty.’ I looked at him annoyed and was amazed to see he was stifling a laugh. ‘What’s so funny?’ I demanded.
‘Well it’s not like you’d get very far with a couple of stitched holes in your stomach, a locked gate and no form of transportation.’
‘That’s not the point and you know it.’
‘What do you want me to say Mia? You want me to apologise for caring about you? For loving you? Because I won’t.’
‘I don’t know what I want you to say, I just need you to hear what I’m saying.’
‘I do hear you, so in future I’ll speak to you first. This is me Mia, I’ll always be this way when it comes to looking after you, you’re important to me, so get used to it. I’m already nervous enough about Tuesday, so no more arguments about it please, it’s done,’ he said firmly. I looked up at him and caught my breath, he looked so confident on the exterior, but his eyes betrayed his feelings, he really was worried. I kneeled up in the water and put a wet arm around his neck. I kissed his lips again and again as he put his arms around my foam clad body.
‘Why are you so nervous?’ I asked as I searched his face.
‘You’re having an operation baby,’ he said with a heavy sigh.
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