And we’d had quite enough death for the present, thank you very much.
Morio had hold of Delilah’s collar and at his yank, she slunk to his side, still growling, but obeying his subtle order. Morgaine backed up to stand beside me. Arturo and Mordred followed her.
“You know who that is, don’t you?” Her eyes were wide.
I nodded. “Beira, the mother of the bean nighe.”
“Yes. She is wily and dangerous and she bears no mercy, child, so watch your tongue and pray she doesn’t ask you any questions.” And then, Morgaine did something totally out of character: She wrapped her arm around my waist and leaned against me. “Aeval will have my head if you’re hurt or worse on this trip. She threatened to burn me to a crisp if anything happens to you, so be cautious.”
So Aeval had made Morgaine responsible for my safety? That was why she had resisted going in the inn—she’d known that it would be dangerous and didn’t want to risk my neck. Whatever Bran was holding over her had forced her into a difficult situation, for sure.
I resisted smiling, even though the image of Aeval towering over Morgaine, pissed out of her mind, gave me a Schadenfreude sense of glee. I particularly didn’t want to encourage it, since the cause would be my own demise—or according damage. Besides, the fact that Beira was bearing down on us? Not news to smile about.
I simply gave her a nod and tried to ground the energy that, by now, was driving me nuts. It was as bad as being horny. There were days, well, especially before I’d met my men, where I just wanted to jump the next person walking by, regardless of who they were. Only this—this was my entire body, not just certain tasty bits.
Tanne noticed my discomfort. He leaned close enough to whisper, without touching me. “Ground it into your staff. I’ll bet the weapon soaks it right up.”
I stared at him. “That’s a good idea. I’ll try it.”
My staff was sentient, or would be once she fully woke up. Surely she could take a jolt of energy without damage. I clutched the yew between my hands, and focused the energy into the staff. It met the aura of the yew with a bizarre kaleidoscopic mix. A flash blinded me, and then the staff began to siphon off my energy, greedily sucking it in. As I watched, a veil of faerie lights began to shine around it.
What the hell . . . ? But there was no mistaking it. A web of tiny, flickering eye catchers glowed from within my staff.
Relieved, feeling calmer, though by no means safer, I caught a deep breath. Now, I wouldn’t risk the magic backfiring on anybody if I jostled them. Though what my staff was going to do with it, only the gods knew.
A swirl of snow stopped by the bog monster. We were clear of the creature now, but still too close for comfort. The wind beat a steady hail of sleet as snow mixed with the rain. The grassland beyond—marshy as it was—was covered with a thick layer of white.
The air began to shimmer, at the edge of the snow field, and then, slowly, a woman appeared out of the mist.
Beira. She wore a flowing white satin skirt that trailed behind her, the train blending into the snow that followed in her wake. An over-jacket of silver lace with a sweetheart neck—a wide keyhole cutout, fastened at her throat with a sparkling jewel. Over her clothes trailed a fur cloak that flowed along the train of her dress. The fur was silver—fox, perhaps, with a pale bluish tinge to it.
Beira’s hair fell to her knees, pure white—reminding me of Pentangle, the Mistress of Magic. But when she looked at us, her eyes were the black void, with a single sparkling diamond in place of a pupil, and her skin was the color of milk.
A headdress rose from her brow, a complex web of thin ice pearls linking together to form a knotwork that looped and spiraled into the air, with trailing chains that draped like diamonds. The light—that odd color that always precipitates a winter storm—caught Beria. She sparkled like a giant prism, casting rainbows over the now-frozen ground. Everything about her shimmered softly, and she made the cold inviting. I wanted to snuggle at her feet and sleep for a decade.
The Mistress of Winter glanced down at the bog monster and lightly tapped it with her staff—a tall spiral of ice, carved with intricate knotwork. The bog monster let out a thundering moan and froze over. Though I wasn’t close enough to see, I knew she’d just killed it with her chill touch.
Beira looked us up and down, her gaze fastening on Bran for a long moment. Raising her hand, she pointed at him and he suddenly jerked forward, his expression angry and resentful. Even from where I stood, I could tell he was under her control. He stumbled to his knees at her feet, head bowed.
With a pale smirk—her lips were the palest pink they could be—she raised her hand, yanking him to his feet. By her expression, she seemed to be enjoying this little game. Just what kind of Elemental were we dealing with? The Autumn Lord was aloof and frightening, but he seemed fair. Pentangle had been personable, though she left me breathless with her power. But Beira had a calculating and cruel look on her face.
I shifted, wishing we were in the mountains, away from this place.
Bran staggered forward, awkwardly bowing. His eyes smoldered. The son of Raven Mother didn’t like answering to anyone or anything, and according to Morgaine, not even his mother could make him toe the mark. But here was Beira, yanking him around like a puppet on a string.
“Aren’t you going to pay homage?” Her words startled me—everything had been so quiet except for the storm. “Lick my feet? Grovel at my side? I thought the son of Raven Mother played the toad when he was ordered. Or so it runs through the grapevine.”
“Beira, what brings you down from your lofty mountain peaks? You manage to yank those stone spires out of your ass yet?” Bran’s voice was ragged and forced, as if he were struggling to even open his mouth.
I cringed. He was playing a dangerous game, and he was playing it for all of us. And yet, seeing him held there, I felt an odd sympathy. Hyto had controlled me, forced me to grovel at his feet. I knew how much it cost the ego to kneel when the last thing in the world you want to do is show your enemy respect.
Beira seemed oblivious to the rest of us. She closed her hand and he scrabbled, his hands clutching his throat. Another moment and she laughed, then opened her fist. Bran fell to the ground, convulsing.
“You forgot, perhaps, a payment for which you are indebted? Perhaps it merely slipped your mind and you aren’t trying to sneak out of our bet?” The words might have sounded cajoling, like Raven Mother’s, if it weren’t for the icy overtone that made them an outright threat.
“I haven’t forgotten. I just don’t have your payment yet.” He glared at her, still breathing hard.
“You have until the Solstice, O Master of Ravens. Should you fail, winter will descend upon Darkynwyrd with a fierce and cruel nature, and your mother will know what you’ve been up to. I would not want to be in your place should that happen.” With one last thrust of the hand, she sent Bran skidding and rolling over the grass back in our direction.
As he came to a stop, he rolled to his hands and knees and, with a shaky look over his shoulder, scrambled away.
Ignoring him, Beira turned to look at the rest of us. She caught my gaze and I felt as though I were looking into the depths of the ice and snow embodied. But there was no recognition there, no sense of acknowledgment, and she shifted her attention. I watched her. She gazed at every one of us, even Delilah in her panther form. Then she came to Arturo, and there was something there—a flicker. Morgaine saw it, too, and raised her hand to her heart but said nothing.
When she had made the rounds, Beira held up her tartan and walked over to the edge of the marsh, where the grass ceased to grow on solid ground and, instead, covered the dangerous watery swamp. She knelt and plunged her tartan into the icy water, then held it up. The white wool was streaked with blood. Beira stood, shook the cloth in the wind and it dried immediately. She held it up and turned toward us.
I had the impulse to ask her who, but then stopped. It wasn’t fair to the others. I knew it wasn’t me. In fac
t, I knew exactly who she had predicted—it had been obvious as sin when she held Arturo’s gaze for so long.
Beira folded her cloth, then tucked it beneath her fur cloak once again. She gave Bran one last look. “Winter Solstice. This time, remember, or you will experience a winter you will never forget and your mother will pay for your ineptitude.” And with that, the whirl of snow covered her and she began to walk forward, and vanished into the storm.
Silence descended on us again, except for the howling of the storm.
Morgaine spoke first, her voice shaky. “We head for the mountains now. We must reach there before night.” Saying nothing about Beira, looking neither right nor left, she swept forward. I hurried to her side as Delilah shifted back into her two-legged form. Morio caught up with me. Mordred, Bran, and Arturo resumed their place in the middle of the pack, and Delilah and Tanne stepped in behind them.
It would be tricky going through the marsh now that the snow was covering the grass. It would be harder to stick to the solid areas and avoid taking a nosedive into the water. We’d need to make good use of our staves. As I eyed the narrow strip, it struck me that we’d be lucky to get two abreast, let alone three.
Morgaine must have been reading my thoughts because she spoke up. “We really should travel single file. As much as I dislike the idea, I think it will be far safer in order to avoid the quicksand and bog.”
“You’re right.” Morio didn’t sound happy with the idea, but I was glad he’d been the first to speak up. I felt like I had somehow become Morgaine’s rah-rah girl, and I just didn’t have the cheerleader mentality.
We reorganized. Morgaine took the lead, then, in order: me, Morio, Mordred, Bran, Delilah, Arturo, with Tanne last. Before setting out, we made certain everybody had a stick of wood or long sword with which to prod the ground.
The storm had set in, in earnest. A parting gift from Beira, no doubt. Though the ground had only about an inch of snow so far, with the rate it was falling, we could easily see a foot by morning.
As we marched along, silent among the softly falling flakes, I thought about home and Smoky, and how everybody was doing. It had been a little under a year since my time in the Northlands. The months had flown by. And now, here I was again, off in a different world, once again fighting against the winter.
My thoughts wandered to Trillian. The Shadow Lands were deadly. If I faced the truth, he was in worse danger than we were. I didn’t like thinking about it, because there was nothing I could do to help him. In the silence of our journey, his fate—and Rozurial’s—weighed heavy on my mind.
I’d followed my conscience in telling him to go. He’d done what he felt necessary. So why did I feel so horrible about making what I knew was the right choice? I whispered a soft prayer to the Moon Mother that my worry was just that, and not a premonition.
The afternoon wore on. The temperature felt like it was hovering around thirty, and though my cloak and my spidersilk skirt and shirt were warm, I still felt the bite of the wind on my face. I’d already pulled out my long gloves and tucked them on, and I took down my ponytail so my hair covered my ears, then draped a scarf over my head and wound it around my neck, covering my mouth and nose. Morgaine had layered up, too, and I didn’t have to turn around to know that everybody else had been digging through their packs.
For some reason, I hadn’t expected it to be snowing here in the realm of Elder Fae. Or even winter, for that matter. When I thought about it, the expectation made no sense but then, not all of my ideas were one-up on the game.
Morgaine prodded the ground with every step she took. Now and then she’d shift direction—swing to the left or the right, and as we passed by where our path would have taken us, I’d look down and see water glistening below the snowy surface. Luckily, as the day wore on, we saw no more creatures. If there were more bog monsters, they were either frozen or dead. Now and then a bird would flutter past, looking for shelter, and once I thought I saw some sort of fox race through the undergrowth, but the plains seemed barren as far as fauna went, and the snow dissuaded the insects from making pests of themselves. Summer would be horrible here, with the bog and marsh—mosquito heaven.
Every hour brought us that much closer to the foothills and by midafternoon, they were looming close, their rocky crags a nerve-racking portent of what the mountains beyond them must be. As the end of the grassland came into sight, leading onto soil and low-growing forest ringing the hill, I leaned forward.
“Have you been here before?”
Morgaine shook her head. “No, as I said, I’ve been searching for an entry into this realm for centuries. When we first met, I told you I was in search of the Merlin. But when we discovered Aeval in the crystal cave, and Titania woke from her drunken slumber, everything changed. The Merlin didn’t seem as important, once I’d met the Queens of Summer and Winter.”
“Well, no longer Summer and Winter. Now they rule the cycle of the day, along with you.” I had to give Morgaine her due, if only to appease the ego that I had begun to suspect was born out of insecurity.
She shrugged. “You and I both know that they keep me around for reasons only they can fathom. I’m very aware that I’m dispensable, from their point of view, which is why I keep my options open. I didn’t survive this long without always putting myself and my loved ones first.”
Darting a quick look over her shoulder—and over mine—she lowered her voice. “Arturo would not survive without me. Surely you can tell that much. And Mordred . . . he is blood kin.”
“Well, he is your nephew . . .” The thought that Arturo might be Morgaine’s half brother hit me like a ton of bricks. For some reason, I’d always thought that she was his aunt on his mother’s side, but surely she hadn’t been Gwenyfar’s sister. If she was Arturo’s sister, that put a whole new spin on the matter, but I didn’t want to pry—and I couldn’t, not without letting on I knew that Arturo was Arthur.
“Blood doesn’t always make for good relations, Camille.”
I let out a sigh. “I know that only too well. Back in Otherworld, Father’s relatives ignored us as best as they could because of our mixed blood. You take care of both of them.”
“I keep them out of trouble, if that’s what you mean. And I keep food in their stomachs and clothes on their back. I do what I must.” She let out a snort. “I know precisely what you and your sisters think of me. And well you should be cautious. I would not value your lives over those of my Mordred and Arturo. However, you’re wrong in thinking that I am jealous of you.” She tapped the ground beside her and nodded for me to move up to walk at her side.
“Then what is it? Why do you look at me like you do when we’re together at Talamh Lonrach Oll?” Maybe she would tell me the truth. Yesterday, I wouldn’t have laid odds on the idea, but today? Maybe. Just . . . maybe.
Morgaine inhaled a long breath and held it, then slowly let it whistle between her teeth. “Girl, you remind me of myself, so long ago I cannot count. I fear for you. You’re being used. You’re being used by Aeval. By Derisa. Asteria used you before her death. You’re a pawn in a game far larger than you believe is under play. Just as I was—though for vastly different reasons.”
I bit my tongue. My initial reaction was to wax on about my duty, about doing what needed to be done even if I didn’t want to. But curiosity got the better of any self-righteous soapboxes onto which I normally climbed.
“What do you mean? How were you used? And who used you?”
Morgaine wiped a light drift of snow off her shoulders. The flakes were thicker, sticking to our cloaks, hair, and scarves. After a moment, she let out a long breath and turned to face me.
“Meher used me to stir up trouble. I was young and had no idea what he was up to. He had goals, you see. He wanted to become the Merlin—the High Priest in all forms. He was only acting for Myrddin, who had long vanished from sight. But until the Hunter gave call, there would be no chance for him to take the antlered crest. The Hunter—like the Moon Mother—decides
who his High Priest will be.”
“And the Hunter wasn’t handing him the title.”
“No. So Meher got a bee in his bonnet and he set in motion a series of events that changed history. But plans went awry and Meher hung me out to dry. He used me, he used my heart and then played me for a fool. In the end, I was saddled with a destiny I never would have accepted had I realized what was going on. You see, I was destined to be the Lady of the Lake in Avalon, but when Meher got done with messing with my life, I was lucky they let me leave alive.”
The bitterness in her words hit my heart. There was so much truth in them, so much anger and loss, that my suspicion of her crumbled enough for me to see beyond my preconceptions. The woman beside me had been hurt, seriously wounded in her heart. She had been stripped of the promise of a destiny she had wanted and worked for. And now, she wandered the world, alone with two men as mysterious as the sorceress herself.
“Why have you been searching for the Merlin—the real one? Myrddin? What can he do for you?” I wanted to reach out, to make her understand that I heard her pain. But I knew she wasn’t one for consolation and so kept myself from resting my hand on her arm.
Morgaine paused. We were at the edge of the grassland. She took one last look at the fields behind us—at the marsh and the swamp, and the blowing snow.
“What can he do for me? I don’t know, to be honest. I want my name back. If I can’t have my station back, I want to know the ways of the dark forest. I want to retreat deep into the woodland. I want . . . peace of mind. Do you think that is so much to ask, Camille?”
With a heavy heart, hoping that the Merlin wouldn’t turn out to be like the Great and Powerful Oz—a con artist and huckster—I shook my head. “No, cousin. It’s not too much to ask. And I hope, for your happiness, that he can give you what you seek.”
She smiled sadly. “We shall see. But Camille, be wary. Don’t let yourself end up following in my footsteps. Make sure you know what’s going on. Don’t trade in your heart for illusions. You have three men you love dearly and a family who cares about you. Above all, don’t trade any of them for shiny titles. And make certain you know who the other players in the game really are.”
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