Gillian groaned and together Phoebe and Honoria followed her stare to the other woman’s fast-approaching father and another prospective suitor at his side. “Go,” Phoebe whispered out of the side of her mouth.
On cue, Honoria positioned herself between Gillian and the determined pair marching through the crowd, and with a last grateful look, she all but sprinted away, weaving and darting past curious lords and ladies, and then she disappeared.
Suddenly, the marquess stopped. He scratched his head and then turned off in search of his daughter.
“Surely, there is more to life than this,” Honoria muttered at her side.
At her friend’s hopeless words, regret filled her. One time she would have had proper words of hope and an optimistic thought for the cynical one of their trio. Not this time. Phoebe stared above the heads of the dance partners now performing the steps of a quadrille. It was deuced hard to be optimistic or truly happy when you found yourself wed to a man who’d merely used you in some convoluted scheme and then was content to let you carry on your life, while he carried on his.
“He is not worth it, you know.” Honoria’s quietly spoken words brought her back from her despondency.
She didn’t pretend to misunderstand. However, neither could she force out words of concurrence. The loyal butler, Wallace, had seen more in him and, at one time, so had she. Surely, some of that had been real?
“Phoebe.” She looked to Honoria once more. “Not all people can be fixed.”
“I know that,” she said quickly. Because she did. Some people were broken beyond repair and could not be healed, no matter how much you willed it, no matter how much you wished it. It didn’t, however, stop you from hoping.
She was never more grateful than when Honoria changed the subject to a far safer matter. “You know they aren’t really staring at you any more than you think they are.”
A small laugh burst from Phoebe’s lips.
Honoria leaned close and dropped her voice to a low whisper. “Only you and…and…the marquess know the true circumstances of your marriage. Why, for all intents and purposes,” she motioned to Lady Wentworth’s guests. “You may as well be any newly married woman here.”
“Without the wedding trip,” she said dryly.
“Without the wedding trip,” her friend said with a nod, either failing to hear or deliberately ignore the sarcasm lacing Phoebe’s words. “They still see you as a love match.” Which is what she’d believed they would be not even three days ago after rides through Hyde Park and afternoon visits and stolen interludes at curiosity shops. Phoebe closed her eyes a moment and willed back the pain.
Her friend discreetly slid her hand in hers. “Oh, Phoebe. Not here. You are to live your own life.”
“I didn’t want to live my own life,” she said on a ragged whisper, damning Society for hovering on the fringe of her broken heart. I wanted a life with him. I wanted to be loved and happy and everything my own mother was not, nor ever would be.
The column of Honoria’s throat moved and she looked beyond Phoebe’s shoulder. Recognition flared in the other woman’s eyes and Phoebe followed her stare.
Her heart plummeted to her toes as she assessed the tall, regal lady approaching them. Phoebe had seen her before, on numerous occasions. At every one of those meetings, the woman had been polite and smiling, and cloaked herself in more than a little bit of sadness. Now, as Honoria’s Aunt Margaret, the Duchess of Monteith, approached, jealousy knifed through her being and slashed a trail of hurt in its wake. This was the woman Edmund had loved so very much that he’d have involved not only Honoria but Phoebe in his sick, twisted game of revenge.
The duchess came to a stop before them.
Honoria dropped a curtsy and greeted the too-young-to-be-a-widow duchess. “Aunt Margaret.”
Phoebe dropped a belated curtsy and stood a silent observer to the warm exchange between aunt and niece. Love shone through their similarly shaped eyes. She drew in a slow breath as understanding settled around her brain. This was why Edmund would have used Honoria, because the only person who’d possessed his love so very clearly loved Honoria. She curled her fingers into tight balls, hating herself for her own pettiness. But God help her, she loathed this woman for having possessed the only real sliver of Edmund that had existed in the twenty-five years since he’d last truly smiled.
As though feeling her intense focus, the duchess shifted her attention to Phoebe. She gave a small, sad smile. “I understand congratulations are in order.”
Incapable of words, Phoebe managed a shaky nod.
For a moment the other woman looked at her with an aching understanding and pity, a look she’d worn when she’d stared upon her own mother. Phoebe’s breath escaped her on a swift exhale. God help her. In just a handful of days, she’d transformed herself into—her mother. She lurched backwards and knocked into the Doric column at her back.
Honoria looked questioningly at her, concern radiating from her eyes.
She mustered a smile for her friend’s benefit. “I-I need but a moment,” she managed to squeeze out and then before Honoria could press her further, she spun on her heel and disappeared down the same path Gillian had taken a long moment ago. With each hasty, uneven step, lords and ladies looked at her with rabid curiosity in their cruel gazes. Phoebe collided with a young woman. The lady shot her hands out and steadied her, momentarily halting her retreat. Phoebe stared blankly at the woman with glorious blonde curls piled atop her head, who now looked at her with unexpectedly kind eyes…and pity…there was pity there, too. For everyone knew that Phoebe had gone and wed a gentleman who spent his days and nights at his clubs. A man who’d had to have her at any cost and, yet, at the same time, didn’t want her. She bowed her head and sought the proper apology but emotion balled in her throat and she swallowed convulsively.
Spinning on her heel, she continued her retreat; the young woman forgotten. A loud hum filled her ears and the crowd’s cheerful laughs and gossip exploded into an ugly menagerie of sound within her mind, until her heart kicked up a frantic, panicked tempo. She reached the edge of the ballroom and then with each freeing step away from polite Society, the sound receded and her heart resumed its normal cadence. Still, Phoebe continued walking the length of the hall, onward through her host and hostess’ empty corridors. The lit sconces cast flickers of eerie glow that danced off the gold damask wallpaper. A loud creaking, as though a depressed floorboard echoed in the silence and she froze. Footsteps sounded down the hall, and with her heart thundering, Phoebe shoved the nearest door open and stumbled inside. Hurriedly, she pressed the door closed with a soft click and then leaned against the hard wood panel.
She blinked several times in a bid to adjust to the darkened room and then took in the sanctuary she’d stolen. Distractedly, Phoebe tugged off her white gloves and tossed them down onto a nearby table.
White stared back at her. White walls, white upholstered sofas, white marble. A white parlor. Phoebe shoved away from the door and started tentatively about the room. She wandered absently over to a nearby side table and picked up a pale blue porcelain sheep. With a wry shake of her head, she turned it over in her hands studying the unexpected splash of color. In a world of white, the sheep had been painted blue. Surely, there was more to the oddly colored glass figurine. She skimmed the tip of her nail over the creature’s ears. Had the glass sheep began as white with one mistake by the artist resulting in an entirely different shade to the piece? Or had that always been what it was intended for it? An inevitable fate of…color. How very similar Edmund was—standing out, different than all other members of the ton, but not necessarily for reasons that were good or honorable. When had he been a white sheep?
With the silence of Lord Wentworth’s parlor as her only company, she set the figurine back upon the side table and confronted the true nature of her upset—it wasn’t the humiliation at being left the day after they’d wed, it wasn’t the whispers and stares of polite Society, it was her. She hated tha
t for his betrayal she still wanted him to be more, needed him to be more. Phoebe folded her arms close and hugged herself. She wanted him to be the uncomplicated person Wallace had spoken of who’d once smiled; not that cynical, angry, and cold child who’d been ruined by life.
Her gaze went unbidden back to the blue sheep. Except, he could never be that person again. He’d been painted, and that could not be removed. Edmund would remain forever—blue. He would seek out his clubs and carry on with his women. He would exact revenge on those he felt deserving of some warped sense of justice for crimes mayhap real, mayhap not. And what would become of her?
A loud, creak rent the quiet and slashed into her ponderings. She swung her gaze to the door. Her heart jumped at the stranger who stepped inside. The gentleman, she vaguely recalled as the Viscount Brewer was not unpleasant looking; quite handsome, in fact, with thick, dark unfashionably long blond curls better suited to that archangel Gabriel. It was the glint in his eyes that marked his soul black.
“Lady Rutland,” he drawled with what most women would likely find a charming grin on his hard lips. “A pleasure to see you.”
Chapter 24
Annoyance stirred in Phoebe’s breast at the gentleman’s bold perusal and she resisted the urge to fold her arms protectively across her chest to hide her breasts from his leering stare. “My lord, forgive me,” she said, squaring her shoulders. She took a step around the table and made for the exit of Lord Wentworth’s parlor. “I’d intended to steal a moment for myself. I shall leave you to…” Her words trailed off as he slowly closed the door behind him.
“What if I don’t want you to leave, my lady?” He dropped his voice to a teasing whisper. At his boldness, annoyance slipped away, replaced with a burning anger.
She tipped her chin up. “If you will excuse me,” she said again this time firming her tone with the same steel she’d detected in Edmund’s words so many times, now knowing why he’d affected that icy cool. It gave one strength. Even if it was merely an artificial one. There was something protective in that detachedness.
Phoebe made to step around the viscount, when he shot out a hand blocking her retreat. “Come, my lady, you arrive alone, Rutland’s wife, just newly married.” He captured a loose curl between his thumb and forefinger and her mouth went dry with fear at the boldness of that touch.
“Do not touch me,” she gritted out. She swatted at his fingers, but he merely laughed.
“Am I to believe you are not here in search of a lover who will fill the void left by your absent husband?” His hot breath fanned her cheek. Icy fear snaked down her spine as she registered for the first time the precariousness of her situation.
Phoebe made a grab for the door handle when he grabbed her wrist, capturing it in a hard, punishing hold. She winced at the tightness of that grip. “Release me this instant.” And as Society quaked with the fear of her husband’s name, she boldly tossed the reminder of Edmund. “My husband, the Marquess of Rutland, will not tolerate you putting your hands upon me.”
The viscount tossed his head back and the room thundered with his laughter; that cold, mirthless sound chilled her. “Oh, something tells me your husband will not much care.”
Phoebe pursed her lips. “You are wrong,” she snapped. For Edmund’s ruthlessness and lack of regard where she was concerned, she still did not doubt he’d destroy any man who infringed upon that which he viewed as his—including her. “He will care.” She yanked at her hand again, but the viscount held firm. “If you believe he’d allow any man to touch his wife, then you do not know Lord Rutland.”
“Then you, my lady, do not know your husband.” He released her with such alacrity she stumbled back. Phoebe tripped over herself in a bid to put distance between them. With a sneer on his lips, he advanced. “A man who takes his pleasure with married women—mine—” Oh, God. Agony lanced her heart. “—others, why he surely will not care when you take your pleasures where you would.” Her heart twisted at this glaring truth of the man Edmund had been…mayhap, in fact, still was. One who’d make love to a married woman. She drew in a ragged breath and hastily put a chair between them. “So, that is what this is about,” she charged. “Your attempt to inflict the same shame and hurt on my husband for having dallied with your wife?”
For a moment rage flared in his eyes and she thought he might strike her. Then, a feral grin turned his lips. “I assure you, you will quite enjoy it.” And then he continued walking.
At the prospect of letting this dissolute nobleman touch her the way only Edmund had, a shudder of revulsion racked her frame. “I am sorry.” That softly spoken apology brought him to a swift stop. “I am sorry that my husband…” Her cheeks blazed with heat. “C-carried on with your wife.” For everything she didn’t know about Edmund, there were important pieces she did know. He would not force himself on an unwilling woman the way the viscount attempted. “But I do not want your attentions.” He narrowed his eyes, as her meaning became clear—his wife had.
With a curse, he shoved the small barrier between them away with the tip of his heel and grabbed her at the waist. “A woman who’d willingly wed herself to Rutland would like it rough,” he said crudely as he captured her wrists within one of his larger hands. He ran his free hand down her body.
At each careless caress, her body turned first cold and then hot with sick shame. She bucked against him. “Let me go, sir” she hissed twisting and turning, she managed to yank a hand free. Phoebe raked her fingernails down his cheek and a sharp cry escaped him as he released her suddenly and she went sprawling backward upon the floor. A finger streak of crimson blood marred his cheek.
He touched the wound and then stared at the stain on his fingers. “You bitch,” he spat.
Phoebe gave her head a clearing shake and shoved to her feet. She darted past him and then raced for the door. A cry rang from her lips as he pulled her by her hair and yanked her against his chest. Tears sprung behind her eyes at the cloying fear and desperation that coursed through her. “Let me go,” she cried out, as he ran a trail of hot, wet kisses down the curve of her neck. In response, he nipped at the flesh. “P-please, stop.” Her desperate entreaty emerged as a broken sob.
Panic sucked her in a vortex and threatened to drag her in. Phoebe bucked and twisted against him in a bid to free herself, but he tightened his manacle-like grip on her.
“How sweet to have Rutland’s wife pleading,” he whispered cupping her right breast in his hard, punishing grip. And fury lit to life, blotted out her hopelessness.
“You bastard,” she hissed at the violation and jabbed her elbow back hard against him, but he laughed, that cold, merciless sound indicating he delighted in her struggles. She landed a hard jab to his midsection and the air left him on a whoosh. The viscount lost his grip on her. She ducked out from under his arms and sprinted for the door. Her heart pounded loud in her ears, the rapid, staccato beat deafening.
Phoebe stretched her fingers to the handle of the door.
Lord Brewer wrapped an arm about her waist and hauled her back so her feet left the floor and she kicked at the floor with the tips of her slippers. “You bitch,” he said with such emotionless calm that terror stabbed at her insides. The viscount threw her down upon the sofa with such force the seat knocked the mahogany side table. The rapid movement unsettled the blue, porcelain sheep. Lord Brewer grinned cruelly down at her and then came over her, shifting his larger frame atop her smaller one. He covered her mouth with his and she gagged as he thrust his tongue into her throat. The weight of him, coupled with his cruel kiss, crushed off her airflow and she scrabbled at his back in a futile attempt to remove him from her person.
He cupped her left breast this time and a groan escaped him. “You will enjoy it, I promise,” he said on a guttural whisper.
She bucked and twisted against him and his erection dug painfully into her belly. A convulsive shudder racked her frame. By God, what manner of man was he that he should be so aroused by her struggles? Her blank gaze
slid momentarily from the monster above her as he worked a hand between them and undid the front flap of his breeches. Phoebe bit the inside of her lip so hard the sickly, sweet, metallic tinge of blood filled her senses. He shifted himself between her thighs and in one last frantic bid at freedom she punched him in the temple, landing an ineffectual blow.
God help me. A sheen of tears blurred her vision and, in this moment, she hated Lord Brewer as much as she hated herself for her inability to stop his assault. With blood pounding loudly in her ears, she stared hopelessly up at the white-wash ceiling and she braced for the viscount’s swift, painful entry when he collapsed. Phoebe froze in shock and then she registered the slack-jawed man atop her frame. She swung her gaze to the stranger above her with her fingers outstretched, the blue sheep clasped tightly in her hand. The kindly-eyed blonde woman she’d seen earlier in Lady Wentworth’s ballroom stood above her, her mouth set in a furious line. With a slight cry, Phoebe struggled with Viscount Brewer’s powerful weight.
The woman sprang to action. She set the sheep down hard on the table. “Here, allow me to help you,” the woman offered and then with a grunt, tugged the viscount by the back of his jacket and rolled him unceremoniously to the floor where he landed with a loud thump.
Phoebe scrambled to an upright position. With shamed mortification burning her skin, she averted her gaze and attempted to right her gown and hair and a sob escaped her which she buried into her trembling fingers. She struggled to her feet and made a bid to step over the prone form. Then a dawning horror crept in. Her gaze flew to the other lady.
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