One In A Billion (Billionaire Obsession Book 1)

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by Gabi Moore


  His almond brown eyes flicked through the lines rhythmically, and he read quickly and quietly, not betraying his thoughts about it at all until he nodded once and raised his head again to speak.

  “It’s … very good,” he said simply.

  I felt warm and happy and confused and filled with a strange growing hunger that had no direction, no focal point except to do whatever he would find pleasing. It was a silly, girly state of mind, but as his praise hung there between us, I didn’t care, and I relaxed a little in the thought that I had written something good. For him.

  “Thank you,” I said, consciously trying to reign myself in.

  He let the pages drop to the floor and looked at me again, cocking his head to one side.

  “I’m sorry about what I said the other day, about you being a cowardly journalist,” he said. The warmth and darkness of the room seemed to be closing in all around me. “I just don’t like to see people being …well, you have a talent, and you censor it. Why?”

  My face flushed with this new, gentle turn his attitude to me had taken. I tried to think of some witty comeback, something to quip in response. I tore my eyes away from his and tried to think.

  “What are you afraid of, really? Why do you hold back all the time?” he said, and I was again thrown off by the casual intimacy of the question.

  “Hold back? I never hold back,” I snorted. I told it like it is. That was my whole job, right?

  “Yeah you do,” was his immediate response. “You go up really close to something you want, then you back away. Like you’re scared.” He shifted his weight in the chair and let his eyes wander shamelessly all over my body. “I meet a lot of women. A lot of women. Some are more closed up than others, and that’s fine by me. Take a woman like Kai. Now she’s not afraid of a damn thing. Her heart’s completely open.”

  The mention of her name felt like finding a bitter seed in what till now had been a sweet fruit. I hated hearing him talk about her.

  “Yeah, I’m sure being a gold digger like her takes a lot of guts” I said.

  He laughed.

  “See? See how closed you are?”

  “But come on Tom, Kai? Of course her ‘heart is open’, I mean she’s stupidly beautiful and she probably has had men paying her way all her life.”

  He raised his eyebrows at this little outburst.

  “Where is she anyway?” I asked.

  “She’s in Brazil right now. I only see her a couple of times a year.”

  “In Brazil? Attending a sugar daddy conference is she? Getting some more plastic surgery?” I felt growing anger that we were talking about her at all, that she was in the way, even when she wasn’t here at all.

  “No not at all. Kai owns a coffee plantation in Minas Gerais and she’s in some serious talks with the unions there about implementing more environmentally friendly farming techniques.”

  It felt like Kai had appeared before me and slapped me hard across the face.

  “I’m sorry,” I said.

  “It’s OK, you’re jealous of her,” he said simply. He smiled at the frown this brought to my face.

  “You know, if you just opened up a little, you’d probably discover lots of other feelings, too.” His eyes were moving over me again.

  “Ok, fine, I am jealous of her,” I said. I did feel relieved to say it out loud like that.

  “See, was that so hard?” he smiled. “To be honest, I’m a little jealous of her,” he said, laughing.

  I laughed too.

  “You’re also very attracted to me,” he said suddenly, and I stopped laughing.

  “What?”

  “Yeah. You keep coming here, getting really close …and then running away again. You’re attracted to me.”

  “I…” I stammered, but realized I was only going to say something stupid, to lash out again at him. It seemed that every wall of resistance I put up, every jab and barb, was melted by him. It really was an uncanny ability of his. Disarming.

  “Hey, it’s OK, though. I know that you are, and you don’t have to pretend you aren’t.”

  I said nothing.

  He leaned back in his chair and gazed at the ceiling.

  “Why do people walk around this earth so tightly wound up? Why does everyone censor themselves and pretend not to want what they really want? There’s something I admire about people who can surrender. Who have the guts to be themselves. People who can look at something bigger than them and just let go, just release into it, you know?”

  I did know. It was something, in fact, that I admired in him. Suddenly, all the tales of his exploits and orgies in the media were falling into place. Maybe Kai wasn’t so bad.

  “Maybe it’s just my ego, but I’m convinced I could get you to open up, too. To me.” He said, completely unguarded.

  He extended one bare foot in my direction, and we both watched as he gently let his toes graze the edge of my ankle and then rest on the floor again, right in the empty space between my feet.

  “Let’s try an experiment, ok? I’m going to compliment you and try to make you feel good, and you’re going to not be a big ol’ bitch about it.”

  We both laughed.

  “No seriously. No arguing back. No smart ass comments. You just sit there, and enjoy it, ok?”

  “Ok,” I said, already way, way out of my comfort zone.

  “Ok.”

  The fire crackled quietly.

  “You have very, very pretty hands, and your hair is really sexy,” he said.

  I didn’t know whether to laugh or squirm and hide under the seat. He was right; I was completely incapable of receiving any sort of compliment.

  “I like how little your body is. You have such dainty wrists and arms, they’re really pretty…”

  I opened my mouth to speak but he jumped in,

  “Uh uh uh! Don’t argue! Just enjoy it. Doesn’t it feel good, to be told that you’re pretty?’

  I felt like I had turned the most obvious shade of school girl pink and would die of embarrassment any second now.

  He leaned back in his chair again, looking off towards the fire. “I think this world would be a very different place if people weren’t so afraid of pleasure. Of pushing themselves to see what they’re really capable of.”

  “Ha!” I interjected, “Tom Hood, the philosopher, fancy.”

  He shot me a cold look. “So what if I am? Is that bad? Maybe it seems cheesy to you, but I don’t want to hide behind make-believe barriers, too afraid to feel anything.”

  It occurred to me that he was probably slightly drunk. It also occurred to me that I didn’t care. At all. I wanted to be persuaded by this strange argument. I wanted to go along with it. I had this vague notion that if I just blurted out how meeting him here, like this, was the single most thrilling moment of my life, that he would judge me, that my excitement would seem unsophisticated, that we would withdraw everything and I would be humiliated.

  “I’m attracted to you,” I said and braced myself. He looked at me with a bright face.

  “I’m attracted to you too” he replied, quickly.

  The fire crackled on, oblivious to this new change in dynamic. I hadn’t had a single sip to drink but felt myself intoxicated nonetheless. By him. By the thrilling thought of myself and what I was capable of right now, in this moment. Surely life doesn’t really work this way? Surely people can’t go around blindly declaring one another hot and boning in the streets? If it was such a good idea to be this “open” why didn’t everybody do it?

  “I’m wondering if you’re going to kiss me,” I said at last, feeling somehow that narrating my own thoughts felt less intimidating than baldly saying what I wanted, outright.

  He smiled.

  “Take off your clothes,” he said.

  What?

  “Trust me,” he said to my shocked expression.

  “But I…”

  “No! Just stop thinking for a moment. No excuses. Just listen to me. Do you trust me? Or are you going to turn around
and run away from me again?”

  “Yes but--”

  “Do you trust me?”

  “Yes,” I breathed quietly, sealing my fate.

  “Good. Then take off your clothes.”

  I already felt half way naked as it was. I stood up gingerly, hands shaking.

  “It’s just that I’ve never--”

  “Did I tell you that you could speak?” he said, throwing a playful look at me.

  I smiled.

  With fingers that felt like they didn’t even belong to me, I awkwardly peeled off my blouse, raising it over my head, feeling that the brief moment my face was hooded by the fabric was insanely dangerous, exposing me completely to him. I never wore a bra; my two breasts stared back at him like two sleepy creatures who had been pulled from their bed. He said nothing, only drank up the sight of me with a very serious look on his face. His gaze urged me on. I unbuttoned the top of my skirt and felt the scratchy fabric drop to the floor. This, along with the shoes I had kicked off, was tossed aside and left me with only my panties, which I wriggled off all at once, almost relieved to be fully naked now, entirely nude in front of him.

  “There. Now you’re at your most powerful,” he said.

  I was nearly overwhelmed with my own nakedness, and the shock of feeling the plain air rushing over every part of me, unprotected.

  “Sit down,” he said.

  I sat down.

  “Spread your legs for me.”

  I paused, then slowly lifted one and then the other leg, placing each on the arm rest of the chair, relishing the delicious agony of having the most intimate part of my body exposed to him in this way.

  “Good,” he said, and moved forward off of his own chair, dropping to his knees just a few feet from me.

  “Wider,” he continued, and I felt an instant twinge between my legs. I obeyed, stretching my legs further out, pushing my crotch even closer to his now-lowered head. He placed one broad hand on my inner thigh, and with the other, he hovered unsure fingertips over the skin there, the delicate touches sending hard shivers all up my spine. He traced a gentle line upwards and to my bellybutton, something so soft, so fleeting and tender, I couldn’t help but hold my breath.

  His face was a blend of awe and utter concentration, as though something of unimaginable value had been placed before him, but only for a moment, and if he should make even a single wrong move it would flutter off instantly. A slight smile was at the corner of his mouth, waiting there, and I found my hands rising of their own accord and finding their own way to the top of his head. His hair was so silky.

  I had never had a man look at me like this. Ever. Shifting closer to me, he lifted his glance to me, releasing that little quivering corner of his mouth into a full, warm smile. I blushed and smiled back. He was intoxicating. I had yearned for that look the moment I saw him lavishing it on Kai. Fuck. Kai. How many other women were there anyway? My body grew a little colder. And how many had been lured here this same way?

  “You’re beautiful,” he said.

  “I bet you say that to all the girls,” I blurted, instantly breaking the spell and making the smile fall completely off his face.

  He frowned and leaned back, then looked away, as though thinking.

  I suddenly felt stupid. Exposed. I hated this. So, he wasn’t denying it, then? Why was he irritated – that I was on to him?

  The warm intoxicated feeling was rapidly floating away; I snapped my legs shut and sat up, a little dazed.

  “It’s late. We should probably get some sleep,” he said and swiftly rose to his feet.

  “Yeah, I should get going.”

  He shot another hard look at me.

  “You want to go? Just stay here.”

  My face burned. As always, I was the idiot. Something clicked in me and I saw only an insult hanging in the air, the suggestion that he thought I was “easy”, that I was just another stupid slut he could conquer. Did he think I was buying any of this? That he wasn’t using the same tired tricks on me he had used on every able-bodied woman this side of the Atlantic? I should have seen it earlier. Nothing had changed, I guess. I was still my desperate 16-year-old self who turned to stupid-jelly at the merest whiff of attention from a man, and now here I was, compromised beyond belief and--

  “You’re really petrified of sex, aren’t you?” he said, his demeanor seeming to harden with each passing moment.

  “Petrified? Nope. But I know when I’m being strung along. I’m not one of your little groupies, sorry,” I spat.

  “No, you’re really not,” he said, a little sadly.

  I searched his face, desperate to find something there. Would he rush in and try to placate me? Tell me I was wrong and that he wanted nothing more than for me to trust him? What kind of a relationship could two people like us have, anyway? It would be a one in a billion chance, an airheaded Cinderella story. Unbelievable. Did I really expect that he would date me, an awkward idiot earning 25k a year? My shoes were scuffed second hand heels I had snatched from Goodwill, a $10 throwaway of some rich girl’s who had the life I really wanted. I was a hack. I had nothing but an old laptop that needed updates and a kitchen drawer filled with mismatched spoons and a sick cat and--

  “It was my fault. I don’t know why I pushed you. I’m sorry. I don’t want you to do anything you don’t want to.”

  My head hurt. I felt wounded, exhausted.

  Without feeling myself doing it, I found my body leaving the room, and before I knew it I was outside in the chill, unwelcoming air. What was I expecting, anyway? Had I just blown it? But what would someone like Tom Hood, the Tom Hood, want from me? I came to this town to start a new life, one where I was in control, where I was worth something. I stood up a little taller. No, it was all too predictable. I wasn’t going to be sweet-talked by a billionaire with an 8-inch cock and the smile of a salesman. I was better than that.

  And I wanted him to think I was better than that, too.

  Chapter Nine

  The next day, I was in a dark mood. Money and power did weird things to people. And now, it was doing weird things to me. On one side of the argument was my old friend Cassie, telling me matter-of-factly over cappuccinos that in this town, there was no getting around it, you simply had to sleep with a few important people here and there if you cared about your career. Men are just dogs, especially the rich ones, you see.

  And what about the tar sands? What about all the nasty rumors? How could I trust someone who was so used to getting his way all the time, so used to simply buying whatever he wanted? What could I ever be to such a person but an object, something to collect and put in the cabinet along with all the other naïve girls?

  But on the other hand…

  I sat at my desk, sulky and miserable, dwelling on that tender look on his face as he stared up at me. At that moment, he seemed like nothing else in this world but a warm, loving, happy being who was devoted to nothing but my pleasure. And I believed him. Ah fuck. It wasn’t that his promises didn’t appeal, that I didn’t completely buy into this just let go and trust me spiel. I did. I really did. I just hated that I did. And I hated that now, on this dull Friday morning, I was on my own again, ego bruised somehow, wishing heartily that I wasn’t an idiot and had had the guts to just…

  Penelope would want my final draft soon for the Saturday edition. I stared for a long while at two separate documents in front of me. One: a subtle, half-praising, generous account of the hidden Tom Hood, the man that nobody knew about, the complex mind behind the fame… the other: a damning snark piece, delivering blow after blow of cutting criticism, snippy one liners, all dripping with the implication that not only was Tom Hood as bad as he was portrayed in the media, he was even worse.

  So, which was he? And how could I, a 23-year-old junior writer, be the one to decide? He had sniped the weakest link in our company on purpose, had tried to sleep with her and bullshit his way to a flattering piece …for what? Ego? For fun? The thought made me shudder. I quickly tapped out an emai
l and sent the second article to Penelope. Fuck him.

  Chapter Ten

  “I forgive you. Don’t worry about it. I understand why you did it,” he said.

  I sat opposite him, prickling. This wasn’t the reaction I was expecting, true. By now, the article had been printed and was being read by thousands all over the country. It wasn’t good. But if I was being honest, I had in the back of my mind that I had hoped he would summon me again. Be angry, even. I wanted to look him in the face, with my clothes on, and tell him that no matter how rich he was, or how powerful, there were just some things in life he couldn’t have.

  I had blustered into his house, again, this time shaking with my newfound arrogance and the conviction that I was right. Not just right, but that I had seen through a very transparent bit of manipulation on his part, and now I would have my chance to gloat a little. I felt bad. Sure. I wasn’t a monster. There was something so sweet and open in his face the last time we had met, something so touching and trusting in his plea for people to be open with each other …too bad it was complete bullshit. He didn’t have to know that I was still crushing on him, still a little bewitched by that moment by the fire.

  “I did it because it’s the truth. I never agreed to write a promotional piece,” I said.

  We were in yet another room of the grand house, an airy terrace room filled with palms and what I guess rich people think counts as low-key. I had always known that I would find my way from rags to riches one day …just, not like this.

  “Do you really believe that? Do you really believe everything you wrote about me?”

  I was totally taken aback by how unguarded he seemed. I had expected him to be vengeful, and to scoff at me or even threaten me with legal action …anything but this, really. Instead, he looked hurt, his broad frame crumpling a little in the wicker chair. I looked out the window, saying nothing.

 

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