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Jeff Schilling
For my daughter, Maggie
I never really thought much about Michael. He was like a stunted plant or a faded beige wall. I knew someone named Michael existed, but I didn’t know him.
And he wasn’t that weird.
There are degrees of weirdness, and weird can be good or bad or somewhere in-between. Bad weird is doing mean things to your pets. Good weird is answering the door nude when religious nuts drop by to save your soul. Convincing yourself that you’re really Wonder Woman is somewhere in-between, but closer to bad than good.
Being gay isn’t weird. Pretending to be straight when you think you’re gay is a little odd, but not as weird as wearing tinfoil on your head so the government can’t read your thoughts.
I think I’m gay, but I’m not stupid, so I pretend I’m straight. I may be weird but not stupid. Pretending gives me an advantage. The less anyone knows about you, the better.
Everybody’s weird. Some people just have a higher percentage of weirdness.
Anyway, on the outside, Michael wasn’t that weird. High school senior, sort of tall, but the gangly, awkward kind of tall. Hair that was a bit too long in front and a little too short in back; hair that was parted in exactly the wrong spot and always looked like he’d taken a stab at cutting it himself.
Michael was smart, but in a way that made people often uncomfortable rather than envious. He was the kind of kid who would often come up with the answer before anyone else, or ask a question that would baffle kids and educators alike. The kind of question that gets a, “Well, I’m afraid we’re running short on time, so we need to move on.”
Michael walked with his head thrust forward, kind of like a bull with its eyes glued to the floor. It was like he’d fallen through a trap door recently and wasn’t about to let it happen twice. He didn’t run through the halls, but his stride was a little too choppy to qualify as walking. And when he was in a hurry, the hair in front would start to flop.
In short, Michael seemed to enjoy making his time at school far more unpleasant than necessary. As a result, most of us just assumed Michael had the bad kind of weirdness inside as well as outside. And the combination relegated Michael to a fairly low caste in the high school system—one that had to endure mental and, sometimes, physical abuse on a regular basis at Alexander High School.
To be honest, though, the Michael abuse wasn’t something that really caught my attention. Like I said, he barely registered. But the day I got sucked in was different. Looking back, I blame my mom. No particular reason, other than I enjoy pinning the blame on Mom. It always gets her going, which is usually pretty amusing.
But at this point, the whole thing has gotten out of hand and someone needs to be held responsible.
And I’m not about to take the blame.
“What’s wrong?” Mom asked.
I shrugged.
We were sitting at the kitchen table in-between stacks of Mom’s work papers. She’s some kind of accountant, I believe. Or auditor. She could be a coroner, though; she definitely has the demeanor.
Anyway, even though Mom does, in fact, have a designated “office” that includes four walls and an actual desk, she prefers the kitchen table.
It was early—I usually don’t roll out of bed until I hear, “. . . and this is the last time I’m going to come in here.” I have an alarm clock but prefer Mom. In order to use the snooze feature on my clock, you actually have to reach up and touch the right button. With the Mom Method, I eliminate the need to physically move until I absolutely have to. This might sound a bit extreme, but it can sometimes mean an extra twenty minutes of sleep.
It also succeeds in getting Mom nice and wound up before I even get out of bed.
Anyway, it was early and I was sitting at the breakfast table, a slice of unappealing toast parked in front of me. It was just me and Mom; Dad’s never around in the morning.
I sighed.
“What’s wrong, Matthew?” she said again, this time in her put-upon tone of voice.
I watched her from the corner of my eye as she scanned the piles of paper, looking for something.
I gave a second, smaller shrug.
“Don’t tell me then,” she said, taking a sip of coffee.
Although I wasn’t hungry, I was a bit irked that Mom thought she could get away with offering her only child a slice of burnt toast with an uneven scrape of butter.
Mom glanced sideways at me, then over at the microwave clock.
“We need to get moving,” she said.
I absently poked at my toast, putting a hole in it.
“You will be eating that before we leave,” she said.
“No,” I said, sadly. “I’m afraid someone put a hole in it.”
“You’re still going to eat it. I don’t care what you did to it.”
“Me?”
“Matthew, I watched you do it.”
“Untrue. I would never desecrate a good piece of toast. Besides, you were looking at your papers.”
No response.
Apparently, Mom was preoccupied. Interacting with someone who’s preoccupied irritates me. If she couldn’t prepare a better breakfast, the least she could do was give me her undivided attention. It’s hard to believe she doesn’t know that by now.
“Did you hear me use the word ‘desecrate’?” I asked.
“I did. Marvelous,” she muttered. She leaned over the table, squinting at a pile of documents on the opposite side.
I shook my head.
She glanced at the clock again and said, “Okay, why don’t you—”
“Can I have some juice?” I asked, politely.
Mom turned to look at me.
“You see I’m busy, right?”
I brought a hand to my throat. “It’s just . . . I feel like I might be getting a sore throat,” I whispered, “and I really don’t want to miss school today.”
Mom stared. I swallowed, grimacing painfully.
She narrowed her eyes and started to open her mouth, but closed it and sighed.
“Are you okay?” I rasped. “Are you sick, too?”
I watched her jaw muscles clench.
“You need to drink this quickly,” she soon said as she returned from the refrigerator. “We’re leaving in five minutes.”
I accepted the glass, mouthing the words “thank you.”
Mom crossed her arms. I took a delicate sip and winced. She rolled her eyes but didn’t say anything. I watched as her eyes were drawn back toward her piles.
“Big project?” I wheezed.
“Yep.”
One of the stacks seemingly called to her. She moved toward it, hand extended.
“Need any help?”
“Help?”
I nodded at the stacks.
“No, thank yo
u. I just need you to hurry up.”
I set my glass down thoughtfully, then pulled a few papers from the nearest stack.
“Here you go,” I said, handing them to her.
“Matthew! No—I have everything organized. Where did you get those?”
The papers were whisked from my hand. Glaring down at the table, she tried to find the correct pile.
“Sorry,” I said, hoarsely. “Just trying to help.”
“As I said, you can help me by—”
“You know I’m always happy to help.”
Mom snorted.
“What?” I asked, looking surprised. “I’m a very helpful person.”
Mom laughed. It was the short, annoying variety.
“You don’t think I’m helpful?” I asked.
“Finish the juice and get your backpack,” she snapped.
“You’re hurtful,” I said, picking up my glass.
“Uh-huh.”
“I’m just trying to help.”
“Matthew! Get ready!”
“What about my toast?” I asked.
“What about it?”
“I’m hungry,” I said.
“Then take it in the car.”
“But someone put a hole in it.”
Her hands were now on her hips. I gave myself a point.
“Get ready for school . . . now.”
“Of course,” I said, standing. “Whatever I can do to make things a little easier.”
“Let me tell you something, young man. This is the last time I—”
A car horn blared. I gave myself an additional point.
“What was that?” Mom said, turning toward the front of the house.
“Jack,” I said, polishing off the juice and wiping my mouth. “Got to go.”
I almost made it out of the kitchen.
“Just a minute!”
I turned, eyes wide. “Yes?”
“Jack’s here?” she said.
“Yep,” I said, turning to go.
Jack’s a friend from school. Well, not a “friend” exactly. I don’t have many of those. Friendships require a bit too much give and take. I prefer taking. I guess Jack’s what I would call a “close acquaintance.” It’s somewhere above “classmate” but below “friend.”
“You’re riding with Jack?” Mom asked, slowly.
“Yep.”
Mom closed her eyes. I gave myself half a point.
“You’ve been closing your eyes a lot this morning,” I said. “Did you get enough sleep last night?”
“When did you know you were riding with Jack?” she asked, struggling to control her volume.
“Last night.” I said.
“Last night?”
“You’re repeating yourself a lot, Mom. Sure you’re okay?”
A hand came up to her eyes.
“Matthew?”
“Yes?”
“Just go.”
“Love you, too!” I called, hurrying to the front door. I grabbed my backpack and shoved my toes halfway into my shoes.
She yelled something on my way out, but I accidentally pulled the door closed before she finished. I hurried down the front steps and toward Jack’s car. Music leaked from the closed windows of his immaculate Oldsmobile Cutlass GR (Geriatric Ride).
Jack’s car is two shades of blue. Light blue body with a dark blue roof made of some kind of squishy material. I believe it’s the same stuff that covers the seats and most of the interior. Jack inherited his grandmother’s car when she died and honors her memory by keeping it spotless, old lady-style.
“What’s up?” Jack said as I slid in beside him.
“In a second,” I said, glancing at the front door. “Better go.”
I didn’t have to say it twice. The engine whined and we shot backwards, plunging blindly into the street.
“Playing with Mom?” he said.
I nodded, pulling a shoe over my heel.
“How many points?” he asked.
“Two and a half.”
“Nice,” he said. Jack threw it into drive and the car lurched forward.
“Actually, three and a half: A ‘Hands on Hips,’ a ‘Young Man,’ a ‘Last Time,’ and at least one ‘Eye Close,’” I said.
“Sweet.”
As I mentioned, Jack’s an acquaintance, but he’s privy to more than most. For example, he knew the gist of the Mom Game, also known as Don’t Tip the Parent. If you push too hard, there may be consequences. (Like loss of car privileges or loss of a digit—depends on the parent. My point: Know your target well.)
Considering the time limits, scoring three and a half points was a pretty good round. Of course, knowing I didn’t have to ride to school with Mom allowed me to take a few more risks.
All things considered, it was a strong start to the morning. I could feel a good day in the works.
And it was, for a while—that is, until I ran into Michael.
Jack and I skidded into the student parking lot—Jack’s a bit stingy when it comes to using his brakes. After frightening the hell out of several students who heard the squealing tires and spotted Jack’s Oldsmobile barreling toward them, he found the spot he was looking for.
“Little close, don’t you think?” I asked.
We were at the end of the row, about as far from the school entrance as physically possible.
Jack didn’t answer. He lifted himself a few inches from the driver’s seat in an effort to get a better view of the yellow lines.
“Damn it,” he said, quietly.
Jack shifted into reverse, backing the car into position for another try.
“There,” he said, happily.
Jack had successfully managed to slide over the exact middle of a yellow line. Most assholes who feel they need two spaces do so to protect their priceless metal children. But I knew how Jack felt about his car.
“Why?” I asked.
“I don’t know,” he said, laughing. “Just feel like being a dick today.”
“How is that different from any other day?”
We walked through the student parking lot toward Alexander Hamilton High School, pushing through the side entrance and past the cafeteria.
“You going to your locker?” Jack asked.
I shook my head. My locker was in the other direction. Considering Jack’s comments in the parking lot, I was sure he’d get into some kind of altercation prior to first period, and I wanted to see it. I was genuinely surprised when we made it to my Astronomy classroom without an incident.
“Thanks for the ride,” I said.
Jack nodded.
I watched him make his way down the far right of the hall, near the lockers. I watched him extend an arm, running his hand over the dangling locks, setting them in motion as he walked. Passing a small recess in the wall, Jack latched onto a bulky metal trashcan and pulled. It scared the shit out of almost everyone in the immediate vicinity when it came crashing to the floor.
I closed my eyes and shook my head, smiling.
Just one of the many reasons I enjoyed his company.
His occasional company.
The bell rang, signaling the merciful conclusion of World History, a second period full of delightful surprises and riveting information. Nothing like a lecture full of dates and obscure treaties. And judging from our instructor’s attire (“costume” is actually more accurate), as well as the unmerciful cosmetic-related beating she gave her face on a daily basis, I’m guessing her memories of high school aren’t very Disney-like, because everything about her teaching style seems like an insidious, drawn-out form of revenge.
I collected my books and slowly headed for the door, in no hurry to get to English.
I had stopped in the hallway to scowl at a flyer for some upcoming play whe
n I noticed Michael on the opposite side, pinned up against a locker.
I paused.
A little verbal harassment or a shove from behind wasn’t terribly uncommon, but finding Michael up against a locker was somewhat unusual.
I pushed my way to the other side of the hall, wondering who had him.
Leonard.
Now it made sense. Leonard was definitely weird, and in his case there was no question what type. Leonard was the bad kind of weird, the kind of guy who would do something to the family cat.
I decided to see what I could do for Michael. No particular reason, other than an intense dislike of Leonard and a reluctance to go to English. And, as I had tried to explain to my mom, I’m generally a helpful person.
“Hey, Leonard . . . Michael. What are you guys up to?”
You had to be careful how you handled Leonard. Actually exhibiting surprise or apprehension about his decision to slowly asphyxiate Michael might make him that much more interested in the process.
Leonard glanced at me without turning his head.
“Nothing.”
Michael squirmed, but there wasn’t much he could do. Leonard had a forearm across Michael’s throat.
“Just hanging out?” I said.
“He was looking at me,” Leonard said, increasing the pressure on Michael’s throat.
Michael made little noises.
“You probably shouldn’t strangle him, though.”
“Why not?” he said with a smile.
“Willis is headed this way.”
Mr. Willis is the principal.
“I don’t give a shit about Willis,” Leonard said, glaring at Michael as if he’d silently called for the principal’s help.
“He looks pissed, though. Someone said he was looking for you.”
“Why?” Leonard said.
“Chemistry lab’s missing a few scales.”
Leonard gave Michael’s throat an angry shove and released him. “That was Dave,” he said, turning to me. Michael held his throat and coughed.
“Then you’d better say something,” I said, looking down the hall as if expecting Willis any minute.
“I’m not telling that asshole anything,” he said, heading in the opposite direction. Leonard disappeared around the nearest corner. I turned my attention back to Michael.
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