Chime
Franny Billingsley
Since her stepmother's recent death, 17-year-old Briony Larkin knows that if she can keep two secrets—that she is a witch and that she is responsible for the accident that left Rose, her identical twin, mentally compromised—and remember to hate herself always, no other harm will befall her family in their Swampsea parsonage at the beginning of the twentieth century. The arrival of Mr. Clayborne, a city engineer, and his university-dropout son, Eldric, makes Briony's task difficult. Clayborne's plan to drain the swamp has made the Old Ones unhappy, particularly the Boggy Mun, who has plagued the village's children with swamp cough in retaliation. When Rose's lingering illness turns into a cough, Briony knows that she must do whatever it takes, even revealing her secrets, to save her sister. While thwarting the advances of an arsenic-addicted suitor, Briony must also deny her feelings for Eldric, even as he helps her solve the puzzle that has become her life.
Franny Billingsley Chime
To Richard, for always
1
The Trial
I’ve confessed to everything and I’d like to be hanged.
Now, if you please.
I don’t mean to be difficult, but I can’t bear to tell my story. I can’t relive those memories—the touch of the Dead Hand, the smell of eel, the gulp and swallow of the swamp.
How can you possibly think me innocent? Don’t let my face fool you; it tells the worst lies. A girl can have the face of an angel but have a horrid sort of heart.
I know you believe you’re giving me a chance—or, rather, it’s the Chime Child giving me the chance. She’s desperate, of course, not to hang an innocent girl again, but please believe me: Nothing in my story will absolve me of guilt. It will only prove what I’ve already told you, which is that I’m wicked.
Can’t the Chime Child take my word for it?
In any event, where does she expect me to begin? The story of a wicked girl has no true beginning. I’d have to begin with the day I was born.
If Eldric were to tell the story, he’d likely begin with himself, on the day he arrived in the Swampsea. That’s where proper stories begin, don’t they, when the handsome stranger arrives and everything goes wrong?
But this isn’t a proper story, and I’m telling you, I ought to be hanged.
2
The Taste of Burnt Matches
“I want to go home.” My sister turned from the river and closed her eyes, as though she could wish away the river, and the barge on the river, and Eldric on the barge. But life doesn’t work that way, more’s the pity.
“We can’t leave now,” said Father. “It would hurt Eldric’s feelings, don’t you see?”
But Rose didn’t see. She never saw, not about feelings. “I want to go home.”
Villagers thronged the riverside, but they gave us plenty of room. I’d forgotten that, forgotten how they left a cushion of air around the clergyman and his porcelain daughters. We’d always be outsiders, even though Father’s spent twenty years in the Swampsea, and Rose and I have spent seventeen. We’ve never been anywhere else.
“One hundred and eighty-three steps until home,” said Rose.
The villagers never used to stare, though. If I were an ordinary girl, I might stare too. People like to stare at girls who’ve been ill, at girls whom they’ve hardly seen for three years, at girls whose stepmother has killed herself.
“Look!” said Father. “The barge is almost here.”
But the villagers are wrong about Stepmother, and so is Father. She would never kill herself. I’m the one who knew her best, and I know this: Stepmother was hungry for life.
“One hundred and eighty-three steps until home.” Rose was exactly right. I know; I’ve measured. The Parsonage sat exactly one hundred eighty-three steps behind us, its back to the river, its front to the village square.
“And,” said Father, “just think how happy Eldric’s father will be to see his son.”
“That I will,” said Mr. Clayborne, who was waiting with us in our cushion of air. He was more at home with the villagers than we were, even though he’d arrived from London only six months back. Perhaps it was because he was such a big, comfortable sort of man, while we Larkins are rarely comfortable, especially with ourselves.
“I don’t like boys,” said Rose.
Neither did I, but I knew enough not to say so.
“Rose!” said Father, but Mr. Clayborne was used to Rose.
“Eldric and I have never been apart this long,” said Mr. Clayborne. “Almost six months.”
Almost six months. Stepmother died two months and three days ago. I must never let myself grow used to Stepmother’s death. I must never smooth out time the way Mr. Clayborne had. I’d never say she’d been dead almost six months.
I remembered the day she died with absolute clarity. I remembered standing outside her sickroom door, wondering if I should enter. Why did I hesitate? I was afraid of awakening her, I suppose, which I’d call ironic if I were a poet, but I’m not, and anyway, I hate poetry. A poem doesn’t come out and tell you what it has to say. It circles back on itself, eating its own tail and making you guess what it means.
Stop, Briony! Stepmother would tell you to stop. Stop dreaming about her, she’d say, and attend to Rose, who’d just gone into a fit of coughing. Take care of Rose. That’s what Stepmother always said. I’d promised. I’d promised Stepmother I’d take care of Rose.
“Rose has such a cough, Father,” I said. “Oughtn’t she to be out of the wind?”
“Another few minutes won’t hurt,” said Father in his sermon voice, which is his favorite voice, the one he starches and irons every morning.
Have you become a doctor, Father? How do you know it won’t hurt? Or did you hear it from God? You don’t talk to anyone else.
The wind smacked at everything. It smacked the river into froth. It smacked the willow branches into whips. It smacked the villagers into streamers of hair and shawls and shirttails. The wind didn’t smack us up, though, not the Larkin family. We were buttoned and braided and buckled and still.
But not all the buttons and buckles in the world can protect a Larkin from the swamp cough. When Rose started coughing last week, I actually talked to Father. I asked him whether she might have the swamp cough. Father said what he always says, which is nothing.
That’s right, Father. Let Rose cough herself to death. Why waste money on the doctor? There is, after all, no cure for the swamp cough.
The Shire horses came to a stop, steam puffing from their great pink nostrils. The barge had arrived. I looked for Mr. Clayborne’s son among the passengers. I hoped he wouldn’t be one of those grubby stone-throwing boys. But they all are, aren’t they? I base my knowledge of boys on Tiddy Rex, nine years old, with the requisite grubby hands, but not altogether a bad sort.
At least I needn’t talk to Eldric. I believe boys are not much for conversation. If Eldric bothered me, I’d mention Mucky Face. He’s the resident river spirit and just loves boys. But to eat, Eldric dear. To eat.
“There he is!” said Mr. Clayborne. “See, on the left—tall, fairish hair?”
“What a good-looking boy!” said Father.
But I didn’t see any version of Tiddy Rex, grubby hands or no.
“There!” Mr. Clayborne pointed. “Coming down the gangway. Surely you see him now? Light hair, well built.”
“Oh,” I said. I hadn’t known he’d be so big. He was an enormous child. An enormous giant of a child, all six or seven feet of him.
“There’s my bad boy,” said Mr. Clayborne, waving Eldric over. He made it sound as though it were quite a good thing to be a bad boy.
Nor had I known he’d be so old. He was a university boy. I recognized the clothes from magazine pictures—the slim tro
users, the checkerboard vest, the suggestion of a tie. I understood now why Mr. Clayborne wanted his bad boy to lodge at the Parsonage, with the clergyman and his daughters. I understood why he didn’t want his bad boy to lodge with him at the Alehouse. Bad boys and alehouses are an explosive kind of mix.
“What do you think, Briony?” said Father. “Will the girls of the Swampsea be glad of a new and handsome face?”
I hate it when Father puts on a show, pretending we’re the kind of family that chats and gossips and laughs. People always say one thing and mean something else beneath. I’m the worst of all, but at least I don’t lie to myself about it.
Anyway, I have no idea what other girls feel, regular girls. I am not a regular girl.
I squeezed a peek at Eldric as he and Mr. Clayborne shook hands. Father was wrong, of course. Eldric wasn’t handsome, not in a Greek statue kind of way, not like Cecil Trumpington, who wants to marry me. Well, Cecil actually wants to marry the idea of me. He wants a girl with ivory skin and corn-silk hair; he wants a girl with the face of an angel.
But not even Cecil has such gorgeous, slouchy clothes as Eldric. Everything about Eldric screamed of the things I’d never have, of London and theater and turn-on lamps and motorcars—
“I don’t care to shake that boy’s hand,” said Rose.
And piped-in water—
Mr. Clayborne held Eldric at arm’s length and smiled at him.
And piped-out lavatories—
Mr. Clayborne pulled Eldric back and kissed his cheek.
Kissing? Men kissing! We don’t go in for that sort of thing in the Swampsea.
But we were country mice. Perhaps the history books will report that, as the new century entered its second decade, men in London took to wearing mink coats, which led naturally to—
The constable stuck his great brass badge into our air cushion. The rest of the constable followed, which was a pity. The air cushion was filling up—now the Swamp Reeve, now Mayor Brody and his greyhounds, now Judge Trumpington and his wife.
Ah yes, the beautiful Mrs. Trumpington, and the beautiful Mrs. Trumpington’s beautiful frock. Mrs. Trumpington, looking just like a May flower—although it was hardly April—a May flower in peach batiste with a lace underskirt and too much embroidery to mention, so I won’t. Rose and I wore identical frocks, not to Mrs. Trumpington but to each other. We’d had them for ages and they made us look about twelve rather than seventeen. But Rose likes looking twelve: She also wore a pinafore and a pink hair ribbon. She wears them every day.
“I don’t care to shake hands with that boy,” said Rose. She has only one way of speaking, and it is loud.
Oh, Rose! Now Eldric would look at us and pity our shattered, fragile family and our shabby, childish clothes; and I’d be obliged to hate myself, and to hate him too, although I’ve had a lot of practice and it’s not terribly burdensome. Hating, I mean.
I hate myself.
Eldric had certainly noticed us now, his eyes first on Rose, now swiveling to me, now back to Rose; assuring himself, as everyone did, that we were that interesting freak of nature, the identical twin. What did he think as he looked at our angel faces? What would he think if he knew what lay beneath the face of the angel named Briony?
“I don’t care to shake hands with that boy.”
Father gave up; I saw it in his shoulders. You can never win with Rose. He must have forgotten that while he was talking to God.
“Please allow me to introduce my daughter Rosy.”
Rosy? Honestly, Father, there you go again, putting on your pretty mask, playing at the game of Perfect Family. We are not the sort of people who go in for pet names.
“How do you do?” Eldric smiled. He had golden lion’s eyes and a great mane of tawny hair.
“I knew it,” said Rose. “I knew it.”
“Knew what?” said Father.
“I’m not rosy,” she said, which is true. The two of us are alabaster girls, lovely to look at, or so we hear.
How could I bear it, Eldric living with us, this non-child, this boy-man? I’d have to keep on my Briony mask. I’d have to keep my lips greased and smiling. I’d have to keep my tongue sharp and amusing. Already, I was exhausted.
“And you?” said Eldric. After a heartbeat of silence, I glanced up. Eldric was looking at me, this golden London boy, looking at me with amber eyes. “What am I to call you?”
“You may call me Briony,” I said, “which makes it awfully convenient because so does everyone else.”
After a hiccough of silence, Eldric laughed. Then so did the others, except Rose. And me, of course. I don’t have much laughter left. I’ve looked after Rose for years and years, and she drained me dry long ago. What’s she feeding off now, I wonder. My soul juice?
I’d have to talk to Eldric, wouldn’t I? Talk to this foreign boy-man animal. I knew nothing of boy-men and I didn’t care to learn. And he wouldn’t merely be living with us, but sleeping in Stepmother’s sickroom, sleeping in the very bed on which she had died.
And eat with him?
Mealtimes had been so awkward after Stepmother died and Father started spending time at home again. Neither of us with anything to say, and Rose no great conversationalist herself. We hadn’t had proper mealtimes while Stepmother was ill. Skipping meals is terrifically convenient: It gives one lots of time to brood and hate oneself.
Anyway, I hate cooking and I hate the kitchen and I hate Rose when she begins gulping air, which she was doing now as a way of limbering up for a fit of screaming. I’d warned Father, reminded him Rose doesn’t like strangers, but Father never listens.
I used to be embarrassed when Rose screamed in public, but I was glad now. Once we got it over with, I could take the two of us home, peel off my mask, and let my face fall into its witchy folds.
But first there’s the getting it over with. Rose’s screams are like knitting needles. They jab right through your ear, into the soft squish beneath. She’d start any second. At least Rose doesn’t hide what she feels. At least she’s not silent, like Father.
There are several kinds of silence. There’s the silence of being alone, which I like well enough. Then there’s the silence of one’s father. The silence when you have nothing to say and he has nothing to say. The silence between you after the investigation of your stepmother’s death.
We’ve never spoken of the inquest, at which the coroner testified that Stepmother had died of arsenic poisoning. Of the inquest, at which Father testified that Stepmother might have taken her own life. Of the inquest, at which I testified that Stepmother would never have taken her life.
Not ever.
The air shattered; Rose’s scream had begun. The others jumped, then looked about, wondering if they should pretend not to notice. But I was still thinking about silence.
Father’s silence is not merely the absence of sound. It’s a creature with a life of its own. It chokes you. It pinches you small as a grain of rice. It twists in your gut like a worm.
Silence clawed at my throat. It left a taste of burnt matches.
No, our family doesn’t talk much.
3
A Crown for the Steam Age
“I don’t prefer to talk about it,” said Rose from behind the cupboard door.
“She mislike all them new gentlemen, Rose do,” said Pearl Whitby, except she was Pearl Miller now and I always forgot. She was Pearl Miller and she was married and she had an extremely ugly baby.
Pearl was right. She used to help out before Father remarried, and she knew that Rose didn’t like strangers, especially not in the house. Eldric was bad enough, but Father had invited a third gentleman whom Rose had never even seen. I’d never have believed Father could do something so stupid, and I have a great deal of faith in Father’s stupidity.
Didn’t he remember that Rose hated surprises? That she’d especially hate a surprise guest, and a man, at that. She and I are not used to men.
“Happen Rose’d fancy a sweet?” said Pearl, flushed from f
ighting the stove, which was possessed of a mercurial temperament.
I pressed my forehead into the kitchen window. “I know something that will be interesting to a certain girl named Rose.”
I blew her name onto the window; breath-roses bloomed on the glass. “We’re to have iced buns for tea.”
There was only one reason I wanted to coax Rose from the cupboard: I could never leave off caring for Rose; which meant if she stayed in the cupboard, I had to stay in the Parsonage; which meant I couldn’t call upon poor Tiddy Rex, who’d been stricken with the swamp cough; which meant I couldn’t take note of Tiddy Rex’s symptoms and compare them to Rose’s; which actually wouldn’t do me any good anyway, because if she did have the swamp cough, there was nothing I could do about it; but at least Stepmother couldn’t say I wasn’t doing anything, which she couldn’t in any event because she’s dead.
Except that maybe the symptoms wouldn’t match up. Then, at least, I could stop fretting about Rose and the swamp cough and fret about something else.
The kitchen door groaned. It was arthritic and cranky from the flood, and it took advantage of every opportunity to complain. Red and yellow checks swam into the window glass, and I knew without turning that it was Eldric who’d entered. There was no mistaking that university waistcoat.
“I like iced buns,” said Rose, her voice deadened by the cupboard—not that her real voice has ever been what you might call lively.
“A talking cupboard!” said Eldric. “I’ve always wanted to see a talking cupboard.”
Rose would never come out of the cupboard now, not with Eldric in the kitchen. I was trapped in the Parsonage. I turned away from the reflected waistcoat to a flesh-and-blood Eldric, who quite filled up the doorway.
“I have a message for you.” Eldric nodded at me. “Your father asks if you might step into the dining room.”
“Who will care for the talking cupboard?” I said.
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