‘I think,’ said young Croom, at the Marble Arch, ‘I’d better park the car. You go on in alone; it’s too conspicuous driving up at this time in the morning; the chauffeurs are sure to be working. I’ll slip along in ten minutes.’
When, at eight o’clock, he reached the Mews, she was in a blue wrapper, the little table in the downstair room was set for breakfast, and there was already a scent of coffee.
‘I’ve turned the bath on, Tony, and you’ll find a razor.’
‘Darling!’ said young Croom. ‘Shan’t be ten minutes.’
He was back again in twelve, and sat down opposite to her. There were boiled eggs, toast, quince jam from Condaford, and real coffee. It was the most delicious meal he had ever eaten, because it was so exactly as if they were married.
‘Aren’t you tired, darling?’
‘Not a bit. I feel thoroughly chirped up. All the same, I don’t think we must do it again – too near the hambone altogether.’
‘Well, we didn’t mean to.’
‘No, and you were an angel. Still, it’s not exactly what I promised Aunt Em. To the pure all things are not pure.’
‘No – blast them! God! How shall I live till I see you again!’
Clare stretched her hand across the little table and gave his a squeeze.
‘Now I think you’d better slip off. Just let me look out and see that the coast’s clear.’
When she had done this he kissed her hand, got back to his car, and by eleven o’clock was standing alongside a plumber in a horse box at Bablock Hythe….
Clare lay in a very hot bath. It was of the geyser type and not long enough, but it provided a good soak. She felt as when, a little girl, she had done something unpleasing to her governess, without discovery. But poor dear Tony! A pity men were so impatient. They had as little liking for cool philandering as for shopping. They rushed into shops, said: ‘Have you such and such? No?’ and rushed out again. They hated trying on, being patted here and there, turning their heads to look at their back views. To savour what was fitting was to them anathema. Tony was a child. She felt herself much older by nature and experience. Though much in request before her marriage, Clare had never come into close contact with those, who, centred in London and themselves, were devoid of belief in anything but mockery, motion and enough money to have from day to day a ‘good’ time. At country houses she had met them, of course, but withdrawn from their proper atmosphere into the air of sport. Essentially an open-air person, of the quick and wiry, rather than the hefty, type, she observed unconsciously the shibboleths of sport. Transplanted to Ceylon, she had kept her tastes, and spent her time in the saddle or on the tennis ground. Reading many novels, she professed, indeed, to keep abreast of the current, with all its impatience of restraint; but, lying in her bath, she was uneasy. It had not been fair to put Tony to such strain as that of last night. The closer she allowed him to come to her, short of the contacts of love, the more she would be torturing him. Drying herself, she made good resolutions, and only with a rush did she reach the Temple by ten o’clock. She might just as well have stayed on soaking in her bath, for Dornford was busy on an important case. She finished what jobs there were, looking idly out over the Temple lawn, whence fine-weather mist was vanishing, and sunlight, brightening to winter brilliance, slanted on to her cheek. And she thought of Ceylon, where the sun was never coolly comforting. Jerry! How, in that horrible, common phrase, was he ‘keeping’? And what doing about her? All very well to determine that she would not torture Tony, would keep away from him and spare his senses, but without him – she would be dull and lonely. He had become a habit. A bad habit perhaps – but bad habits were the only ones it was painful to do without.
‘I’m naturally a light weight,’ she thought. ‘So is Tony; all the same he would never let one down!’
And the grass of the Temple lawn seemed suddenly the sea, and this window-sill the ship’s bulwark, and he and she leaned there watching the flying fish spring up from the foam and flitter away above the green-blue water. Warmth and colour! Airy shining grace! And she felt melancholy.
‘A good long ride is what I want,’ she thought. ‘I’ll go down to Condaford tomorrow, and on Saturday be out all day. I’ll make Dinny come out with me; she ought to ride more.’
The clerk entered and said: ‘Mr Dornford’s going straight from the Courts to the “House” this afternoon.’
‘Ah! Do you ever feel hipped, George?’
The clerk, whose face always amused her because it so clearly should have had mutton-chop whiskers on its rosy roundness, replied in his cushiony voice:
‘What I miss here is a dog. With my old Toby I never feel lonely.’
‘What is he, George?’
‘Bull terrier. But I can’t bring him here, Mrs Calder’d miss him; besides, if he bit a solicitor –’
‘But how perfect!’
George wheezed.
‘Ah! you can’t have high spirits in the Temple.’
‘I should have liked a dog, George, but when I’m out there’s no one in.’
‘I don’t fancy Mr Dornford’ll be residential here much longer.’
‘Why?’
‘He’s looking for a house. I’ve an idea he’d like to marry.’
‘Oh! Whom?’
George closed an eye.
‘You mean my sister?’
‘Ah!’
‘Yes. But I don’t see how you know.’
George closed the other eye.
‘A little bird, Lady Corven.’
‘He might do worse, certainly. Not that I’m a great believer in marriage.’
‘We don’t see the right side of marriage in the Law. But Mr Dornford would make a woman happy – in my opinion.’
‘In mine, too, George.’
‘He’s a very quiet man, but a fund of energy, and considerate. Solicitors like him; judges like him.’
‘And wives will like him.’
‘Of course he’s a Catholic.’
‘We all have to be something.’
‘Mrs Calder and I’ve been Anglicans ever since my old dad died. He was a Plymouth Brother – very stiff. Express an opinion of your own, and he’d jump down your throat. Many’s the time I’ve had him threaten me with fire and slaughter. All for my good, you understand. A fine religious old feller. And couldn’t bear others not to be. Good red Zummerzet blood, and never forgot it, though he did live in Peckham.’
‘Well, George, if Mr Dornford wants me again after all, would you telephone me at five o’clock? I’ll look in at my rooms in case.’
Clare walked. The day was even more springlike than yesterday. She went by the Embankment and St James’s Park. Alongside the water, clusters of daffodil spikes were pushing up, and tree-shoots swelling into bud. The gentle, warming sunlight fell on her back. It couldn’t last! There would be a throwback to winter, for sure! She walked fast out under the chariot, whose horses, not too natural, worried but exhilarated her, passed the Artillery Memorial without a glance, and entered Hyde Park. Warmed up now, she swung out along the Row. Riding was something of a passion with her, so that it always made her restive to see someone else riding a good horse. Queer animals, horses, so fiery and alive at one moment, so dull and ruminative the next!
Two or three hats were raised to her. A long man on a good-looking mare reined up after he had passed and came back.
‘I thought it was you. Lawrence told me you were over. Remember me – Jack Muskham?’
Clare – thinking: ‘Lovely seat for a tall man!’ – murmured: ‘Of course!’ and was suddenly on her guard.
‘An acquaintance of yours is going to look after my Arab mares.’
‘Oh! yes, Tony Croom.’
‘Nice young chap, but I don’t know if he knows enough. Still, he’s keen as mustard. How’s your sister?’
‘Very well.’
‘You ought to bring her racing, Lady Corven.’
‘I don’t think Dinny cares much for horses.’
‘When do the mares come, Mr Muskham?’
‘They’re in Egypt now. We’ll ship them in April. I might go over for it; possibly take young Croom.’
‘I’d love to see them,’ said Clare; ‘I rode an Arab in Ceylon.’
‘We must get you down.’
‘Somewhere near Oxford, isn’t it?’
‘About six miles; nice country. I’ll remember. Good-bye!’ He raised his hat, touched the mare with his heel, and cantered off.
‘My perfect innocence!’ she thought. ‘Hope I didn’t overdo it. I wouldn’t like to “get wrong” with him. He looks as if he knew his mind terribly well. Lovely boots! He didn’t ask after Jerry!’
Her nerves felt a little shaken, and she struck away from the Row towards the Serpentine.
The sunlit water had no boats on it, but a few ducks on the far side. Did she mind what people thought? Miller of Dee! Only, did he really care for nobody? Or was he just a philosopher? She sat down on a bench in the full sunlight, and suddenly felt sleepy. A night in a car, after all, was not quite the same as a night out of a car. Crossing her arms on her breast, she closed her eyes. Almost at once she was asleep.
Quite a number of people straggled past between her and the bright water, surprised to see one in such nice clothes asleep before lunch. Two little boys carrying toy aeroplanes stopped dead, examining her dark eyelashes resting on her cream-coloured cheeks, and the little twitchings of her just touched-up lips. Having a French governess, they were ‘well-bred’ little boys without prospect of sticking pins into her or uttering a sudden whoop. But she seemed to have no hands, her feet were crossed and tucked under her chair, and her attitude was such that she had abnormally long thighs. It was interesting; and after they had passed one of them kept turning his head to see more of her.
Thus, for a full hour of elusive spring, Clare slept the sleep of one who has spent a night in a car.
Chapter Twenty
AND three weeks passed, during which Clare saw young Croom but four times in all. She was packing for the evening train to Condaford, when the sheep bell summoned her down the spiral stairway.
Outside was a shortish man in horn spectacles, who gave her a vague impression of being connected with learning. He raised his hat.
‘Lady Corven?’
‘Yes.’
‘Pardon me, I have this for you.’ Producing from his blue overcoat a longish document, he put it into her hand.
Clare read the words:
In the High Court of Justice
Probate Divorce and Admiralty Division.
The Twenty-sixth day of February, 1932.
In the Matter of the Petition of Sir Gerald Corven.
A weak feeling ran down the back of her legs, and she raised her eyes to the level of those behind the horn-rimmed spectacles. ‘Oh!’ she said.
The shortish man made her a little bow. She had a feeling that he was sorry for her, and promptly closed the door in his face. She went up the spiral stairs, sat down on the sofa, and lit a cigarette. Then she spread the document on her lap. Her first thought was: ‘But it’s monstrous – I’ve done nothing!’ Her second: ‘I suppose I must read the foul thing!’
She had not read more than: ‘The humble petition of Gerald Corven, K. C. B.,’ when she had her fourth thought: ‘But this is exactly what I want. I shall be free!’
More calmly she read on till she came to the words: ‘That your Petitioner claims from the said James Bernard Croom as damages in respect of his said adultery so committed the sum of two thousand pounds.’
Tony! If he had two thousand shillings, it was all! Beast! Revengeful brute! This sudden reduction of the issue to terms of hard cash not only rasped her feelings but brought her a sort of panic. Tony must not, should not be ruined through her! She must see him! Had they – but of course they had served it on him too.
She finished reading the petition, took a long draw at her cigarette and got up.
She went to the telephone, asked for a trunk call and gave the number of his inn.
‘Can I speak to Mr Croom? – Gone up to London? – In his car? – When?’
An hour ago! That could only mean that he was coming to see her!
A little soothed, she made a rapid calculation. She could not now catch the train to Condaford; and she got another trunk call through to the Grange.
‘Dinny? This is Clare. I can’t possibly get down tonight – tomorrow morning instead.… No! I’m all right; a little worried. Good-bye!’
A little worried! She sat down again, and once more read the ‘foul thing’ through. They seemed to know everything, except the truth. And neither she nor Tony had ever seen a sign that they were being watched. That man with the horn ‘specs,’ for instance, evidently knew her, but she’d never seen him before! She went into the bathroom and washed her face in cold water. Miller of Dee! The part had become extremely difficult.
‘He’ll have had nothing to eat,’ she thought.
She set the table downstairs with what she had, made some coffee, and sat down to smoke and wait. Condaford and the faces of her people came before her; the face too, of Aunt Em; and of Jack Muskham; above all the face of her husband, with its faint, hard-bitten, cat-like smile. Was she to take this lying down? Apart from the damages, was she to let him triumph without a fight? She wished now she had taken her father’s and Sir Lawrence’s advice and ‘clapped a detective on to him.’ Too late now – he would be taking no risks till the case was over.
She was still brooding by the electric fire when she heard a car stop outside, and the bell rang.
Young Croom looked chilled and pale. He stood as if so doubtful of his welcome that she seized both his hands.
‘Well, Tony this is a pleasure!’
‘Oh! darling!’
‘You look frozen. Have some brandy!’
While he was drinking, she said:
‘Don’t let’s talk of what we ought to have done; only of what we’re going to do.’
He groaned.
‘They must have thought us terribly green. I never dreamed –’
‘Nor I. But why shouldn’t we have done exactly what we have done? There’s no law against innocence.’
He sat down and leaned his forehead on his hands. ‘God knows this is just what I want; to get you free of him; but I had no business to let you run the risk. It would be all different if you felt for me what I feel for you.’
Clare looked down at him with a little smile.
‘Now, Tony, be grown-up! It’s no good talking about our feelings. And I won’t have any nonsense about its being your fault. The point is we’re innocent. What are we going to do about it?’
‘Of course I shall do whatever you want.’
‘I have a feeling,’ said Clare, slowly, ‘that I shall have to do what my people want me to.’
‘God!’ said young Croom, getting up: ‘To think that if we defend and win, you’ll still be tied to him!’
‘And to think,’ murmured Clare, ‘that if we don’t defend and win, you’ll be ruined.’
‘Oh! Damn that – they can only make me bankrupt.’
‘And your job?’
‘I don’t see – I don’t know why –’
‘I saw Jack Muskham the other day. He looks to me as if he wouldn’t like a co-respondent who hadn’t given notice of his intentions to the petitioner. You see I’ve got the jargon.’
‘If we had been lovers, I would have, at once.’
‘Would you?’
‘Of course!’
‘Even if I’d said “Don’t”?’
‘You wouldn’t have.’
‘I don’t know that.’
‘Well, anyway, it doesn’t arise.’
‘Except that if
we don’t defend, you’ll feel a cad.’
‘God! What a coil!’
‘Sit down and let’s eat. There’s only this ham, but there’s nothing like ham when you feel sick.’
They sat down and made motions with their forks.
‘Your people don’t know, Clare?’
‘I only knew myself an hour ago. Did they bring you this same lovely document?’
‘Yes.’
‘Another slice?’
They ate in silence for a minute or two. Then young Croom got up.
‘I really can’t eat any more.’
‘All right. Smoke!’
She took a cigarette from him, and said:
‘Listen. I’m going down to Condaford tomorrow, and I think you’d better come over. They must see you, because whatever’s done must be done with open eyes. Have you a solicitor?’
‘No.’
‘Nor I. I suppose we shall have to have one.’
‘I’ll see to all that. If only I had money!’
Clare winced.
‘I apologize for a husband capable of asking for damages.’
Young Croom seized her hand. ‘Darling, I was only thinking of solicitors.’
‘Do you remember my answering you on the boat: “Often more damnable, things beginning.” ’
‘I’ll never admit that.’
‘I was thinking of my marriage, not of you.’
‘Clare, wouldn’t it be far better, really, not to defend – just let it go? Then you’d be free. And after – if you wanted me, I’d be there, and if you didn’t, I wouldn’t.’
‘Sweet of you, Tony; but I must tell my people. Besides – oh! a lot of things.’
He began walking up and down.
‘D’you suppose they’ll believe us if we do defend? I don’t.’
‘We shall be telling the exact truth.’
‘People never believe the exact truth. What train are you going down by?’
‘Ten-fifty.’
‘Shall I come too, or in the afternoon from Bablock Hythe?’
‘That’s best. I’ll have broken it to them.’
‘Will they mind frightfully?’
‘They won’t like it.’
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