Jesus, we’re going to have to take a long couple of seconds before we go.
After shifting awkwardly in my jeans, I carefully swing my leg over as she leans back, and take my seat right in front of her. As soon as I sit, she folds her arms around my waist and rests her head against my back. The feeling of having her wrapped around me — well, it soothes me. As the content feeling filters through my chest, I move my hand to her forearms lying across my stomach and squeeze them tightly, thanking her silently for just existing.
Starting the bike up, I give her arms another light squeeze before pulling away from the duplex, driving into the bar parking lot not even five minutes later. After stepping off the bike, I take hold of her hand as she climbs off and then remove the helmet from her head, hanging it on my handlebar before turning once again in her direction.
Lacing her fingers with mine, our arms swing together as we make our way to the bar.
“I’m so proud of you, Noah. You’re living your dream and making it come true. All on your own.” She smiles up at me and I grin back.
“It is exciting. But, Tate, what you’re doing is so much more. You’re going to make a difference in so many children’s lives. I know it. And I’m just as proud of you for following through with what you want to do, and for living your dream.”
She happily nuzzles her head against my shoulder as we walk together. Just before I reach for the back door, a car door slams directly behind us and a familiar voice creeps through the air.
“Four months, boy. Four months, I’ve been trying to track you down. I should have known you’d find your way back to this one.” Dropping Tatum’s hand, I turn slowly as I position her behind my back, her hands tightly gripping my leather jacket as I stand in front of her.
Over my shoulder, I say in a hushed tone, “Tate, maybe you should go inside.”
Stepping backwards, I reach around her waist and grip the door handle, jerking the door open and turn toward her, ushering her in gently. The beats of the music loudly thrumming all around us, I lean and kiss her gently on the cheek, her terrified expression breaking my heart. Shaking my head at her, I watch her chin begin to tremble and the moisture building in her eyes as it coats the base of her lashes. “I’ve got this, baby. Go inside.”
With a brush of the back of my hand to her cheek, I nudge her safely inside the bar and close the door, twisting to face my father when it’s finally shut. Running my hand through my hair, I step forward until I’m standing toe-to-toe with him.
After releasing a frustrated sigh, I look him directly in the eyes. “You didn’t find me until I was ready to be found. I knew you would come here, looking for me. It’s not a big surprise, Father.” I scoff under my breath. “How does that make you feel? Your grand plan of attack being completely expected by your idiot son. You must be losing your edge, old man.”
His brown eyes narrow onto mine as he grinds his teeth, his fists clenching tightly at his sides. “You want to confront me, here? I’d think you’d rather have your ass beat without the eyes of your trash upon us.” Snickering he adds, “That being said, that girl has more balls than you ever will.”
My eyebrows raise and sides of my mouth dip deeply as I nod my head, agreeing with his statement. “She’s got balls that’s for sure. Fortunately for you, you won’t have to see her in action tonight. She’s all fixed up and I’d rather she didn’t mess up her hot ass dress dealing with an arrogant piece of shit like you. ” Cocking my head to the side, I directly challenge him.
Already prepared for his attack, I block his arm just as it swings up from his side and grab him by the throat, laying him out across the hood of his precious Mercedes and pinning him with my lower body. Bringing his free arm to my hand constricting his throat, he flails like a fucking fish, the terror in his eyes I find extremely satisfying.
Lowering myself, I position my face inches from his as I speak. “You call her trash again, and I will fucking kill you.” I squeeze his throat until his face turns purple, and then release it just enough for him to manage a ragged breath.
“You don’t own me anymore, old man. Know that. Live it. Breathe it. I am faster, stronger, and smarter than you. You have absolutely no hold on me.”
Tightening my grip at the thought, I continue, “I hope you enjoy living the rest of your life alone, in the misery that you created for yourself. You deserve every single second of that solitude. Know that. Deal with it, wallow in it, soak it up, I don’t give a fuck. Just know that you will die alone exactly like she did because you gave her no choice and that you will do so without having me clenched between your fucking fingers. Never, ever attempt to contact me again. Do you understand me?”
Just as he nods his head, the back door ricochets off the outside wall of the bar as it’s thrown open. Several pairs of feet scuffle through the gravel before coming to a halt behind me.
“Let him go, Noah.” Trace’s voice somehow filters through my rage.
Squeezing once more, because I can, I send him into a coughing frenzy before releasing my grip and back away from him. His hands go right for his throat as he stands and hunches over, gasping for air.
Trace’s hands cover my shoulders as he urges me back, further away from my father. Turning, I look behind me and see them all. Blake with a beer in his hand, grinning, Trace as he casually watches my father with a definite lack of concern, and then Harlow and Alex, gaping from surprise, but with a hint of a smile in their eyes as they cover their mouths. All standing behind me, ready to be there if I need them.
My mind recalls my lecture to Tatum about family not being blood and it dawns on me how ironically applicable that conversation would actually be in my own life as I eye them all banded together behind me. To protect me. It boggles my mind, but at the same time, it eases my soul knowing they are there.
It’s then that it hits me.
This is family. People who would do anything for you, no questions asked. People who support you and love you as you try to make your place in this world as you see fit, with no ulterior motives.
Good people. People that I’m lucky to know.
Just as I’m about to turn around, I see her. Tatum, as she exits the bar, tears running down her cheeks from worry as she approaches me. “I’m sorry, I didn’t know what else to do,” she says as she cries. Taking her into my arms, I hold her tight while kissing the top of her head.
“I’m okay, Tate. I promise.” I can feel her shaking in my arms as she sniffles against my chest.
Curling my fingers around her upper arms, I press her away from me so that she can see my eyes. “I’m okay.”
Nodding, she whimpers lightly with relief. Sliding my arm around her shoulders, I turn to face my father, his furious eyes locking onto mine.
“You will have nothing, boy. I’ll make sure of it,” he rasps, the effect of my hold on his throat marking his tone.
I laugh out loud because it’s so clear to me he has absolutely no idea. He knows nothing about the man I’ve become.
“You can have the money. In fact, you can take the remainder of the money and shove it up your ass. It’s all yours.” I shrug my shoulders with resolution. “I have everything I need right here.”
With Tatum curled in tightly against my chest, I turn away from my father. Filing in behind Harlow, who, while hand-in-hand with Trace, is saying something about nun chucks, and Blake and Alex, their arms wrapped around each other’s waists as they walk and laugh, we all enter the bar together, letting the door swing shut on its own behind us.
And I never look back.
Dear Daddy,
I love you. So much.
But, the time has come for me to let you go. To release you from these unfair obligations that I’ve placed upon you ever since you passed.
I used you as an escape — from life, from her — and I’m so sorry for that.
Sometimes, we just deal the only way we know how to with the horrors that we’re faced with. For me, the memory of the bond we shared k
ept me clinging to your non-existence, but it was unfair to you because I know in my heart that you stayed for me. To help me, to guide me, to protect me. And honestly, Daddy, I owe you MY life for that.
But, it’s time to let you know I’m all right.
You don’t have to stay to protect me anymore.
I’ve grown past the mentality of the little girl who was completely lost to become a woman who can’t wait to conquer the world.
I’m okay.
I’m happy.
And I’m loved.
Before I let you go, I just wanted to share with you a couple of the things I’ve learned over the last year of my life because these lessons have molded me into the person I’ve become. The person that you always knew I could be.
So here ‘goes…
I’ve learned that it’s not so hard to let people, the right people, into your life.
I’ve learned that settling for less than you deserve is not a form of survival, it’s a travesty.
I’ve learned to smile, a real one.
I’ve learned to take risks because they can lead to greatness.
I’ve learned to fly, to rise above resentment and hatred.
I’ve learned that I am strong, so much stronger than I ever realized.
I’ve learned to take a stand not only for others, but for myself.
I've learned the true power of forgiveness and the true power it unleashes.
But most importantly, I've learned that true love does, in fact, exist. That it's not a figment of people's imaginations and it's by far the most enchanting emotion I've ever experienced.
With tears in my eyes, I finish my final letter to you, knowing that you will also find your peace.
You will always be in my memories and in my heart — never forgotten.
You’re just free now.
Go, Daddy. Rest in peace and know that I will always love you.
~ Tatum
Wow. There are so many people I want to thank I don’t even know where to start. First and foremost, I want to thank all of those who have supported me and rooted me on from day one. Your constant encouragement and kind words motivate me so much, and when I feel like throwing in the towel, you are always there to make me laugh and send me good vibes. Thank you for that!
My hubby — thank you for allowing me to continue living my dream. Thank you for your patience and your understanding of the depth of my love for these characters. Thank you for taking the girls numerous places to keep them busy so I could write. I know it wasn’t easy, but it didn’t go unnoticed. Thank you. Thank you for reading my book, challenging me, giving me advice (at the risk of me becoming defensive ) and most of all, for believing in me. I love you.
Jena Eilers — AH! Another book down. Can you believe it? Thank you, my dear, dear friend for everything you do for me. Whether it be “Good Morning Sunshine” texts, posting on my timeline when I need encouragement, reading my manuscripts a gazillion times — out loud, or for your constant support — it all means so much to me. I couldn’t have done this without you. You have upped my definition of being “MY ROCK” this time around. You are amazing and I love you.
Toski Covey — I love your face woman. Thank you so much for photographing my cover. Noah and Tatum are perfect. You are so talented, and I can’t wait to watch your career skyrocket even more as you add more and more beautiful covers to the book world. I am proud to know you and to call you my friend.
Sarah Hansen — Another cover down. And as always, it’s perfection. Thank you for dealing with my random tweak requests without hunting me down to kill me. You are incredibly patient and I thank you for that. Your work is truly amazing, and I never worry knowing I have you in my corner.
Jennifer Roberts-Hall — Thank you for editing this baby. I know it was CRAZY, but I think we turned out a great book! Thank you for loving my characters as much as I do and for believing in me. Oh, and thank you for reading my random PM’s with things I wrote that day that I just couldn’t wait to share with someone without wanting to punch me. Love you woman. Thank you!
Kassi Cooper — Thank you for taking my story and making my words look beautiful with your formatting. I am so lucky that I found you and I can’t wait to see your work on my Kindle and in paperback. You are so kind to have made time for me at the last minute, and I can’t thank you enough for that. You are a LIFE SAVER!!!!
Stephanie Johnson — GAH! There are not enough words to tell you how much I love you. Thank you for traveling this journey with me every single step of the way. Thank you for putting up with my random phone calls and texts when I was freaking out about where to take this story. You are such a truly amazing person, just as beautiful on the inside as you are on the outside. Thank you for loving Noah and Tatum as much as I do. Your support and constant cheerleading not only keep me smiling, but help me stay on course when I want to give up. I LOVE YOU!
Becky Carter Nichols — Woman! Thank you for staying on top of me and making sure I wasn’t goofing off when I needed to be writing. You have no idea how much I needed that. Thank you for approaching me about starting up a street team and getting everything set up, because I had no idea what to do. Your enthusiasm is contagious, and I can’t thank you enough for everything you have done for me.
Jenn Diaz and Kathy Kindler — Thank you for being admins as well for LB’s Lovely Pimpers. Thank you so much for beta reading the book and giving me feedback and advice. You ladies are so awesome and your support and loyalty warms my heart. I am so glad to have come to know you and to be able to call you my friends!
LB’s Lovely Pimpers — Thank you for even wanting to be on my team. LOL! Thank you for all of the encouraging words, the constant sharing of my teasers, and for loving my stories as much as you do. I really hope I did you proud with this one. You are all so important to me, each and every single one of you. I LOVE YOU ALL!
Trisha Rai — Thank you for your messages of encouragement as I was writing this book. Your passion for books is what I love most about you and I can’t wait to read and discuss more books with you soon. Thank you so much for always being there and for making me smile. Love you!
Lisa Paul — My sister. I love you. Thank you for just being you. Thank you for helping me formulate the plot line, work through scenes, listening to my vent sessions when scenes didn’t go the way I initially thought they would and for calling me to make sure I wasn’t losing my marbles during this writing journey. But, most of all, thank you for being my friend. For making me laugh non-stop and for just “getting” me. Keep writing woman! You are amazing! I LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH!
Nicole Tway — I cannot even tell you how happy I am to have you in my life. You are the yen to my yang. I can’t wait to watch your career sky rocket my love. It will happen and I will be there to say I told you so. Thank you for making me laugh out loud on a daily basis. You have no idea how much our discussions really ease my mind and help me relax…because they are usually really random yet extremely hilarious.
Heather Maven — Thank you for making the freaking amazeballs book trailer for my baby. You are so crazy talented! Also, thank you for reading Noah and Tate’s story and for loving it. I’m telling you, you have no idea how much I needed your daily updates as you sent them to me. You kept me sane with them — well, as sane as I can be anyway. So happy I met you and am so glad I can call you a friend.
Brandee Veltri — Thank you for taking on the Blog Tour and Release Day Event for this book. I don’t know how you do it. You are simply amazing and ridiculously organized. I always know when I work with you, things will go smoothly and I don’t have to worry about a thing. It’s such a relief and I can’t thank you enough.
Natasha Tomic — You, my dear, are simply amazing. I love you and am so thankful I have you in my life. Thank you for always listening to me rant, handling my nerves, sending me stickers that make me giggle and for just being my friend. One day, we will meet, and I will squeeze you with all my might. LOVE YOU!
Maria Isabel
Ibarra, Annie Lindsay Brown, CA Borgford, Sandi Armstrong, Missy Mackenzie Swain, Cezanne Dilbert, MJ Fryer, Kendra Kirby Haneline, Keelie Chatfield, Jenn McBroom, Jeanette Mancine, Laura Richardson Harris, Holly Baker, Jessica Prince, Shey Houston, Alexis Ciman — I LOVE YOU! Seriously, I could not have done this without you or your friendships. Thank you for all you have done for me, encouraging me, supporting me, pimping me — all of it. You have no idea how much each and every one of you mean to me.
AH! To all the blogs that have supported me and my writing. I would be NOTHING without you posting my teasers and sharing reviews and excerpts with your followers. I know that, and I want you to know that I know that. I appreciate all that you do for the indie community! We would be nothing without your support.
And last, but not least, the readers. Thank you so much for reading and loving my books. I hope you enjoy the addition of Tatum and Noah’s story to the Mending Hearts Series and I can’t wait to bring you Harlow’s story. ;) Soon! Thank you so much to each and every one of you.
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