“Be naked!” Julian said to his retreating back.
Fifteen
Noah was shaking, literally shaking. He never should’ve let Jacob’s words get to him like this but he couldn’t help it. His hands squeezed the edge of the counter so tightly that he was surprised it didn’t break off. He wanted to rage and cry at the same time. He had so many emotions coursing through his body that he didn’t know how he was going to get them under control.
He felt dirty.
He felt disgusted.
He felt terrified.
He felt.....broken.
And then he was there.
Jesse’s arms slid around Noah’s body from behind and engulfed him. He felt a peacefulness wash over him as Jesse pressed soft kisses to the back of his neck. “I’m sorry he hurt you like that, Noah,” Jesse whispered.
Noah’s head dropped and he reached up to clasp Jesse’s hand that was pressed to his heart. “Not your fault,” he managed to whisper.
“I know. But I want to make it better. I want to make you feel better,” Jesse said with so much longing in his voice that Noah whimpered.
Noah wasn’t strong enough for this, he wasn’t strong enough to keep his hands off of Jesse. But Jesse deserved a better man than Noah. He deserved a man who wasn’t damaged.
“Jesse, I….”
Jesse’s hand shot up and clamped over Noah’s mouth, stopping his words.
“Don’t, Noah. Don’t you dare. You are a good man, a wonderful man, a kind man. And you are the right man….for me.”
Noah sucked in a sharp breath. He wanted to be those things. He really wanted to be all of those things. But it was so hard to feel that way when he felt so tainted by that man.
As if he could hear Noah’s thoughts, Jesse said, “He’s stained both of us, Noah. Let’s see if we can purge him out of our systems together, okay?”
Noah’s eyes slid shut as those words washed over him, warming him, making him feel human again.
Together.
They could do this together.
He nodded his head slightly and Jesse kissed the back of his neck again.
“Come back to bed, babe. Let me hold you,” Jesse said quietly.
Noah glanced over at Morgan, who was watching him like a concerned but proud father. “Go,” Morgan said, “Nothing to do but wait now.”
Noah nodded and then turned in Jesse’s arms. He was going to say something to him but the second he looked into Jesse’s eyes and saw the love, the concern and the utter fucking strength in them, a lump formed in his throat that was so big he knew he’d start crying if he tried to speak.
Jesse leaned forward to gently press his lips to Noah’s and then he threaded their fingers together and started walking them down the hall.
Once in their room, Jesse closed the door behind them and walked Noah over to the bed. Noah’s heart was now pounding in his chest because this felt…..big, it felt monumental, it felt like….more.
Jesse stared into Noah’s eyes as he pulled Noah’s t-shirt over his head, dropped it to the floor and then slid his sweats down his legs. “Lie down, Noah,” Jesse whispered with another kiss to Noah’s lips.
Noah watched Jesse undress as he lay down on his back near the middle of the bed. He expected Jesse to climb in and lie by his side.
But he didn’t.
Oh, Jesse slid under the covers alright, but when he got close to Noah, he surged over the top of him, straddling his thighs.
Jesse wrapped his arms around Noah’s shoulders and began tentatively kissing him as he ground their cocks together.
Jesse’s tongue slid along the seam of Noah’s lips, silently asking for entry which Noah gladly gave. Once his lips were parted, Jesse’s tongue dove inside and found his and then, suddenly, Jesse kisses were no longer tentative, no longer hesitant. They became hungry, they became confident, they became…demanding. And that was the moment that Noah knew he no longer had any control – not just with what was happening right now in that bed, but also with what was happening between the two of them. He now knew for certain that he was powerless to stop it. And he realized with a shock as he stared up into Jesse’s eyes, the blue almost unrecognizable since his pupils were blown wide open with his desire, Noah realized he was okay with that – this feeling of helplessness, of falling without knowing where he would land. As long as he was doing it with this man in his arms, he felt like it was okay to let go.
“God, Jesse, you’re so beautiful,” he whispered as he brushed the hair back from his forehead.
Jesse blushed and smiled so sweetly as he leaned forward again to press his swollen lips to Noah’s. But when he sat back up again and held out the bottle of lube that he must’ve stashed under his pillow and whispered, “Will you get me ready?”
Noah’s heart felt like it stopped. It probably did for a moment.
Noah swallowed hard. “Jess,” he whispered.
“I want to be yours, Noah. Please, make me yours,” Jesse whispered against Noah’s ear.
Noah Pierce wasn’t a religious man….at all. But in that moment he said a silent God give me strength plea in his head….because he needed it.
He nodded at Jesse because he was incapable of speech right then, as he closed his fingers around that bottle.
“Like this?” he whispered.
Jesse nodded, “Yes. I want to look into your eyes. Is this okay?”
Noah sat up and wrapped his arms around Jesse’s body, “It’s more than okay, baby. Should I get a condom?”
Jesse pulled his lower lip into his mouth, “Do you need one? Because you know that I don’t and I, um, I’d really rather we not have one. I want to feel you, Noah, all of you.”
Holy hell, this man was going to be the death of him.
Noah was going to blow his load before he ever got inside this man if he wasn’t careful.
He sucked Jesse’s tongue into his mouth, kissing him, letting him know without words how important Jesse was to him, as his hands worked blindly behind Jesse’s back. He snapped open the lube, drizzled it all over his fingers which he then wrapped around his aching cock that was tucked against Jesse’s crack. He slathered enough lube that he could feel it running down his balls and onto the sheets. Then he added more to his fingers, closed the bottle and dropped it onto the bed. He slid his fingers into Jesse’s crack, being careful not to touch his own dick too much because it really was ready to explode. He rubbed back and forth over Jesse’s hole a few times and, hearing the man’s whimpers, he gently pressed one inside.
Jesse inhaled sharply into Noah’s mouth so Noah pulled back and stared into his eyes, “This okay?”
Jesse’s eyes drooped as he nodded his head.
Despite the awkward angle, Noah managed to curve his finger and locate Jesse’s prostate.
The man’s eyes flew open as his fingers shot up to grasp onto Noah’s arms, “Oh my God, yes!” he cried.
Noah smiled at him, “Feels good?”
Jesse’s lower lip was pulled between his teeth as he nodded at Noah. Noah could feel Jesse’s heart beating in his chest, he could feel trembles shaking the man’s body.
“More?” he said.
Jesse nodded, “Please,” he whispered.
So, Noah added a second finger.
And the utter joy that washed over Jesse’s face was, well, it was enough to knock him on his ass if he let it. But right now, he had a man to please.
He alternated between opening his fingers to spread Jesse for his dick and brushing over his prostate.
Noah’s hands moved frantically, squeezing Noah’s biceps, clutching onto his own hair, reaching between their bodies to grab his dick and then back up to Noah’s arms. “Fuck, I need to come so bad but I want to do it with you inside me. Hurry, Noah, please hurry,” Jesse said with a groan.
So, Noah added a third finger and concentrated only on getting Jesse stretched enough to take him.
“Fuck, you’re so tight,” he whispered against Jesse’s lips.
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Jesse’s entire body vibrated as he threw his head back and groaned up to the ceiling, “God, Noah, please.”
Noah wished they had more time to prep but both of them were on fire. He knew if he waited any longer, one or both of them wouldn’t make it to the finish that they were both hoping for.
So, he slid his fingers out of Jesse’s body and wrapped them around his dick. He set the head right against Jesse’s stretched hole but didn’t press inside. He couldn’t, not yet. “Are you sure, baby?” he whispered as he looked at Jesse and waited for him to open his eyes. When those lids finally lifted, Noah was almost overwhelmed by the trust he saw shining back at him. “I want this, Noah. I want you,” Jesse whispered.
With his heart pounding in his chest, Noah gave him what he wanted.
He slowly pressed up, his thick cockhead pushing against Jesse’s hole and begging for entry.
Jesse hissed.
“Breathe out, babe. Try to relax.”
Jesse blew out a breath as he closed his eyes and nodded his head and then…..
Holy sweet heaven
Jesse’s body relaxed and let him in. No, it didn’t just let him in, it sucked him inside. Not just his dick, but all of him.
“Easy, baby,” Noah said with a grimace as Jesse’s body began to slide down faster, like it was begging for Noah’s cock, all of it.
“Want you. Need this,” Jesse mumbled.
And then Jesse’s ass was pressed against the tops of Noah’s thighs and Noah knew…..
He was fucking ruined.
He was ruined for all other men. Because nobody could ever feel this good. Nobody could wrap so perfectly around him like they were custom made to fit together.
His fingers dug into Jesse’s hips, keeping him still to allow him to adjust.
“You okay, baby?” he whispered into Jesse’s neck.
When Jesse shook his head in a no, Noah froze. Fuck, he was hurting him. God, he was such an asshole.
But just as his arms tensed to lift Jesse off of his body, Jesse looked up at him with a drunken smile on his face and whispered, “I’m not okay, I’m perfect.”
Noah relaxed as he smiled back, “Yes you are. Now, ride me baby,” he said as he lay back on the pillows.
Jesse’s hands moved over to press onto Noah’s chest and then he slowly lifted up and dropped back down.
“Oh, shit,” Noah mumbled because, damn, that felt too fucking good.
“Did, did I do something wrong?” Jesse whispered as he stared at Noah.
“God no, you’re perfect.”
Jesse smiled at him and then moved his body again. Up and down, up and down, his hard dick bouncing and hitting Noah’s stomach with a thwack and sending pre-cum flying everywhere. It was a glorious sight. And it was all his. Noah felt like the luckiest man ever.
“G-g-g-g-god, Noah, f-f-f-feels so good,” Jesse mumbled as he stared down between their bodies watching Noah’s dick slide in and out of his body.
Suddenly the separation between the two of them felt like the Grand Canyon to Noah. He surged upright and wrapped his arms around Jesse as he slammed their lips together. The move also pinned Jesse’s cock between them, grinding it perfectly against Noah’s stomach as Jesse continued to glide up and down.
“T-t-t-too much,” Jesse whispered and Noah knew exactly what the man was feeling because he could feel his dick sliding over Jesse’s sweet spot.
He pressed his lips against Jesse’s ear and whispered, “No, it’s not, babe. I’ve got you. I’ll always have you. Let me feel you fly, baby.”
That was all it took to send Jesse over that edge. And, fuck, was it stunning. The man’s body shook and trembled, he cried out Noah’s name, his ass clamped down on Noah’s dick and then his sweet, warm come began coating both of their stomachs.
Noah’s orgasm shot through him so fast he barely had any warning, barely had time to do anything but moan out Jesse’s name as his cock throbbed and pumped out his release inside Jesse.
He was filling him.
Jesse was his.
And he was never going to let him go.
As the tremors continued to wrack their bodies, Noah tightened his hold on Jesse and pressed his lips onto his collarbone. “You’ve got me, Jess. I’m yours,” he whispered.
Jesse smiled as he lifted his head to look at Noah, “And I’m yours, Noah, always.”
Nothing would be the same for either of them ever again.
Sixteen
Noah was pacing in the kitchen.
He’d left Jesse alone in the bedroom because he was too nervous, too squirrelly. Jesse had his tablet in his lap and said he was going to watch movies or something.
A hand on Noah’s shoulder had him spinning around. “Relax man. You’re way too wound up,” Beau said to him.
“I know, I fucking know that but I, fuck, I can’t calm down.”
“Well, you fucking need to. You’re no good to him this way.”
“I just, fuck, if something happens to him…”
“It won’t.”
“But, what if…”
“It won’t! Fuck, dude, do you really think this is our first rodeo? Stop insulting us like that.”
“I’m not, but shit happens that we don’t expect. You of all people should know that!”
“I do know that. But you want to know what else I know?”
“What?”
Beau emphasized his final point with a finger to Noah’s collarbone, “Jacob Knight is going to have to get through you to get to him and that will never happen.”
Noah stared up at Beau, his breath sawing in an out of his lungs as Beau’s words finally sunk in.
“Ah, I see you’re finally getting it!” Beau said as Noah’s entire stature changed from raging bull to calm cat. Beau tilted his chin towards the hall, “Now, go. Be with your man, Noah. He needs you.”
Without another word, Noah spun on his heel and walked down the hall.
The sight that greeted him when he opened the door was the absolute last thing that he expected.
Because, there, spread out on his back on the bed with his head hanging over the side was his Jesse, with a rubber dildo in his mouth and down his throat so far that you could barely see it and with a very graphic porno playing on the tablet that was discarded on the bed.
Noah lifted an eyebrow at Jesse’s wide, surprised eyes as he slowly closed the door behind him.
There was a brief gagging sound, followed by the sound of slurping and swallowing as Jesse slid that fake cock out of his mouth and sat up, “I, I, I, oh fuck,” Jesse whispered, blushing as he buried his face in his hands.
“Something you’d like to tell me?” Noah said, unable to keep the smirk from his face.
“I want to blow you, Noah.”
Noah’s heartrate increased and his dick jumped behind his zipper, “Okay,” he said, elongating the word, “but why all of this? And where did you find a dildo?”
Jesse was still blushing as he pointed, “It, um, it was in the drawer. It’s brand new. There’s like four of them in there.”
“Did you try all four?”
Jesse’s eyes went wide again and he squeaked, “What? No, god, no. Just one.”
“Um-hmm. You do know that you don’t have to go to all of this, uh, work, when you put your mouth on me, right?”
“Yeah, I know. But this is how I want to do it?”
All the spit left Noah’s mouth as he tried to swallow, “Uh, what?” he whispered because he really needed Jesse to repeat that, at least a dozen times.
Because just the image of him fucking Jesse’s throat like that had his dick leaking in his pants.
He’d never done that before, with anyone. And now Jesse was asking to do it as his first time of giving head?
Jesse flipped back to his back and looked at Noah as his head hung off the bed, “I want to do it like this, Noah, please.”
“I’m not sure that’s the best position for your first time, babe.”
“I don’t care. I want this, Noah.”
“Why?”
Jesse caressed his throat, “I want to feel you in here.”
Holy Fucking Hell, went through his mind while,
Fuck Yes Please, was shouting from his dick.
Noah looked into those begging, pleading eyes and, for once, he listened to his dick instead of his head.
His fingers quickly undid his pants and he shoved everything to the floor, gripping the base of his dick tight so he didn’t shoot off as he walked forward.
Jesse’s mouth opened like a baby bird waiting for dinner and Noah almost whimpered at the sight.
He slid the head of his wet dick around Jesse’s lips a few times, “Are you sure babe?”
Jesse’s upside-down head nodded so Noah began sliding inside. When Jesse gagged, he pulled back out.
“No, don’t stop. I just need to relax more. You’re bigger than the dildo.”
And cue the inner-peacock strut. Fucking-a-right he was bigger than a dildo.
“Stop preening and start shoving,” Jesse mumbled from below him.
Noah’s eyebrow went up. So, Jesse had a bratty side. Sweet.
“You asked for it,” he whispered and then he slowly slid back inside. He watched for that gag reflex, he was poised to pull back out but…..
“Oh my god, holy fucking shit,” he mumbled when he slid down Jesse’s throat.
He watched with fascination as the man’s throat bulged up. That was his cock in there. His fucking cock.
Oh. My. God.
He pulled out so Jesse could swallow and take a breath and then pushed back inside.
He discovered, after a few times, that he didn’t have to pull all the way out in order for Jesse to take a breath, just back far enough for the man to suck air in through his nose as Noah’s dick rested on his tongue before shoving back in.
They both found the perfect rhythm, in, out-suck-air, in, out-suck-air, in…..
Until Noah felt that familiar tingle.
“I’m gonna come, babe. Where do you want it?”
Jesse’s arm shot up into the air and Noah realized that he was asking for his hand. Once he had their fingers together, Jesse took Noah’s hand and laid it across his throat.
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