She's about to add, "I have scars, inside me," but she stops herself. What is a scar, Oh Toby? That would be the next question. Then she'd have to explain what a scar is. A scar is like writing on your body. It tells about something that once happened to you, such as a cut on your skin where blood came out. What is writing, Oh Toby? Writing is when you make marks on a piece of paper - on a stone - on a flat surface, like the sand on the beach, and each of the marks means a sound, and the sounds joined together mean a word, and the words joined together mean ... How do you make this writing, Oh Toby? You make it with a keyboard, or no - once you made it with a pen or a pencil, a pencil is a ... Or you make it with a stick. Oh Toby, I do not understand. You make a mark with a stick on your skin, you cut your skin open and then it is a scar, and that scar turns into a voice? It speaks, it tells us things? Oh Toby, can we hear what the scar says? Show us how to make these scars that talk!
No, she should stay away from the whole scar business. Otherwise she might inspire the Crakers to start carving themselves up to see if they can let out the voices.
"What's your name?" she says to the little boy.
"My name is Blackbeard," says the child gravely. Blackbeard, the notorious murdering pirate? This sweet child? A child who will never have a beard when he grows up because Crake did away with body hair in his new species. A lot of the Crakers have odd names. According to Zeb, Crake named them - Crake, with his warped sense of humour. Though why shouldn't their names be odd, to go with their general oddity?
"I am very happy to meet you, Oh Blackbeard," she says.
"Do you eat your droppings, Oh Toby?" says Blackbeard. "As we do? To digest our leaves better?"
What droppings? Edible poo? No one warned her about this! "It is time to go and see your mother, Oh Blackbeard," says Toby. "She must be worried about you."
"No, Oh Toby. She knows I am with you. She says you are good and kind." He smiles, showing perfect little teeth: enchantment. They are all so attractive - like airbrushed cosmetic ads. "You are good like Crake. You are kind like Oryx. Do you have wings, Oh Toby?" He cranes his neck, trying to see behind her. Maybe the earlier hug was only a stealthy way of feeling her back for the feathered stubs that might be sprouting there.
"No," says Toby. "No wings."
"I will mate with you when I am bigger," says Blackbeard. He offers this heroically. "Even if you are ... even if you are only a little blue. Then you will have a baby! It will grow in your bone cave! You will be happy!"
Only a little blue. It must mean that he recognizes her comparative age, though old is not something the Crakers have a word for. "Thank you, Oh Blackbeard," says Toby. "Now run along. I have to eat my breakfast. And I must go and visit Jimmy - I must visit Snowman-the-Jimmy, to see if his sickness is better." She sits up and plants her feet squarely on the floor, a sign for the boy to leave.
Though not a sign he understands. "What is breakfast, Oh Toby?" he says. She forgot: these people don't have meals as such. They graze, like herbivores.
He eyes her binoculars, pokes her stack of bedsheets. Now he's stroking her rifle, where it stands in the corner. It's something a normal human child might do: idle fiddling, curious handling. "Is this your breakfast?"
"Don't touch that," she says a little sharply. "That is not breakfast, that is a special thing for ... Breakfast is what we eat in the morning - the people like me, with extra skins."
"Is it a fish?" says the boy. "This breakfast?"
"Sometimes," says Toby. "But for breakfast today, I will eat part of an animal. An animal with fur. Perhaps I will eat its leg. There will be a smelly bone inside. You wouldn't want to see such a smelly bone, would you?" she says. That will surely get rid of him.
"No," says the child dubiously. He wrinkles his nose. He seems intrigued, however: who wouldn't want to peek from behind the curtain at the trolls' revolting feasts?
"Then you should go away," says Toby.
Still he lingers. "Snowman-the-Jimmy says the bad people in the chaos ate the Children of Oryx," he says. "They killed them and killed them, and ate them and ate them. They were always eating them."
"Yes, they were," says Toby, "but they were eating them in the wrong way."
"Were the two bad men eating them in the wrong way too? The ones who ran away?"
"Yes," says Toby. "They were."
"How are you eating them, Oh Toby? The legs of the Children?" His huge eyes are fixed on her as if she's about to sprout fangs and pounce on him.
"The right way," she says, hoping he won't ask what the right way is.
"I saw a smelly bone. It was behind the kitchen. Is it breakfast? Do the bad men eat such bones?" says Blackbeard.
"Yes," says Toby. "But they do other bad things too. Many bad things. Much worse things. We must all be very careful, and not go into the forest by ourselves. If you see those bad men or anyone like them, you must come and tell me right away. Or tell Crozier, or Rebecca, or Ren, or Ivory Bill. Any of us." She's gone over this point several times with all of the Crakers, the adults too, but she's not sure they've taken it in. They gaze at her and nod, chewing slowly as if thinking, but they don't seem frightened. It's worrying, their lack of fear.
"Not Snowman-the-Jimmy or Amanda," the boy says. "We can't tell them. Because they are sick." At least he's grasped that much. He pauses as if considering. "But Zeb will make the bad men go away. Then everything will be safe."
"Yes," says Toby. "Then everything will be safe." Already the Crakers have constructed a formidable set of beliefs about Zeb. Soon he'll be all-potent and able to fix every ill; and that could be troublesome, because of course he can't. Not even for me, thinks Toby.
But the name of Zeb is reassuring to Blackbeard. He smiles again, lifts his hand, gives a little wave, like a president of old, like a queen in a cavalcade, like a movie star. Where has he picked up that gesture? Now he's sidling backwards through the doorway. He doesn't take his eyes off Toby until he's around the corner.
Did I scare him? she thinks. Will he go back to the others and tell them disgusting marvels, as real children - as children do?
Violet Biolet
Outside the main house the day is underway. The others must already have had their breakfasts, though Swift Fox and Ivory Bill are still at the table, engaged no doubt in some kind of arcane flirtation, she for practise, he in pathetic earnest.
Toby looks around for Zeb, but he is nowhere to be seen; maybe he's taking a shower. Crozier is just setting off with the Mo'Hair flock; Zunzuncito is with him, toting a spraygun, covering his back. Jimmy's hammock is under the tree, watched over by a trio of Crakers.
Lotis Blue and Ren are working on an addition to the cobb house. The MaddAddamites have voted to expand the number of sleeping cubicles; they'll make the new ones roomier, more like a real house. The core structure was built as a demonstration of olden-day ways: ersatz antiquity, like a dinosaur made of cement. The Tree of Life Natural Materials Exchange used to be held in this space; Toby remembers coming here with the God's Gardeners to peddle their recycled soap and their vinegar and honey and mushrooms and rooftop vegetables, back when there had still been buying and people to buy things, selling and people to sell them.
I ought to look around for some bees, she thinks. There must be escapees, living in the trees. It would be calming as well as useful to tend a few hives.
The cobb-house construction has to be done in stages. This morning Ren and Lotis Blue are mixing up the mud, straw, and sand in a plastic wading pool decorated with Mickey Mice. The wood frame is in place, the layers of cobb are being added day by day. Drying each layer is a problem in view of the afternoon thunderstorms, but luckily they've been able to glean some plastic sheeting for coverups.
Amanda sits near the two of them, hands in her lap, doing nothing. She does nothing a lot. Maybe it's slow healing, Toby thinks, like slow cooking. Maybe the end result will be better that way. But at least she's gained some weight. She has been making some effort over the past few da
ys: pulling out a weed or two, culling the odd slug or snail. In the old Edencliff Rooftop Garden days, they'd have relocated Our Fellow Vegetable Eaters by throwing them down onto the street - slugs, too, had a right to live, went the mantra, though not in inappropriate locations such as salad bowls, where they might be harmed by chewing. But now their numbers are too overwhelming - every plant seems to generate slugs and snails as if spontaneously - so by common though unspoken agreement they're being dropped into salt water.
Amanda seems to enjoy that slightly, despite the writhing and frothing. But the cobb-house building work is too much for her. She used to be so strong: nothing used to frighten her. She'd been a tough pleebrat, she'd lived by her wits, she could handle anything. Of the two of them, Ren was the weaker, the more timid. Whatever has happened to Amanda - whatever was done to her by the Painballers - must have been extreme.
Several Craker kids are watching the mud mixing. No doubt they're asking questions. Why are you doing that? Are you making a chaos? What are those, with the round black things on their heads? What is a mickeymouse? But they do not look like mice, we have seen mice, mice do not have big white hands, and so forth. Every new thing they discover in the territory of the MaddAddamites is a source of wonder for them. Yesterday Crozier managed to glean a package of cigarettes during his shepherding stroll, and the Crakers have not got over it. He set fire to a white stick! He put it in his mouth! He breathed in the smoke! Why did you do that, Oh Crozier? Smoke is not for breathing, smoke is for cooking a fish, and so on.
"Just tell them it's a Crake thing," said Toby, so Crozier did. The Crake gambit was one-size-fits-all.
Some of the Crakers - a number of the women, several of the smaller kids - are over in the erstwhile playground outside the cobb-house boundary fence, munching away at the kudzu vines draping the swing set. Kudzu is one of their favourite plants, which shows foresight on the part of Crake because there won't be a shortage of kudzu any time soon. They've got the red plastic slide almost uncovered, and the children are stroking it as if it's alive. Who remembered the swing set was under there, before they started gnawing?
Toby heads for the violet biolet, not only because she needs to but also because she doesn't want to arrive at the breakfast table before Swift Fox leaves it. She consciously suppresses the word slut: a woman should not use that word about another woman, especially with no exact cause.
Really? says her inner slut-uttering voice. You've seen the way she looks at Zeb. Eyelashes like Venus flytraps, and that sideways leer of the irises, like some outdated cut-rate prostibot commercial: Bacteria-Resistant Fibres, 100% Fluid-Flushing, Lifelike Moans, ClenchOMeter for Optimal Satisfaction.
She takes a breath, calls on her Gardener meditation training. She visualizes her anger pushing out through her skin like a snail horn, then lets the small bud of fury wither and fall away. She smiles gently in the direction of Swift Fox, thinking, All you want is a quick jump, you want to snag him just to show you can. Nail him up on your trophy wall. You know nothing about him, you can't truly value him, he isn't yours, you don't know how long I waited ...
Which counts for nothing. Nobody cares. There's no fairness, there's no ownership. She has no claims. If Zeb tumbles into bed with Swift Fox - even if he tiptoes into that bed, even if he oozes into it - what she is entitled to say about that is exactly nothing. For all she knows he's double-dipping already, leaving her in affectionate sleepy-time mode - though maybe a little too much like best pals, with a little too much camaraderie between them, no? - but all the time secretly still hungry; then ducking outside, then inside through a different doorway to slide himself voraciously into the voracious Swift Fox.
It doesn't bear thinking about, so she won't think about it. Will not think. Wills herself not.
The violet biolets are part of the original park installation: three stalls for men, three for women. Their solar cells are still operating, running the ultraviolet LEDs and the small aerating-fan motors. As long as the biolets are still functioning, the MaddAddamites won't have to dig outhouse pits. Luckily there's lots of toilet paper to be gleaned in the nearby streets, as it wasn't an item heavily looted during the pillaging phase of the plague. What would you do with a skid of toilet paper? You couldn't get drunk on it.
The walls inside the biolet are still covered with pleebland inscriptions: several generations of them, one layer on top of another. There'd been a time when those still devoted to some norm of propriety had tried to paint the words over, but a few kids bent on self-expressive anarchy could destroy in an hour a white surface it had taken a crew three days to blandify.
To Daryn, Im ur bitch, ur my King,
I <3 you more than anything
Fk the Corps
Loris a stuck up cunt
I hope ur raped by 100000 pit bulls
People who write on washroom walls, Shld roll their shit in little balls, And those who read these words of wit, Shld have to eat those balls of shit
Call me/ Best for ur $/ Ull scream 24/7 & die in a pond of Cum
STAY OUT MY WAY A HAT OR ILL KNIFE U
And shyly, unfinished: Try love the World needs
What to eat, where to shit, how to take shelter, who and what to kill: are these the basics? thinks Toby. Is this what we've come to, or come down to; or else come back to?
And who do you love? And who loves you? And who loves you not? And, come to think of it, who seriously hates you.
Blink
Under the trees Jimmy is still slumbering. Toby checks his pulse - calmer; changes his maggots - the wound on his foot has stopped festering; and pours some mushroom elixir into him, mixed with a little Poppy.
An oval of chairs is arranged around the hammock, as if Jimmy is the central offering at a feast: a giant salmon, a boar on a platter. Three Crakers are purring over him, taking turns: two men and a woman, gold, ivory, ebony. It's a different three every few hours. Do they have only so much purring quotient, are they like batteries that have to be recharged? Naturally they need time off to graze and water themselves, but does the purring itself have a sort of electrical frequency?
We'll never know, thinks Toby, holding Jimmy's nose to make him open his mouth: no way of wiring up their brains for scientific studies, not any more. Which is lucky for them. In the olden days they'd have been kidnapped from the Paradice Project dome by some rival Corp, then injected and jolted and probed and sliced apart to see how they were put together. What made them tick, what made them purr, what made them click. What, if anything, made them sick. They'd have ended up as slabs of DNA in a freezer.
Jimmy swallows, sighs; his left hand twitches. "How has he been today?" Toby asks the three Crakers. "Has he been awake at all?"
"No, Oh Toby," says the gold-coloured man. "He is travelling." This one has bright red hair, long slender limbs; despite the skin colour, he looks like something from a children's storybook. An Irish folktale.
"But now he has stopped," says the ebony man. "He has climbed into a tree."
"Not his real tree," says the ivory woman. "Not the tree he lives in."
"He has gone to sleep in this tree," says the ebony man.
"You mean, he's sleeping inside his sleep?" says Toby. This seems wrong: it shouldn't be possible. "In the tree in his dream?"
"Yes, Oh Toby," says the ivory woman. All three of them gaze at her with their lambent green eyes, as if she's twirling a piece of string and they are bored cats.
"Perhaps he will sleep for a long time," says the golden man. "He is stuck there, in the tree. If he will not wake up and travel to here, he will not wake up at all."
"But he's getting better!" says Toby.
"He is afraid," says the ivory woman in a matter-of-fact voice. "He is afraid of what is in this world. He is afraid of the bad men, he is afraid of the Pig Ones. He doesn't want to be awake."
"Can you talk to him?" says Toby. "Can you tell him it's better to be awake?" No harm in trying: maybe they have some form of inaudible communication tha
t might reach Jimmy, wherever he is. A wavelength, a vibration.
But now they aren't looking at her. They're looking at Ren and Lotis Blue, who are walking over with Amanda in tow, sheltering behind them.
The three of them sit down on the empty chairs, Amanda hesitantly. Ren and Lotis Blue are muddy from their building activities, but Amanda is pristine. The other two give her a shower every morning, choose a fresh bedsheet for her, braid her hair.
"We thought we'd take a break from the house," says Ren. "See how Jimmy - see how Snowman-the-Jimmy is doing."
The ivory woman smiles widely at them, the two men smile less widely: the Craker men are nervous around the younger cobb-house women now. Ever since they've learned that rambunctious group copulation is not acceptable, they don't know what's expected of them. They begin conferring together in low voices, leaving the ivory woman as the sole purrer.
Is she blue? One is blue. Two others were blue, we joined our blue to their blue but we did not make them happy. They are not like our women, they are not happy, they are broken. Did Crake make them? Why did he make them that way, so they are not happy? Oryx will take care of them. Will Oryx take care of them, if they are not like our women? When Snowman-the-Jimmy wakes up, we will ask him these things.
I'd like to be a fly on the wall, thinks Toby. Listening to Jimmy justifying the ways of Crake towards men, or semi-men.
"Will Jimmy - will Snowman-the-Jimmy be okay?" asks Lotis Blue.
"I think so," says Toby. "It will depend on his ..." She doesn't want to say "immune system" because the Crakers will hear. (What is an immune system? It is something you have inside yourself that helps you and makes you strong. Where can we find an immune system? Is it from Crake, will he send us an immune system?, and so on.) "It depends on his dreaming." No comment from the Crakers: so far, so good. "But I'm sure he'll wake up soon."
"He needs to eat," says Lotis Blue. "He's so thin! He can't live on nothing."
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