Monday morning arrives and I haven’t slept since I was in my bed holding my sunshine. I need coffee. Just as I am getting ready to send Jake out for my caffeine fix, I see a flash of yellow out front.
I could spot that car anywhere no matter what the color, all because of the woman who drives it. I smile thinking to myself, man, I sure would love another ride in that very car like we had the other night. We went everywhere and nowhere all at the same time.
I walk over to her seeing the coffee in her hands. Oh how this woman amazes me. She is smiling at me until she sees my face is bruised. I quickly decide to take her mind off of it by kissing her. To have her in my arms again is like coming home. I pull her into my chest, holding her. Having her up against me reminds me just how well our bodies fit together. She was made just for me.
She asks about my face so I decide to take her to my office to talk. She is my chair, I really just want to kiss her, forget talking. I give her an edited version of situation with Brayden, leaving out what Brayden said about me with her. When she started crying, my heart sinks. I want to never see her cry again after Michael. To see her crying now over something involving me is slowly killing me.
Suddenly, I panic what if she is scared of me now? She knows Brayden has broken and cracked bones from me. After everything we have been through, I know violence is an issue. Brayden lied and now she is calling me out on it. I have to be honest, so I have to face that she may actually fear me. I step back away from her. I am supposed to be her safety net. I am so upset with myself. She has to be scared now. Great I have ruined this before I can even manage to tell the woman how I feel about her.
When she moves, I start to tremble I know she is about to leave. She doesn’t though; instead she comes to me giving me all the reassurance I so desperately needed. In this moment, I know she cares deeply for me, she wants this too. Although, neither of us has spoken the words I can feel she loves me as much as I love her. She is upset out of fear for her friend.
I try to address her concerns for Maggie. Brayden is in a mess right now, but would never hurt Maggie. I also try to put into words to Dina what she means to me.
Technically we have only gone on one official date so I don’t want to scare Dina away. We have spent the last three almost four years running into each other, fighting a magnetic attraction. Truth be told, she captured my heart the very first night I met her at the restaurant. The night at the bottom of the stairs with Michael, just brought out my instinct to do anything for her, make her mine and keep her safe always.
I could hold her for a lifetime, but work needs me. She leaves and I spend my evening thinking over how to make time for Dina and me to be able to really talk.
As the week continued, I am overjoyed for the times Dina would just come by the shop. She always brings dinner, but sometimes she would stay to clean up or even just to pass me tools. Just her presence makes me feel alive and like I can keep going at this ridiculous pace. She fits in so well into my life; I hope she feels I fit into hers as well. Kenna and Dina hit it off from the beginning which is great. We just relax into a simple routine and it is calming in all the chaos.
Friday, Dina arrives empty handed, so I assume she wants to order pizza for dinner. She so understands the crazy schedule I am keeping. The caddy had to be complete in just fifteen days to be delivered to the car show for the owner. I will not miss this deadline even if it means no sleep for two weeks.
When Dina whispered that she wanted just me, not dinner, I was ready to take her in my office. That wouldn’t be right though plus she left right after she told me, it all happened so fast I almost thought I day dreamed it. I go over to Jake, “Hey man, lock up when you get ready to go. I need to take off ok.” He smiles a knowing grin and nodded. Yes, I am whipped already; yes I would follow that woman any time, any place.
I got on my bike heading to my house first for quick shower and change of clothes. I know I am exhausted, but just the thought of Dina wanting me has my body alert and wide awake now. I park the bike inside of my garage, deciding to take my 1971 hot rod truck over to Dina’s. The only stop I made on my over was for some condoms and a little surprise for dessert.
Chapter 16
Dina
A soft rumble of exhaust alerted me Ryder has arrived, and not on his motorcycle. Anxiety fills me causing me to feel butterflies in my stomach. I know our time is limited so I want to make the most of it. Dressed in a black bra and pantie set, a matching garter belt, sheer black stockings, ending with black high heels, all straight out of a Fredrick’s of Hollywood catalog, I boldly answer my door after he rang the doorbell.
Ryder steps inside, wrapping one hand around my waist pulling me in for a deep, passionate kiss. With his foot he kicks the door shut. He begins trailing kisses down my neck. I mutter, “Hello, handsome.” He grunts still kissing, licking, and nipping at my neck. I feel him smile against me, “You are full of surprises baby.”
I take him by the hand to lead him to my room. When I notice the plastic bag he is carrying, I ask, “What’s in the bag?” He licks his lips seductively, “You wanted dessert baby.”
I slide onto my bed as he takes off his shoes and shirt. He stands over me, just taking in the sight before him. He sits beside me, reaching into the bag. Slowly, Ryder, one by one began setting the items on my nightstand as he pulled them out of the bag, there were condoms, strawberries, whip cream, and a jar of chocolate sauce. Anticipation is coursing through my veins making me hot with need.
Ryder takes a strawberry. Tipping the jar of chocolate sideways to dip the berry in, he purposely dribbles some chocolate onto my stomach. Ryder slowly feeds me the strawberry, teasing me with the chocolate over my lips. While I chew he kisses his way down to the chocolate and begins a delicious tease as he cleans me with his expert tongue. He continues feeding me strawberries, each time he leaves chocolate on a new part of my body. It is a slow, deliberate, delicate, and appetizing form of torture. My body is so eager for release. I pull his face to mine, kissing him hard. Then I whisper, “Ryder, make love to me, now, please, baby, please.”
“Oh, baby, yes I plan too, but I am not finished with my dessert yet.” He said smiling. And with that he ravishes my mouth in such an assault of passion, need, desire, and deep longing. He removes my bra, massaging my breasts, giving equal attention to both. When he tugs gently on my nipple, I arched my back, rising up off my bed, calling out his name in pure ecstasy. Then he slowly pulls off my panties, leaving me laying there in just a garter belt, stockings, and heels. I went to reach for his jeans; he pulls my hand away, “Nope, I haven’t finished my dessert yet.”
With that he picks up the can of whip cream using it to draw around my breasts, down my stomach, my hips and the v of my legs. Once again, he begins a slow, delicate torture with his tongue. He thoroughly licks off all the whip cream on my body. Before I can resist, he pulls my legs apart letting his tongue graze over and into my most intimate part. He slowly begins, as I feel the familiar tightening in my stomach, he moans against me, sending vibrations through my very core. My entire body begins to shake as the orgasm over takes me.
He gently kisses all over my stomach, breasts, collar bone, and neck, giving me a chance to recover and ride through the aftershocks. I am in pure bliss, as I hear him say, “Baby, you by far, are the best dessert I have ever tasted.”
I pull him over me kissing him fiercely. As amazing as that was, my body ached to be one with Ryder. I remove his jeans and boxers. He reaches over to the night stand getting out a foil packet. After he sheathed himself, he enters me and slowly makes love to me.
For a while we just lay together quietly coming back down. Then Ryder says, “Baby, I know I made you a sticky mess, let’s go take a shower so I can wash you.” I smile up at him, “Yes, please.”
We go to my bathroom and start the shower. Laughing, I step out of my heels and stockings, “I have never had sex with my shoes on before. That was hot.” He smiles at me, pulling me to him, “Baby, that
was hot.” We shower together just enjoying the intimate act of washing one another.
We finish, get dried off and dressed. We head into the kitchen where I make us some sandwiches. With our food in hand, we head to the living room to rest on the couch, chatting casually while we eat.
After cleaning up our dishes, I sit down cuddling up against Ryder. He holds me for the longest time, both of us just quietly embracing one another. Then he says, “Dina, I want you to know I care about you. I want a real relationship with you. I don’t know if you are ready for that or what you are really looking for from this. I understand if you aren’t ready, I am not going anywhere I will be here when you are ready. I just want you to know, Dina, for me there is no one but you.” At his words, my heart swelled, “Ryder, for me there is no one but you. I have never felt this way about anyone before. I want a relationship with you, and I am more than ready to see how far this can go.”
With that, I kiss him. After a few minutes, he pulls away. As he kisses my forehead, he whispers almost as if he was afraid to say it, “Dina, I am so in love with you.” I feel all giddy inside and I just blurt out, “Ryder, I love you, too, so much.” He lifts me off the couch, carrying me back to my bedroom. We take our time sharing our bodies, bringing to life the connection of words we had just pronounced.
Ryder and I stay wrapped together in one another all night, even though I had expected him to leave and head back to work. Feeling feather like touches over my back, I slowly awoke to having him with me. I could get used to this. He is still gently rubbing my back, “mmm good morning, mister man.” He leans over kissing me between my shoulder blades since I was lying on my stomach. I roll over to face him.
He seems off in his own thoughts, “Ryder, what’s going on in your head? You are thinking something this morning. Talk to me.” He sighed, “Dina, I should have said something sooner. I don’t know if you remember or not, but we didn’t use protection when we were together in your car.” Dumbfounded, I don’t know what to say, and he begins ramble, “So I am wondering if you are on birth control? I am clean. I was tested after I decided to stop sleeping around and wait for you. It’s just I don’t know how you feel about kids.” I am in shock that I didn’t even think of that.
Ryder
I arrive at Dina’s house feeling nervous and excited. I am not prepared when she answers the door in that outfit. I want to take her right here in the door jam, neighbors be damned, but I make sure to get inside and shut the door.
At first, I am so lost in her; I forget my own plans for the evening. When she asked me about the bag, I remember my intention to have a special evening with my woman.
We get settled in her room. I begin feeding her the strawberries, taking my time to enjoy her body with just my mouth. I take my time which gives me even more pleasure as she begs me to make love to her and is then calling out my name.
After chocolate, whip cream, strawberries, and passionate love making, I know we need a shower. We clean each other’s body just taking in the love between us.
It isn’t until we were in the kitchen that I become hungry for anything other than Dina. We have sandwiches. When Dina goes to put our plates in the dishwasher I know I need to take this opportunity alone to share my feelings for her and figure out where we stand. Stumbling over my words at first, I finally stammer out that she is the one for me. When she tells me that the feelings are mutual, I can’t stop myself from telling her I love her. When she says it back to me with such emotion I knew this was my forever.
We go back to her bed to make love again, solidifying what we have shared verbally. Bringing the emotion together into our physical passions, we are two joining together to become one. I should probably go back to work, but I just don’t want the night to end. I pull Dina into me, holding her close as we both fall into an exhausted sleep.
When I wake up we are wrapped up in each other, her lying on her stomach against me. I can’t help but lightly rub her back with feather like touches. My calloused mechanics hands’ running over her soft smooth skin is ecstasy. I don’t mean to wake her up. As she stirred, I start thinking; we haven’t talked yet about the first time we were together and the lack of protection.
For me, if Dina is pregnant I would be happiest man, but I have to think of her. With everything she has been through, I don’t know if she wants kids now or even in the future. I could be over thinking all of this; after all she may be on the pill. Instead of just calmly, straight forward asking her, I start rambling about being tested and clean all that bull shit. Real smooth, Ryder, real smooth.
Chapter 17
Dina
Oh me, oh my, I can’t believe myself. Now how do I tell Ryder? I am a complete idiot and now I may have messed everything up. I can only manage a whisper, “Ryder I haven’t been on birth control since Michael. I haven’t been with anyone since him. Since I only wanted to be with you and I didn’t think it would happen, I didn’t see the point in continuing my pills and dealing with the side effects.” I begin crying, “I am so sorry, I wasn’t thinking. I have waited so long and wanted you so badly I wasn’t thinking.” We sit there in silence for a few minutes.
He pulls me close, “Dina, it’s going to be okay. If you are pregnant, it may not have been planned, but that baby was made out of love.” I sigh still crying, “Ryder, I don’t know how I feel about having a kid right now. That was something I only wanted if I was married. If I am pregnant, I don’t want to get married for the baby, marriage for me is about love and it’s a lifetime commitment. I also, don’t want you to feel obligated to me. I can do this alone, what I can’t do is have an abortion so please don’t ask.”
Ryder lifted my chin so he could look me in the eye, “Slow down baby, first we don’t know if there is a baby. Second, I know this wasn’t planned, but I would never ask you to have an abortion. I want you to be the one and only to carry and help raise my children. Let’s be clear, I. AM. IN. LOVE. WITH. YOU. As for marriage, baby, when you are ready, you will be my wife, don’t ever doubt where I want us to be. Dina, you are my everything, for now and forever.”
My phone rings, its Maggie, but I choose to ignore it, taking in all that was going on between Ryder and I. I kiss him lightly, “Whatever the situation turns out if I am or if I am not, I love you Ryder Cole Davenport.” He went to respond but his phone started ringing. He kisses my forehead before he reached for the phone.
Ryder
It feels like time has stopped as I wait for her to take in what I told her and respond. When she finally does, I can tell she is nervous and a little scared even. Funny thing is the only thing scary to me isn’t a baby it’s the thought of losing her or her not wanting my baby.
This may not be a planned pregnancy, if there is one, but it’s definitely a baby made out of love. Even if she is not pregnant now, I look forward to one day watching her belly grow from my seed.
When she starts crying and talking I don’t know how to react. My instincts are to soothe, protect, and keep her happy. What if she is pregnant and she is not happy about it?
I am relieved to know she doesn’t want to even consider an abortion. It’s hard to listen as she is trying to push me away, telling me I don’t need to feel obligated to her. I love this woman with every part of me and one day I plan to marry her. I just need her to feel secure it that.
When my phone rings, I desperately want to ignore it. Recent events at work make that impossible so I quickly kiss her and then reach for my phone. I take one look at the caller ID and see that it is Brayden, shit, way to ruin my morning.
Chapter 18
Dina
Ryder answers his phone in a harsh tone, “What?” I don’t know who is on the other end of that phone, but his entire body is tense under me. My heart sinks as I hear him say, “I will meet you at the shop in thirty minutes.” With that he hangs up.
He kisses my forehead, “I am sorry, baby, I have to go back to work.” I shrugged, “Ryder, I honestly didn’t think you would stay overni
ght so this has all been a bonus. I understand the demands of your job. We will have our time together soon. Go do what you need to, call me if you want dinner later or just stop by if you want when you can.”
He gets up and heads in to the bathroom. I hear the shower starting so I get up, dressed, and head to the kitchen. I start a pot of coffee for Ryder, knowing I will be switching to decaf just in case I am pregnant so none for me this morning. Standing here with a moment to myself thinking of this I begin to wonder, what if I am pregnant?
He comes out dressed in his jeans and shirt, hair still damp, and it just makes me want to take him right back to bed. He kisses me as he takes the coffee mug. Holding me for just a moment, he whispers, “I love you, Dina Renee Fowler. I wish I didn’t have to go.” I can’t help but smile, hearing him say those words just makes me so overjoyed. As he pulls away, I said, “I love you, too, misterman.” With that he left.
Ryder
My intention was not to answer the phone so rudely but damn he pisses me off. Brayden asked to meet me; I want to know what has gotten into my friend so I agree.
Leaving Dina is hard, but work is waiting. I get up to shower, I leave the door unlocked in case she wants to join me, but I also know we need a few minutes apart to gather our thoughts.
When I get out, I find Dina in the kitchen. To wake up and begin every day with her in my kitchen would be pure bliss to me.
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