by Brill Harper
Banged: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Book
Blue Collar Bad Boys, Volume 9
Brill Harper
Published by Brill Harper, 2018.
This is a work of fiction. Similarities to real people, places, or events are entirely coincidental.
BANGED: A BLUE COLLAR BAD BOYS BOOK
First edition. March 7, 2018.
Copyright © 2018 Brill Harper.
Written by Brill Harper.
Also by Brill Harper
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His Accidental Boyfriend
Blue Collar Bad Boys
Bounced: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Book
Nailed: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Book
Drilled: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Book
Wrecked: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Book
Laid: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Book
Tagged: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Christmas
Plowed: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Book
Bucked: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Book
Banged: A Blue Collar Bad Boys Book
Standalone
Blue Collar Bad Boys Volume 1: Books 1-3
Blue Collar Bad Boys Volume 2: Books 4-6
Dirty Jobs: a Blue Collar Bad Boys Collection
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Table of Contents
Title Page
Copyright Page
Also By Brill Harper
About this Book
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Epilogue
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About the Author
About this Book
He’s a warrior with no battle. A cop with no bad guy. A man with no purpose.
WHEN MY BEST FRIEND and ERU partner was blown up by a bomb I should have been able to defuse, I vowed to never let anyone get that close again. I’m just drifting through life, and that’s okay with me. If I can’t feel, I can’t hurt.
Until I meet my neighbor.
I’ve been doing my best to avoid the too-pretty pregnant girl next door. She stirs too many things inside me I have no business feeling. She’s too young, too fresh, too pregnant with someone else’s kid for me to be fantasizing about.
Until the day I can’t ignore her anymore.
Hillary is a born caretaker, but nobody takes care of her. She’s alone in the world, but not for much longer, not with the way that baby dances in her belly. She’s all the things I try to stay away from—optimistic, uncommonly sweet, and oh, yeah, she’s somehow still a virgin.
Author’s Confession: You read that right. She’s a pregnant virgin. I probably don’t need to say anything else to get you to one-click at this point, but I’ll go ahead and tell you the bomb technician will make your heart go BOOM. He’s the alpha caretaker you want guarding your six. And your nine...
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Chapter One
Mac
I REALLY HATE THIS coffee shop.
The darkest corner I could find is still lit up like they’re using stadium lights, and the speakers placed every two feet are blaring annoyingly spirited pop music of the boy band variety. The air even tastes sweet, like bubblegum. It’s like Whoville and all the noise, noise, noise. Fuck.
The barista at the counter even looks like Cindy Lou Who with her shiny blonde hair braided up and her too tight T-shirt showing too much skin. Maybe some men like that. Maybe she gets great tips. But she does nothing for me other than make me want to suggest she put on a sweater and get her homework done.
The music in here jangles my nerves, but so do the clattering dishes, the clinking spoons, the scrape of metal against metal. My blood pressure is rising, the thumping in my head getting louder and louder. A cash register dings and the vein in my temple throbs.
Hold it together, Stryker.
I sip at my acrid, burnt coffee, and it scalds the inside of my mouth.
That quiet spot inside my head that used to make my job dismantling explosives possible seems to have disappeared, leaving me like this—always one step from losing my shit. My hand throbs, a reminder of why I’m sitting here instead of at the station or out on a call. I could probably hide the stuff going on in my head if I had to, but nobody is letting me go back to work until my hand heals, something physical therapy doesn’t seem to be doing.
I frown into my cup. If I have to be at a coffee shop instead of the cop shop, I wish I were at Old Joe’s instead. Old Joe’s feels more like a pub, only instead of booze they serve smooth coffee and normal looking desserts that taste like food and not plastic and saccharin. But now I come here because she had to ruin it all.
I don’t know her name. She’s pretty. She’s smiley. She’s pregnant.
And she’s my neighbor.
The last day I stepped foot in Old Joe’s, I took one look at her behind the counter, that sunny smile and pretty little dimple, her dark chin-length hair the same shade as her deep brown eyes, and I turned around and never went back. It’s hard enough to avoid her in the hallway outside our apartments, I don’t need to run into her every day over my coffee. Then she’d start talking to me. Asking me questions. Getting to know me. Then she’d expect that we chat at the mailbox. Maybe gossip about the neighbor down the hall who entertains an awful lot of men in her apartment when her husband is at work. Then comes “borrowing a cup of sugar” or “I made extra lasagna and brought you a plate.”
No. Thank. You.
For one thing, I don’t want to be friendly with anyone. It’s not just her, but she’s worse. She’s the kind of person that you can tell is genuinely nice. Good inside. Not faking it like most of us. Ten years on the police force and I can tell you I know for certain there are more assholes like me in the world than honestly nice human beings like her.
But the other thing that keeps me far, far away from the girl next door is I want to fuck her.
Bad.
She’s deliciously round. Fertile. It shouldn’t even be sexy. I’ve never been turned on by a pregnant woman before.
But being someone’s mother means she’d best stay away from the likes of me. Not only am I not interested in commitment or family, but I’m a fucking mess. Nobody deserves to be saddled with me, but especially not someone responsible for another human life.
I’ve never seen a baby daddy hanging around, but he’s out there somewhere. He should be home with her. Keeping guys like me from drooling all over the mother of his kid. The fantasies I have make me feel dirty. Well, after I come, I feel dirty. While I’m stroking to the thought of her, I feel fucking fantastic. The things I want to do to that woman are not legal in some states.
Better change the direction of my thoughts. The last thing I need is a hard-on when my boss gets over here.
Captain Albright weaves around the long line at the cash register and toward my table. I stand, offering him my left hand rather than my right now that it’s so messed up.
We catch some startled stares from the Abercrombie & Fitch crowd around us. We don’t exactly fit in with the “One Direction is the best band ever” patrons. Cap isn’t a small man, and we’re evenly matched in height, though he’s got about forty pounds on me. Most of the guys on my ERU squad are big. It seems to go with the territory. Thou
gh Cafferty, the one handling the bombs that used to go to me, is about 5’9” and wiry as fuck. He’s the dude we always send into crawlspaces first.
After shaking my hand, Cap pulls me into a bear hug and slaps my back. “Stryker, what’s good here?”
“Bottled water,” I answer and slap him back.
He laughs and scans the chalkboard with specials written on it in fat bubble letters. “I like that sweet drink, right? What is it called?”
“Mocha, sir. I already ordered you one. They said they’d bring it to the table.” I signal to Cindy Lou Who that I’m ready for that drink, and we sit in the hard plastic chairs the colors of a neon nightmare.
“How are you doing, son? I read the most recent report on your hand this morning.”
I blow out a frustrated breath. “I need to come back to work. I’m going crazy, Cap.”
His eyes are warm, but his expression resigned. “You’re not logging in all your psych meetings.” His coffee arrives in the hands of a different young woman who shoots me an appreciative glance. At least she looks a couple years older than the blonde, but I’m still not interested. “Thank you,” Cap says, offering another tip for the delivery to the table.
I’d already added a tip, but I don’t begrudge her getting more. It gives me a few more seconds of not hearing the bad news anyway. When she leaves, my time is up.
Cap sighs. “I can’t bring you back until both your doctors agree, and that psychologist will never clear you unless you do the time.”
I was afraid of that. “I’ll start going to the group meetings again. I just...hate it.” I can’t decide which is worse—the group sessions or the one-on-ones with my psych doc. That fucker sort of makes me want to punch things more when I’m inside his office than I do outside of it.
“None of those cops want to be there, but there’s no shame in it. We have to lean on each other sometimes, Stryker. Everyone in that meeting is dealing with similar shit.”
I nod. The guys in the group are not the problem. I can relate to all of them. Two of the guys also lost their partners on the job like I did. There’s no manual telling you how to deal with that. Well, there is. There’s a manual for everything at the police department. Just not a useful one.
Ricky was more than my partner on the squad; he was my best friend. Every night, I relive his last moments. Every day, I walk around feeling like a ghost.
It should have been me. I wish it had been me.
Cap fills me in on some gossip from our unit. I miss the ERU. Cafferty can handle explosives as well as I could, so the team will be okay without me. But I’m not sure I’m okay without the team. I can’t defuse a bomb with a fucked-up hand, though. I miss my family, my squad, but I have to wonder if I’m actually any good to them at all anymore.
I THINK ABOUT IT DURING the walk home. Maybe it’s time to rethink careers. But shit, what does a bomb guy do if he’s not defusing bombs? I’ve been a cop since I graduated high school, in some form or another.
Out of habit, I check the entryway of my building for anything that seems out of the ordinary. There never is. It’s a good neighborhood, and I’m not the only cop living in it. I’ve lived here long enough that I’ve already mentally placed all the explosives in the places I’d hide them if I were the bad guy. I guess it’s part of the job, always expecting the worst. It doesn’t help. Surprises still happen, and they still suck. But everywhere I go, I’m hiding bombs in my head and checking to make sure they aren’t there.
It isn’t until I round the stairwell on my floor that I hear her. My neighbor. I pause. Maybe she hasn’t sensed me yet, and I can turn around and wait for her to get inside her own apartment. No awkward hellos necessary.
Only she’s not standing at her door. She’s sitting on the floor, slumped against the wall, and fuck me, she’s crying.
I’m a tough man. As a cop I’ve seen things, done things, that most people can’t imagine in their worst nightmares. I’m confronted with the worst of the human condition regularly. I’ve witnessed utter hopelessness, unparalleled anger, and unspeakable violence. And I face it and do my job.
But this one woman, crying in the hall, fucking undoes everything inside me. Shit. Shit. Shit.
I make noise as I walk down the hall so it doesn’t seem like I’m sneaking up on her. She doesn’t seem to notice or stop crying. Shit.
“Ma’am?”
She gasps and looks up, her lip and chin trembling, but it’s the ashen color of her face that worries me the most.
With arms wide so she can see I’m not holding a weapon, I use the voice I’ve had to practice on victims of accidents and crimes too many times. It’s deep, slow, relaxed. “I’m sorry to startle you. I live next door. My name is Mac. MacKenzie Stryker. I’m a cop.” I show her my badge.
She nods quickly, faking a casual air. “I’ve seen you before.” The color of her face changes from gray to pink. “I’m Hillary Bloom.”
“Hillary, can you tell me what’s wrong?”
She gifts me with a watery smile and then bursts into uncontrollable sobs once again.
Not sure if I should, I touch her arm gently. “Please don’t cry.”
That apparently sets her off a little more, and she tries to breathe but only manages hiccups. I lean into her, registering the scent of coffee and something buttery that she must have carried home on her from her shift at Old Joe’s. I fold around her gently. I haven’t comforted anyone in a long time. The last woman I hugged was Ricky’s wife at his funeral, and I’m sure I offered her no consolation or comfort at the time.
Hillary, though, slows her hiccupping. She’s stuttering something that sounds like “I’m sorry” and “I’m so embarrassed.”
I rub her back and resist the urge to kiss her head. “Can you tell me what’s wrong?” Please. I need to fix it. I can’t stand the tears, they’re killing me.
She pulls back and looks at me through those damp and overly bright eyes. “How much time do you have?”
No one is more surprised by the laugh that chuffs out of me than I am. “My schedule is clear for a bit.” She shakes her head like she’s talking herself out of telling me. “Hillary...”
“I have to pee.”
Well, okay. That’s normal for a pregnant woman, I guess.
“But I’ve lost my keys.” Her voice tightens. “And I can’t get in to my apartment and,” her face scrunches up and her chin trembles, “and I have to pee.”
“Okay—”
Before I can give her a solution, she continues. “And also, I’ve had a really long day. All my days are long right now on account of being so uncomfortable, but it’s harder at work, and today was harder than usual, and I spilled the butterscotch syrup all over myself so I’ve been sticky and gross for hours, and I just want to get in my apartment—” She pauses for a deep breath then continues, “I need to clean up and pee and put my feet up because I have no ankles anymore.”
She pauses. Finally. But I’m lost. “What?”
“Nobody told me being pregnant was going to steal my ankles, but they’re gone. And I got so frustrated when I couldn’t find my keys that I slid to the floor to have a good cry. I do that a lot—cry, not slide to the floor, because now that I’m down here, I can’t get up. And all I want is to pee and clean up and put my feet up and I need to eat some mac-n-cheese or I’ll probably die or something equally dramatic.”
“Mac-n-cheese,” I repeat.
Jesus. She’s fucking adorable. Her dark lashes are damp with tears, and her top lip is shaped like the bow on a present. I want to press a kiss there. I need to get my head back in the game because she’s still talking. Rambling really, but I don’t mind because the sound of her voice makes me feel lighter inside.
Jesus, this woman.
“I know it’s not great for the baby, but I crave it all the time. And it has the be the blue box because the store brand...” There goes that chin. The store brand of macaroni makes her cry, I guess. “So, now I’m stuck on the floor
like a beached whale. Which is not very attractive or very comfortable. And I was sitting here crying, and I realized that I have to raise this baby alone. I mean, I knew that, but it just really started sinking in how hard it’s going to be. And I don’t mean to complain, but it’s kind of scary. Being alone. And who is going to date me? I’m pregnant with another man’s kid and then when I’m not, I’ll be too busy raising a baby alone to date anyone ever again and then I’ll be too old, which means...” She shudders on a long, ragged inhale. “Which means I’m going to die a virgin.”
Chapter Two
Hillary
I CLAP MY HAND OVER my mouth in a belated attempt to hold back the words spewing from me, but it’s too late.
Much, much too late. Oh my God.
Not once in all the pregnancy books I’ve read have they mentioned uncontrollable speech as a pregnancy symptom. Not in any trimester. But I have no other plausible excuse for the verbal assault I just committed on the man who lives next door to me.
It figures that I’d finally meet him when I’m beached, bloated, snot-filled, and have emotional Tourette’s. That’s pretty much how life goes these days for me.
Mac Stryker is the literal embodiment of virile man with a capital V. I know I’m extra horny from all the hormones, yet another of life’s little jokes for me, but honestly, if I weren’t already pregnant I’d be worried that just his proximity would do it.
He smells like spearmint and spice, and I wonder if he’d let me take a nap in his sheets because I have a feeling I’d finally sleep well for a change if I were surrounded by his scent. I should be careful what I wonder. I’m liable to say it out loud. I’m sure the last thing this hot guy wants is the mental image of me rolling around in his sheets.
To his credit, he doesn’t outwardly react to my incoherent (I hope) rambling. “Okay, Hillary. Let’s tackle this one problem at a time. The way I see it, getting into your apartment would solve several of your problems simultaneously, so that’s our first step.”